independent filmmaker

Three or four days before the opening of the film festival, Xin Ye did a lot of activities.He reported the progress of the day to Xie Lansheng every morning, but Xie Lansheng didn't quite understand it, so he only asked Xie Lansheng to take full responsibility.He believes that Xinye can do what he can't do at all.

In the middle, Xin Ye said that the film festival officials will take pictures of the directors one by one, because the main venue of the awards ceremony and closing ceremony will hang a large photo of each director on the last night, which is the film festival's recognition of the "best" directors. tribute.Xie Lansheng cannot take pictures, so the organizing committee of the film festival hopes that Xie Lansheng can send a photo.They promised to return the negatives intact after the photos were developed.

Xie Lansheng agreed, returned to the room and began to pick.

In the past few years after his graduation, he didn't have any single photos. Xie Lansheng chose for a long time, and finally picked up one.

He decided to send it over.

This photo was taken by Xie Lansheng in his graduation year.In the photo, he is standing under a ginkgo tree, smiling happily and full of hope.He is still, but also turbulent.

At that time, Lan Sheng never thought that he would take such a road.In his heart, he will enter a big studio, become a director, make movies, and his movies will be released nationwide, and his parents will bring everyone's support.

But what happened?It was because he shot six banned films, and on the opposite side of the government, he racked his brains and sneaked around, trying to get people to watch his films.

Only six years have passed.

He could not go to the scene to accept the award, others could only look at the photos.Then, let others see the time when they were in their prime.

For movies, his intentions are still the same, but for reality, he is even more powerless.

When filming, he would enter a dreamland full of colorful and splendid scenes. He worked hard to understand the world and record himself. Whether the works are good or bad, they are all real him.Every movie is a fragment of life and a puzzle of life. Some are important and some are not, but he really understands himself through these movies.Xie Lansheng without movies can be said to be pale and boring.When making a film, his mind is freed from the cage, his consciousness is able to gallop, and because of the form of film, it has gained a new life and is no longer trapped in the nest of reality.He can build a new world, a new time and space, and everything in it satisfies him.

But for life, fortunately, he is always absent-minded, and he will not be too overwhelmed.Because, compared with the world of movies, this reality is not worth mentioning.

Only Xinye made him pay attention, forcibly, made him pay attention.

…………

During the waiting time, Xie Lansheng was also very anxious.

He can't sleep.He only needs to sleep for three or four hours every night to wake up, and then lie dry, thinking about it, until dawn.He wanted to sleep, but couldn't.In the next two days, the insomnia became more and more serious, and the sleep time changed from three hours to one hour every night.Xie Lansheng thought that if he continued like this, he might have to take sleeping pills.

He wouldn't do this if "Consummation" was only related to him, but now, it still has a relationship with Liu Yao.He didn't want Liu Yao to be buried.

He also knows that anxiety is useless to reality, but he still can't control his cranky thoughts all day long.

——Xie Lansheng's state reached its peak on the opening day.

On February 2th, Berlin time, the film festival began.

Xie Lansheng was like a little beast, walking back and forth in the room.

He tried to read the book, but those words were like ants, biting him, gnawing at him, gnawing at his heart so badly that he couldn't clean up left and right.

Finally, at 8 o'clock in the evening, when it was time for the screening of "Consummation", Xie Lansheng faced the big white wall in front of him in his room, helped him up, and played the movie frame by frame in his mind.

Well, Kuan Lang Kuan got to know each other.

The two of them send their hearts to each other.

Only then did he kiss Lang Ying's Adam's apple broadly, and the two of them were together.

Only then did my mother find out everything.

Li Fangfang...

When he "saw" Li Fangfang, Xie Lansheng felt a pain in his heart.

By the time Xie Lansheng finished screening "Consummation" in his mind, the sky in Beijing was already dawning.He really wanted to know the reaction of the audience immediately, but at this time, he could only send him a message from Qianzi.Xie Lansheng lived with his parents and his family of three. If Xinye called Li Jingrou directly, he would scold him to death—still disapproved of him as a filmmaking mother.In my mother's mind, people and the government cannot be opposed.Fortunately, Yu Qianzi said he would wait, and Xin Ye could call him, and he then sent a message to Xie Lansheng's BP machine, which was the same.

Xinye may need to socialize and has no time to make phone calls. Xie Lansheng fidgeted in his room and waited until 7 o'clock before BP made a "ding".

He quickly turned on the screen and saw:

It was sent by Yu Qianzi, about the premiere of the movie.

There is only one sentence on the screen:

【Thank you!Awesome! After "Consummation" was played, the audience stood up and applauded for more than eight minutes! ! ! 】

"..."

Xie Lansheng's eyelashes became wet for a moment.

The audience stood up and applauded for more than eight minutes?

really?

Can he believe it?

…………

Maybe it was to make Xie Lansheng feel at ease and go to bed early, but Xinye didn't call back to China until three o'clock in the afternoon.

But Xie Lansheng didn't sleep at all. He grabbed the phone and asked, "Xin Ye! Really? The audience stood up and applauded for more than eight minutes?"

"Yes." Xinye's voice was magnetic, "Director Xie, congratulations."

"thanks……"

"If you haven't seen the final version, you won't know how shocking it is." As a matter of fact, as the director, Xie Lansheng has never seen any version, and Xin Ye said, "This is also the first time I see "Consummation" on the big screen. , It’s so shocking. At the beginning, Cai Kuan Langying was romantic and charming. Some viewers thought it was a gay film, and they were quite disdainful. However, the second half of the content took a sharp turn for the worse. Fake wife, fake son, Cai Kuan Langying gradually However, Liu Yao's last few collapses shocked everyone. At the last birthday party, the entire venue was silent. I think they all understand."

Xie Lansheng wanted to cry again.

"Director Xie," said Xin Ye over there, "The movie reviews came out this morning too. Shall I read some to you?"

"Okay." Xie Lansheng took a deep breath and prepared in his heart, "You read."

He estimated that there was nothing good to say.

He heard from the reporter that the family realism of "Consummation" is abandoned by new movies, it is old-fashioned and will be defeated.

"Yeah." Xin Ye began to read the report, "International Association of Film Critics: 'Unexpectedly, the first day of this year's Berlin Film Festival began to shine, which has never happened before.'"

Xie Lansheng: "..."

"Deutsche Welle's: 'Chinese films shine, and people queue up for tickets.'"

"..."

"Also, xxx's: 'This year, "Consummation" as the opening film is a disaster for the latecomers. It raises the audience's expectations, and the films that will appear later will inevitably be compared with "Consummation". After that, it may be a complete failure.' xxxx's: "This "Consummation" fully proves that family realism will never go out of fashion." Also, "The film contains the director's strong love and concern for the subjects." "The media PR he signed invited many reporters, so The reports were overwhelming.

"..."

Xinye read a lot of comments, Xie Lansheng couldn't believe it.

Until Xinye hung up the phone, he still felt like he was dreaming.

He couldn't help thinking: Is Xinye lying to him? Is "Consummation" really that good?Could it be that because of Liu Yao's incident, Xinye was worried that he would be too uncomfortable, so she kept the truth from him and lied to him to make him feel better?In this way, after 12 days, when he calms down and becomes more rational, tell him that although he didn't win the prize, he was highly evaluated by all parties?Continue to cheat?

This also seems quite possible.

Although several Hong Kong reporters also sent him congratulations one after another, the wording was very polite, and it was impossible to tell whether it was true or not.They are not in Berlin, and they all listened to other people's stories. Xie Lansheng was too embarrassed to ask for news from them.

…………

Xie Lansheng began to feel anxious again.

He only slept three to four hours two nights in a row.

And in the end, what made Xie Lansheng believe and calm down was an old friend who was beyond his expectations.

Miss Morita.

Two days after the screening, Lan Sheng suddenly received a call from a Japanese translator. He said that he happened to be on a business trip to China for an exchange, and he was also a good friend of Morita. He also said that Morita was selling a film in Berlin and saw "Consummation" So he asked him to pass on a small gift to Xie Lansheng, wishing Xie Lansheng a successful start.

Xie Lansheng was quite surprised, and immediately read the home address as the other party said.

So, Miss Morita's good friend came to the door with a gift.

Xie Lansheng originally thought that the gift from Morita would be a doll, or a kimono, fan, pottery, etc. Therefore, when the other party took out the gift, Xie Lansheng was dumbfounded.

It was a Japanese sword.

Japanese swords are the highest level of gifts that Japanese give to friends, representing the highest level of respect.

Ancient China also had the saber ceremony, which is a very solemn and formal etiquette, symbolizing that two people are close friends.Lu Qian of the Three Kingdoms has a treasured sword. It is said that if he wears it, he can rank among the three princes.After getting help from Wang Xiang, Lu Qian gave the knife to the other party, thinking that the other party was qualified. Wang Xiang later became a Sangong, so the word "gifting a knife" came into being. Zhang Daqian also drew this, and Li Bai and Yue Fei also wrote it. Poems for gifting a knife to a friend.It is basically gone in China now, but it is still circulating in Japan.The Japanese have the most affection for the two objects of chrysanthemum and sword.

"Director Xie," Morita's friend said again, "Morita was not shortlisted this time, she just went to sell the film. She watched "Consummation" at the venue and was very touched. Please let me bring you this gift and wish you success in overcoming obstacles. This is forged by a famous Japanese master, and Morita just got it. In addition, she invited me to a temple outside Tokyo to help you pray. She said, such a good work It should be seen by more people."

"...Ah." Xie Lansheng said, "Thank you, Morita, for being considerate. I will prepare a gift in return, and I will trouble you to bring it back."

Xie Lansheng was quite moved.The language between him and Morita has never passed, but this does not prevent them from becoming friends, and their communication even has a kind of silent solemnity.

Xie Lansheng thought, since Morita was also moved, maybe "Consummation" is really good to watch.