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"Achuan, get up and watch Chuxue!"

"This must have been started last night, the whiteness is really clean."

"I told you, don't call me such a stupid name." Li Zhengchuan opened the door, wearing pajamas loosely on his body.Mouth full of complaints and eyes full of connivance.

"It's not until six o'clock, so your mother went to school to steal straw hats, right?"

Ji Yuan is now putting on his winter school uniform, so he doesn't bother to bicker.He went to the kitchen, bought bread and milk on a whim yesterday, and is going to have breakfast at home today.

"Yes, yes, you have to prepare for the TOEFL, and don't cross the single-plank bridge with us. It's your turn to sleep late, and it's your turn not to steal straw hats."

Lizheng Chuan pulled the door frame and smacked it for two seconds, chewing out a bit of teasing.He patted the door panel and shouted at Ji Yuanxian at a high volume, "You are finished, Ji Yuanxian. You are finished!"

Brother Xian stuck his head out from the kitchen with milk in his mouth.He smiled and asked, "Do you still want to have breakfast?"

Lizheng Chuan shrank his neck like a threatened giant house cat.He was angry and laughed, and slammed the door to change clothes.

Cheng, who cooks, who is the boss.

Once the joy that can be created is over, Ji Yuan is now standing in front of the microwave oven, staring at the time with a forced smile.He couldn't move his smile a little bit, and his heart burst into sourness.

Li Zhengchuan put on his clothes and looked in the mirror.When he lowered his eyes, he suppressed all emotions.

After the two reached an "agreement", they kept silent about their separation in the future.They gave their family a solemn guarantee, then carried their luggage and returned to the school district room.

They still go to school every day, they still bicker and laugh, but they no longer sleep together.

Li Zhengchuan would give Ji Yuan a good night kiss, and from time to time press him on the sofa and rape him violently.

But he didn't want to share the same bed anymore.

"I'm just afraid, afraid that I will hold you every night. You are in my arms, you are warm and beautiful, and I miss you. I am afraid that I am not firm enough, and then I don't want to go abroad again."

The snow particles are sprinkled on the ground, and the world seems to raise a curtain of white ash, hazy.Early in the morning, the headlights of the cars come and go, and the light reflected on the buildings is both sci-fi and realistic.

Pedestrians are in a hurry, and car horns are high and low.It's not yet the peak period of crowds, so the sound of snowflakes falling to the ground seems to be heard.

Li Zhengchuan was holding an umbrella, and Ji Yuan was now hiding beside him, helping to analyze which school to apply for.

"You're going to go to community college, it's definitely right, but there are mixed reviews. I saw a post last time, and it was very hot. Have you found an intermediary for your family? Why don't you ask your TOEFL teacher?"

"There is no rush," Li Zhengchuan said, he grabbed Ji Yuanxian's shoulders and let him walk into the street. "I have to master the skills of answering questions, and I have to brush the high-frequency words at least a few times. I want to get a high score in the exam. If I can't do it once, I probably will take the exam again."

"How many months are you preparing for?"

"Two or three months, the battle line is too long, which is not conducive to my college entrance examination. Applying to schools depends on grade points, and neither side can relax."

Li Zhengchuan turned off his hearing, and stopped suddenly at the school gate, he asked: "Yuan Xian, do you know that Gu Xi has decided to go abroad."

Ji Yuan was taken aback, and subconsciously shook his head.In fact, since he established a relationship with Li Zhengchuan, the number of private contacts with Gu Xi has greatly decreased.One is to keep a distance and avoid idle time.The second is that he didn't want Li Zhengchuan to think too much, it was nothing at all, why bother to find it hard.

"What did he tell you? When did you have such a good relationship. "

"It's not very good, I can say a word or two." Li Zhengchuan carried his schoolbag, and then told Ji Yuanxian about Gu Xi's persuasion. "Actually, I think highly of him, he is a man."

The liberal arts building is next to the science building, and the distance is almost the same from a distance, but there is actually a large tree-lined area between them.

Coming out of the Liberal Arts Building, you have to walk a section of stone road first, and then go north around the tree-lined area to see the stone tablet of the Science Building from a distance.

S has been expanding its territory in recent years, like bandits.Continue to enclose land and build teaching buildings.So now the Parents' Council proposes to build a sightseeing school bus in the school.Otherwise, from the junior high school to the high school, you can walk within 10 minutes.

Ji Yuan is now holding an umbrella, and goes to the science building during the big class break.He seldom comes here, and it took a lot of effort to find Gu Xi's class.Ji Yuan was standing at the window and saw him at a glance, a group of men and women gathered around the youth table, chatting and laughing.Great atmosphere and nice people.

Brother Xian looked at it for a while, then turned the umbrella in his hand.The snowflakes turned into water and flowed down the ridge of the umbrella.

He called Gu Xi out, clearly seeing the accident in the other's eyes.

"Why did you remember looking for me?" Gu Xi smiled softly, and handed Ji Yuanxian a paper to wipe her wet hair.

Ji Yuan rubbed a few handfuls at random, still chewing on the soft candy.The scent of matcha is overflowing, and the sweetness hooks the tip of the tongue.

He met Gu Xi's eyes and asked seriously, "If I don't come to you, when are you going to tell me about going abroad?"

Gu Xi smiled and leaned back against the railing.He gathered up his school uniform, and the snow flakes from the wind landed on his shoulders.

"Li Zhengchuan told you? Then he also told you about my persuasion?"

"Why, you're here to question me, or ask for guilt. Let me say it first. Originally, Ji's mother asked me to persuade you, but I dare not meet you in private. Otherwise, your family will not kill me. "

Ji Yuan felt helpless, and when Gu Xi finished teasing, he laughed dryly in agreement, which was quite a face.Ji Yuan wiped his hair back now, and said, "Milkshake, I think I should explain it to you."

"Although it has been said many times before, it may not be clear enough. You see."

"I can joke with you, because it's just a joke. But Lizheng Chuan and I can't. I really want to think about the future and want to spend my whole life with him."

"Persuasion failed?" Gu Xi asked, his eyes were deep and his intentions were unclear.

Ji Yuan waved his hand now, and put one hand in his trouser pocket. "We will separate. After the college entrance examination, we compromised with each other."

"I came to you because I want you to look away. To put it bluntly, Milkshake, you are my brother and relative, but I really don't like you. There is no way, if you really can't do it without crossing the line, I will I can't be too soft on you."

Gu Xi took a deep breath, feeling exceptionally calm.It seemed that he knew that such a day would come.The knife hanging over his head will fall down sooner or later. "So, you are solving the problem of settling Lizhengchuan, and then you will solve me later?"

"Maybe I wasn't considerate enough to deal with the problem before." Ji Yuan paused and licked his lips.There was still a bit of fudge left in his mouth, and the bitterness in his heart climbed up again. "Milkshake, Lizheng Chuan has given in once for you. I have been wronged once because of you, and I will not let this happen again."

"Never again, I don't want him to be wronged."

Gu Xi nodded, "Actually, I didn't need you to remind me, I was going to leave."

"I didn't tell you about going abroad, because I didn't think about how to say it. I have thought a lot during this time, otherwise I wouldn't try to persuade him. People will change. I shouldn't be partial to the past and stick to you."

He always thought about how to get the person he wanted in his youth, so that everything would be perfect.And this kind of emotion like a trapped animal is like a depleted body that has taken off its gorgeous clothes. The past is woven into a dream, and the dream is too deep, and it will become a disaster if it overflows.

Meeting people is fate, but whether they can stay together is fate.

Cherish and accept fate.

Ji Yuan found that the fudge in his mouth had finally melted, leaving a little bit of sweetness and a little bit of astringency.He sighed, and patted Gu Xi on the shoulder, "Uncle Gu once taught me to be moral in life. Show loyalty and kindness."

"He said that this is the law of the army, and it also applies to the rivers and lakes, and it applies to the entire life that is not old and the dew is coming."

"I've learned. So it's still the same sentence. If you can be friends in the future, I will always help you and work hard together. But if you can't be friends with peace of mind, Gu Xi, I'm sorry. I can't be sorry to you and consume your feelings."

This is a warning, but also persuasion.Ji Yuan thought about it now, maybe this is the only way to be simple and clear.

Gu Xi looked at him and didn't speak for a long time.

The snowflakes were flying, and the strong wind was blowing.The national flag on the rostrum in the distance is a touch of red among thousands of whites, which is very conspicuous.

Gu Xi moved his Adam's apple, he couldn't bear it.Even though he guessed what Ji Yuan was going to say, he still felt distressed.

"One last question, okay," he said.

"Yuanbao, where is Lizhengchuan?"

Ji Yuan is now turning the umbrella in his hand, and the scattered black umbrella leaves form a circle.The boy raised the corner of his mouth and suddenly smiled easily.His brows and eyes are affectionate, and his beautiful lips are arched.At that moment, it seems to have a panoramic view of the winter in the snow country, the spring in the southern country, the bright sun in summer, and the slanting rain in late autumn.I can't tell what kind of moving look it was.

He said: "Lizhengchuan is good everywhere, but I am not good enough."

"I'm not strong enough, not firm enough. So, I'll keep working hard."

Gu Xi thought more than once, if he confesses first, he can be braver, he can ignore those past friendships, risk falling out, and run to Ji Yuanxian to be proud of his favor.

Would Ji Yuan just follow him and agree with him now?

But there are no ifs in this world, something happens, it happens.

Ji Yuan stepped on the snow with one foot deep and one foot shallow, and Gu Xi stood by the fence to watch him go away.He vaguely recalled the winter when he first met Lizhengchuan, and it was also such a heavy snowfall. Ji Yuan now walked towards Lizhengchuan step by step, holding a black umbrella and carrying a bright red piano case.

Gu Xi thought, he might have lost then.

Ninety thousand miles to enlightenment, it turned out that he lost at the beginning of everything.

Yuan Xian is really working hard, Gu Xi thought to himself, always protecting everyone, yet not saying anything, not explaining anything.The stupidity of gritted teeth and resistance is so anti-intellectual, what did I like about him.

Until Ji Yuan now disappeared from sight, Gu Xi looked at the series of footprints that were gradually covered by heavy snow, and he began to hum.

In fact, the simplest liking is knowing that Ji Yuanxian rejected him, this time he rejected him bluntly, and Gu Xi never complained.But he won't get any closer, and from now on, he will hide all his likes, no longer ostentatiously, no longer use it to restrain Ji Yuanxian.

After Gu Xi finished humming the song, people came and went, trampling on and blurring Ji Yuanxian's footprints.

He thought, "I'll try to live well, and so will you."

Ren Jun travels in different places, when we look back together, may you and I have tears in our eyes.

When Li Zhengchuan put it down, it was raining heavily, he sighed, and let it go.

When Gu Xi wanted to put it down, he was blinded by heavy snow, and he hummed a song, and let it go.

But Ji Yuan found out that he had dealt with Gu Xi's feelings and ran to the commissary alone.He bought a box of hot Vitasoy, and then sat by the flower bed downstairs in Wenke.

Ji Yuan now brushed off the snow with his hands, and then wiped it with a paper towel.He sat there alone, holding an umbrella and holding Vitasoy in his hand.

Ji Yuan took a sip now, his lips that were so cold that he couldn't feel it suddenly felt hot.The numb nerves suddenly woke up, and Ji Yuan was so hot that tears came out.

He could only blink, lowered his hands, and muttered, "What the hell."

The cold wind was blowing into his collar, and Ji Yuan was sitting there alone.

He thought, that's great, we're leaving.

Life is not just gathering and parting.

Ji Yuanxian sat there for an unknown amount of time, and the hot Vitasoy in his hand seemed to freeze.He took out a matcha candy from his bag and threw it into his mouth.As a result, the sweet fragrance occupies the taste buds again.Forcibly suppressed the bitterness in my heart.

It was so cold that no one wanted to cry.

Ji Yuan became a little silent now, and his figure lost weight rapidly.The fat that had been put back with great difficulty before seemed unable to take root on his body, and it disappeared again in the blink of an eye.

The goal he set was neither high nor easy. It was a 211 in the city of S.He decided to stay here, not only to accompany his mother, but also to lay the foundation for the path he chose in the future.

Ji Yuanxian called Xue Yunqi a few days ago, briefly explaining his sexual orientation and his mother's on-the-spot capture.

Xiao Cheng smiled unkindly at the other end, Xue Yunqi slapped him and told Xiao Cheng to shut up.

"I'm going back to China soon, or I'll talk to Aunt Xue."

Back then, Xue Yunqi's coming out was so earth-shattering that he directly bypassed his family and made headlines.When everyone came back to their senses, Xue Yunqi dragged Xiao Cheng into the house and knelt down.

But other people’s examples cannot be applied to oneself. At that time, Xue Yunqi was already 22, and the talented conductor became popular all over the world.He has financial strength and an independent personality, and he has the confidence to reason with his family.

And now Ji Yuanxian doesn't have any of these things.

"Don't talk to my mother, or she will think I ordered you." Ji Yuan turned his pen now, and now at one o'clock in the morning, he finally finished writing the math problem.

"Brother, I want to become stronger and more independent, and I want to love him openly...Let Li Zhengchuan go first, he has his own future, and love is not the whole of life."

"Aren't you afraid that he won't come back after he leaves?"

"...I'm afraid, why not. I'm even prepared for him not to come back," Ji Yuan now looked up at the ceiling.The light reflected a long and narrow figure, and his eyes suddenly hurt.

"Whoever said, I have a sense of security. Brother, he may really not come back."

Xue Yunqi: "Then you still want him to go?"

"How can you not see the wider world?" Ji Yuanxian chuckled twice, "otherwise he will think that what he sees is everything. There are too many excellent people in this world, and I am afraid that Li Zhengchuan will know them. They are also afraid that Li Zhengchuan will never know them."

"Brother, you don't even know how much I like him."

"But love doesn't mean binding him by my side. He loves me, but he is free. He should go and see, take a look at this boundless and wonderful world."

"And then, what are you going to do?"

Xue Yunqi's question was simple and to the point, across the vast ocean, he suddenly felt a wave of worship.He wrote a sentence on the paper, asking Xiao Cheng to do it quickly.

Xiao Cheng took a glance, curled his lips, and smiled again.Someone should stand up and say a few words of justice for young people's love.

Ji Yuanxian bit the tip of his pen, and smiled with his lips drawn.

"What do I do, what do I not do."

"I'll stay here and wait...Actually, I've always misunderstood myself. I thought I was a vagabond."

"Brother, I just realized now that I am actually Wang Baochuan in my bones."

Ji Yuan has already thought about it a long time ago, he will not leave here.This city is where the story begins, and it's time to wait for an ending here.

He wasn't sure, he wasn't sure who would go and who would stay.Not sure who will come back and who will never be seen again.Life is a gamble.

Even if Li Zhengchuan doesn't come back anymore, Ji Yuan will be unwilling, sad, and unable to get rid of this pure youthful relationship for a long time.But he has no right, in the name of love, to do things like tying robbers.

Ji Yuan now thinks, it's really over, it's over.He liked Li Zhengchuan more than he imagined.

"If Li Zhengchuan doesn't come back," Ji Yuanxian said, "I'm sorry, bro..."

"I can't imagine that image, I'm really, really, going to be very sad."

Ji Yuan now held back his emotional turmoil, took a deep breath, hung up the voice call, and rubbed his eyes.After a while, he let out a long breath.The quality of sleep has plummeted recently, and I am going to the kitchen to pour a cup of hot milk.

His footsteps were a bit slow, when Ji Yuanxian went downstairs, Li Zhengchuan went upstairs with two glasses of milk.

They each had a meal and laughed at the same time.

Li Zhengchuan walked up and handed over the water glass.With a gentle voice, he rubbed Ji Yuanxian's cheek with the back of his hand.

"I've lost weight recently, so I still need to study moderately. We don't sleep together, and you can't secretly work overtime and study behind my back."

"The body is your own, don't be too strong."

Ji Yuan was now gurgling milk, tilting his head up, holding back the pan-acid liquid in his eyes.Half a minute later, he drank it all in one gulp, leaving a circle of milk stains on his lips.

"...Actually, I would rather you be indifferent to me. Don't be like this, by my side, and give me candy." Ji Yuan now raised the corner of his mouth, smiling astringently and far-fetchedly.

"Don't be so nice to me, really. I'm afraid I can't hold back my nostalgia and reluctance, so I don't want you to go to America."

"But I want to be nice to you."

Li Zhengchuan said that his eye sockets were a little red, and he was smiling desperately.

"Ji Yuanxian, I will treat you well. You always want me to go, and I can't help but hate you. But when you are in front of my eyes, I really, really like you."

"Ji Yuanxian, let me treat you well, really. After graduation, I can blame you for your ignorance of good and bad. Only then can I have the motivation to resist coming back from the United States to find you."

Li Zhengchuan said these words in a calm and unhurried manner.He wanted to capture a trace of paleness from Ji Yuanxian's face, but the other party just held onto the cup tightly.

Ji Yuan now pretends to be calm and indifferent, conniving.

He smiled and said, "Okay, it's all up to you."

Ji Yuanxian has never been a gentleman, he just holds a conscience.

In the face of love and selfish desires, choose to chew pain like candy.