Proud Gu Mingyu

Gu Mingyu didn't expect Lu Yan to say this to him, and looked at him strangely for a while, "But you're back again."

"Yes, I'm back." A trace of sadness flashed in Lu Yan's eyes, and he sat down on the seat in the corridor, suddenly looking very decadent, as if his previous calmness was fake.

He looked up at Gu Mingyu, and twitched the corners of his mouth, "Will you sit with me for a while?"

Gu Mingyu took out his mobile phone and glanced at it, and said in a reluctant tone, "My dad hasn't eaten yet."

But he sat down anyway, "I'll give you 10 minutes."

Lu Yan nodded, secretly laughing inwardly——The awkwardness of the Gu family is really passed down in one continuous line, and they are soft-hearted, and they can't bear other people's pleas.

"Huaiyan—I haven't called him uncle since I became an adult. I owe him a lot. I used to think that my life belonged to him, but he didn't want it." Lu Yan smiled, then It’s a kind of wry smile, a bitterness that you can’t ask for, and a self-deprecating smile, “I made a lot of jokes in front of him, and I thought I sacrificed a lot for him, but in his eyes, I’m afraid I’m like a clown, he just kept silent like that. Watching quietly, neither advancing nor retreating—that is, with his caring nature, how could he retreat for others."

Probably because Gu Huaiyan had a bad heart since he was a child. Although his nature was as fierce as thunder, he was deliberately cultivated by his family to be lukewarm. Now that he is in his 40s, his face has almost no wrinkles, but it is also like ice and snow. , I can't see any popularity.

Gu Mingyu shook her head, "How do you want him to back down? In their time, homosexuality was a mental illness. I think my uncle might never have dreamed that there would be a man who liked him, and he was a child raised by himself-he didn't beat you, did he? "

"Use a belt for a few strokes." Lu Yan nodded, the first few strokes were done by Gu Huaiyan, but he was in such poor health, Lu Yan was afraid that he would be exhausted, so he smoked himself afterwards.He thought that this would calm Gu Huaiyan, but Gu Huaiyan told him to leave.

He was only a sophomore at that time, and Gu Huaiyan sent him to boarding school, and he was not allowed to go home except for the Chinese New Year.His studies plummeted, he smoked, drank and fought at school, causing the headmaster to call his parents.Gu Huaiyan came and looked at him with very disappointed eyes, Lu Yan was too scared to dare anymore.

When he went to university, he was even more distant. When he graduated from university, Gu Huaiyan asked him if he had changed, and he said no. Gu Huaiyan sent him abroad decisively and without hesitation.

He said: "You don't change for the rest of your life, don't come back for the rest of your life, I've given you enough, and you won't get anything from me in the future."

Gu Mingyu leaned back on the back of the chair, the seat made an unpleasant "creaking" sound, he sighed deeply, his father brought up my uncle, how did my uncle react, his father probably did the same, in their In their eyes, homosexuality is not learning well, it is perverted, and it is a shameful thing.

From Lu Yan's experience, Gu Mingyu clearly realized that his future road will never be easier than Lu Yan's, so thinking of him like this made him think of Ji Linyuan.

Ji Linyuan has always been naive. His world is so small that there are only two people, his grandfather and Gu Mingyu. Although he has never met Ji Linyuan's grandfather, we can know from his description that he is a very enlightened old man. Relatives leave one after another, and they become less fancy to the world.

When Ji Linyuan's parents were alive, their eldest son, that is, Ji Linyuan's elder brother, was studying in the county and lived in a cousin's house.

That cousin has no heirs, and seeing Ji Linyuan's elder brother is well-behaved and sensible, he moved his mind.After going back to his hometown several times to lobby, Ji Linyuan's parents disagreed, and they went to some elders in the clan, with an attitude of putting pressure on him.

The Ji family was naturally very angry. Why should they give the child they worked so hard to raise to others.Just out of the idea of ​​not affecting the children's studies, they didn't ask to take him home.When Ji Linyuan's parents passed away, the poor compensation was only enough to repay the previous debts, and the Ji family was destitute, so the uncle came to the door again, and this time Ji Linyuan's brother also came.Grandpa Ji ignored what Tang uncle said, and only asked him if he would like to be Tang uncle's son.

Ji Linyuan's elder brother faltered and didn't dare to say anything, but Grandpa Ji had lived a long time and had already become a human being. There was no anger and loss on the child's face, only shyness and uneasiness, and it was clear that he was willing in his heart.

Grandpa Ji took them to the ancestral hall to ask for a genealogy, and crossed out Brother Ji Linyuan's name from his name.That's why Ji Linyuan didn't know that he had an older brother since he was a child.

Even the eldest son and grandson of the Ji family can be adopted by others according to his own wishes, and he once told Ji Linyuan that he would not interfere with his freedom, and that Ji Linyuan would have much less resistance to coming out than Gu Mingyu.

But Gu Mingyu was different. Whether it was his father, brother or uncle, they all seemed to have prejudices against homosexuality. Needless to say, Xu Gang, Gu Mingyu still had a fresh memory of renting a bookstore when he was in junior high school.

Look at Lu Yan again, his name has been changed to his uncle's name. From his childhood to his youth, for more than ten years, his uncle has not been able to accept him.

If Gu Mingyu came out of the closet, I don't know how the Gu family will be shaken, maybe he will be sent to the same place?Maybe Gu Huaili will kick him out of the house and let him go?

"I thought he just didn't love me and found someone, it had nothing to do with gender," Lu Yan still feels cold when he thinks about it now, "but he was drunk once and said that if I were a woman, he would have married me a long time ago, but I ...I also wanted to change my gender in the past, but I know that I am a man, even if my body becomes a woman, then I am just a man trapped in a woman's body."

Gu Mingyu pursed her lips, and felt a sense of grief and sorrow in her heart, "Then what are you going to do? Just stay by his side like this?"

"Yeah, otherwise, what else can I do?" Lu Yan laughed, "It is very satisfying to be by his side now, I just ask him not to ruin his body like that, take a good rest, and live a few more years... I'll take a look at him."

Gu Huaiyan looks cold on the outside, but in fact there is a volcano hidden inside, erupting from time to time, drinking and smoking all night, putting himself in the hospital before giving up, and then being ordered to recuperate, after a period of time he recovered and went out to play, repeating itself.

So he didn't dare to stay in his hometown, Gu Huaiyan was not afraid of anything but his second elder brother Gu Huaili, even with his nephew Gu Mingyu, he would listen to him if he scolded him.

The short conversation ended soon, and when Gu Mingyu and Lu Yan walked into the ward, Gu Huaili brothers were talking.

Seeing Lu Yan coming in, Gu Huaiyan's eyes suddenly turned cold, but because of his elder brother, he didn't say anything, he just greeted Gu Mingyu, took his hand and talked to him.

Gu Huaili is not in good condition these days, often sitting in a daze, Gu Mingyu feels uncomfortable looking at it, Gu Huaiyan can naturally see it, and drives him home soon, Lu Yan volunteers to see him off.

While sitting in the car, Gu Mingyu turned to look out the window without looking back, and suddenly said, "I'm gay just like you."

Lu Yan was stunned for a while, then nodded: "I see, otherwise I wouldn't have said so much to you."

Gu Mingyu didn't speak, and the fingers on his knees trembled slightly.

Lu Yan asked again: "Then do you have a date now?"

Gu Mingyu thought for a while and said, "Yes—"

Lu Yan laughed, thinking that Mingyu was still a child, "If you have it, you have it, if you don't, you don't have it, what is it?"

"That's it—" Gu Mingyu paused, remembering the hundred or so text messages and dozens of missed calls in his phone that he hadn't clicked on, "Maybe we're going to break up."

"Ah?" Lu Yan felt that he was probably old, and he didn't understand what young people think, and what he said was not understandable.

"I ignored him for more than half a month. I didn't answer the phone or read the messages. I think... it would be better to let it go like this." Gu Mingyu herself felt that she was inexplicable—he was angry with Ji Linyuan, what exactly was he angry with? He didn't know either, it seemed that he threw all the things he couldn't vent on Ji Linyuan's head, as if this would make him feel better—in fact, Gu Mingyu felt even more uncomfortable, he was like a fish out of water, originally The fish that should be together is not there, no matter how much it flops, it can't get a little oxygen.

Lu Yan couldn't understand Gu Mingyu's heart. The car drove to the alley of Gu's house. At the intersection, Lu Yan saw a tall young man wandering in front of Gu's house. Seeing no one responding, he put his backpack on his back. Going up, spit into the palm of his hand, and climbed up the wall of Gu's courtyard with a squat and a jump.

Lu Yan: "..."

Lu Yan swallowed, the car didn't drive past, stopped halfway, took out his mobile phone and said to Gu Mingyu: "I just saw a thief enter your house, call the police."

Gu Mingyu was in a daze and didn't pay attention to it just now, but now she was stunned when she heard Lu Yan say this, "A thief in broad daylight?"

"Yeah, how bold you are," Lu Yan dialed, and said with a smile: "The characteristics are so obvious, it's easy to catch someone, look at that one. It must be 1.9 meters long, and there are only two or three in our county. Do you have this height personally?"

"Wait a minute—" Gu Mingyu stopped Lu Yan's hand with a dazed expression, "1.9 meters? Is it a flat cut, with a simple and honest face, small eyes, squinting like a silly fox, and big feet wearing size 47 shoes? Strange?"

Lu Yan: "..." I just glanced at it so clearly!

Wait, this tone——

With a see-through expression on Lu Yan's face, he said teasingly, "I don't know if I went to see it, or...you call your partner who is about to break up and ask where he is?"

Gu Mingyu gave him a gloomy look, but without hesitation, she took out her cell phone and made a call.

It was quickly connected there, and at the same time, the car continued to move forward. When it reached the door of Gu's house, the voice on the intercom overlapped with a male voice in the yard.

"Mingyu!"