Su Shuang's world is collapsing [Comprehensive]

Why can't she see him?He was sitting here, and she was calling his name, but he could see that she was bothered by other things—maybe it was about "that person" that bothered her.

As he thought about it, there was an unidentified light in his eyes.He quickly lowered his eyes, raised them even faster to look directly at her, and said softly, "Come to me."

He saw the clear look of surprise on her face, and he repeated it patiently.

"Come to me..." He paused and said the name.

"Mr. Xueye."

She seemed to hesitate for a moment.But she still got up slightly according to her words, walked towards his direction, and stopped in front of him.Then she hesitated for a moment, and chose to sit down on her knees two steps away from him.

At such a close distance, he could finally see her face clearly.At this time, she has removed the face powder that was so smeared that it is almost impossible to see her real facial features, and now her face is clean; the lights in the room are dim, but the candlelight falls on her face, from which Among those flickering shadows, he could barely see the delicate skin on her face that was almost glowing.

It seems that every time I see her, no matter how embarrassed, frustrated, or frustrated she is, she is charming, beautiful, and heartbreaking.Last time in the brightly lit Shimabara, she stood at the door of the corner house in full dress, completely unable to see that she had gone through such a fierce battle and was abandoned there by her trusted general; but when he saw her for the first time At that time, even though she was alone at the time, standing under the lamp, she still had a charming appearance and a strong aura, not at all like a frustrated person who had shrunk into a ball with depression in her heart.

At that time, he felt that, with a bang, the high wall that had been erected in his heart suddenly collapsed in a corner.

Then, there is his futile rebuilding process.Time and time again he used the objective characteristics of Yukimura Chizuru - such as the extremely sweet blood for Rakshasa, the special physique of being a ghost, or the gentle and tolerant side of a woman, etc. Forcing myself to focus on her, forcing myself to treat her gently in the way of "treating women", so as to divert my mind from the corner of the collapsed barrier in my heart, ignoring Qingyuan Xueye's words and deeds for her The influence of -

However, in the end he failed.Flat out.

He knew very well that he had hurt her, and he also knew that he felt the longing and stinging pain in his heart and soul from this hurt; he seemed to be able to pull his rational self out of this monster's body and float In mid-air, I looked down at my distorted face and ugly limbs due to jealousy and unwillingness, and watched the monster born in my heart gradually grow and expand until the monster devoured the rational, calm, gentle, and elegant self, and then He opened his mouth wide, intending to bite the person who showed a sweet and sweet color in his crazy eyes, that young girl who was obviously more valiant than many men in battle——

The monster inside him growled to devour her.He seemed to have been hungry for a long time.Dry, thirsty, high fever, restless; the giant beast in the heart grinds its teeth, licks its lips, suppresses the raging appetite for a long time, and quietly stretches its interest towards the girl who exudes a wonderful fragrance, has delicate and smooth skin, and well-proportioned flesh and bones. claw.

Perhaps, he has indeed degenerated into a demon.he thinks.

Man-eating ghosts.

Hungry—hungry—the beast inside screamed.

He wanted to throw her down as prey and eat her bit by bit.Press it up, fill her field of vision, restrain her dexterous limbs, bite her skin and flesh bit by bit, grind her throat with sharp teeth, suck away her body to keep her young, rosy, and hot , Vibrant blood, as if doing so would allow her to share his life, and make his heart soaked in darkness start beating again——

He barely suppressed the desire and roar of the giant beast in his heart, moved slightly, and adjusted his sitting posture.

"Come on," he said again in a gentle tone with a smile, and even stretched out a hand towards her.

"Closer...you are a little far away from me now."

Seeing her surprised expression, he looked at him, then looked down at the distance between them, which was only two steps away, and did not move immediately.

He immediately realized that his undisguised behavior just now made her instinctively feel the danger coming.She is not an ordinary, naive, unsuspecting daughter of Akari or other townspeople, she is tempered in the battle of blood and fire, a sharp blade of the Shinsengumi once.

He has to be patient.And he has been lurking in the dark for so many years, he should have the highest patience.

Maybe it was because after so many years, he watched her in the dark, but he couldn't see her all the time, which fueled his anxiety and eagerness, and made him lose his reason and patience.

That does not work.He didn't want to scare her away, nor did he want to make her distance from him again, not at all.

He withdrew that hand calmly and naturally, and put it on his lap, as if there wasn't a tense and ambiguous atmosphere suddenly floating in the air.

He even tilted his head slightly on purpose.He knows that under the indoor light, such an angle can create a little light and shade on his face, creating a moderate sense of melancholy and isolation——

He doesn't look like the earthwork who desperately wants to hold on to the image of a great hero.It is true that at the beginning, he still maintained the dignity and bearing of a warrior, and even felt that those were not to be provoked and should be maintained to the end; however, in the long darkness, he understood when to do what, even what to do. Moderately showing weakness, as long as the goal can be achieved, it doesn't matter - it's just that he doesn't want to use this method in many cases.

He calmly and very naturally—directed the atmosphere in the room in another direction.

"I don't need to ask you what important things you have to do tonight..." He said softly, lowering his eyes, a look of sadness seemed to flash across his face.

"Maybe I'm not yet qualified for that..."

Sure enough, he heard her voice suddenly raised.

"No! It's not like that, I just..."

Shannan concealed the slight smile on the corner of his lips.

Like this, how nice, Yukiha-kun.

Even though he may know that this is just a kind of temptation from him, Xueye-kun still obediently took the bait——

This feeling of being unsuspectingly and gently pampered by her, after a long time... is still so good.

He keeps going.

With the flickering candlelight, Shannan's handsome face revealed a wry smile.

"I didn't want to bother you with these troubles... It's just that I can't bear what happened there more and more recently."

He paused, confirming out of the corner of his eye that she was listening to him intently, and continued.

"Actually... I have been troubled by one thing all this time."

"Hijikata-kun wants to push Kondo-kun to a high position, but I just want to use the power of Shinsengumi to realize my ideal..."

"No, it's not that Hijikata-kun doesn't have any ambitions for the country... It's just that I always have a strange feeling that if one day this ambition conflicts with the matter of 'promoting Kondo-kun to a high position', then -"

He raised his gaze slightly, and then noticed that Qingyuan Xueye frowned, with a thoughtful and worried look on his face.

"You...you think so, is it too absolute?" She asked tentatively, her tone was also cautious.

"Only by serving the country can you have the chance to be favored by the general, and only by gaining the favor of the general can you have the chance to become a vassal... Isn't this the same thing?"

Shannan was slightly taken aback, the wry smile on his face seemed to be more obvious.

"So, have you ever thought about, if one day there is a conflict between the general and your majesty, how should you choose? Who should you serve for?"

Liu Quan was taken aback, thinking that the answer is not obvious?Whether it is the director or the deputy director, the position in history is "the general of the Zuoba sect".Then she immediately remembered that some people in history seemed to say that Shannan's ambition was to "respect the king", so indeed in the end, these two ambitions were in conflict——

However, in their world, Mr. Shannan also worked hard with the Shinsengumi to the end?When the Imperial Banner of Brocade fell into the opponent's hands, Mr. Shannan didn't abandon everyone in the Shinsengumi, let alone switch to the camp of the new government?

"But last time... you obviously chose the same path as the chief and the deputy chief..." she said hesitantly.

Shannan seemed surprised to hear her words, opened his eyes slightly, then smiled and shook his head slightly.

"Last time, I felt that when the matter developed to that time, the Sa Chang people had already controlled the government, and His Majesty was just a cover in their hands..." He whispered.

"Of course I am more inclined towards 'respecting the king', but I would not agree to accept that the Sa Chang people use His Majesty as a tool to grab power."

Liu Quan: "Oh..."

She seemed to understand, but also seemed a little confused.

She had never thought of such a thing in the previous world.

In fact, she doesn't pay much attention to this aspect. Anyway, her task is to support the deputy chief to survive until the end of the Boshin War; in a sense, she doesn't really agree with everyone's ambition , just be able to give full understanding, and try to maintain what everyone pursues under the premise of "disapproval"——

Now, maybe it can be called something like "I don't agree with your point of view, but I will defend to the death the choice you made after careful consideration"?

In other words, what she defends is the "Shinsengumi" itself, where everyone works hard, grows together, and shines together, not the general they are loyal to?

The author has something to say:

February 6:

Next, let's take a moment to explain the reasons for the disagreement between the chief minister and the deputy chief minister.

Then, by the way, some blackened chief executive [Hey!

Then we can get into the important events!Chief take off!

Next update: Another day, on the 4th~~ Maybe the time will be later, if I can't finish typing by then, I will let you know in advance.

感谢在2020-05-3020:16:21~2020-06-0123:01:48期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw mines: 1 Meow Meow;