Bear Diary

Wednesday, August 2010, 4

During this period of time, the stock market was so green that it hurt me, and today I finally saw some red.Serena Williams mixed 5000 yuan into my account, but he got caught as soon as he came in, shame on me!

The so-called first love is long gone, it was about me and someone I don't try to remember, but never forget.

I have always been chubby since I was a child, so I am the emcee of the school. Whenever there is any activity, I and a girl from another class will host it together.

After graduating from elementary school, I was admitted to the best middle school in the city.But in the new class, there is no elementary school classmate, which makes me a little lonely.That was the time when video game rooms were booming, so I started going to them whenever I could.My parents tried to find a way, and the teacher caught me several times, but maybe I was born a rebellious child. The more my father pushed me, the more I resisted.But my grades are okay, and with my good popularity, I even became the class monitor, so they have nothing to be picky about.

Why do you say that you are lonely and popular?Hehe, how should I say it?Although I didn't understand it very well at that time, I always felt that these new friends were not so real, and they were considered casual acquaintances, so I became closer to some elementary school classmates who were assigned to other classes.Among them was the girl who was also the monitor of the class next door.

She is really a special girl.

Most girls like to have long hair. The class flower in our class is a girl with waist-length long hair who has danced ballet since she was a child and has a tenth grade piano. She is extremely elegant.But her refreshing short hair is very cute in my eyes.She has a very lively personality, and her favorite sport is to play football with the boys. When she smiles, her eyes are always crooked, like a crescent moon.Seeing her sweating profusely on the court and hearing her hearty laughter made even my mood brighten.

By the way, there was an impressive thing at that time: the first physical education test in the first year of junior high school, the boy took the pull-up test, although he only had to do one to pass, but I tried my best to feed my whole body, and my chin was still close Over the pole.The physical education teacher watched for a long time, sighed, and said, "Forget it, I'll count on you..."

I really don't like sports very much, but only her invitation to play football, I never refuse.It was she who made me realize team spirit and feel the joy of sports for the first time.

Since we are not in the same class, we don't see each other very often.But every grade activity, I take the initiative to partner with her.

I think, I may have fallen in love with her a little bit, I don't know if she has the same feeling.But after winning an unconventional football game, she hugged me excitedly, which made me restless for a long time, and I didn't even feel knocked to the ground.

I think she may also like me a little bit, right?

The next semester is busy when the exam is approaching. Each class will make up lessons according to the arrangement of the class teacher. The time after school is very different. This makes our only chance to get along on the way home from school to rare.Fortunately, she is also the monitor of their class, and the class cadres can still meet when they get together.

A cadre meeting, but only the deputy squad leader came to their class. I asked and found out that she had been on sick leave for several days...

When we met again, the whole class organized everyone to visit her in the intensive care unit of the hospital... Leukemia, I only knew it was an incurable disease before, and it was far away from me. I didn't expect it to happen to her.

Seeing her once lively and lovely, now she can only lie in the glass house, seeing all kinds of wires and tubes covering her body, I couldn't help but rushed to the toilet, and tears poured out as soon as I closed the door , there was no sound, just tears streaming down.I don't want others to know that I'm crying, let alone her...

After confirming that the tears had stopped, I came out again. The classmates had already started to leave one after another. Only a few friends who were very close to her were left to accompany her parents to wipe their tears.I walked up to the glass wall and tried to smile, but only felt the corners of my mouth twitch.She smiled at me, smiling so feebly, yet so strong.I suddenly saw that it was that heart lying beside her pillow!This time, I was in no hurry to go to the bathroom, and my tears poured out again disobediently...

I wrote with my finger on the glass wall what I hadn't been able to say, and I believe she saw it, because she smiled even wider.

The last time I saw her was at her farewell ceremony.

This time my mood is very calm, it seems very relaxed?Anyway, I think so myself.If you've seen her suffer, you'll understand why I'm at peace, and even a little happy—at least she doesn't have to suffer anymore.But I can't laugh at all...

After a short chat with her mom, she told me that her last request was to take that heart and notebook into the cremation pool. …

The tears burst again... I never knew that I was so fragile that I wanted her mother to comfort me in turn.

When leaving, the deputy squad leader of their class walked in front.I vaguely heard him and the people around him saying something, "It won't be my turn if she doesn't die... The teacher is biased... If I had this disease, she wouldn't call on the whole class to donate to me..." At that time I There was a "buzz" in my head, and when I realized it, the deputy squad leader had already been beaten to the ground by me, and I didn't intend to stop.

The deputy squad leader's nose was broken.Although my father settled the matter, I am definitely not qualified to continue to be the squad leader, and the application for joining the group that I was preparing has also been squandered.Go fuck!who cares? !