Cannon Fodder Scum Gong's Whitewashing Manual

The bone marrow and blood were completely frozen, and after a few seconds, his knees gave way, and his whole body slumped uncontrollably. He fell off the wheelchair and half-kneeled on the edge of the bathtub. .

For a moment, Xu Linshen could only think of taking him out of the water, but he saw several wounds of different depths on his wrist, the deepest one seemed to have cut a large blood vessel, and it was still bleeding after coming out of the hot water. Blood was coming out, and after a while, the chest of the pajamas was stained red.

Due to too much blood loss and soaking in water for too long, the skin on his body was cold and had no warmth, his face was pale and lifeless, and his breathing was so weak that it was almost negligible. Under this coldness, only the full The blood on the hands was hot.

Xu Lin shivered for a moment, only felt that his eyes were darkened, his ears were buzzing, and a bone-piercing coolness seemed to come out inch by inch from the cracks in his bones...

It was already more than ten minutes later when the doctor and nurse arrived. The doctor in the ambulance stopped Chu Yan's bleeding, and after knowing the situation, he called the hospital to arrange for plasma urgently.

As soon as he arrived at the hospital, Chu Yan was sent to the emergency room. Xu Linshen was sitting in the corridor of the hospital. He stared at the blood on his clothes absent-mindedly. There was silence in his ears, but he felt the cold wind blowing through his veins. , Even the blood is frozen.

I don't know how long it took before I was freed from the dizziness that the whole world was spinning. Many chaotic thoughts flashed through my mind, like self-torture, but I kept forcing myself to think about it over and over again.

Why...why would he do this?

How, how could he be so cruel to himself?

Xu Linshen lowered his head and covered his eyes in pain, his shoulders trembled for a while, and his nerve endings were tingling, but it made him extremely clear-headed.

When Xiao Meng rushed over, he froze when he saw Xu Linshen who was waiting outside the operating room.

The pajamas on his body could no longer be seen. The wet water mixed with a few eye-catching blood stains made his face pale without a trace of blood.

About an hour later, the doctor came out of the operating room, and the surgical gown on his body was also stained with a lot of eye-catching blood. After being made like this in the middle of the night, his face was also very ugly.

"Mr. Xu."

Looking into Xu Linshen's eyes, the doctor continued: "Fortunately, the main artery was not cut, and it was delivered in time. The patient's life is not in danger."

Speaking of which, he actually still knows this patient. The male number three of a popular drama recently, his wife watches the TV at home every night waiting for the live broadcast.

Speaking of which, he is young and promising, has fame and fortune, and is at a very good age, how could he not think about cutting his wrists and committing suicide?

Xu Lin listened deeply, and suddenly felt the emptiness after the panic gradually spread from the limbs to the whole body, and the back that had been tense all the time suddenly relaxed, and only then did he realize that it was almost covered in cold sweat.

He spoke, his voice so hoarse that he could hardly hear himself: "Okay."

"Thank you."

-

The news was still suppressed, and when Fang Dingyao rushed over the next day, looking at the gray and unconscious person on the hospital bed, he was also 1 incomprehensible.

Obviously during this period of time, when he was working, Zhong Yu didn't show any abnormalities at all, he looked very normal... If there was any difference, it was just that he was much more silent than before.

But after all, this is not a matter of a day or two. Speaking of which, his personality is indeed much calmer and more restrained than before, but Fang Dingyao has always been doing this because it is a good thing... That kind of temperament should indeed be restrained.

But who would have thought it would turn out like this?

After the doctor sewed up the wound for him, he gave him an emergency transfusion of 800cc of blood, but the vein ruptured, which was not a big problem.

So what is really serious is that the nerves in his wrist have been damaged. If the recovery is not good, it is likely to cause hand sensory impairment.

Due to excessive blood loss, Chu Yan was in a coma for two full days, and did not wake up until the third night.

As soon as he woke up, he was strongly condemned by the system: [Master host, are you crazy, if the male protagonist finds out later, you will die directly! ]

[How is it possible, no matter how slow he is, he can be saved in another hour. If I remember correctly, the success rate of suicide by cutting his wrists seems to be only 5.00%. ]

[Also, the place where I cut is a vein. ] Generally, those who successfully cut their wrists directly cut the aorta, and died of brain shock caused by blood loss.

So the system 2333 stopped talking, and he felt again that this master host was too ruthless.

He lay alone on the bed for a while, the ward was still deserted, so quiet that he could almost hear the dripping of medicine in the infusion tube clearly.

After about half an hour, it wasn't until the nurse came in to change the drip that he was awake.

The doctor came over and gave him a detailed examination, and finally came to a conclusion: "There is nothing serious, just lose it for a few more days and wait for the wound to heal."

Xu Linshen, who was at the side, was silent the whole time, and the doctor greeted him and left the ward.

The footsteps moved away, and the ward became quiet again. Xu Linshen pushed the wheelchair to the bedside, and looked down at Chu Yan with cold eyes.

Chu Yan looked at him for a while, then slightly lowered his eyes and moved his body slightly. He moved his right hand, and found that he was numb to the point where he had no consciousness at all. The hand on the knee.

However, when he was leading him, Xu Linshen violently shook his hand away. This action happened so suddenly, almost without warning, so Chu Yan froze almost instantly.

His eyes were black and white, and there was always a little water reflected in the depths of his pupils. Looking at him blankly like this, he looked innocent and sad.

Xu Lin Qishen forced himself to look away, and spoke with a hoarse voice that was trying to suppress, like a cornered animal, desperate and crazy that couldn't be suppressed no matter how suppressed: "Zhong Yu, sometimes I really want to blow your heart away. Open it and see what's inside?"

Chu Yan's eyes were red, her white lips were slightly pursed, and her voice was difficult: "I'm sorry..."

Xu Lin's chest rose and fell, he stared at Chu Yan firmly, and grabbed his hand that was placed on the quilt fiercely, so hard that the veins on his arm were tense.

Every word seemed to tear his throat, filled with thick blood: "I'm sorry? Zhong Yu, you know how to say sorry to me now, why did you dare to do that at that time, did you... did you really have to?" Are you happy to drive me crazy?"

Chu Yan's lips trembled, he suppressed a choked sob, and said intermittently: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry... I didn't mean it..."

But after he said this, his emotions seemed to have completely collapsed, tears kept rolling down, but he gritted his teeth and tried not to let himself choke up, his whole chest was heaving and gasping for breath .

Tears kept rolling down from the corners of his eyes, flowing down his cheeks to his chin. Xu Linshen looked at him, feeling as if his heart had been crushed to a pulp, and the pain made it difficult for him to even breathe.

He slowly loosened his hand a little, then bent down and wiped away the tears on his face, his heart was so bitter, his throat seemed to be blocked by a hard lump, and he said hoarsely: "I'm sorry..."

Xu Linshen embraced his body, moved him a little, and stroked his back, apologetically and sadly said: "Hey, don't cry..."

His body was trembling slightly because of his sadness, and a thin layer of sweat was crying on his forehead. His body was warm and thin. Xu Linshen hugged him and comforted him in a low voice, with a strong sense of weakness in his tone. Heartbroken, she could only kiss the tears in the corners of his eyes intermittently: "Don't cry, baby, don't cry..."

Almost broke his heart...

Because not long after waking up, his body was still very weak. Not long after Xu Linshen hugged him, he himself passed out heavily again.

-

in the director's office.

After listening to Xu Linshen's words, the doctor thought for a while, and finally said hesitantly: "Mr. Xu, in fact, we found many other wounds on the patient during the operation, so... I think the patient may exist. Tends to self-destruct..."

Self-destructive tendencies?

When Xu Linshen heard this word, his heart beat violently, his fingers curled up uncontrollably, and he asked as if he didn't understand: "What... do you mean?"

"I'm not a professional, so I just understand a little bit. Depression is actually a very common emotional disorder with many symptoms, and self-harm and self-destruction is just one of them. Patients are stimulated or are in a state of being unable to change the status quo state, when they are under great mental pressure and pain, they will take the method of harming their own bodies to relieve the mental pain.”

After the doctor roughly finished speaking, he asked: "Mr. Xu, I would like to ask, has the patient had any abnormal performance recently?"

Xu Lin's heart kept sinking, his hands and feet felt cold: "He...he often has nightmares recently, and it was the same that night. Also...sometimes when I talk to him, he is always absent-minded..."

He always thought that Zhong Yu was too busy with work and tired to be like this... So it turned out not to be?

After the doctor listened carefully, he sighed: "These are all signs of mild depression, so after recovery this time, I suggest you find a counselor to provide psychological counseling for the patient."

That night, Xu Linshen called his assistant and asked him to find out who Zhong Yu had been in contact with in the past half month. If it was only mild depression, it would not be so serious. It is true that Zhong Yu's condition is not right these days, but he has been I feel that the reason why he did that extreme behavior that night is mainly because of the nightmare that started a week ago.

When Xu Linshen returned to the ward, he found that Chu Yan had already woken up, his eyes were half-closed, but his eyes were looking at the air, slightly lost in thought.

All the blood on his face had faded away, the sheets on his face and body were almost white, his lips were dry and cracked, and there was a thick circle of gauze wrapped around his wrists, just looking at it, it was as if he could feel how cold and tender his skin was. There is no temperature.

After Xu Linshen stared at him for a while, he saw that he seemed to be aware of his existence, and his eyes turned towards him.

In fact, I really wanted to ask him directly, thinking about what is in your heart, what is it that makes you so unbearable, and you actually want to hurt yourself?

But Xu Linshen was also worried that if he asked the wrong way, he might invisibly increase his psychological burden.

Chu Yan looked at him and said softly, "Sister Fang just called and said that I passed the audition."

Xu Linshen already knew, he sighed and asked, "Do you still want to go to work?"

Chu Yan shook her head, her tone slightly sad: "I just feel sorry for her, and feel that I am quite irresponsible for doing this. After all, she has paid a lot for this matter..."

Xu Lin's heart tightened when he heard what he said.In fact, if I had heard him say this before, I might have laughed at him for being sensible, but in this situation now...he couldn't help but think of the doctor's words...

He suddenly realized that Zhong Yu's temper had subsided a lot, and he was no longer as free as he used to be, as if he had grown up a lot overnight...