Bear Diary

Tuesday, December 2011, 1

Early the next morning, Serena and I went to ask Ben and Lina to have breakfast respectively. Ben was very happy to see that I was fine, but Lina was a little depressed, probably because Serena got angry with her yesterday.I comforted her a few words, and told Serena not to bully others in the future.Serena also responded generously and sincerely, saying that he will definitely take good care of Lina, so I can rest assured.It may be because of our harmonious attitude, Ben's expression is not calm.Of course, it is estimated that no one can understand our current relationship except Serena and I.

Serena and I sat on the bed the night before and had just talked about a joke, and after laughing so hard, he asked this question. "Brother, what shall we do in the future?"

"Serena, do you think the most important thing for a man is to let go?" I met his eyes, and finally it was time to face this question.

"Manly?"

"Masculinity is Sa Zinan?"

"Brother, just say it directly."

"I think the most important thing for a man is responsibility."

"responsibility?"

"Well. The so-called man, the most important thing is not a handsome appearance, nor a burly and strong figure, nor the so-called 'manliness' of drinking, fighting and swearing. Now I feel that the most important thing for a man is responsibility. Of course, Both men and women have their own responsibilities, but compared with women who can cling to others, men's responsibilities are more innate and important. Men are born with the responsibility of being sons, and when they grow up, they gradually have to bear the responsibility of being a son. Husband, the responsibility of being a father. Honoring parents, cherishing one's lover, and raising children, these heavy and important responsibilities fully reflect the value of a man. And no matter what your sexual orientation is, I think these are the same." Without thinking, Having said so much in one breath, it is a bit messy. "As I've always said, we can't just live for ourselves." Speaking of this, I couldn't help smiling, and Serena asked me why I was laughing. "It suddenly occurred to me that before I would consider others first in everything, and try my best to satisfy everyone. But after meeting you, it seems that I have become more and more self-sufficient, and I will chase something desperately. But you are just the opposite. At first you gave me the impression of being rebellious, open and unwilling to be restrained, but now you have become mature and responsible."

"You have taught me well, and I have taught you badly."

"Actually, I quite like myself now. It would be a pity if a person didn't do one thing desperately in his life. It's just that this kind of thing that usually happens in adolescence came a bit late for me, haha. I really want to say If so, I want to thank you for giving me a reason to be desperate."

As if feeling something, Serena didn't speak, just hugged me tightly.

"Continue to do what you think is right. Brother will definitely support you. As for us..."

I noticed that apart from Ben, Lina's face was also a little stiff. I motioned to Serena, and he immediately understood what I meant. He asked Lina if something was wrong, and apologized for what happened yesterday. Lina gave me the impression that she was quite cheerful, but I don't know why she was so difficult to coax this time. She was quiet on the way back.

When we parted, I said goodbye to them by the way, saying that I would go back to China in the next two days and could not attend their engagement ceremony, but I sincerely wished them well.Serena said thank you, but Lina still didn't say a word.When I was about to leave, I met Lina's eyes, and I felt that there was a complexity in her eyes that I had never seen in her.Is there something you want to say to me?But in the end, she didn't speak.

Back at Ben's hotel, he finally asked me what happened, I just said that Serena and I had an open and honest conversation, I understood what he was doing, and I supported him, so we are really just good friends now .As a result, Ben seemed to be more unacceptable than me, and he sighed for a long time.I said I came here to find an answer and now I got what I wanted without any regrets.

When I booked the ticket, I was worried whether the heavy snow would affect the take-off and landing of the flight. I didn't expect that the weather would improve in the two days before I left.

For the rest of the day, apart from eating, I just stayed in the room, sometimes playing with Ipad, sometimes reading the news, sometimes doing nothing, just lying on the window sill looking at the street and the sky in a daze.My heart is peaceful, this is the peace returned after experiencing the torment of wind and waves.At that time, I felt that I had a special temperament of detachment, a kind of epiphany and relaxation that disillusioned the world.

Just the day before the return trip, Serena called. I was a little surprised. I don’t know how he knew the date of my departure. He probably asked Ben.He said, let's go out for a meal, it's for you to practice.I said, aren't you busy with the engagement?He said, busy, but want to meet before you go.I said, well, that's fine.

Serena appeared in front of me with a breath like the warm winter sun. He shaved his beard clean and put on earrings. He looked much younger all of a sudden, as full of vigor and vigor as when we first met , I am very pleased.The appointment time was in the evening, and we went to Bar Street to eat.There are quite a lot of people on the street, and the atmosphere of Christmas is already very strong.

Serena told me about the preparations for the engagement ceremony these days, and said that only now did she realize that getting married is so troublesome.But in order to make every aspect perfect, I can only do everything by myself as much as possible, so it is very tiring.I said that I have helped my friends before, and it was really cumbersome.But it's good if you have experience, if I get married in the future, you can be my best man.He laughed and said that he would definitely not be able to escape.

Manchester City also has a Ferris wheel, and we both stop involuntarily in front of it.I haven't noticed it before. Although this Ferris wheel looks much smaller than the London Eye, it has the same style.I said that I remember riding the Ferris wheel in Chengdu during the New Year's Eve last year, and it was about this time.Serena said yes, and then asked me if I would like to sit again. Let me make up for the regret of not taking the London Eye when I came to England.

The night view of Manchester City is very beautiful. Serena was lying on the glass of the pod, and the neon lights flashed across his face, outlining the most beautiful outline.

"I remember you are afraid of heights, right? Are you okay now?" I saw Serena looking out the window, a little worried.

"It's okay, you're by my side." He turned his head and smiled at me. Although his forehead was already dripping with sweat, it didn't seem like a big problem. "Brother, look over there, we ate there last time. And over there, there is a cathedral there, I wonder if you have visited it."

"Is that where you and Lina got engaged?"

"Yeah." Serena nodded, and then said suddenly: "By the way, brother, do me a favor."

"Sazi is busy?"

"I'm afraid I'll be nervous when I get to the engagement ceremony, why don't you practice with me first."

"Here?"

"Yes, or do you want to perform publicly in the street down below?"

"Uh...how are you practicing?"

"Just to be familiar with the Yiha process." Serena said this while unbuttoning her neckline and taking out the chain around her neck. "Hey, I have all the rings ready." I took a closer look, and found that I gave him the couple ring, and it turned out that he had been wearing it all the time. "Brother, which one is yours?"

"I...I didn't bring..." I don't know why I lied.

"Exclude me." Serena despised me. "Bring your wallet."

"Ann?" How did he know?

"Ansazi, I know you put it there. I saw it when you paid the bill last time, haha." Khan, could it be that he is the legendary sharp eye?

I took out the ring and handed it to Serena. He took a look at it, and then untied the ring around his neck and gave it to me.

"Let's exchange rings directly." Serena cleared her throat, put away her smiling face, and became serious, which made me a little nervous.

"I, Gao Jiawei, choose you, Chen Haonan, to be my lifelong partner. This is my promise to you, I will be faithful to you, I will be proud of you, I will respect you, believe in you, help you, Take care of you and I will share my life with you. I will forgive as we are forgiven and I will learn with you about each other, the world and our God. We will go through good times and bad times , until the end of time. Chen Haonan, are you willing?"

I am completely dumbfounded. "Eh...I...I won't say..." Wait, no, he said my name. "Didn't you marry Qiu Lina?"

"Now there is only you in front of me." Serena stared into my eyes with something firm. "You just say 'I do'."

"I am willing." An indescribable surge of emotion seemed to be gushing out of my chest, and at the same time, it also flooded into my hot eye sockets.

Serena took my left hand and put the ring on my ring finger.I also put a ring on him just like him.

We looked at each other and smiled. "It turns out that getting married is not difficult." Serena said so, and then leaned over and whispered in my ear. "You can kiss the 'groom' now..."

In that instant, the bond between us sublimated into something more lasting than eternity.

Sitting on the plane, I can still clearly recall the expression on the waiter's face when he opened our cabin door last night, and I couldn't help laughing, which made the uncle next to me bewildered.The weather was fine, and I saw the sun shine brightly on the snow beside the airport through the glass.I put my hand on the glass, and the bright sunlight unceremoniously wrapped it, making the ring finger on the ring finger look like a cheap ring, with a letter "V" engraved on it...