Bear Diary

Wednesday, August 2009, 12

"Serena, when will your mother come back?" I asked.

"In the past few days, she has come back to eat with me at noon every day." Serena replied: "Paws? Are you leaving?"

"No, I'm wondering if I should just confess to my aunt and see if she can accept it?" I looked into Serena's eyes and said seriously.

"How could she accept it?!" Serena jumped up from the bed in excitement, shaking her head like a rattle. "You can still visit me secretly now, if my mother finds out, we really won't even be able to see each other!"

"Serena, actually, I don't think what Brother Chen said is impossible..." Fox Ling said seriously. "Your mother already knows that you are gay, so why don't you just stop doing it and wait until she sends you out of the country?"

"But... my mother can't accept it. She paid for the battery of my mobile phone in the past two days."

I patted Serena on the shoulder and encouraged him to cheer me up: "I don't think we did anything wrong, so there's no need to be sneaky. Maybe your mother can't accept it, but as long as she doesn't repel it so much, we will succeed. "

Serena no longer objected, but her face was still very tangled.

"It's crazy to think about it now, but sometimes in life, maybe you have to be brave? For you, for us, I am willing to try..."

The three of us went downstairs together and chatted with Brother Zhao. During the conversation, we found that he didn't know about Serena.Come to think of it, this is also a family scandal, and my aunt won't talk about it everywhere.Brother Zhao always thought that Serena got into some trouble outside, so he gave him a serious admonition.It made Serena very depressed.Brother Zhao said that Serena had hardly gone downstairs these days, and he was very worried. We came today and saw Serena smiled.He also asked Serena to admit her mistake to her mother.

It would be nice if this matter could be resolved by admitting mistakes...

We said we wanted to wait for Auntie to come back to intercede for Serena, Brother Zhao agreed and asked the kitchen to cook more delicious food.Brother Zhao told me about Serena's family when he was alone with me.He said that Serena's parents divorced very early, and Serena grew up with his mother, who felt that she owed him a complete family, so she always spoiled him so much that she got used to some problems.Friends like me who have more social experience usually mention him more and help him.I said I would.

Auntie didn’t come back until almost 1 o’clock. Everyone was waiting for her to serve dinner. She was surprised to see me and Hu Huling here.Hu Ling repeated the excuses for the class reunion, but the aunt didn't show any expression, and just asked us to sit down and eat.The atmosphere throughout the meal was indescribably oppressive.Brother Zhao asked about the company's situation, and Auntie just answered a few words lightly.She didn't take a look at Hu Ling, who seemed to have a good relationship with her before.

After dinner, Brother Zhao said that he would visit the company in the afternoon and told his aunt to rest at home, and at the same time gave me a wink.As soon as he walked away, the aunt said: "I locked him up in the house because of my son, you all know that, right?" We didn't expect the aunt to be so direct, and we looked at each other. "Okay, you all know it as expected, help him hide it from me alone! It's so good!"

Fox Ling might have been frightened, and said timidly that she didn't know very well.

The aunt snorted and said, "You have been with Serena for so long, you don't know? As friends, shouldn't you persuade him when you know?" It seems that the aunt also thought a lot.

Serena spoke: "These things have nothing to do with the two of them, it's all about me... I made a mistake..." Did Serena want to calm down Auntie's emotions first?

When Auntie heard Serena admitting her mistake, her expression was a little loose: "You know you're wrong now?"

"Well, I didn't see clearly how dirty Wu is." That's fine, we can talk about things slowly.He shouldn't be made to bear so much, maybe he should wait for a chance for me to bear a little more.

Auntie sighed: "Maybe I have been too used to you since I was a child... Go abroad and study hard, don't do this kind of thing again..."

"I'm not going!" Serena was in a hurry: "I said I was wrong, but I meant that I misjudged Wu, not...not that I was wrong about liking boys!"

I didn't expect Serena to say such a thing. Hu Huling and I were surprised and didn't say anything. I saw Auntie's face changed instantly, she stood up abruptly, and her voice trembled: "You mean scumbag?! So many Girls, you just like men, are you right?! The ancestors have been for thousands of years, which house is not a man and a woman?! The second time (later) don’t ask my son to marry a wife, what should I say? Say you marry Met a man?! You! You!!" Auntie's lips trembled violently, but she couldn't speak anymore.

I quickly helped my aunt, and Hu Ling also came to help, because she was about to lose her footing: "Xiao Wei, stop talking! You go up first!"

Hearing my harsh tone, Serena didn't refute, turned around and ran upstairs.

"Auntie, don't worry, don't make your body angry." I helped Auntie sit on the sofa, and Hu Ling kept stroking her chest to give her air, but Auntie's face was still purple and trembling all over. "Xiaoling, pour auntie a cup of hot tea."

Fox Ling let out a cry, and hurried to pour it.The cup was brought to her mouth, and the auntie took a sip tremblingly, and finally recovered, but tears flowed out immediately.It's hard to tell what it's like for a normally strong and capable woman who is similar to my mother to cry like this in front of you.In short, I patted her on the back, and when she murmured, "I have committed a crime", I felt very uncomfortable.Hu Ling half knelt in front of her aunt, also at a loss, only wiping her tears.

I asked Fox Ling to support my aunt, and I went to get a towel for my aunt.Walking out of the living room, it took me a long time to calm myself down.When she came back, the aunt turned into sobbing softly. The aunt took the towel and said thank you.I sat next to her and held her hand, hoping it would make her better.

When I felt that my aunt had calmed down a bit, I began to persuade her, saying that the society is becoming more and more open, and these things are very common. The younger generation like us can accept it and will not look down on it.As long as Serena is healthy and happy, wouldn't it be fine?

Auntie shook her head feebly, saying it was impossible for her to accept it.In the past few days, she consulted and found that there is a psychological treatment method that can correct this. She wanted to wait for Serena to go abroad first, and then let him treat it slowly, but now it seems...

I said that homosexuality has long been removed from the list of mental diseases, and now the world recognizes that it is not a disease.And except for a very few cases that are caused by special reasons, most homosexual orientations are innate and irreversible.

My aunt looked at me with some surprise, and said that she didn't expect me to know so much.He also said that maybe Serena had no father since he was a child and lived with him, which caused him to be like this now.Maybe Serena is the kind that can be reversed.

I wanted to say something, but my aunt interrupted me, saying that I knew that I wanted to ease her heart, but parents cannot accept this fact anyway. "If only Serena was as obedient and sensible as you..." Auntie patted my hand and said.

Foxling might have a premonition of what I'm going to do next, because she looked at me like that.Yes, I can't let Serena bear this alone. "Auntie, I'm gay too."

"Sazi? You...!" Auntie was leaning against me, but when I said this, she bounced away.He looked at me with terrified eyes and then at Fox Ling, and repeated this several times.Then he suddenly realized: "No wonder! So that's what happened! So that's what Wu wanted to tell me in the end!" Auntie is such a smart person, she understood it all at once.

"Auntie, I..."

"Get out!" My aunt closed her eyes and interrupted me, as if she didn't want to see my face and listen to my voice. "Get out immediately!" It was almost a growling voice.Although I expected it, it really hurt my heart to hear what happened.Then the aunt also shook off the hand holding Hu Ling: "Get out of here too!"

I was dragged out by Hu Ling, and the door was slammed hard behind me.

Hu Ling said that I shouldn't have said at this time, my aunt is already so angry, I am adding fuel to the fire.I said I knew, but I couldn't watch Serena take on these things alone and stay out of it.Hu Ling sighed and said that you are all so stupid.I smiled and said thank you for your cell phone battery.

In the evening, Serena sent a text message and said that I shouldn't have told his mother so frankly, it would be really difficult to meet up now.I said that it was a little thoughtless at the time, but I don't regret it, so we both took it together.I just hope that my aunt won't be so angry, you should pay more attention to her and let her know that no matter what happens to you, you are still her son.Serena said he would.

After a while, Serena sent another message: "Do you think we still have a future?"

"I don't know. But I don't want to give up, I really like you." This is the first time I've told Serena my feelings so clearly, maybe it's easier to speak in a text message.

"Then we agreed not to give up."