dancer on the knife

I quit my job and walked away very freely.But before resigning, I also communicated with my parents to let them know my decision.I don’t usually communicate with my parents very much, and I will discuss with them whenever I have a big decision, but the right to make the decision still lies with me.My parents always wanted to tell me to go back, either to take an exam for a teacher or a civil servant, but I didn't seem to be interested in these, and I didn't feel the slightest.In the eyes of parents, teachers and civil servants are stable occupations, and in this regard, the family has more or less network resources.My brother was already working in the hospital and was stable, so they expected me to do the same.That way, parents don't have to worry too much.But I think stability and instability do not depend on the occupation itself, but on whether a person has the ability to do a good job and obtain stability.If there is no ability, no matter how stable a job is, it will not be able to stabilize a person's life.What's more, the world is constantly changing. Didn't those people who worked in old companies have been laid off a lot?After getting used to a stable environment, human nature will choose to be comfortable, and there will be less motivation to struggle. At that time, if you want to make any changes, you will be powerless.But if a person has the ability, no matter what era he has a place for, such a person can enjoy a stable life.

At the beginning, my parents didn't understand and always gave me work.After I explained ability and stability to them, I also talked about my own preferences and ideals, so that they can understand that I am a person who has my own ideas about the future, and understand that I hope to spend more time in my youth and accumulate ability and strength. After thinking about it, I will no longer force me.I just advised me to stay stable and not to keep changing. This is not good for development, and it also makes my family worry all the time.After I have done the ideological work of my parents, I don't have too much ideological burden. Otherwise, they keep urging me to go back, how can I go out with peace of mind.In this way, I just took a solid rest during the New Year's Day.For more than a year, I have been focusing on work. Apart from sleeping, I basically think more about work.But after the festival, I feel at a loss when I am free, and it can be said that I am restless.Standing on the balcony in the morning, watching others go to work one by one, I feel like a person abandoned by the world, and suddenly feel empty inside.

I originally planned to take a break for a period of time, but just before a partner called and asked me to go to their unit to talk.Anyway, it's nothing, so I just went there. In fact, I also know that it's about work.Before I left, he expressed his wish for me to come over, but I didn't think about leaving at that time.I am quite familiar with the business carried out by the other party, and the previous customers can also be connected directly. I think this is my value, and it is also an important reason why he wants to call me over.

The other unit is an education and training center, which is an old brand in the province, and its business operation has always been good.When I got to his office, he was working on a document and asked me to sit down for a while.In fact, I am very familiar with this office. I have been here many times, and I admire this partner very much. He is an all-round talent. He even manages the website of the training center by himself, and he is busy until late every day.There are not many people in the unit, but it is very refined. Everyone is an admissions officer and a class manager, which can be regarded as maximizing the value of people.

After exchanging pleasantries for a while, we got to the point.He talked about how he plans to develop his business in the future, and I also mentioned some business ideas.On the whole, our two ideas are very consistent.When talking about the last salary and treatment link, which is also the most important link, the atmosphere suddenly became serious.He asked me to negotiate the conditions by myself, which I didn't expect, but I still made some preparations. The salary and treatment are actually not the most critical, because this is mainly through the commission, the key is the conditions I want , One is to have an independent office; the other is to be equipped with a marketing team; the third is to be equipped with a laptop.He didn't respond to me right away, and I could see he hesitated.The independent office is based on the fact that I need an independent environment, which is convenient when I think about some decisions and discuss some cooperation; as for the marketing team, it is the minimum, how can I work without a team.Before, my laptop was provided by the company, which is also the minimum tool for office work.In the end, he said that he needed to think about it and give me an answer later.I think this is also very normal. After all, every condition I talked about is real money. For private companies, every sum of money is not easy, and requires careful consideration.

I haven't waited for his reply. I think maybe he is still thinking about it; maybe he is too busy; maybe he can't agree to my conditions, but no matter what, I need an answer.I chose a suitable time and called him. He explained his meaning tactfully, and I understood it.I just feel a little regretful in my heart, and a suitable opportunity just passed away with the wind.As long as I fight for it, I can get it by lowering my conditions, but I think cooperation depends on fate. I can't be overbearing.

As the unit with the greatest hope after resignation, when it failed, it still adjusted its status in time and devoted itself to new job hunting.When it comes to finding a job, I can be said to be very familiar with it. In the year of graduation, I searched for a job for a few months, interviewed countless times, and finally went to a hotel. After leaving the hotel, I found a lot of jobs. There was really no other way, so I went to work in an advertising company.Therefore, I am somewhat repelled and a little afraid of finding a job. After all, this is a very cruel thing. To put it bluntly, it is to sell myself, and it is best to sell it for a good price.In the past, it was because I had no experience and insufficient ability, so I couldn’t sell at a good price and couldn’t find a good platform, but now it is very different from before, so the requirements are still relatively high.But the requirements are high, and the other party's requirements are even higher.My degree is only a college degree, which is flawed. Some large companies still prefer undergraduates, and it is best to graduate from 985 and 211 universities.

I also went to several units for interviews, but it was still not suitable, either they didn't like me, or I didn't like them.In short, looking for a job is a matter of finding fate, and you can find it by looking at which unit you have fate with.In the workplace, no one gives me advice. My parents have already spoken. Now it is the world of young people, and I can handle my own affairs.So many things need to be explored by yourself, and exploration will take time and will hit a wall.But with the guidance of an expert, at least you can avoid some detours and bump into some obstacles.

At that time, it happened to be Chinese New Year again, and I was always thinking about what to do in the future?Now how to do?Constantly generate new ideas, and constantly self-defeating.My heart told me to have a long-term plan, but my brain told me to be realistic and not to be too ambitious.In such extremely entangled emotions, it can be said that days are like years.In fact, the most painful thing for people is not the choice, but the wandering before the choice. The feeling is like tormenting in a frying pan.Compared with the painful period after resigning from the hotel, there is a big difference. The pain at that time was that the ideal was incompatible with reality, and I was no longer willing to believe in the ideal, because I made myself so embarrassed for the ideal, and The pain at this time is that I don't know what kind of platform I should choose. I am afraid that if I choose the wrong platform, I will not be able to do it for a long time or achieve results.I thought I could face life more calmly, but when I really faced the problem, I realized that it was not the case. I still lacked too much, and I couldn't face it calmly.

I will also tactfully express some of my ideas with the previous cooperation unit to see if there is a suitable job opportunity.But most of the time it’s just a polite reply. I lost my previous platform, and I am nothing with my existing partners. I finally understand that what they value is my position, and the resources that I can control in my position.In order to let myself find the status as soon as possible, I habitually go to the talent website to check the recruitment information every day to see if there is a suitable position.But as the Chinese New Year approached, there were very few recruiting units.Gradually, I also lost the confidence and motivation to find a job, and began to indulge in watching TV every day.Force myself to think about nothing, and pass the time with a movie or TV series.It can be said that this is an extremely wasted time, doing nothing every day, and pretending to be fine, but in fact, I feel uncomfortable inside.Thinking of the loved ones at home, my heart is full of guilt.A person can be allowed to have wasted years, but this is the third time for me. As the saying goes, there are only three things. I think work is really joyful and worrying.If you have a good job and feel happy, your life happiness index will be much higher.Without a good job, the heart is unhappy. When there is no job, the heart feels helpless, like duckweed.

A person always has to bear certain consequences for some of the decisions he makes.The rashness of resignation seems to have earned enough face, but it is undoubtedly hurting his face now.At that time, when I entered the work unit, I was willing to work with nothing. Why do I have to talk about so many conditions now?This is a question I have been thinking about, but I can't think of a reasonable answer for a long time.