dancer on the knife

It has been a while since I left my original unit, but I still have a close relationship with my colleagues. After all, I live near my original unit, and because people live in groups, the need for social interaction is also a rigid need.With the passage of time, the entire human resource market has also undergone great changes, and online recruitment has become more and more mainstream. In this general environment, the original unit encountered problems in its operation, and people who were acquainted with it before also left the job one after another.

One day, I received a call from Mr. F, the former professional manager of the company, who wanted to meet and talk with me, saying that he wanted to cooperate on a project. F is always the person I admire the most. He left the company long before I left. My growth could not be separated from his help at that time, so I respect him from the bottom of my heart. When he said that he wanted to do a new project, I Nature fully supports it.Before talking about it, I basically decided to work with Mr. F.

During the chat, I found out that another department head, Manager M, was also involved in the project, so both General Manager F and Manager M are the project initiators.At that time, the training department was withdrawn by the company, and the department personnel were distributed to various departments, and I was transferred to the marketing department, which happened to be the department where Manager M was.It’s just that I belong to a special status, and I’m mainly responsible for training. It’s just that I let the marketing department manage it. I can’t even have a department, so the office card is set in the marketing department. To the outside world, I am a person in the marketing department. Still take care of yourself.

I have been freelancing for a long time, working alone, lacking a working atmosphere, and living a happy and sad life alone is really lonely.When I see familiar colleagues, I feel a sense of intimacy.It's like a wandering person returning to his hometown and seeing his relatives.After communicating with Mr. F, he realized that he wanted to hold a big job fair, and then I would take the lead in organizing the Hunan Education and Training Expo, because he knew that I had a lot of education and training resources on hand.I agreed without thinking, not to mention that this is something I am interested in.In order to cooperate smoothly, President F promised to give me a basic business guarantee fee, plus a share of the on-site investment income.I also feel that this policy has both basic guarantees and room for imagination, so I am full of longing for the project.

In order to carry out the project smoothly, Mr. F set up the project office in the talent market of the high-tech zone and rented some offices temporarily.The project participants are almost all colleagues who have resigned from the original unit.Therefore, working on the project is like returning to work in the original unit.

At that time, the project was located in Hexi, and I lived in Hedong. I took the bus every day and returned to the state of work. Although it was very hard, I also felt very fulfilled.

Mr. F rented the provincial exhibition hall as an event site at that time, and opened up a special area for the education and training section, and my job is to monetize the booths and advertising resources in these areas.When I saw the booth plan, I seemed to see a large pile of tickets presented in front of my eyes, just waiting for me to grab them.

Judging from my previous experience in dealing with education and training institutions, it is also a challenge to get them to spend money to participate in the exhibition, especially for this new thing. After all, Hunan has never held such an expo.In the previous cooperation, I brought them business, so everyone is willing to deal with me.Nowadays, they need to pay to attend the conference, and the starting point is to help them earn money, but how much it can be converted is unknown, so I feel reasonable to receive rejections constantly.

In order to live up to Mr. F's expectations, he worked with all his heart. The first round of calls was to call all the education and training institutions in the customer database; the second round of calls was to the education and training institutions found from the Internet.I don't know if it's because the theme is not attractive enough, or the advertising is not strong enough, too few people know it, or it's a problem of personal ability. In short, the progress of the project is not smooth.

And the progress of the whole project is not smooth. Recruitment is the core business of the project, and the booths sold are still far from the target.It took a lot of effort to invite dozens of education and training institutions to participate in the conference. This is far from the original goal of more than 100, which makes people feel ashamed.

The project ended in failure, and Mr. F naturally lost a lot of money. After all, renting a venue and advertising are hard investments, and the cost is not cheap.After the meeting, it was supposed to settle the remuneration and share, but something unexpected happened. Mr. F has lost contact. Although other project sponsors like Mr. M can still be found, after all, Mr. F invited me over, and I can only go to him for the cost settlement.

I said to myself, F must have something to do, maybe something unexpected happened, don't worry, I will settle the settlement with me when I return to Changsha after a while.But days passed and I still couldn't get in touch. Only then did I panic, thinking that F might really never show up again.Thinking of putting aside other opportunities to earn money from other projects during this period of time, and dedicated to operating this expo, I spent all my time and energy on it, and even invested in the bus fare. Now I have not received a penny, and I am still very disappointed.

I remembered that when I was in the advertising business before, I worked for more than a month and did not get any income commission. The person in charge even asked me to dismantle some machine parts to make a commission.It's only been a few years, and a similar scene happened again, which made me terrified.The most trusted person disappeared like this, and he was still angry in his heart, even if he said a word, he felt more comfortable.

Over time, I learned from other colleagues afterwards that Mr. F borrowed a lot of money for this project, and the loss was a mess, and I felt sorry for my brothers.It may be that over time, many things have been let go.I can't keep hanging on to this matter, it will only add endless troubles to people, there is really no need to live in the past, people have to look forward.

Afterwards, Mr. F disappeared in my world, and I myself returned to my previous business life, as if the project life of the past two months did not exist, and even the experience of preparing for the expo felt fake Yes, like nothing happened.It's like I often feel that life is very unreal, even if I go to college, it seems that I have never read it.Time is really a good tool for healing, and it also prompts a person to let go and grow. Mr. F may be sent by God to help me grow up, because God knows that ordinary suffering is useless to me, so let Mr. F help me in another way.I don't know when this self-deceiving Ah Q spirit possessed me, but other than that, what else can I do?

Growth in life is often not voluntary, but forced.There are many people, when encountering a bottleneck in their life, they just deal with it negatively, and they don't even have the courage to push themselves, which also makes them miss a lot of opportunities.Since losing contact is a compulsory course on the road to growth, the only way to deal with it is to calmly deal with it.Because of this incident, you can't stop trusting others, and you can't lose the courage to try new projects. Some things can only be known after they are done.Many times the results are not satisfactory, but just because of that little possibility of success, it is worth taking action to try.

Looking back on this loss of contact incident, I understand more about the difficulty of being an entrepreneur and the difficulty of life. No one wants to lose contact, it is a last resort.If I see Mr. F again, I will greet him calmly, after all, he has a very important influence on my growth during work.

The life of a freelancer with no guarantees is exhausting.Although many people invited me to join the company and join new projects during the period, they still refused in the end.Now that you have chosen the path of making money by yourself, how can you give up casually?You must know that the saying "There is no past that cannot be endured, and there is no future that cannot be earned" has long been integrated with me.If a muscle is divided into levels, I think I have already reached the ashes level, the highest level.Obsession brings people two extremes of life, and I will not change it easily if I am sure, even if I am walking on the tip of a knife, I have no regrets.

Losing contact is like an episode in life, or like a stone thrown into a lake, which added a little ripple to my peaceful life of freelance work.The truth taught by life is far deeper than learned, which is why life is more real.