The Secret of Misfortune and Love

It was raining on the day of the ancestor sacrifice, and the pattering style was full of artistic conception. After it was over, I looked at the guest list, and when I scanned the word 'Ouyang Chenshuo', my fingers and eyes suddenly froze.

The cousin took a look: "Oh, he didn't come, but someone sent a gift money and a wreath over there. Hey, that wreath of yellow and white chrysanthemums over there was sent by him."

I gave a light oh, pretended to be a light oh, and then walked out with a limp. The light rain outside was just right for walking without an umbrella.

After a long time, there was an extra umbrella on my head, and my cousin handed it to me: "There will be a big party in a week, and you have to learn to take over the family business in the future. You can't put it all on me. Come and help me." I will share some of it, we are the only two brothers left at home, I have invited a lot of partners from the family business to this party, you should go there too, let's get to know each other."

"okay."

……

In the evening, I sat under the quilt and opened my notebook, and logged into a chat room. Ouyang often visited this chat room before. I found out secretly. His name in the chat room is 'Lian Xia', ha ha, quite ironic Yes, just by looking at the name, you can tell that he loves Charpinau.

Later, I also applied for a trumpet and mixed in, called 'Chenyang', Ouyang Chenshuo, this is my love for you.

But he didn't know who I was. At that time, I just watched him chatting and felt very happy. It's just that since the news of Shapino's death came and I jumped off a building, his avatar in this chat room has been all over the place. It never came on again.

I dug up those screenshots of his previous chats and looked at them carefully. I felt that I was really obsessed with loving him before, even now, just looking at his name and anime avatar, I felt my heart was clenched. That At that time, I took screenshots of every sentence, every word, every punctuation and expression he said in the chat room, and saved them in a separate photo album.

Because there is a reason, so there is a reason, since it has been done, why bother, you and I may have been destined to be like this, I think I must have engraved your name on the Sansheng Stone, but you engraved someone else's .

I was feeling sentimental, when suddenly my eyes tightened, locked on a bright name in the chat room, 'Lianxia', I felt my heart was about to overflow from my throat, I covered my mouth with my hand, and then Thinking it was funny, he vented his anger, because he didn't know who I was through the computer screen.

[Flying Fish]: Yo, Lianxia?Damn, you haven't been on it for three years, right?Is it me?

[Lian Xia (Ouyang Chenshuo)]: Well, it's me, Xiao Feiyu, you're still messing around in this chat room. I thought this chat room was closed now, but I didn't expect there to be so many people.

[Luohe]: No, people here are nostalgic, hey, this guy named Chenyang, I remember being there three years ago, but in the past three years, he has not been there for more than half a year, and he doesn’t talk when he does. Today It's there, Lian Xia, isn't this your trumpet?

[Lian Xia]: Really, haha, Chen Yang, let me just say, how old were you when you introduced yourself before?

I looked at the screen and the words he typed, and felt that the rhythm of my heart was out of order. Finally, I typed a line, and it was good to talk to him in this way.

[Chen Yang (me)]: Sixteen, sixteen at that time, now twenty years old.

After a while, Ouyang Chenshuo replied.

[Lian Xia]: Well, time is really a sad thing, hehe, that child has just passed his 20th birthday now.

I was stunned, the kid he was talking about...was talking about me?Then Feiyu and the others began to ask questions.

[Flying fish]: Which child?Is Lian Xia thinking about it so much?Which girl?

[Luohe]: Yes, to be honest, you are almost thirty now, right?Is it the little girl Huo Huo?

I looked at the screen nervously.

[Lianxia (Ouyang Chenshuo)]: No, it's my Faxiaoer's younger brother. I watched him grow up, but we cut off contact with him three years ago.

[Flying Fish]: Huh?Sure enough, there is a reason why you have not been online for three years. Let me tell you what happened. Anyway, it is the Internet. When I entered this chat room, I said that it is a place for everyone to complain.

I looked at Ouyang's words and suddenly felt sad. There are some things that I don't want to face again.

[Lian Xia]: Forget it, I can’t talk about bitterness, there are some things that I don’t want to mention anymore, it’s too painful, I just feel like I’ve failed in this life, I’ve done some things wrong, and I’ve lost too many things.

[Flying fish]: Well, you don't want to say it, and you don't force it. You used to be a Maiba, how many songs will Lian Mai sing for us today?

【Love Summer】: Success.

……

Then Ouyang turned on the voice, and he sang [The Brightest Star in the Night Sky], [Rainbow Paradise], and Free Life.

I recorded everything he sang and downloaded it to an MP3, then turned off the computer and fell asleep listening to his voice, even if you hate me to the bone and think I make you sick, then, I will look at you in my own way Okay, don't worry, I won't make things difficult for you again.

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A week later, the assistant brought me a casual suit ordered by my cousin. The hair stylist carefully trimmed my hair. The forehead hair was a little longer to cover the scar left by jumping off the building at the corner of my eyebrow. Surgical repair of the scar can be repaired, but I don't let it. I think I deserve it.

I know it's too late for me to understand this, and I also understand why Ouyang thinks my love is disgusting, because my love is to hurt his love, which is selfish and ugly.

With the golden apple pendant necklace he gave me on my full moon, I got in the car and headed to the party.

I know that we will meet again, and I have also thought about many scenes when we met in my mind. I know that I will not have the courage to look at him again, let alone see him like I used to when I was a child. Ah, she ran up to him to hug him, or hugged his arm to act like a spoiled child.

I followed my cousin, and there were many people who greeted me. Many people were attracted by my walking posture, but they didn't dare to stare at me directly to show politeness, but they glanced at my feet intentionally or unintentionally.

The fireworks are set off very well. When each flower blooms, it brings the exclamation of the girls. I like this noise.

We walked slowly, through the crowd, my eyes fell on him, Ouyang is wearing a dark striped suit today, his hair is combed back in an orderly manner, but he definitely does not look old, but is very handsome and expensive Qi, has always been the look I love the most in my heart.

The cousin also saw him, he smiled evilly and turned his face slightly and said: "Your Brother Chen."

I know my cousin is teasing me, but there is no malice. To a certain extent, my cousin really hopes that we can reconcile as before. After all, Ouyang grew up with him and watched me grow up.

He is sitting with Xia Pei Nuo at the moment. I learned that Xia Pei Nuo is still alive, so there is no shock at the moment, but I still feel guilty for him in my heart. He is still very good-looking, otherwise Ouyang would not be so obsessed , even though I know that Ouyang loves him not just because of his good-looking skin.

I don't know what my expression is at the moment, my eyes only met his for a moment, I knew he was looking at me, but I didn't dare to turn my eyes to look at him again. Listening to what he said, it seemed that he was discussing me. I felt a little sad, and I seemed to be able to find a little support by limply following my cousin and grabbing his arm.

Sitting on the sofa by the pool with my cousin, when he doesn't look at me, I can't take my eyes off him, even though I know that my treatment of him will make him think I'm as annoying as a fly in the past.

"Didn't you go back to China because you still wanted to see him? If you really want to, just go over and say hello and admit your mistake. Ouyang is not a fussy person. He watched you grow up. If you apologize, he will forgive you." My cousin said to me.

I was silent for a while, shook my head and looked at Ouyang with his back to us in the distance with a smile: "No brother, I'll just take a look at him, and I won't bother him anymore."

I don’t want to be disgusted by him anymore. If I hear him say the same thing to me that day again, I think I will still do the same thing, saying that it’s enough to do that kind of stupid thing once in a lifetime. Some people just do it. Make your life worse than death.

"You're getting more and more peaceful now. If you weren't sitting next to me, maybe Ouyang wouldn't recognize you, right?"

I didn't answer, took out my earphones and started listening to the recorded song sung by Ouyang.

After a while, Xia Pei Nuo left in a hurry. My cousin already knew that it was Miao Yu who had come back. He heard that Xia Pei Nuo had been tied up in the Middle East for two years. It was Miao Yu who rescued him and came back. Miao Yu died there.

It's quite funny, it seems that there is no definite number of life and death. Both of them thought they were dead, but they were both still alive. This is probably fate. Peno, this is destined to be his regret.

It's just that I don't have the qualifications to go to his side to comfort him. I saw him sitting there alone and lonely, and felt that something was coming out of his eyes, but I couldn't cry. I couldn't cry for this uncomfortable feeling. can smile.

Then my cousin introduced some partners to me and handed business cards to each other. Many people have met me before and know my virtues before, so they are surprised to see my changes now, saying that I have changed a lot. I just laughed it off too.

I was a little tired, after socializing for a long time, I rubbed my eyebrows, and limped to the bathroom.

Sitting on the toilet in a daze for a long time, when I came out to wash my hands, I never thought that Ouyang would come in. From the mirror, our eyes came together, and I saw him staring at me in a daze, hesitating to speak , I hurriedly moved my eyes to the faucet, washed my hands quickly, suppressed the emotions in my heart, and tried my best not to show any flaws on my face. Since I am just a stranger now, then I am just a stranger.

He didn't speak after all, probably because he didn't want to have anything to do with me anymore, and then he walked towards the toilet.

And I smiled to keep my tears from falling, recalling all the childhood memories he had accompanied me through in the past, and then limped away with difficulty.

But when I opened the doorknob, he stopped in his tracks, turned around and stopped me: "Xiu!"

I was so upset, but I didn't know what he would say to me, I didn't dare to listen, I didn't dare.

Finally, I turned around, looked at the face I was dreaming of, and smiled at him. I didn't speak, but nodded to him, and then walked out with my unconscious right foot.