driftwood

Chen Xing waited for a long time, week after week, Zhou Chen did not come to him.He missed Zhou Chen so much that day, he really couldn't take it anymore, his mind was in chaos, and when he woke up again, he had dialed out the phone and kept calling, but finally no one answered, and the screen went black.

In so many days, the first time I called Zhou Chen was the first time I realized that Zhou Chen really didn't want him anymore, and he couldn't find Zhou Chen anymore.

He hurriedly booked air tickets, left behind a pile of unfinished experimental reports, didn't have time to bring any luggage, and stumbled all the way to the airport. When sitting on the plane, Chen Xing's heart almost jumped out of his chest. The roar of the plane The sound vibrated in his ears, shattering his sanity, and the hand holding his trousers was too hard, trembling slightly where no one could see.

Chen Xing closed his eyes and leaned on the seat. The stewardess next to him asked him if he wanted a blanket. He shook his head slightly. He was not cold, but scared or flustered.

It was almost early morning when the plane landed, and the passengers who got off the plane with Chen Xing all sat in the passenger seats of their family and friends in a blink of an eye. Chen Xing suddenly remembered that that time, Zhou Chen also came to pick him up at the airport, hugged him and smiled, and smiled lightly. Kiss him gently, drag the suitcase and say to him: "Let's go home."

The taxi driver greeted him at the door, Chen Xing casually got into a taxi with the door open, looked out the window and said to the driver: "Please drive faster."

The closer you get to the finish line, the clearer the panic in your heart becomes.He pushed open a door, behind which he wondered if there was anyone he wanted.

The road in the early morning was very quiet, the driver stepped on the accelerator all the way, and the one-hour journey was abruptly completed in four to ten minutes.Chen Xing got out of the car at the gate of the community, took out two hundred pieces and handed them to the driver. The driver lowered his head and counted the change, but when he looked up again, the person was gone.

The community gate was closed, and the lights in the security room were dark. Chen Xing stood outside the wall, took a few steps back and ran and jumped onto the wall. The wall was quite high, and Chen Xing didn't realize it until he jumped over it.The whole neighborhood was dark, Chen Xing trotted all the way downstairs, the lights on the third floor were also dark, Zhou Chen might have fallen asleep.

Chen Xing walked slowly while holding on to the railing, and the voice control lights didn't turn on.He went to the third floor and stood in front of the door. It was so dark that he couldn't see anything.His knuckles clasped on the wooden board, and there were two heavy and slow sounds. Chen Xing put down his hands and waited for several minutes, but there was no sound of footsteps in the room.Knock a few more times, still nothing.

Chen Xing knocked on the door with his head down, his fingers were numb. Why hasn't Zhou Chen come yet?

Before he could speak, his nasal cavity began to turn sour. He whispered outside the door: "Zhou Chen, please open the door. I'm Chen Xing."

No one responded.

He repeated again: "Zhou Chen, I'm Chen Xing, please open the door."

Chen Xing leaned against the wall and slowly sat on the ground. The concrete floor was damp and cold. His voice was a little louder: "Zhou Chen, the corridor is so cold, please open the door and let me in."

The voice-activated light was on, but the light was dim and weak. Chen Xing stared at the door in a daze. Why did he remain motionless? He had been talking for so long, why didn't Zhou Chen hear it?

Footsteps came towards the door, the door opened slowly, Chen Xing turned his head, and Uncle Wang was wearing a thick coat and asked him through a security door: "It's you, I thought it was a thief, why now? Come back, I thought you moved away too."

Something collapsed in my heart, and the smashed heart hurts like a mess.Zhou Chen said that he didn't cry when he broke up, and he didn't cry when Zhou Chen didn't reply to the message. After so many days of insomnia, he didn't cry when he thought of Zhou Chen every night. Now he just blinked, one drop, two drops, three drops, and finally connected , extending from the eye socket to the ground.

Chen Xing put his arms around his knees, the cold was shaking from bottom to top, tears fell to the ground, he didn't even raise his hands to wipe, but asked softly: "When did you move?"

Uncle Wang was a little strange: "It's been a week since I moved, don't you know?"

Chen Xing's neck slowly bent down, and his face was buried in his knees.Uncle Wang said again: "Try to see if the lock has been changed. The landlord brought someone to see the house a few days ago. I don't know if it has been rented out."

"You child, the ground is too cold, don't sit down." Uncle Wang looked at Chen Xing for a while after speaking, but Chen Xing still didn't move. Uncle Wang sighed and closed the door gently again.

The lights were also turned off. Chen Xing sat motionless for a long time. His neck hurt and his butt hurt. He stood up slowly with his hands on the wall. He thought that Zhou Chen would definitely be there. Did not bring.

Tears fell all the way down the stairs, and finally merged into a sea by the side of the road.Chen Xing squatted on the side of the road and cried heart-rendingly. He remembered that he had never cried like this before. He was so out of breath that he couldn't even hear his voice until the end.There is a green light moving on the other side of the road. It is the cat's eyes. Zhou Chen often feeds those cats.

You see, when you leave, no one loves those cats anymore.

Chen Xing woke up sitting by the door in the morning, and the message on his mobile phone seemed to explode. Wang Yizhe sent a message saying that the director was looking for him. Chen Xing looked at it and replied: "I will go back at night." Wang Yizhe didn't reply again, Chen Xing leaned against the door and closed his eyes again.

Where have you been, you moved, you don't want your home, you don't want your job, you don't want me anymore, what do you want?Now that I'm here, what better world do you want?

Near noon, the landlord came up with people who looked after the house.Chen Xing rubbed his sore and swollen eyes, he patted his buttocks and stood up, regardless of how swollen his eyes were.The landlord was a middle-aged woman, she was stunned for a few seconds when she saw Chen Xing.Chen Xing first said, "Let me rent the house." It was as if a few drops of ice water dripped into his throat after being exposed to the sun for a day, and after the rapid evaporation, all that was left was a burning pain.

The landlord turned around and looked at the boy beside him with some embarrassment. The boy smiled and waved his hand: "It's fine with me, just find another room."

Chen Xing raised his head, looked at the boy and said, "Thank you."

"It's okay, then I'll go first." The boy turned and went downstairs, the landlord opened the door with the key, Chen Xing followed her in, the shoe cabinet was empty, and when he went in again, the sofa and coffee table were still there, The book on the coffee table was gone, and so was the cup.There were no flower pots on the balcony either.

As for the bedroom, Chen Xing gently opened the bedroom door, the big bed was still there, there was nothing on the mattress, and the wardrobe was empty.It's as if no one has ever lived here.

The contracts were ready-made. After signing the contract, Chen Xing transferred half a year's rent to the landlord.Going back to the house, he filled the bathtub with water. When he was sitting in it, he could still remember Zhou Chen brushing his wound with his fingertips across his back, tears falling on his neck, he remembered a lot, some Tired, he drained the water, curled up in the bathtub and fell asleep.

When the first snow fell this year, Chen Xing still couldn't wait for Zhou Chen, nor could he wait for what he wanted to hear.

On his birthday, Chen Xing entered a bar. The bar had a very narrow wooden door. Inside the wooden door, like all bars, there was a counter, wine, people, excitement, and drunkenness.Chen Xing sat on the chair in front of the bar, ordered a glass of ice water, propped his chin to watch the bartender mix the drink, and watched the bottle rise and fall in the air.

Chen Xing looked at it for a while, lowered his head and smiled, not as good-looking as Zhou Chen, he thought.

He suddenly wanted to drink, but Zhou Chen was not there.

He didn't want to walk anymore, but Zhou Chen wasn't there.

It was a bit cold for him to sleep alone, but Zhou Chen was not there.

It's like the wind coming across the mountains and the sea, bringing the spring scenery outside the mountains. The wind will continue to wander, but there are only a few years of cold winter in the mountains.

The winter vacation was neither long nor short, Du Ke tweeted Chen Xing to go on a trip, Chen Xing was too lazy to go out and stayed at home for a vacation.He wakes up on the sofa most of the time, occasionally in the study.For the bed in the bedroom, Chen Xing put on new sheets and bought a very warm quilt, but he never slept on it.

He learned a lot of new dishes and only made them for himself. They were very light and not spicy at all.The white cat downstairs gave birth to several kittens, two with flowers and three pure white ones.Chen Xing went to the flower bed every morning to feed them milk, bread, and occasionally pork belly.

At New Year's Eve, Chen Jianping came back, and took Chen Qi and his wife back to their new home.Chen Jianping called him and asked him to go to have a reunion dinner. Chen Xing stood on the balcony watching the fireworks, listening to Chen Qi shouting "Happy New Year" to him over there, Chen Xing smiled and asked him: "Is there a long year?" High?"

Chen Qi was very excited over there: "You've grown taller, you've grown so tall, you're the second tallest in our class."

"It's awesome, you have to eat well, and you will grow taller than your brother in a few years."

"Brother," Chen Qi asked him in a small voice, "Do you have any girls you like?"

Chen Xing was stunned, and Chen Qi said over there: "I seem to like a girl."

Chen Xing smiled: "Do you know what liking is?"

"I know." Chen Qi said confidently: "I am very happy to see her every day. My mother only let me eat a piece of chocolate a week. I was reluctant to eat it and gave it to her. Sometimes when she asks for leave, I feel very uncomfortable. , because I can't see her."

Chen Xing smiled and said, "That's it, I like it."

He stretched out his hand to pull the curtain, glanced casually downstairs, and suddenly tightened his grip on the curtain. He couldn't hear what Chen Qi said there. In the dark night, there was smoke burning, scarlet The fire light went up and down in the air, as if, it was him.

Chen Xing grabbed his phone and ran outside like crazy, there was no one there, the place where the fire was shining just now, there is no one now.Chen Xing propped his hands on his knees and was panting badly. There were only a pile of cigarette butts and half a cigarette on the ground.Chen Xing looked around and panted, "Zhou Chen, is that you?"

No one responded, Chen Xing slowly sat by the flower bed, "Zhou Chen, I know it's you, do you miss me?"

"It's okay if you don't want to see me, just stand still and listen to me for a while."

"Happy New Year, Zhou Chen." Chen Xing smiled: "I've lost weight, and I'm the first major at the end of the semester, so I'm not happy."

He was too anxious when he came down, so Chen Xing was wearing a thin T-shirt, and when the wind blew, he shivered from the cold, and he lowered his head and said, "Also, I'm so damn good-tempered, Zhou Chen , since I was a child, you are the first one who dares to bully me like this."

"However, since I was a child, you are the first one who can make me like you so much."

"I miss you, remember to come and see me."

After Chen Xing finished speaking, he went up the stairs without turning his head. Then, Zhou Chen saw that the curtains on the third floor were drawn and the lights were turned off.The place where Chen Xing just sat was blown cold by the wind. Zhou Chen sat down there and lit a cigarette with his head tilted. Squinted.

The author has something to say: This is an author who doesn't talk too much, and it will be updated tonight, but this chapter is not sweet, you can read it after the end...