save him

2016. 1, 5

When Yan Yu and Gao Feng came out of the school's Academic Affairs Office, they had an extra document in their hands.

Gao Feng glanced at the document, disbelieving: "Are you really leaving?"

"Well, just these few days." Yan Yu tore off the page with his information in the document, and threw the rest into the trash can.All the files have been done, this thing is dispensable.

"No, I'm graduating soon..." Gao Feng hesitated, "Is it because of Ji Li?"

Hearing this name in his heart, Yan Yu's heart still throbs.

"Half and half." Yan Yu didn't lie, and said what was in his heart, "On the one hand, I can adjust my mood, and on the other hand, staying in country Y for two years will help me develop better in the future."

"When you come back, you will be the one who makes a lot of money!" Gao Feng's EQ is not low, so he didn't continue to mention Ji Li.

"I can make a lot of money if I don't go, but I just earn more." Yan Yu smiled.

Gao Feng patted him on the shoulder: "Contact often, don't forget buddies."

"Don't you often say something?" Yan Yu raised his eyebrows.

Gao Feng replied in seconds: "If you are rich, don't forget each other!"

2016. 1, 10

Yan Yu specially bought an air ticket for the day of Ji Li's final exam, and only brought a small suitcase. All the things that reminded him of Ji Li were packed into cardboard boxes and left on his desk.

He held the thought that Ji Li might take it away as a thought, but he knew that most of those things ended up being treated as waste by the dormitory management.

The weather was extremely wet and cold, Yan Yu packed his coat and waited for an empty taxi at the school gate.

I glanced at the time on my watch. It was still early, so I didn't worry about it. I looked at the familiar and unfamiliar big school behind me.

A figure is running towards this side, waving to him, from blur to clarity.

Yan Yu knew it was Ji Li at the first sight.

"You haven't left yet, that's great..." After running close, Ji Li leaned on his knees to pant, the tips of his ears and nose turned red from the wind.

"You should be taking the exam now." Yan Yu curled up his fingers, restraining the urge to touch his face.

"I handed in the paper in advance after completing all the questions that I would not fail." Ji Li panted heavily, and after recovering, he pulled his lips and smiled and said, "You must ask me how I know, Gao Feng told me."

"Sure enough, it's a big mouth." Yan Yu said pretending not to care, "Why, are you here to keep me?"

"No," Ji Li reached out to stop a passing taxi and opened the door, "I'm here to see you off."

Yan Yu silently followed him into the car.

The school is not far from the airport, and because they are both in the suburbs, the two of them were silent. Fortunately, the driver kept chatting noisyly, which did not make the atmosphere so awkward.

Ji Li replied to every word the driver said.

"It's really cold today!" The driver turned up the heat.

Ji Li: "Yes."

"Are you students?"

"Correct."

"Who is going to take a big plane?" The driver said cheerfully.

Ji Li chuckled and said, "This handsome guy next to me."

"Oh~ where are you going?" the driver asked.

Ji Li turned to look at him, apparently not knowing where he was going.

It turned out that Gao Feng's mouth was half big and half small, "blocking" some unimportant information.

"Country Y." Yan Yu said in a deep voice.

Ji Li withdrew his gaze and turned his face out of the window, only at this moment did Yan Yu dare to sneak a glance at him.

Soon they arrived at the airport where there was a constant stream of traffic. When the two walked around, there was some distance between them, and someone always walked between them.

After going through the boarding pass and check-in, Ji Li finally spoke, but it was still not what Yan Yu expected, just some boring and polite instructions.

After finishing what should be said, Ji Li saw that Yan Yu was nodding perfunctorily, opened his mouth, and said what he shouldn't have said: "How long will it be back?"

"I'm not coming back." Yan Yu said angry words.

Ji Li rubbed his hands together and let out a sigh of relief.

The heating in the airport is sufficient, but Ji Li is still so cold, it seems that he chased him out without wearing enough clothes, Yan Yu weighed it up, and went to buy him a cup of hot milk tea.

It's just a cup of milk tea, doesn't it look like you care?Yan Yu thought to himself.

Holding the hot milk tea in his hands, Ji Li opened the lid and took a sip: "Polysugar original milk tea."

"You..." Yan Yu swallowed the following "favorite drink" into his mouth.

"You have to take care of yourself." Ji Li smiled easily, without any regrets.

When Yan Yu heard this sentence, he glanced at the time irritably, there were still two hours to board the plane, and the depression in his heart prevented him from waiting for this time.He said indifferently: "I have passed the security check."

"Okay." Ji Li stood upright, with a tall and straight figure, holding the milk tea in one hand and putting the other in his pocket, watching him as if he was a friend sending him off.

When the security inspector checked, Yan Yu looked at Ji Li who was not far away, his mouth seemed to move, and it was too far away to see clearly.

What did you say?

It should have nothing to do with me.

Twelve hours of sailing, what can be separated?

2016

For me, the difference in changing a country is that you need to be jet lagged, and once the jet lag is over, it's no different.

My uneasy mother asked me to go on blind dates every now and then. There were Chinese girls and more foreign girls, and the conditions were pretty good. Put it on me a year ago, so I might as well try it.

The me now, never thought of defending myself like a jade for Ji Li, but I can't find someone like Ji Li who can be put in my eyes, fall into my heart, and can't get rid of.

When chatting with Gao Feng, this "intelligence agent" would pass on news from time to time, which I liked to hear, even if it was useless.

These days, I follow the rules. I don’t deliberately record the exact time. I write down what comes to mind. I only know that I have learned a lot. I can also practice in my father’s company. He wants to arrange an airborne job for me. Starting from the bottom, after all, it is much better to convince others than to complain.

It should be almost half a year later, Gao Feng graduated, and sent some graduation photos, one of which was uploaded to my PS with high technology, and there is no flaw in it.

Gao Feng called to show off: "Are you amazing?"

"How did you do it?"

"My girlfriend is a photographer." When Gao Feng said this, he inadvertently revealed the happiness and sweetness generated by love.

I promised my good friend: "When you get married, no matter how far away, I will come back and give you a big red envelope!"

"Yes, I won't make Boss Yan wait too long!" After Gao Feng smiled, he whispered, "Ji Li, it seems that I have a good relationship with my girlfriend and a girl from the photography agency."

"...Hmm." My mood fell to the bottom just because of a sentence that had something to do with Ji Li.

"I heard they brought them home."

After hearing this sentence, I knew to continue the chat. After a few words, I hung up the phone and thought for a long time.

I am willing to listen to Ji Li's news because I don't give up and firmly believe that he has some last resort, so I can wait.

brought home...

Ji Li never even mentioned to me what happened to his family.

Heh, this love story is really ironic.

Later, my mother introduced a Chinese girl to me, and I agreed without even thinking about it.

This girl's name is Yun Fu, and she is studying at a music academy in country Y. She speaks and sings very nicely, her appearance is the same as her name, and she has a classical charm.

Ji Li's voice, after deliberately forgetting it in his mind, has begun to blur.The so-called hazy beauty, after being blurred, when I occasionally remember it, I still think about it very hard.

Although I didn't fall in love with my heart, I asked myself that I was worthy of the role of a "boyfriend". I pretended to be very good when talking and laughing, and even convinced her that I liked her.

The usual busy schoolwork and work, the expectations of students, staff and relatives are already burdensome.The sudden addition of a "boyfriend" role is really a bit overwhelming.

When I was in love with Ji Li before, I never seemed to have this kind of burnout, how did I do it?

Strange, why am I thinking about him again...

Yun Fu seemed to see his gradual changes, and consciously or unintentionally mentioned that she should spend the night at her house or my house. She has a foreign education, and she doesn't mind going to hotels and other places with her boyfriend.

After I didn't know how many times I mentioned it, Yan Yu knew that there was no reason to refuse and delay, so he smiled and agreed: "Okay."

The location is in a hotel, everything looks very simple, it's nothing more than playing my role more comprehensively, I'm afraid I'm going to get married after this night...

Marriage is an irrelevant word to me. It is nothing more than a responsibility. There are more people around me. Except for that year, when I look forward to having more people around me, other times he just let nature take its course.

But I was wrong.

Hugging the petite Yun Fu, what I think of is the person whose chin can just touch the top of the head when hugging.When I wanted to start with the simplest kiss, what Ji Li said came to my mind.

"Brother Yu, kiss me."

I don't do anything, I don't want to do anything, let go of Yun Fu: "I'm sorry."

Yun Fu seemed to have expected it a long time ago, but said sadly: "It's okay, you are fine, but we are not suitable, let's break up."

Yun Fu took the lead in saying the breakup. I didn't think much about it, but it alleviated a lot of crimes.I have a lot of appreciation for her sensible character.

The mother didn't ask much about the reasons for the breakup, and introduced and arranged blind dates every now and then.

After seeing all kinds of people, I can finally confirm my heart and have the courage to tell my mother.

"You don't need to introduce me. I have someone I like. His name is Ji Li, and he's a man."

The mother said happily: "Thank you my son, for being willing to tell me, your mother is open-minded, and the man my son likes must not be too bad, just bring it to my mother to see."

I blindly agreed, unwilling to say one more word that would reveal my truth and destroy this imaginary happiness.

Ji Li, you should show me what is going on in your head, my mother agrees that we are together...

Ji Li, I really like you.

No.

i really love you...