The Paranoid Possessiveness of the Golden Strings Fanfic

Clang clang clang.It was the sound of a tram driving in a small town.

The slowly moving tram is driving in the small town. The lush cherry blossoms on both sides of the track cover the spring sky, so the tram seems to shuttle in the tunnel surrounded by cherry pink branches, and see the ever-changing sun through the gaps of trembling petals. elephant.

The girl on the tram plugged in her earphones and looked down quietly at the fragrance left behind by the old man Yasunari Kawabata.A very beautiful picture appeared in my mind. Under the rain of cherry blossoms falling all over the sky, a handsome man made a promise to a beautiful woman that he would never regret for a lifetime. Erased imprint.

[Love itself will not be sung through the ages, but the touch will last forever. 】

Gently closing the book, he narrowed his eyes comfortably.

The breeze swept through, and after the rustling sound, tens of thousands of cherry blossoms fluttered down one after another, like an unstoppable heavy snow, the cherry powder was all over the sky, and the air was filled with rich fragrance. He was also lying in the center of his palm, motionless.

The cherry color flows quietly, and the fragrance of flowers is infinitely long.

Spring is a beautiful solar term.

Spring is supposed to be a beautiful solar term.

"Ah!"

Shiina shook the cherry blossoms that fell on her body, and her nose was accidentally attacked.She clutched the broom in her hand, and let out an angry roar.

As you can see, Shiina hates Sakura.Although the fragrance of cherry blossoms and the cherry blossoms themselves should be lovable, but no matter how beautiful things are, if you see too much or even disturb you, your emotions will have a 180-degree reversal.

Shiina used to lament the love story under the cherry blossom tree like a girl, feeling the samurai's decisive figure when the cherry blossoms are flying, and the cherry blossom fate buried with beautiful meaning.

But when she saw the sparse and withered cherry blossom petals in her bathtub, when she ate on the terrace and found that opening the lunch box would float in all kinds of cherry blossom petals, when she wanted to take a deep breath but inhaled the cherry blossom petals and choked. Half dead, she just wanted to say.

Sakura, fuck off.

With the cherry blossoms in full bloom, she knew her sophomore life was over.

More severe challenges are about to be faced.

Already feeling very strenuous, she sighed, opened the garbage bag, and swept piles of cherry blossoms into it.

A winter vacation was gone, and the school had a lot of dust.Because the school was about to start, the school leader smiled and called the students who were closer to the school, and called it [Love School Activity].

To put it bluntly, it is cleaning.Set up tables and chairs, wipe tables, clean up, etc.

Unfortunately, Shiina was successfully summoned, so she stepped into the school with a dying expression on her face.It was the work of two people, but because Shiina couldn't find anyone, it fell on one person.God knows what a huge project it would be for her to clean up the cherry blossoms in the entire playground.

A gust of not-so-small wind rose wantonly from behind Shiina without hesitation, subconsciously pressed down on the skirt, the garbage bag in his hand was accidentally pulled open, and large clusters of cherry blossoms spewed out gorgeously. People are dizzy.

Shiina was also dizzy, and after finally sweeping up, it seemed that she was going to do it all over again.

"That's stupid."

With eyes closed, I can figure out who is saying such mocking and provocative words that have nothing to do with me in such an elegant tone.

"Then you come!"

It's fine if you don't help, but you still laugh at the working people! ?Yes, he is about to go to the UK to inherit the business and marry a daughter to live a life that he may not be able to live a lifetime of hard work. I am only a small part of his short life, and maybe I have left nothing behind.People are passing through the streets, each wearing their own mask, expressionless, and hurrying by.This is our life, so simple, yet so unreasonably lonely.

Indifference and bleakness are the true face, and in the end it can't leave a good impression.

Thinking of this, I started to sulk unconsciously.Throwing down the broom, it hit hard in the sea of ​​cherry blossoms, stirring up ripples that spread out in circles.

"Angry?" Yuzuki Azuma is not so stupid that she can't read people's faces. She was never angry when he bullied her so many times. Why did a sentence that was far less lethal than before make her face change all of a sudden? ?

Seeing her turn her back and stop talking, he knew that this time he must have been lucky to step on Miu Shiina's thunder.

"What's the matter?" Teak picked up the broom on the ground, and carefully turned Shiina's face, only for a moment, he saw a thin layer of mist in her eyes.In the next second, she regained her indifferent expression.

"It has nothing to do with you." Shiina guessed that her smile was probably ugly, but this was already her limit. In the end, she still had girlish feelings, which probably Yuki would never understand.

She suddenly remembered a sentence in "Literary Girl".

[Xin Ye, you must not understand. 】

Yes, you must not understand.

"Irrelevant?" Teak's deep pupils shrank slightly in an instant, and the gentle voice was rarely tinged with a bit of bitterness. "Everything about you is related to me. Others don't even have the right to think about it."

It was originally a nice sentence, but Shiina couldn't laugh at this time.

"What? The arrival of my aunt has something to do with you?" Shiina snatched the broom back from Yuki, but found that the latter didn't seem to understand her meaning, and asked her with a blank face, "Are you a relative from home?" do you like it?"

Well, well, Yuki Azuma, how could you make such a mistake if you are so smart.He was probably just kidding himself.What I have to say is that the mood doesn't seem as bad as before, but the heaviness of parting has not eased at all, and even has a negative upward trend.

This is a sense of fear that should not exist, the fear of parting, and more of the fear of the future.The road ahead is so long, without his journey, how should I face the strange things?How difficult it must be to walk such a lonely road...

Unexpectedly, in just one year, I got used to living with him.As Teak said [everything about you is related to me. 】I can't imagine how much pain it will be when he turns around and leaves my life at the moment of parting.

I can't leave, I can't let go.

"Are you tired? Go over there and take a rest, I'll go buy some drinks and come back." Yuzuki Azuma looked at Shiina who was in a trance, and decided to be considerate.

Originally holding the mentality of molesting + helping, but unexpectedly developed into the current situation, Yuki Azuma had to re-examine the person in front of him.Maybe I didn't know her well, felt good about myself from the beginning, and didn't realize until later that I didn't know anything.

"Here you are." Yuki handed Shiina a bottle of pomegranate juice.But found that the latter was persistent in wanting the green tea in his hand. "Girls drink less green tea within a certain period."

There is a saying that if you are serious, you lose.

After Shiina laughed out of breath, Yuzuki Azuma truly realized the meaning of this sentence.I didn't expect to be tricked by her. She sat beside him with a helpless smile, tilted her head and asked

"Aren't you angry anymore?"

"For the sake of your infinite stupidity, I decided to forgive you temporarily." Shiina replied calmly, taking a sip of fresh green tea.

Then it fell into silence again, Shiina talked about a lot of miscellaneous topics in order to get rid of this atmosphere, most of the time Yuzuki Azuma just listened quietly, sarcasm without losing the opportunity, and then Shiina refuted back again, back and forth.

This is their daily life.Although Shiina is the abused party in most cases, I have to say that she is used to this kind of life, such sarcasm, and such bickering.

Very happy.

In fact, he is a masochist.Shiina castigated viciously in her heart for such a self, wanted to change this pattern, but remembered that Azuma Yuzuki would leave soon.

This kind of perverted psychology is over.

All kinds of things left her speechless.

Thinking about it so far, there is a voice hinting at Shiina: insist on what you should insist on, and do what you should do well, because one day time will take away everything, including memories.Before that uncertain moment comes, we must learn to face life calmly.Before that, we must do everything well without leaving any regrets.

In a life, time not only means money, but also means unexpected results.

A gust of wind blew up the sporadic cherry blossom petals on the ground, Shiina clenched the hem of her skirt and stared at the ground tightly.The idea of ​​confession appeared in my mind again and again, and it became more and more intense.

——Go and confess, there is not much time left.

——But what if you get rejected?

——Do you want to regret this for the rest of your life?

——It’s okay to wait a little longer.

——Miwa Shiina, why are you so useless!

——It's not bad to be able to get along with him for such a long time.

- This is your last chance.When he goes abroad, you may never see each other again.

--but……

——He will develop there, get married, have children, and live a life that a gentleman should have, how about you?

--I……

——Do you really think you have a chance to be together again?

--But……

--I……

——…

Yes, at this last moment, it should be tried.

"Teak... I..." Shiina swallowed, the drink can in her hand was slightly deformed, and the rhythm in her chest became heavy and it was difficult to breathe.

"What?" Yuki Azuma looked at Shiina with some doubts.

At this time, Azuma Yuzuki's face was no longer handsome and handsome, but gradually turned into a monster with blue face and fangs. Shiina tried to relax time and time again but found no effect. For the first time, she knew that the spring breeze can be so cold and so lonely.Just kill him.

Oh forget it.This idea seems to be too dark, and it seems that it should not appear in such a small and fresh pure love text.

Shiina cleared her throat, staring straight at the petals under her feet.

Come on, it's not bad to say [I like you] quickly or add [it's been a long time] after it.

Be brave, Miwa Shiina, this is your last chance, even if you get rejected, it doesn't matter, he's going to go abroad anyway...

"What... teak... I... I..."

His hands became trembling, and the hair pinned to his ears slipped down, but he didn't care about it, and his complexion became complicated.

"What do you want to say?" Yuki helped Shiina to pin back the loose hair, with a smile in his crooked eyes, "I'm listening."

"I...I like..."

Breathing became no longer smooth, and the huge vibration pressed into the chest, making it hard to breathe.He raised his eyes and met his gaze, the strong ups and downs of his heart resembled the feeling of suffocation after 800 meters.

Everything around is gradually rotating, and the focus of the pupils is not well grasped, and they start to be in a trance.

"……green tea."

Shiina heard herself spit out irrelevant words slowly, her tone became stiff.After a quiet laugh for a while, he quickly repeated himself in a self-affirming manner.

"I like green tea."

"Huh?" Yuki Azuma stopped his gaze on Shiina's face for a few seconds, watched Shiina spit out such a nonsense sentence with a half-smile, after a short silence, he smiled and nodded, "Yeah, I like it too Woolen cloth."

He patted Shiina on the shoulder and told her to rest for a while, and he would find someone to help.Then he left first.

Shiina didn't hear it clearly, and she was still slowly reminiscing about her previous smoke-free war.No matter what the beginning or the process is like, the only thing that is certain is that I lost completely, I lost embarrassingly, and I lost completely.In the past year, she has done the bravest thing, but she still lost to inferiority complex and fear.

What happened to become what it is now?Shiina asked herself, resignedly, with a sober, cruel sneer.Today should be as usual, monotonous, boring, as dull as the sky of the capital, and the people living under it should be protected by boring, living in their own narrow snail shells, why do they meet?

Now that we met, why should we separate?

Cruel fate?Not so, fate is only faithful to its master.

For him, he will become one of the billions of strangers in the world again.

They are nothing more than passers-by in each other's lives, an insignificant familiar face.Their lives are like two tangent curves, coincidentally overlapping at one point, but they can never be merged into one.They will continue to run on the track of their own lives and continue their own lives.

Shiina raised her head and looked at his back as he walked away, gradually out of her sight, like any stranger passing by in a hurry, as if he had never appeared before.

The vision became blurred, and after all, it was smudged into pieces by cherry pink and disappeared.

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