Su Shuang's world is collapsing [Comprehensive]

Hearing the neighing from "Watching the Moon" earlier, that person froze slightly from his back.After that, when he heard her messy footsteps and the roar that seemed to erupt from the depths of his chest, his whole figure seemed to freeze for a moment; the next moment, he turned his head suddenly.

Then, he only felt a blur in front of his eyes.A black figure had already rushed in front of him, and before he could see her appearance clearly, the owner of that figure threw himself on him, wrapped his arms around his waist, and tightly held him— hugged.

"Mr. Shannan!!!" She seemed to be galloping all the way and hadn't recovered her breathing, so she rushed towards him impatiently; she gasped and shouted again.

Shannan was completely stunned.

His whole body was stiff, and his arms were raised, but he froze in mid-air in a strange posture, not knowing how to react; the blood all over his body was rushing, and the two arms around his waist were tightly bound. The arm seemed to emit blazing heat, trying to burn his flesh and soul through his heavy clothes.

He felt his throat constrict in an instant, just like what he felt when he realized that his life as a Rakshasa had come to an end a long, long time ago, and he would never see her again.

At that time, although he still tried his best to maintain his demeanor and calmness, he first said some grandiose words to Hijikata as his last words; but he knew in his heart what he wanted to say and which name he wanted to call the most at that moment— —

"... Snow Leaf?"

As if it were a spell, the moment he squeezed out these few syllables from his throat, the life that had stagnated in him for a long time, as if it had fallen into a deep pool of darkness, suddenly began to slow down again. Slow flow.

His dark world is like the sun breaking through the clouds, the dawn breaking through the sky, a bright red sun breaking through the horizon and jumping into the sky, suddenly reflecting his life with dazzling heat; but the source of that heat is still in front of him, in front of him. In his arms, holding his waist tightly with his arms, not letting him go away——

Moreover, he was still speaking in a breathless crying voice that had never been seen before, which was similar to a mixture of weakness, fatigue and anger.

"Sannan-san, what exactly do you want to do—!!"

"Why... do such a thing!?"

"Have you ever thought about what you will face after doing this kind of thing..."

"If...if I hadn't found it first, what would have happened!?"

"Idiot!! Mr. Shannan is a big idiot!!! After a lifetime, he is still so stupid—"

Her voice gradually became a little nasal.

"As you once said to me, you are so clumsy that you can't help but want to help you—"

Shannan: "...Huh?!"

He also knew that it was a bit ridiculous for a big man to make such questioning particles, but he couldn't control what kind of sound he wanted to make in his throat.

It's like calling her name, standing here like a fool, being caught by her like a tiger descending a mountain, being scolded by her, or can only utter this clumsy single syllable, all It's because a certain part of his body broke away from the command of the brain and acted without authorization; his brain was completely confused, the calm and rationality he was proud of turned into a ball of paste, and he was also shown by her ignorance. The concealed enthusiasm and straightforwardness were burning hot, bubbling and bubbling in his brain.

He certainly remembered when and under what circumstances he had said that to her.

He was saying at the time that because she was so clumsy, he couldn't help but push her from behind and help her, so that the relationship she was looking forward to could come true as soon as possible——

So now, does she mean the same thing?

In this world, what kind of romance can he look forward to, and can he ask her for help——

He gradually regained a little bit of his language ability amidst the shock.

"... Xueye." He heard himself slowing down, calling the name again in an unbelievably gentle tone.

He felt that his limbs, which were so stiff as if they had been immobilized by a spell, could move again; the next second, the hands that were frozen in midair fell down and wrapped around her shoulders.

"...Why did you come?" He asked in a low voice, like a sigh.

As a result, she raised her head suddenly, so violently that she almost hit his chin.

"Because I can't just watch Mr. Shannan go to his death!!!" She shouted in a loud voice, as if she could sweep across the wilderness.

Shannan was slightly taken aback.

"But...it has nothing to do with you, right?" He heard his own mouth, saying some words that he didn't seem to understand at all.

"You don't have any obligations or promises to me, and you don't need to care about my life or death..."

Listening to his words, her beautiful eyes opened wider and wider, as if the eyes were about to be ignited with raging flames.

But his mouth was still working on its own, and he couldn't stop.

"If you still feel guilty about the incident at Iwaki Masuya in Osaka, then I have forgiven you... You are not at fault at all, and that incident is not your responsibility..."

With his disobedient mouth, facing the burning flames in her eyes, he talked for a long time, and finally seemed to get to the point.

"...Besides, Hichikata-kun is here, too."

He heard himself laugh bitterly.

"Although it's not the Hichikata-kun you're familiar with...but he seems to be just as fascinated by you."

Qingyuan Xueye seemed to be taken aback.

"Eh?!"

She looked as if she really didn't understand the matter.Shannan felt a deep sense of anxiety and anger welling up from the depths of his body.

"...Obvious, right? As soon as I heard the name of the person he visited frequently recently, I guessed—"

"'Flower and Leaf', right?"

He wanted to show her a well-prepared smile, condescending to show that he was a mature man, and he didn't think it was a big deal; but he felt as if he had failed, and the smile on his face seemed a little bit distortion.

"I've heard it all.... Hijikata-kun suddenly started visiting Shimabara's Yoya frequently at a certain time..."

"Although no one recognizes the connection between you and that 'Huaye' girl, but I know... You have been very good at makeup and cross-dressing skills since before...? "

"In the past, I used your ability in this area to let you carry out many investigation and message missions... Ah, yes, the mission of contacting and exchanging information with Saito-kun who is in the 'Guardian of the Royal Tomb', Isn't that what Hijikata-kun appointed you to do?"

"You can disguise yourself to the point where most people can't recognize you as yourself... And didn't you sign up for the Shinsengumi after you disguised yourself as a man without any flaws in the first place?"

There was a lonely smile on his face. Although he hugged her shoulders, his eyes looked beyond her into the distance, as if he was watching the previous life that had been lost in time.

"Really, as expected of you..."

"You seem to have the ability to make others trust you easily and want to get close to you irresistibly."

"Even if the 'Hijikata-kun' here is so shrewd and suspicious, he had to let go of all his defensiveness under your kindness and loveliness..."

"Even on the night when something important happened, when his heart is not at peace, he still wants to look for you..."

"Hehe, why is that?...Could it be that it's because I feel that I can get some kind of wonderful comfort by staying by your side."

As he spoke word by word, he felt that the boiling blood all over his body gradually cooled down and calmed down bit by bit.What's strange is that she didn't seem to stop him from talking, as if she thought that letting him confide all the things that were pent up in his heart at once would help solve the situation that was actually irreversible now.

She didn't even defend herself, she just listened to him quietly.This fact made him feel a slight change in his heart, his voice and face gradually became ugly and distorted, so embarrassing, so unbearable, like releasing a monster that usually hides in the dark——

"Are you completely unaware of this? ... Or, is this your goal?"

"Looking at this Hijikata-kun falling for you, what are you thinking?"

The monster hidden in the darkness deep in his body seemed to make a sound through his throat and lips.

"...Is it pride? Is it joy? Or surprise?"

"...So, what do you want to do next? You've got him in your palm again, so you want to accept it?"

He couldn't control his mouth at all.There seemed to be a terrifying monster in his body, twisting his facial features and wailing ferociously.

"...Do you, want to go to him again?"

He felt that although he was talking, his whole body was shaking.Even though he was embracing her like this, he still felt a sense of panic, anger, uneasiness and restlessness, mixed with a certain emotion called hesitation, which was quite new to him, and made him feel weak for a while.

The body temperature of her hugging in his arms made him feel hot in his arms, but cold sweat broke out on his back; his whole body seemed to be hot and cold, which made him shiver uncontrollably.

Why...why don't you speak?

Obviously just now... rushed up and shouted his name, when he hugged him tightly before he could react, couldn't he be very talkative?Asking him aggressively, it was hard for him to resist for a while, and he felt speechless——

Why now, when the name "Hijikata Toshizo" is mentioned, it's like being under a spell of some kind of obsession, and he keeps silent and doesn't say anything, doesn't justify, and doesn't refute? !

The author has something to say:

February 7:

Well, Mr. Shannan is finally online again【.

The next one should be his home field hhh

The soundtrack of this chapter: Same as yesterday, the ED recorded by Leon Hakuouki, "Longevity の Ye Ming け".

Next update: It is tentatively scheduled to be every other day, maybe on the 5th, it may be later, I will try to code it out in advance.

感谢在2020-06-3023:14:58~2020-07-0223:51:29期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the landmine: Gui Heshen 1;