rainy tonight

Ever since he realized that Song Fanqing had started to distance himself from him, Fei Dong was in an unhappy mood, and even nicotine and fine wine couldn't stimulate his mood well.

More importantly, he still doesn't know what he is doing badly.

Fei Dong initially thought that Song Fanqing lost his temper because of something, or that he had reached the so-called rebellious period. He himself had it when he was young, so he didn't take it seriously. Later, in a month or two, more and more Half a year later, their relationship still hasn't returned to its original state, and Fei Dong is a little depressed.

It wasn't until Chang Jiayu learned about Song Fanqing's school violence that he realized that his intuition was correct, that child really wasn't close enough to him.

But when Fei Dong asked, Song Fanqing just said lightly that he forgot.Fei Dong helplessly rubbed his head, knowing that this sentence was just an excuse, and he was willing to say anything to himself in the past.

Fei Dong pondered for a long time, thinking what he might not have done well, one night when he and Yan Jun came out of the bar, lifted the lid of the trunk, and saw the bag of dry buns inside, he remembered it.

By the way, it seems that his estrangement from him started after his birthday last year. Song Fanqing even gave him a silver ring at that time. Fei Dong wore it for a few days, and almost lost it twice. He put the ring away.And since the birthday of that year ended, the relationship between the two of them was like a layer of ice, no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't break it.

Fei Dong likes to eat dry steamed bun slices, and Song's mother always remembers that she likes to give them to him in autumn and winter.

It's okay once or twice, and I can't eat too much.He has several cars, and he drives them in rotation. Sometimes things are left in the trunk of one car and he forgets to take them out, gathering dust.If I remember correctly, last year he forgot a bag of dried steamed buns in the car, and when he found out he couldn't eat it anymore, and the same mistake happened again this year.

After drinking, his mind turned faster instead. He vaguely remembered that Song Fanqing had reminded him not to spoil things when Song's mother delivered them. It was because he was careless and unhappy at that time.

This is a trivial matter. Fei Dong didn't think that Song Fanqing would lose his temper for so long because of this matter, but he couldn't think of anything else, so he could only think so.When taking Song Fanqing to the hospital one day, Fei Dong took the initiative to mention that incident and apologized, saying that he would pay attention to it in the future.

In the end, he was still treated indifferently, and he was somewhat frustrated.

On New Year's Eve, after having dinner with a few friends, he drove to Song's house.

The room was fairly warm, the original one and the one he had given were nestled in front of the stove, both squinting, very lazy.

This year, both parents returned to their hometown for the New Year. Fei Dong discussed with Song's mother to stay here for one night.

There was no need to drive back, and she didn't shy away from drinking. Mother Song took two bottles of beer, and Fei Dong drank slowly, his eyes basically wandering around the TV screen and the boy beside him.

His capacity for alcohol was not bad, and he was slightly drunk when he drank the second bottle. He stood up and wanted to go to the bathroom, but he tripped over the coffee table, and his tall body immediately shook. Seeing this, Song Fanqing stretched out his hand to pull him.

Fei Dong's heart moved, he turned around and pressed the man under him, scratching his itchy flesh with his hands.

Song Fanqing was most afraid of this, and burst into tears from laughing, but he was still unable to escape the clutches of Fei Dong, who suppressed him and bullied him.

The person below him had a reddish complexion, slightly wet eyes, begging for mercy with a sideways face, and his fair neck was raised, looking weak and somewhat stubborn.

There was a surge of heat in his abdomen, and when he realized that he had a physical reaction, Fei Dong was shocked, stopped his hands immediately, got up and went to the bathroom.

He splashed cold water on his face and stood quietly for a while before the hotness in his body gradually faded away.

Fei Dong looked at himself in the mirror, and the thoughts in his mind were a little messy.

How could he have desire in the situation just now? It shouldn't be, it's ridiculous.

Could it be because of drinking too much wine?

Song Fanqing laughed so hard just now that his stomach hurt a little, so he rested on the back of the sofa for a while.

A skit started and ended, but the person hasn't come back yet, and he doesn't know what he is doing.

He stood up and looked out the window. The door glass of the bathroom was so thick that he couldn't see anything.

After that incident, Fei Dong conducted self-reflection and hadn't touched alcohol for a while. Several friends teased him that he was slack as a leader in the beverage industry.

One day a few months later, Fei Dong took Song Fanqing, who had just returned from his hometown, to his side, and then went to a banquet.Because he was thinking about his family, he bid farewell before the banquet was over and wanted to go back. He was also given a lot of alcohol before leaving, so he had to tip the waiter to help him drive the car home.

As soon as he entered the door, he heard what Song Fanqing and his classmates said.

"My mother's chronic disease has been going on for a long time, and foreign countries have more clinical experience in this area, but she is unwilling to go there because she is afraid of spending money. That's why I applied for this major. If I go abroad, I can learn more knowledge. If there is a suitable Opportunity can also take her over..."

"I don't know. My mother should want to live in China. I can do it. Maybe I will settle down, but the possibility is unlikely."

……

Fei Dong had never heard him talk about these things, such as what major he studied, going abroad, or settling in a foreign country, nothing at all.

He also didn't hear anything related to himself in Song Fanqing's future plan, and his originally relaxed heart suddenly sank.I don't know since when, he has been far away from his baby.

Sure enough, people tend to lose control when they drink alcohol. After hearing those words and looking at that fair and handsome face, he couldn't hold back his emotions, and pulled people to say a lot.Fei Dong saw the flickering light in Song Fanqing's eyes, and the emotion he couldn't understand.

In the end, what he got was a jerky and hasty kiss, and a sudden answer.

After understanding what was going on before, Fei Dong was a little dumbfounded, and also realized that he was a little too slow before.If it was someone else, he should have understood what was going on, but he stumbled at Song Fanqing.

In addition, after learning about Song Fanqing's intentions, Fei Dong found that he did not have any rejection of this matter, but a little joy burst out from the bottom of his heart.

He thought of their many interactions, and remembered the sudden loss of control on New Year's Eve. After a long silence, Fei Dong put his hands on his forehead.

He has to think about it.

One month later, on a clear summer day, Song Fanqing was watering the flowers and plants in the yard, and he was the only one at home at this time.

After hearing the knock on the door, he immediately put down the kettle and asked casually, "Who is it?"

"I."

Recognizing that it was Fei Dong's voice, Song Fanqing paused, stood inside the door for half a minute, and finally opened the door.

Outside the door, Fei Dong was standing there in casual clothes, with a tall and straight posture, holding a cage in his hand. Inside were two soft rabbits, which he sent back some time ago.

With a smile on the corner of Fei Dong's mouth, he raised his hand holding the cage: "How can you return the things you gave away? Keep raising them."

Song Fanqing looked at him and didn't speak for a moment. Fei Dong lowered his hands, stared at his face, and said in a low voice, "Xiaoqing, let's go in and talk."

After a while, Song Fanqing let go of his hand and let him in.

Fei Dong thought a lot this month. He recalled everything that happened to him and Song Fanqing in the past, and found that he had changed his feelings for Song Fanqing unconsciously.In fact, there was an omen before, but he subconsciously felt that it was impossible, so he realized it so late.

Fei Dong knew who he was. He had an unrestrained personality, and he hadn't given much sincerity in love. The men and women he had dated with were all the same kind of people, so he didn't have any psychological burden.

After the comparison, Fei Dong clearly felt that his feelings for Song Fanqing were different from any previous experience.

He would care about every aspect of Song Fanqing, from his body to his emotions, and he would feel depressed because of the alienation of the other party, and he would not be able to lift his spirits up for everything.Counting it, it has been a year since I have been in a relationship, and it seems that most of the time when I am free, I am thinking about the other party.

Before that, Fei Dong never thought of growing old with anyone, it was too platonic for him.But thinking about it now, he can imagine what the future of himself and Song Fanqing might look like. If they can really grow old together, it will be an extremely happy thing.This kind of experience is very novel, but it also makes people feel at ease like never before.

This time, Fei Dong wants to try to start a brand new relationship.In the previous month, he allowed himself to calm down and make plans after careful consideration.The purpose is to confirm your own mind, because the person you want to love deserves the most attentive treatment.

In the brightly lit room, he said with the gentlest voice he had ever had in his life: "Maybe I am the one who can go a long way with you, maybe in the long future you will find that I am not suitable and want to choose to break up. But no Relationship, we can all try, how will we know if we don’t try?”

Song Fanqing looked into his eyes, his heartbeat suddenly accelerated, and he said softly, "I want to take back what I said earlier."

"What?"

"I asked you if you would always like me, but this question was too idealistic. The future is unknown. You can't give me a definite answer, and neither can I."

Fei Dong nodded: "Yes, so is Xiaoqing willing to try walking with me? Let's see how far we can go."

Song Fanqing stared at him for a long time, then nodded.Fei Dong smiled and stretched out his hand, and he also solemnly put his hand on it and clenched it tightly.

Then try it.

And this try, I tried for a lifetime.

The author has something to say:

It's officially over, and it is expected that "Glass" will open around New Year's Day, thank you for your company O(∩_∩)O~