What happened in the summer of 2020

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A certain bear paw stretched out to hit me.

I looked at the walls of the store, and noticed it when I came to eat noodles yesterday. It was a very clean color, a bit blue and a bit green, which was a bit like the color of a shirt I had.And there is a wall that has the layered feeling of ink and wash mountains.

One said: I want to clean up my house.

I said: OK, I happen to have a tool that I can lend you.

He said: Why do you still have something to paint the wall?

I said: I painted the walls of my house by myself, didn't I tell you?

He shook his head and said: Ten males really are decathlons.

I thought I had already told him, after all, I spent so much time with him recently and talked so much, I thought I had already told him all about my limited experience.

I said: It's fun to paint the wall, but my roller must have the paint I used on it. I don't know if you will stain it if you use it again.

He said: Then I will choose the same color as your house.

ah?I was a little flattered by being recognized for my aesthetics, and felt a great responsibility, so I said: You should be more picky, after all, you live by yourself, or——

I suddenly remembered something, and said: Or you can ask the future hostess of your house, what if you two can make it?Isn't the routine of TV dramas all about making enemies in pairs?

He said: Like "Crash Landing on You"?

I said: Did you really see it?

He smiled without saying a word.I don't think that drama should be his favorite genre.

The noodles finally came, we hurried to finish eating, and hurried back to the office, it was time to go to work.

Friday afternoons are generally a little more leisurely.

I sorted out the notes I made during the previous video with Cang Hai.Some ideas are his, and when I pass them through my head, it's his voice.

I finally did a search on which finger the wedding ring should be worn on, and it turned out to be the ring finger.

So, Cang Hai is probably already married.

What is it like in your heart?

Can't tell.I don't think I'm a very emotional person.

Although my moods fluctuate frequently, alternating between positive and negative, I seldom show them.

Moreover, to a certain extent, I always knew that Cang Hai would get married one day, it was just a matter of time.From the beginning to the end, I never showed my heart to him. To him, I must be just a simple good friend. I trust him and even rely on him a little bit. It seems that I should feel happy for him and have no position to feel sad.

The colleague next to me looked at me leisurely and asked me to help analyze a problem.

I was discussing with her, and my mind was distracted.

She saw that I was absent-minded and said she didn't want to bother me anymore.

I forced myself to concentrate and solved the problem with her.

After making a cup of jasmine green tea, I stood in the rest area for a while.He wanted to find a classmate from Tianjin to inquire about Cang Hai's marital status, but he gave up.

Opening a small software to see if there is a stranger to talk to, of course, is delusional.

Talking to people has always been a shame for me.I think if it is a certain person like that, after breaking up with a relationship, he will definitely vent, get drunk, throw things, damage his health, etc. His emotions must be intense and abundant.

And I am a person who is stingy with feelings.Not only is he unwilling to confess his love to others, he is even unwilling to talk with friends, and he is unwilling to share his emotions with others, whether it is joy or loss.

Although I set up FLAG at the beginning of the year to communicate more with people.

It happened that the female supervisor also came to the rest area and asked me why I was staring at the window in a daze.

I said: Empty your brain, rest and rest.

She said: Seeing that you have something on your mind, it's written all over your face.

No way?I'm not the type to be easily seen through.

Come home at night.

Feeling a little tired, I forced myself to take a shower and lay down on the bed.

After listening to the novel for a while, I fell asleep.And fell asleep very deeply.

When I woke up, my mind was very clear, but it was only one o'clock in the middle of the night.

I cooked a bowl of noodles and served them on the balcony to eat.

Seeing that the neighbor's room is pitch-black, but the balcony door is open, he may think the room is too hot.

In the ruins of the demolition downstairs, the nail house still stands, surrounded by weeds and dilapidated concrete floors.

I actually like looking at the clumps of weeds, and I have never felt that mowing the lawn is superfluous.The wild grass reminds me of the summer when I was a child, the railroad tracks on the outskirts of my hometown, the small stones piled up under the sleepers, the tall wormwood on both sides of the railroad tracks, and the small wild flowers dotted between them.

When I was in college, I often had a fantasy that if one day Cang Hai became my boyfriend, I would definitely take him back to his hometown on a green leather train.

I lay prone on the iron railing of the balcony, my thoughts wandering.

Why do you have to take the green leather train?

It may be because when I was in college, I took the green leather train home during the winter and summer vacations, and I was always alone. When I saw other people in the car, I was very envious of the kind of care during the journey.And Cang Hai is so good at taking care of people.well.

I went back to the room, brushed off the bowl, and was less sleepy.

Lie on the bed and click on the small software.

There is a new piece of news that the mysterious person has appeared again.

He really picks on when I'm sad.

He just said hello, it was an hour ago, not sure if he was asleep at the moment, anyway, there is no burden to bother strangers, so I replied.

A few minutes later, I received a reply.

I said: Do you often go to bed so late?

He said: You don’t need to get up early tomorrow weekend, how about you?

I thought about it, since the timing of his appearance was so coincidental, and he could be blocked at any time, why didn't I chat with him half-truth, and just pretended: I'm experiencing the feeling of being broken in love.

He replied with a happy melon-eating expression.

I said: Is the Internet so ruthless?

He asked three times in a row: Are there any scumbags, are there cheating, are there deadly women?

I said: None at all.

He said: If it doesn't arouse public anger, it won't be on the hot search, you can only tell me.

Well, I'll say it: It's a very old story, that is, the person who has been secretly in love for many years gets married, and the groom is not me.

He said: Is it a straight person?

I said: It should be.

He said: You don't even know his attributes?

I said: I also had doubts, but thinking about it now, it should be mostly wishful thinking.

He said: Rotten eyes look at the base.

I said: probably so.

He made a mean expression and asked: Have you had any physical communication?

I said: No, if there is, there will be no uncertainty.

He said: Not necessarily, some straight people are also showy.However, marriage does not explain anything. Some people only discover themselves after they get married.

I said: I can't have that hope.

He said: Oh, white lotus.

ah?This?

I said: Is the standard of White Lotus so low now?

He said: If you pick and choose like this, you won't find a man.

I said: Humph, I'm having an affair with a handsome guy.

He said: Are you talking about me?

I said: I have never seen you.

He sent a sour expression and said: So there are other handsome guys, it seems that you are not very loyal to your crush.

I thought about it, and said: Indeed, in terms of feelings, I am not dedicated because of morality. I just have the benchmark of secret love in my heart, and I have always felt that I have looked down on others.

He said: Then how can there be a handsome guy who is ambiguous?

Emmm, yes, I think this person is quite good at chatting.

He continued to ask: Is the handsome guy reaching your benchmark?

I said: That's not true, maybe it's more of a physical attraction. (Anyway, when chatting with strangers, I am not afraid of using English indiscriminately, nor are I afraid of tiger and wolf words)

He said: Let’s take a physical look, maybe it will be sublimated, and I will forget the secret love by the Daming Lake 800 years ago.

I said: I can only masturbate in my dream, he is not free.

He sent another melon-eating emoji.