What happened in the summer of 2020

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Why do I remember two things wrong in a row?

Still remember unmarried men as married?

My memory seems to be becoming unreliable.

If the memory is really wrong, I hope I remember the age wrong.

However, in the early morning of July 7, I received a phone call from home, reminding me that my 8th birthday was coming.

My mother asked me to cook two eggs to eat.This is tradition, not sure why.

Dad said seriously: 28 years old is not too young, no matter what it is, I must find a partner this year!Don't look too high, and don't feel inferior, in short, try to get along!Your mother and I are very worried when you are outside alone...

In my family, it is the father who is more verbose.

When I arrived at the company, I received a small gift from the personnel.

Now, the colleagues in the department know that it is my birthday.

I have never celebrated my birthday in a grand way. I thought that I should take it seriously at the age of 28, so I ordered an ice cream cake for afternoon tea, cut it for my colleagues, and gave a piece to the big leader.

Just happened to meet a certain person in the office of a big leader, and the two were smoking.

I told a certain person, come to our department to eat cake later.

A certain nodded and said yes, and wished me a happy birthday with a smile, but he didn't come to eat the cake.

When I was about to leave work, I accidentally received a message from the new female supervisor. She heard that today is my birthday, and she wanted to fulfill the meal appointment last time.

Coincidentally, although I had the idea to have a serious dinner, I didn't know where to go, so I let her choose.

She seems to be a person who pays attention to rituals in life. She managed to book a table in an Internet celebrity restaurant in such a tight schedule and brought me a gift.It's a bottle of perfume.

She said: This one must be suitable for you, with a touch of jasmine fragrance.

I said: How do you know I like the taste of jasmine?

She said: You are a Cancer, isn't it obvious?

I think this woman has a clear mind and something.Just told her about the last two times when she mistook unmarried for married.

She said: Have you ever heard of the Mandela phenomenon?

I said: I am ignorant.

She said: When many people saw the news of Mandela's death, they said they had seen it a long time ago. Even the memory of the group can be confused, so the memory is not reliable.

I said: I have Zhihu, don’t fool me.

After checking, there is indeed such a saying, but it seems that the rumor has been dispelled. The reason is that there are two great men named Mandela.

But she didn't take it seriously, and suggested that I write a diary for future verification. She also told me about her own experience of memory confusion when she was in school, which was quite interesting.

After eating, I received a call from my mother to confirm whether I had eaten eggs today.

I said I ate in the morning and had dinner with my female colleagues.

Dad was pleased to hear that.

Coming out of the Internet celebrity restaurant, there is an Internet celebrity barber shop.

I have never cut expensive hair, and I want to experience it on my birthday.

Say goodbye to the hostess and go get a haircut.

During this period, I was a little apprehensive.

It is acceptable to ask about the price before getting a haircut.Disturbed, worried that the hairdresser would say I'm losing my hair.

Although I was only 28 years old, I started to lose my hair last year. There was a period of time when I was under a lot of pressure. I was worried that I would not be able to do my job. I worked overtime every day. I also thought about work when I slept. I woke up after five or six hours of sleep and washed my hair every time. They all lost a lot of hair, and they were troubled for a long time.

I bought a hair clipper and cut my hair very short. Later, when the epidemic started, I used it to practice myself. I haven't been to a barber shop for more than half a year.

Now, of course, the thought of being bald and exposed to the all-seeing gaze of a barber is a little disturbing.

Surprisingly, the barber didn't mention this.

I even took the bait and asked him how my hair was doing.

He said: Very good, naturally a little brown.

I said: I am so worried about being bald.

He said: You think too much, your hair volume is OK, not everyone is born with thick hair, most celebrities have wigs and fiber powder.

He also gesticulated twice on my face with four fingers, saying that the width of four fingers below the nose and the width of four fingers above the eyebrows correspond to the three courts and five eyes.

I thought to myself that this barber is too good at talking, he deserves to be able to support the Internet celebrity barber shop.

After washing and drying, the hairdresser gave me a mirror to let me look at the top of my head.

I said no, and I didn't wear glasses so I couldn't see clearly, so it's fine if you think it's ok.

When I walked out of the barber shop, I couldn't help but look back and touch my head.

It may be that the hairdresser gave me confidence. I feel that my hair feels much more solid. Even if the amount is not much, the hair must have become thicker.

Or—I couldn't help but wonder a little—was this just another memory lapse?

Maybe I didn't lose my hair last year and my memory was wrong the whole time?After all, hair loss soft articles are pervasive now, I may have been brainwashed.And because of my hair care anxiety, I quit spicy food for more than half a year!

When I went home and passed the spicy stew shop downstairs in the apartment, I couldn't restrain myself anymore. Today is my birthday, and I want all the meat and vegetables!Even launched crayfish!I have missed so much in the past six months.

Back home with the spices in hand, I turned on the computer, intending to enjoy the spice while watching dramas.

As a result, because I haven't eaten spicy food for a long time, I only ate a few pieces, and it was a bit uncomfortable.Fortunately, the neighbors next door didn't dislike me. While wishing me a happy birthday, they took away all my spicy stew.

I think this birthday is very novel, even a little breakthrough.

Lying on the bed, touching my hair, I couldn't calm down for a long time.

The hair is back, and the long-suppressed desire for sweet love is even revived.

I told everyone that I have never met a suitable one.

In fact, I encountered it as early as in college.

Not just fit, it was perfect.

After missing it, the sea was too difficult for water, so I never met the right one again.

What makes me unable to give up completely is that just two years ago, that Cang Hai also came to Shanghai.

At that time, I was still delusional, maybe he came to Shanghai because of me.

However, the friendship between each other actually started to become unfamiliar as early as the second half of the university. Even when I learned that he came to Shanghai two years ago, I only made a dinner appointment once as a courtesy, and for various reasons, I didn’t mention it until later. .

I once had the urge to leave a voice message for him on WeChat, telling him my secret turbulent feelings over the years.

I even recorded it, and practiced the sound for many days.

The result is of course restrained.

And at the age of 28, the second adult, rather than thinking about it so much, it's better to simply hear him refuse.

Why are you so timid towards him?

Maybe it's because he used to know too much about me.

And I always have a kind of shame about the past, and feel that the past self is unbearable to look back on.

Last fall, our alma mater celebrated its centennial.

In fact, there is a chance to rekindle the friendship with him.

At that time, I struggled with my heart for a long time, but later I flinched because of hair loss.

Now that I have hair again, I want more.

Maybe the fact that he once had a girlfriend is also a fiction of my memory?

I don't want to carry the burden of the past anymore.

I found him on WeChat, and sent him tremblingly: Hi, how are you doing recently?

He actually replied to me in seconds and said: It's okay, how about you?

My courage ah, instantly gathered from my eight meridians, and calmly replied: Some time ago, the epidemic was very tense, and I was afraid to eat outside, but now I suddenly want to eat crayfish.

He said: I want to eat too.

Ah~ I rolled on the bed, and continued to calmly say: Are you free these days?Let's go eat together.

He sent a dazed expression.

I said: what's wrong?

He said: Don't you know that I have left Shanghai?

I—touched my hair—seemed to be less.