driftwood

Chen Xing called Zhou Chen last night, but no one answered, and no one answered when he sent a message.As soon as he opened his eyes early in the morning, he went to touch his phone, but there was nothing, no missed calls, no news from Zhou Chen.He was a little anxious, so he sat on the bed and dialed Zhou Chen. It didn't take long for him to connect, but there was no sound over there.

Chen Xing asked: "Zhou Chen?"

"Well, it's me." It sounded like a hangover, dry and hoarse, as if a plate of sand had been rubbed into it.

Chen Xing was so shocked by Zhou Chen's voice that he couldn't speak for a long time, and finally asked blankly: "What's wrong with you?"

"I'm fine. My relative is sick. I'm in the hospital and haven't slept well."

Chen Xing let go of his hanging heart, holding the phone and didn't know what to say, after a while of silence, Chen Xing said: "Zhou Chen, I'll go back and see you."

Zhou Chen coughed a few times over there, which made Chen Xing's heart clenched together. Zhou Chen said, "I'm fine, just go to school well."

"If something happens, you must tell me, don't support it alone."

"Well, yes, I still have something to do here, hang up."

"Well, I'm getting up."

Chen Xing hung up the phone, fell down and buried his head in the quilt. He knew that something must be wrong with Zhou Chen, but he didn't want him to know.Why do you suddenly feel that he is so far away from Zhou Chen?

Zhou Chen went to drink last night and drank all night.Yang Qiu wants his kidney, but he seems to have to give it to her whether she wants it or not, but his heart hurts a little, for both himself and Chen Xing.

No one said that he knew that Chen Xing would go farther and farther in the future, and he didn't know if he could catch up with all his strength.This problem can't be avoided, what should come will come, I have to admit that in love, the word is right, otherwise two people, one walks very fast, in order to wait for the other, deliberately slow down and give up some It should be your own.One walked very slowly, and in order to catch up with the other he had to run until he was exhausted and scarred by the thorns along the way.

Zhou Chen stretched out his hand and touched his chin. The short, hard stubble was a bit prickly. He smiled. He didn't grow a beard overnight, instead of growing old overnight.In the bathroom of the hotel, he shaves seriously in front of the mirror. There is a thick layer of white foam on his chin, and his eyes are red from exhaustion.He propped his hands on the washstand and stared at the mirror for a while, thinking, Chen Xing didn't know if he liked his appearance or not.

Zhou Chen went to the hospital, filled out a series of forms, and did a lot of tests. Dr. Tian said that the matching results would be available in a week.

He hired a nurse to take care of Yang Qiu. He went back to the hotel and closed his eyes day and night on the narrow bed. When he closed his eyes, it was all Chen Xing. Chen Xing was cooking with an apron on, sitting on the sofa hugging The cat, crouching under the desk lamp to do homework, hugging his legs to let himself carry them, and Chen Xing's cautious tone on the phone.

Zhou Chen rested his arms on his eyes and said lazily, "You scum."

If you agreed to like him, why did you make him tired and scared?

There was no news from Zhou Chen for several days, and Chen Xing wanted to make a call, but was afraid that he was busy.Wang Yizhe asked him during the meal: "What's the matter with you recently?"

Chen Xing lowered his head and ate the rice bite by bite, "What's wrong?"

Wang Yizhe glanced at him: "I don't think you're in the right state, why are you always distracted in class?"

Chen Xing raised his head and said, "It's nothing, I kind of miss Zhou Chen, what should I do?"

"Promise, go back and see him when you think about it."

"Then I'll go back this week."

Chen Xing didn't call Zhou Chen either, he was only thinking about going back to see him on the weekend, and his mood improved a lot.Staying up late to catch up on lab reports doesn't feel like a pain anymore.

It was on Friday morning that he received Han Ya's call. Chen Xing looked at it and pressed the answer button by accident.

There was obvious joy in Han Ya's voice: "Xiaoxing, you have a younger sister."

During the quiet recess, Chen Xing could hear clearly that he had a younger sister, Han Ya had a child, and his mother had become someone else's mother.

"Then, congratulations."

His throat felt a little uncomfortable, and he couldn't say any more unnecessary words. He didn't listen to what Han Ya said over there, and he was a little tired.

The air ticket is in the afternoon, and there are two classes to attend in the afternoon. As soon as Chen Xing rushed back to the dormitory after class, the phone in his pocket started ringing.Zhou Chen's phone call, Chen Xing went to the balcony, answered the phone and said, "Are you at home? I'll be back this week."

"Chen Xing, let's separate."

Zhou Chen's voice was low, and he spoke very slowly, every word was very clear. Chen Xing was stunned for a long time, suspecting that he had heard wrongly, he smiled and said, "Scared me again."

Zhou Chen said softly and gently, "Let's forget it."

As if being poured over his head by a bucket of ice water, Chen Xing felt cold and his heart was frozen.He tried his best not to shake his voice, but it didn't work, his voice trembled a lot: "What do you mean?"

Said the cruelest words in the world in a gentle voice: "Chen Xing, let's break up."

Chen Xing opened his mouth, unable to speak, the fishy-sweet taste spread from his throat to the whole mouth, as if his heart had been gouged out with a knife, and his whole body was empty. It turns out that the real homelessness is this kind of Feel.

The sound seemed to be two pieces of rough sandpaper rubbing together. It is not impossible to grow old overnight. Anyway, Chen Xing felt that he was dead now, so he asked Zhou Chen in an ugly voice: "What's wrong with you?"

"Have you ever thought about our future? I have thought about it many times." Zhou Chen smiled. It was the laughter Chen Xing had heard many times. I won't laugh at him anymore.

Zhou Chen said: "When you fell asleep with me in your arms, and when I missed you, every time I think about it, I feel very uncomfortable. In fact, I have always been worried that you will leave. I watched you step by step away from me. As we got farther and farther away, I stood still and couldn't move. Chen Xing, I can't keep you, we will lose the topic of conversation in the future, you will have a new life, meet a group of excellent people like you, you are only 19 years old, You'll meet someone better than me. We'll only get tired if this goes on. So forget it."

"Then, don't want me anymore, what are you going to do?"

Zhou Chen was at a loss: "I don't know, I'm in a mess."

"Zhou Chen, do you know what I regret the most in the past 19 years?" Without giving Zhou Chen time to answer, Chen Xing smiled and said, "What I regret the most is that I have spent so much effort to come here."

"What I regret the most is that I spent so many years studying hard and left you."

"If you know the meaning of my hard work, it's actually to abandon you, Zhou Chen, I'd rather be illiterate, ignorant, and stay in a rented house, cooking and washing for you every day."

There was a deep sense of powerlessness in Zhou Chen's voice. He said, "Chen Xing, what I'm most afraid of is that you give up for me, the whole world. You know, I miss you more, because I have a bigger and more Good world, but I can't give it to you."

Chen Xing supported the wall with one hand, and he couldn't stand when he loosened his hand. He asked Zhou Chen, "Have you thought about it?"

Zhou Chen didn't speak, Chen Xing smiled: "I know, you can't bear it, as you said, you can't bear it."

"Let's just leave it at that."

Really couldn't stand anymore, Chen Xing sat down along the wall, the ground was so cold, he stretched his legs and put them on the ground, he said to the phone: "I'll wait for you, I don't care if you like it, three days and five days God, three to five years, anyway, I am still young, I have plenty of time, if you think about me crazy one day, come back to me, I will not be angry with you, at that time, the person I love the most will definitely still be you."

"Chen Xing, don't wait."

The screen went black, and Zhou Chen hung up after finishing speaking. Chen Xing's hand holding the phone dropped, and the phone slid down and hit the ground. Zhou Chen's last words were to tell him not to wait. Chen Xing reached out to touch the top of his left hand. The ring is neither fat nor thin, and the ring fits very well, and it fits perfectly on his hand. Why doesn't Zhou Chen want him?

The plane back was still parked at the airport, and the luggage was only half packed at noon. He bought a few more shirts for Zhou Chen and kept them in the closet.Before he had time to say, he had another younger sister, and before he had time to tell Zhou Chen: "I really only have you this time.", before he had time to do anything, Zhou Chen left.

Someone came back from the dormitory. Chen Xing stood up slowly with the support of the wall. His eyes were pitch black. He heard a muffled sound when his body fell to the ground. He heard hurried footsteps. He heard Wang Yizhe calling him. He finally heard Zhou Chen say: "Chen Xing, let's break up."

Zhou Chen was sitting on the ground leaning against the bed, with the crumpled inspection results in hand, 50.00% success rate, so lucky, he met.

They broke up like this, he told Chen Xing not to wait, he knew that Chen Xing would be disobedient, he knew that Chen Xing would be very uncomfortable, he knew that he was putting a knife in Chen Xing's heart.

In half a month, he will have an operation. After the operation, he will pay Yang Qiu back, but he owes Chen Xing, how should he pay it back.

When Chen Xing woke up again, he saw Xu Xin, Du Keming, Shen Chengyan, and three people in the dormitory.It was dark outside, Chen Xing asked, "Did I faint?"

Wang Yizhe said: "You frightened me to death, you fell straight up."

Xu Xin asked anxiously from the side: "What happened? The doctor said it was overstimulation. What stimulated you?"

Chen Xing smiled at Xu Xin: "It's nothing, I just fainted for a while, it's nothing."

"That's okay, can you work on your body yourself?"

Xu Xin stood beside him nagging for a long time, Du Keming continued nagging, and finally when the people had finished leaving, Shen Chengyan closed the door of the ward, pulled a stool and sat next to Chen Xing, and said, "Now tell me, what happened? "

Chen Xing smiled: "Why can't I fool you every time."

Shen Chengyan asked, "Is it Zhou Chen?"

Chen Xing turned his head, "Well, he said he wanted to break up."

Shen Chengyan was silent for a while, and asked, "What did you say?"

"I said I'll wait for him, that's all."

Shen Chengyan pressed his fingers on Chen Xing's shoulder, and he whispered, "You're fine."

"Well, I'm fine."

Without him, I will eat well, sleep well, attend class well, miss him well, and wait for him well.

So, it's nothing, anyway, he still loves me, and I love him too, he will always come back, I can wait for it.

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