waiting for the flowers to bloom

Song Fanfan started school in a few days, because Sui Dong was very busy, and they hadn't seen each other for more than a month.

It was the fifteenth day of the first lunar month, and this semester started very early.Song Fanfan had an experimental class in the afternoon, which didn't end until 8:[-] pm.Sui Dong rushed over from the company, still wearing a suit that he hadn't had time to change out of.

Sui Dong had changed, and Song Fanfan had such an idea in his heart, but he didn't know exactly what changed.When he didn't know anything about Sui Dong at the beginning, he felt that Sui Dong was very close to him, but now, he felt that the distance was getting farther away bit by bit, but he couldn't feel it clearly, it was in a trance, it made people feel anxious.

Every time Sui Dong came to school, he couldn't stay for too long, but this time he stayed until almost midnight.They sat on the small slope of the back grassland, and they happened to see the full moon on the fifteenth day.All of this is not in line with Sui Dong's usual style, why?

It's better not to guess, the human heart is the most difficult to figure out.

隋东问他寒假过得怎么样？有没有想自己？

Song Fanfan said it was not bad, he was too busy to think about him.In fact, the grass is growing when I’m free at home. The busiest time is during the Chinese New Year. I went back to my hometown, and then the second uncle’s family came to sit. Their children are abroad, so the six of them had a meal outside. , nothing more.

Sui Dong asked him again if his family was still embarrassing him, and if he needed to do anything.Song Fanfan shook his head and said that the family didn't ask him any more.

"Did you eat?" Sui Dong asked him.

"Didn't eat, but I'm not hungry, how about you?"

"I didn't eat either."

"Then do you want to go eat something?"

Sui Dong put his arm around Song Fanfan, and leaned his head on his shoulder. It was so comfortable that he didn't want to move.He hugged Song Fanfan tightly and shook his head: "No, just hold you."

Song Fanfan smiled, Sui Dong who can act like a baby is very cute.

It's cold in March, and it's just the two of them here.Song Fanfan thought for a long time before deciding to ask: "Sui Dong, does your family know about your affairs?"

"what's up?"

"It's just you and me..."

……

Sui Dong seemed to think about it for a while, "Well, they know that I like men, and they also know that I have a boyfriend now." In fact, only Meng Guangzhan and Meng Jianxian in the family knew about Song Fanfan's existence.

"Then have you thought about the future? You will graduate in three months, and you will be 3 years old in September. Your brother will get married in October this year, right?"

"Well, that has nothing to do with me."

"Your parents will also find you a girlfriend to marry, right?"

"They want to find whomever they like, and I won't get married anyway."

"Then you..." Song Fanfan hesitated to speak, he still had some concerns, he didn't know what kind of existence he would be in Sui Dong's future plan.

He used to think that they would go on like this forever, but Tong Wei's words made him unsure. He thought about him and Sui Dong seriously, and only then did he realize that in this fallacious relationship, He is really too passive.At the very beginning, Sui Dong led him forward step by step in front of him, and he went from following Sui Dong's footsteps to chasing hard.He thought about it, if Sui Dong, the guide, disappeared, then he...would be at a loss again.

"Don't worry, my family won't embarrass you." Thinking that Song Fanfan was worried about this, Sui Dong comforted.

Song Fanfan didn't say anything more, and suddenly he didn't want to ask anything, because he himself didn't know what Sui Dong would be like in his future.

They haven't seen each other for a long time, they didn't say much, they just snuggled up to each other at night, feeling the body temperature of the people around them, and listening to each other's breathing quietly.Although this is not like Sui Dong's usual style, but today, forget everything and discard all worries, that's fine.

Sui Dong was very busy this year, he promised Sui Guofeng to be familiar with all the work content before the National Day.And there are more and more things going on in Sui's headquarters, Sui Xiang has already handed over the branch to Sui Dong.

In addition, Zhao Chengfang's condition has been very bad, sometimes Sui Dong really can't get away, Song Fanfan and Xiaoliu are taking turns to take care of him, Sui Dong is still very grateful to Song Fanfan.That's why Dr. Lin knew Song Fanfan so well.

In May of this year, Sui Dongsuan officially took over the branch company, and Song Fanfan went to celebrate for him that day.However, there was a company party that day, Sui Dong drank a lot of wine, and Xiao Liu and the others were not there, so his friend Song Fanfan had to send Sui Dong back to his place of residence.

This is the first time he has come to the place where Sui Dong lives. He has heard of it before, but he has never been here.It was thanks to the community security that Sui Dong was able to find his home that day.

Sui Dong's "home" is similar to what I imagined. It is simple, there are not many things, and the house is a little messy, but not dirty. After all, he is a soldier. Even if he is demobilized, he will still have the habit of staying. of.

I thought about putting Sui Dong down and leaving, but seeing how drunk Sui Dong was, I was really worried, and it was already very late, and Sui Dong lived in a remote place, and there were almost no taxis coming.When he first took a taxi, he forgot to ask the driver to wait for him. Thinking about it, Song Fanfan decided not to leave at night.

There was still unopened rice in the kitchen, so he made porridge, thinking that Sui Dong could drink some when he woke up.Just rest in the living room for a while, I don't know when Sui Dong will wake up.

There is a thick photo album on the coffee table in the living room.Song Fanfan picked up the photo album and looked through it without thinking too much.Many of them are photos of Sui Dong's childhood, and there are several children of similar age, who should be Sui Dong's friends.Almost all photos have the date of shooting and notes written on the back.

Dongdong is 3 years old today

Two people who are at odds

Dongdong and new friends: Ma Qian, Cao Kexuan

Cute guy, the little grandson of General Guo Minhua

Twins: Zhao Chengfang, Zhao Chengyuan

……

Song Fanfan guessed that these words should be written by Sui Dong's mother. Although he has never seen it, he can feel that Sui Dong's mother should be a very cute and elegant woman.

On the photo in the back, the handwriting is ugly, it should be a child's note, guess it was written by Sui Dong when he was a child.

Zhao Chengfang, Wang Badan, always make fun of me

……

Guo Siyi's birthday

Brother Meng, my boss

……

后来的好多照片上没有写字，但每张看上去都很好玩，想来都是有个故事背景的。有的有些模糊，还有很多都是抓拍的。

照片上的人渐渐都长大了，只是眉眼间还看得出一些属于青少年的青涩，照片背后的字迹也变得工整了些。

Sui Xiang is going abroad tomorrow, the family portrait was taken at home

学摄影后的第一张照片

……

There is a photo that is not very clear, but two people can be seen hugging together, one of whom he recognizes is Sui Dong's cousin, Meng Jianxian.Song Fanfan turned over the photo, and there were two large characters written on the back, plus three exclamation points: Man! ! !

Zhao Chengyuan has gained a lot of weight

16 years old

On the back is a photo of Ma Qian and a girl, and on the back is probably what Ma Qian wrote: It looks pretty, I heard that he has graduated

Zhao Chengfang's passport photo taken today

The photos of Zhao Chengfang in the army are really dark, but I am still handsome!

There are not many photos left, and in the later photos they are already adults, and they no longer look childish before.

On the second day after the college entrance examination, Sui Xiang came back.We all went to celebrate, but Zhao Chengfang is not here, I haven't seen him for a long time

Sui Item: Sui Guofeng 2.0

My acceptance letter!

University

The penultimate photo shows Zhao Chengfang lying on the hospital bed, with white gauze wrapped around his head, on drip, and breathing mask, with a bouquet of bright red roses beside him.

There are only two words written on the back of the photo: Waiting for you

The last photo is still very new, it was taken by Sui Dong standing at the gate of the military area, and there is also writing on the back: Today is the last day in the army, Zheng Fengfei took the photo for me, the technology is still passable, far worse than mine up.Two years have passed quickly, I am very happy to meet you at the most frustrating time, thank you.The following section was restarted: Goodbye, comrades in arms!

I watched a thick photo album for 2 hours, and there is a small theater behind each photo.Song Fanfan flipped through one by one, unable to tell what it was like, feeling a little emotional, this was something he had never been in contact with, Sui Dong's past, this was Sui Dong's memory.Do you have a photo album yourself?Yes, the first few pages were taken with Song Xinzhou and the mother who barely remembered when I was a child.

Song Fanfan fell asleep, leaning on the back of the sofa like that, with one arm around the photo album, even though it didn't belong to him.

Sui Dong's anger was inexplicable, because this photo album seemed like Song Fanfan had defiled something sacred and untouchable.He unceremoniously snatched the photo album, and Song Fanfan, who was still asleep, was awakened by his rude movements, and he hadn't recovered yet: "Are you awake? Do you have a headache?"

"Who told you to move my photo album!" Sui Dong lowered his voice, looking especially cold at the moment.

“啊？你放在茶几上，我还以为可以看的……”宋凡帆被他的质问吓到了，隋东从没这样对自己说话。

"Why do you touch my things without my consent? Do you have any common sense?" After speaking, he seemed to realize that it seemed inappropriate to speak like this, and said slowly, "Go back first, I have to go to work later. "

In this way, Song Fanfan was kicked out early in the morning just because he saw Sui Dong's photo album.What's wrong with you?The writhing was uncomfortable, like the blood was gradually coagulating and getting stuck in the blood vessels.How did the air get so heavy?It's so hard to breathe.What did Sui Dong just say?Did he say I have no common sense?

It doesn't seem to be like that, so what did he say?He scolded me?

no……

What did he say?

Song Fanfan's mind was in chaos. At the beginning of Sui Dong's questioning, something seemed to explode in his mind, and his nervous system was a little disordered for a while. At that time, he must have seen clearly and couldn't hear clearly...

However, in my heart...the Adam's apple slowly moved...it hurts.

He probably knew something about the relationship between Sui Dong and Zhao Chengfang, and it would be a lie to say that they were not uncomfortable. Although Sui Dong only said that they were friends, Song Fanfan knew it in his heart.It's not that he doesn't mind, but he believes that Sui Dong also has himself in his heart, and he also believes that one day Sui Dong will let go of the past. However, Song Fanfan is becoming more and more uncertain whether he is thinking too much or things have changed. I don't want to admit it...

He leaned against the wall quietly, slowly waiting for his rationality and emotions to return.I don't know how long he thought outside the door, Sui Dong suddenly opened the door and walked out.Song Fanfan was startled and embarrassed, "You're going to work..."

"Why are you still here?" Sui Dong regained his composure at this moment, a little embarrassed by his gaffe just now.

"It's nothing...I'm leaving now." Song Fanfan walked out after saying that.

Sui Dong hurriedly stopped him, "Wait, I'll see you off."

"No, no, I didn't mean that. I can go back by myself."

"Well, I'm sorry just now, I..." Sui Dong didn't know how to explain his behavior just now.

"It's okay, I know you're in a bad mood. You don't have to worry about me." Song Fanfan was also a little embarrassed, Sui Dong's unnaturalness made the surrounding atmosphere extremely weird.

Sui Dong took Song Fanfan's wrist and walked out, "It's getting late, let's go, I'll see you off."

Song Fanfan didn't refuse his kindness, there was no need for that.Sui Dong lived quite far from Song Fanfan's school. Although they were all in the west of the city, Sui Dong lived in a villa area on the outskirts of the city, while the university town was built in the city. Hour.And there are no buses in this area, and even taxis rarely come here.

The two of them didn't talk much along the way, the atmosphere was awkward and awkward, stiff and uncomfortable, just like returning to the time when they went to the beach together two years ago.At that time, they were not familiar with each other, and they didn't talk much along the way, but their mood was very different in comparison.

Sui Dong parked the car at the school gate, and Song Fanfan was about to get out of the car when Sui Dong held him back, "Don't take it to heart, I'm not very sober today. Then... I'll come to you next time. "

"Well, it's okay. Then I'll go first, and you drive carefully."

Sui Dong nodded, started the car and left.Song Fanfan heard the sound of the engine and looked back.Sui Dong's black jeep was already on the road. He stood at the gate of the school and stared blankly at the car that was getting farther and farther away from him until it turned into a black spot and disappeared from sight. That feeling was very uncomfortable. Well, it was like saying goodbye, as if we would never see each other again...

"Hey, classmate, give way, you're blocking the way." The security guard on the side urged him.

Only then did Song Fanfan realize that he was standing on the road where cars entered and exited, and he hurried to the side, "I'm sorry." Before entering the gate, he looked at the wide road unwillingly, but there was nothing but the speeding vehicles. No.

After all, it changed, Song Fanfan walked slowly along the path.Inadvertently feeling the sun shining on his face, he looked up at the sky, what should he do?

To persevere or give up, this question that plagues all human beings in different situations, also baffles Song Fanfan, an ordinary person who can no longer be ordinary.

Just one more time...