[Comprehensive Manga] Ann

PART8

"Ann, I won't come here again."

It was a rare time to stay here until the night, looking at the faint starlight in the sky, turning his head to look at the elf soaked in a faint silver light under the moonlight, and his voice seemed to be extraordinarily clear at this moment.

"why?"

An turned her head and asked a little strangely, but there was no anxiety in her blue pupils, just pure doubts.

"Because I'm dying, and I can't come here again after I die."

Without any cover up, he just said it so bluntly, or rather, he wanted to see An's expression. The despicable human psychology made him eager to see the panicked and puzzled expression emerging from An's face, He didn't know why he became so despicable in front of Ann, but that's what he hoped for.

Then, just so disappointed again, there was only a faint smile on An's face, and she still didn't seem to care about it, but simply knew it.

"Then—Akina, you won't come to see me anymore?"

There was still pure doubt in the eyes of the elf boy, and he tilted his head slightly, which seemed to be a pity, but there was nothing I wanted to see, at least there was no sadness.If you measure human emotions...

Does this mean that I am not important to Ann at all?

Or, soon Ann will forget about me?

Thinking of this, I began to laugh at myself for my weak and cowardly mind. I originally had no feelings for this meaningless world, but I pinned my last feelings on the world that belongs to this world but is completely isolated. on the elf.

"Humans have a legend that the dead will turn into stars in the sky. So - when you look at the starry sky at night, you can see me."

I brought out the words I lied to children when I was a child, so selfish, I just hope that this beautiful elf can at least remember me for a while in the eternal years, even when I see the stars, can I remember someone named Akana's ever existed, that's all.

"But how do I know which one is you?"

"It's okay, I know where you are."

"Ann, don't you want to say goodbye to me?"

Seeing An squinting his eyes to look at the starry sky, as if he was trying hard to distinguish something, I felt a little lost, and reached out to touch the boy's short light blonde hair. The soft touch made me feel reluctant, Obviously, there has always been no attachment.

An turned her head slightly, looked at herself, was silent for a while, and then raised a beautiful arc at the corner of her mouth

—— "I will send you away with a smile."

PART9

Standing in the room, looking at the scene of the busy traffic outside the window downstairs, the hustle and bustle even if I am on a high floor, I feel irritated and harsh.

Seeing his own influence from the reflection of the glass, he is a decadent and pale man, with long silver hair disheveled, exhausted from the long-term harm of malignant tumors.And now, he finally waited until this day, the anniversary of his mother's death, to do the same thing as his mother did back then.

【Live well. 】

Two people, not one, an elf once said to himself.

It's just that one person has selfishly died first, and the other elf, he has no way to have his eternity.

So, instead of being tortured to death by illness, it is better to die like this...

Open the window, outside the window is the sound of the louder world, without being by his side, he simply cannot appreciate the quiet and vital sound that this world has.

He just felt that being excluded from the world, he felt even more false and empty.

In this noisy world, what exactly is his existence?

I have been thinking about why my mother would choose to end her life in this way.

Maybe—it was relief.

Falling from the sky, the moment of weightlessness, all the sounds that can be heard in the ears seem to suddenly become dull, but the thoughts seem to become extraordinarily clear at this moment, as if finally getting rid of all the shackles and shackles. This moment became extremely easy.

This is really - the best ending.

But the past events suddenly appeared in his mind, all those gloomy memories that seemed to completely cover his own world, seemed not so important at this moment.

Obviously, in such a short time of falling, he seemed to think of a lot, about his mother, and also about An, the elf who accompanied him in the end.

【I will send you away with a smile. 】

Ann's words were unexpectedly cruel.Just remembering that night.

The starlight under the night shone faintly. On the big tree, sat a young man in white clothes. The short light-blond hair of the young man swayed slightly in the wind. His blue eyes looked a little dim at night, but they seemed to be Carrying the stars and bright stars in the night sky.

And the young man's exquisite face has a shallow curvature, that kind of smile seems to contain everything softly, and the whole world seems to become clear and transparent in that smile.

Finally—stretched out a hand, as if wanting to touch the soft blond hair of the elf in the hallucination.

But he couldn't touch anything, what he touched was nothing but the wind of nothingness.

It turns out that he also has the emotion of "like".

——That hopeless human named Akana really fell in love with an elf named Ann.

PART10

I thought there was no world after death.

Nothing should exist, even I should not exist, and I should not have the thoughts I have now.

Surrounded by a vast expanse of whiteness, I couldn't see anything, and I didn't know what was in the distance.

But, stretch out your hand, you can still see clearly.

It's a strange world. It's strange that he might forget the fact that he is dead.

"install?"

Turning around suddenly, I saw an elf that couldn't possibly appear here, appearing here.

"Why are you here!?"

He looked at An anxiously. Could it be that An died too?How is it possible, the life of elves should be eternal.

"I promised you, I will, and send you away with a smile."

The blond boy took a few steps closer, raised his head slightly, and looked at Akana with a bright smile.

I didn't say anything, so this is the last farewell?Not sure why Shian is here, but maybe it's not surprising that elves have some special abilities.

The unexpected happiness in my heart made me laugh involuntarily. I don't know if it's because I'm dead, but I've never laughed so easily.

He was obviously very happy to see An, but he didn't know what to say, or maybe he had finished what he wanted to say that night. As for the other things he didn't say——

"Ann, if you have a chance, go and see the outside world."

It's a pity that I don't have the chance to be by your side anymore.

"Although I hate that world, but—if it were you, you would definitely encounter many interesting things."

Yes, in this world, maybe there are still some desirable places, but he just can't see it.

"Remember to wear a hat when you go out, your ears are too eye-catching."

Don't let other people find you, I hope I'm the only human who knows you're an elf.

"As for hats, it shouldn't be difficult for you to secretly pick up a hat in the park."

If we had met earlier...

After he died, his words suddenly increased, and he seemed to have said a lot of miscellaneous things, but he didn't seem to say anything at all.

It seems that he said all the things he didn't say before he was alive, or maybe what he really wanted to say was the last sentence:

"...Ann, I like you."

"Well, I see."

And An just nodded slightly, with a gentle smile on his face, as if he was not surprised by this.

Akana didn't feel angry or depressed, just a little helpless. For elves, do they know what kind of feeling they like?However, I really want to let Ann know.

The silver-haired man stretched out his hand to touch the boy's cheek, and gradually approached, as if he could feel the boy's light breath, and gently pressed a kiss on the corner of the boy's lips, like the wings of an angel falling down.

An seemed to be taken aback for a while, the blue pupils trembled, and then the smile on the corner of her mouth faded slightly, and the bright smile resumed before Akina noticed it.

"You should leave."

An pointed behind the young man, and there was an illusory door behind the young man.

"Well, I'm leaving."

Without saying anything more, the silver-haired man turned and left with a smile, walking towards the door.

The scene seems to overlap strangely at this time.

Once, he left and threw the doll casually in the trash can, and the blond elf standing under the big tree behind him was watching him.

Now, he left, and opened the door without looking back, and the elf who was still standing behind him smiled brightly, but—the eyes were red, and then tears rolled down his cheeks.

PART11

"It's unbelievable! Akana forgot everything after waking up from the hospital..."

"But Akana's personality has suddenly become very good, and he is very gentle to everyone. Now I really like Akana, and I really want to confess my love."

"How can China like you! Besides, China's father is super rich."

"However, did Akana want to jump off the building before?"

"I don't know. It would be a miracle if he jumped off a building, but he didn't get hurt at all on such a high floor."

The silver-haired man sitting by the window yawned lazily and looked at the sun outside the window, his whole body seemed to be soaked in the warmth of the sun.The man's face no longer had a gloomy and cold expression, but a gentle smile.

There have been too many rumors at school recently, and he can't tell which one is correct, because he has indeed forgotten everything before.But I heard from my father that I once suffered from a malignant tumor, but now I am very healthy. The tumor disappeared for some reason. All the doctors called this a medical miracle, and of course they also said that God blessed me.

He didn't quite understand why his father would always hem and haw when he mentioned the past, and then changed the subject clumsily.Since his father didn't want to say it, he wouldn't force it.

Indeed, not everyone can have a new life.Since he possessed it so easily, he naturally wants to live well.

I don't know why, but I seem to remember a voice in my mind telling me to live well.

Probably, someone who was important to me before, but I couldn't get any possibility about this person from my classmates.And in his only memory, he seemed to remember that that person had a pair of beautiful blue eyes.

Although it is a pity that I don't remember, if it is someone who is really important to each other, that person will definitely come to me.

Such thoughts have always been engraved in his heart, but he has never seen the person with the blue eyes in his fantasy, and of course it may just be his fantasy.

Until, a woman sees herself and asks herself why she hasn't been to the park lately.

He didn't understand why his former self liked to go to the park. When he walked into the park following the address, he felt that this place was too familiar, but he still couldn't remember what he did here before.

"This should be your lost doll. I found it next to the tree you often go to. It's so cute."

The woman handed me a white kitten doll. I never thought that my past self would like this kind of plush doll, but the blue eyes of the doll seemed inexplicably familiar.

Holding the doll, I walked slowly towards the direction hidden in my memory. This familiar feeling made me a little restless, and I always felt that I seemed to have forgotten something very important and something that could not be forgotten.

When he came to that place, he just stood quietly in the distance, not approaching the big tree.

Perhaps, he will never know that on a green leaf taken from his mother's photo album, the characters in light red on the green leaf are the name of that elf—Ann.

Perhaps, he would never know that the wreath hanging high on the buds was woven by the elf himself and then put on his head.

Perhaps, he will never know that around that big tree, there are stars all over the sky, like countless stars shining with white light in the night, just because he once told an elf that human beings have The legend that the dead will turn into stars.

Maybe, he will never know,...

It's just a pity that he knows all about it.

From a book, I found my own diary in the drawer, and then

——It seems that the plan of the elves has been exposed.

PART12

The human father said: "Elves are the most beautiful creatures in this world."

And I saw a human who always likes to lie down and sleep under a tree, and that silver-haired man is very beautiful.

The elf's mother said: "Waiting is a very painful thing."

And I think waiting is something to look forward to.Every day, I wait for that man to come under this tree.

The father of mankind said: "Time is a very scary thing."

And I have never been afraid until that human said that he will not come again.Or rather, I knew it from the beginning.

"I never regretted that I fell in love with a human," said the elf's mother.

As for me, I don't understand what love is, but I don't regret it either. I am very happy that I met Akana.

Akana is the only human being I know.

As a half-elf, no elf would be willing to accompany me, only Akana, the first human to discover me.

The human who always came here in the afternoon, the long silver hair seemed to reflect brilliant colors in the sun, and there was no emotion on the man's indifferent face, but he would sleep in this tree every day and wake up At that time, those green eyes that looked like pools of water in spring seemed to be stained with the color of the sun.

I like it, watching that human being, just watching it day by day.

I've always understood—he doesn't want to live.

For him, things like life seemed irrelevant, or rather disgusting.

I don't understand, just don't need to.

[Ann, I won't come here again. 】

When he heard this sentence, he didn't know what feeling emerged from the bottom of his heart.

Looking at Akana beside him, at night, the long silver hair seemed to be coated with the silver light of the moonlight, but there seemed to be some longing emotion in the man's eyes.

If I give Akana a whole new world, will he like his life?

[Human beings have a legend that the dead will turn into stars in the sky.So - when you look at the starry sky at night, you can see me. 】

Every day, I look at the night sky at night, but I can't see a complete human being from that faint light.

Moreover, there are so many stars in the sky, I'm afraid I can't find you.

If it was Akana, he would definitely be able to find me.

【...Ann, I like you. 】

I finally understand why my mother said that liking is a very happy thing.

He also, likes this human being so much.

[Well, I'm leaving. 】

He stretched out his hand, but finally put it down, just smiled and watched the human's leaving back, but the tears couldn't stop falling.

I really don't want him to leave.If they leave like this, they will never see each other again.

What should I do, I can't bear it?

I really, really can't bear it...

I can no longer touch your body;

I can no longer see your figure;

I can no longer say your name;

Maybe, I will never have this feeling of liking you again...

But at this moment, I think I am happy.

At least, I still remember everything from the past, I still remember this deep love for Akana, I just hope Akana can live well-even if his vitality no longer has my shadow.

It's just that I'm so scared.

Forever, I can't go back... I have no way to stay by your side anymore.

However, I promised that I would send Akana away with a smile, so you must smile well.

It would be nice if I were an elf, so that I could live in a beautiful place with other elves, instead of being left alone in this land;

It's great to be a half-elf, because I met Akana, and I have the ability to save Akana back, at least, I want Akana to see what the world I have always liked is like, even if there is no my existence.

But, sure enough, I really want to be human.If that's the case, I can stay with Akana forever, right?

——Then grow old slowly, and finally we can leave this world together.

PART13

[This is my name—Ann. 】

【Even if I forget about Akana, Akana must live on. 】

【I will send you away with a smile. 】

The world has returned to its original darkness and decay, and all the light and new life are quickly wiped out as the diary is opened. Like Pandora's treasure box, all taboos and evils have returned to their original life.

Until now, recalling what An once said, I realized that Ann already knew about it a long time ago.

Is it really meaningful to use one's own life to save the life of an unbearable human being like oneself?

Who needs his help?It’s true—too good to be stupid, a soul like himself that has long been dilapidated is not worth saving, and he doesn’t want to live at all.

Regardless of his status, he couldn't live a good life as Ann expected.

He can laugh at the naive thinking of the elves, and also at his unaware stupidity.

With such an ending, he just felt that he was about to go crazy in pain, obviously he still didn't remember anything...

Then gradually these are not so important.It's like going from hating "father" to being unfamiliar, and then from "liking" Ann to being indifferent, it's actually just a very simple process.

Anyway, in the end, in this world, there is only a lonely self, and he has been increasingly unable to fill the increasingly empty loneliness and desolation in his heart.Even a light breath seems to suppress the dark breath.

The previous feelings passed slowly bit by bit, until now, he has already forgotten what the feeling of "liking" Ann was like.

Whether it was joy, depression, emotion, or pain in the past, they are just empty nouns now. Occasionally, I will vaguely remember the outline of that boy, but it becomes more and more blurred. In the end, he seems to be about to forget, like this walking dead It turns out that I really liked an elf before.

He never went back to that park again, only occasionally, he would still think of it rarely.

Looking at the white kitten doll in his hand, he didn't understand how he found Ann's shadow in his rough dark blue eyes in the diary. However, this doll, which was obviously discarded by him in the recording, returned to his hand. Didn't it prove that An also recorded his own voice?If so, what did Ann say?

Yes, until now, he has not listened, and he has forgotten the reason for not listening.The initial feelings were too strong and complicated for him to remember now.

What will Ann say?

Maybe it's "I like you", but even if he hears such words, he won't have any emotional fluctuations anymore, he will only feel a little ironic.

Maybe [sorry], but apologizing is meaningless at all, he has gained nothing and lost more things.

Maybe it's "live well", the last sentence I don't want to hear, self-righteously let me live well, but never listen to one of my words.

Maybe it's a lot of explanations, or crying and saying that I don't want to part with me, but maybe not, that elf, he won't say such disgusting things about human sensibilities.And no matter what I say, I won't have any special emotions anymore, it's just an insignificant sentence said by an elf.

Pressed the doll's switch button, looked at the rough dark blue eyes, the voice from the doll was so familiar, so familiar that it awakened the dusty memories of the past, and all the self-confidence in the past collapsed in an instant , the coldness that slid across his face seemed to be mocking all his hypocritical pretense, the emotion that had been forgotten in his heart, or the emotion that was forced to be suppressed, suddenly erupted at this moment, like a huge black hole swallowed the whole self.

He seemed to see—

On that summer afternoon, the boy's face was somewhat unclear due to the sunlight shining on the branch, but the pair of blue pupils seemed to contain the bright sunshine, and the soft blond hair was fluffy and fluffy, like It's like being plated with gold.

And the young man sat there quietly, all the elements of light seemed to surround the elf, warm and clear, and his tearful expression was reflected in those azure blue eyes, with a bright and warm smile on the corner of his mouth. radian.

"Akana, thank you for finding me."

PART14

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There is no need for elves in this world.