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After the experiment, Chang Jiayu walked out of the laboratory with his classmates.

The boy next to him stretched and asked Chang Jiayu: "How do you connect the circuit for the second part of the operation? I always feel that there are some loopholes in my approach."

After listening to his explanation, Chang Jiayu said: "I have the same process as yours, so it should be that way."

"Haha, that's good, I'm relieved, I hope Kevin will give me a good grade. By the way, are you going to play football?"

Chang Jiayu shook his head and said, "You go, I have something to go back first."

"Okay, see you later."

Chang Jiayu watched his classmates leave, took out his phone, and there was new news.

Guan Xun had already told him the specific location of his seat in the coffee shop, and Chang Jiayu looked for it according to the information.

When he arrived, Guan Xun was obsessed with the DSLR, and was taking pictures of the fill-in-the-blanks outside the window. Chang Jiayu waited for him to finish taking pictures before walking over and calling Brother Guan.

Guan Xun turned off the DSLR and put it aside, raised his hand: "Sit down, what do you want to drink, I'll treat you."

"No need," Chang Jiayu leaned over the chair, "I'll pick it myself, the AA system is fine."

"Alright."

Chang Jiayu ordered a cup of hot cocoa, and it was quickly brought to the table. He picked it up and took a sip. The chocolate chips made a crisp sound between his teeth, and the cocoa powder melted into the water, giving it a mellow taste.

There was a cup of black coffee in front of Guan Xun, he had already drunk more than half of it, he didn't move any more, and chatted with Chang Jiayu for a few words.

When it came to why he came to this city and this university, Chang Jiayu did not lie, and simply replied: "I want to change places and change my mood at the same time, so I chose this place."

Guan Xun nodded: "Very good. I also applied to this school when I was in college. At that time, I was patronizing love and my grades did not meet the requirements, so the application failed."

Knowing in his heart who Guan Xun talked about the love with, Chang Jiayu lowered his head, licked the aftertaste of chocolate on his lips, and did not answer.

After planning to get to the point, Guan Xun didn't hesitate. He looked out the window at the pedestrians passing by from time to time, with a distant look in his gaze.

"Yan Jun and I met when we were in college," he said slowly, his voice lowered, and the nostalgic texture was smeared in the space filled with blues notes, "Together for a while, we will discuss topics together in class , playing ball and running together, or sneaking to the computer room to play games, it is natural to be together, he confessed, I accepted, everything went smoothly at the beginning.”

He picked up the tissue paper at hand and rolled it up, bowed his head and smiled slightly, feeling a little disappointed.

"At that time we were fine, and we had thought about what the future of the two of us would look like. After graduation, we all came out with our family members, but their reactions were very strong, and we were unwilling to give up, so we rented out together. I live in a house, and when I come home from work every day, I just stay in the house together and watch TV for a while, or go for a walk. Although I don’t get the approval of my parents, I live a very satisfying life, and I’m trying to ask for their understanding, but I didn’t expect that later Something like that will happen."

Guan Xun's voice was tinged with sadness, he paused for a while, and said something else first: "When he was in college, he was different from now. At that time, he was also very stable, but he often laughed, not as much as he is now. Mature, occasionally playing games and skipping class is because he encourages me to play together, he especially likes to play basketball, now he seems to stop playing and switch to boxing."

He looked at Chang Jiayu, who nodded silently, the sweet taste overflowing from his mouth faded, and it was a bit bitter.

What Guan Xun knew was a Yan Jun he didn't know, and what he had was the most precious memory at the beginning.Those sunrises and sunsets when he was young, and every bit of youth, he had never experienced with the other party, but it was still there.

He continued: "That accident changed our destiny. After I got into a car accident, I lost all my memories from the third year of high school to before the accident. My parents sent me abroad and changed my nationality. After all these years, I I have never been back, and I don’t know who I was with and what I experienced. But I grew up and lived in that place after all. The sometimes hesitation of my parents also made me slowly start to wonder, thinking I knew what my past was like, and I just wanted to make good works, so I went back to City B. The first time I saw him, I felt very familiar. At that time, I thought in my heart, maybe there is a relationship between me and this person. What happened. It's also fate somewhere, I met you again after returning from the mountain, and it didn't take long for me to recover my memory, and then I asked him to meet."

Chang Jiayu's hands tightened, and he listened silently.

"After we met, I realized that he had recognized me. At that time, not long after I recovered my memory, I was a little confused and emotional. I asked him why he didn't contact me in private. He said I have lost my memory when we meet again, and so many years have passed, not contacting is also a last choice. I thought, yes, it has been so many years, sitting face to face, and I can only say how have these years been, maybe talk Talking about the follow-up of that accident, there is nothing else to talk about. Well, actually there is still something to talk about," Guan Xun turned his head to the side, looked at Chang Jiayu and said, "You."

Chang Jiayu's body was stiff, he didn't look directly into Guan Xun's eyes, he held the corner of his mouth and said, "What are you talking about?"

"You were already together at the time, so I asked him how you got along. When Yan Jun mentioned you, he relaxed a little. It can be seen that your relationship is very close, and he treats you very well. Actually... …Some people also asked, is it really impossible for us.”

Chang Jiayu remained silent, but his heart beat a little faster. He took a sip from the cup in front of him to cover up, and Guan Xun said quietly: "He said he already has you."

With a slight tremor of the hand, some hot cocoa was spilled on the table. Chang Jiayu wiped it off with a paper towel, exhaled slowly, lowered his eyes in silence, and said in a low voice: "We have already broken up, and there is no need to know these words. .”

Guan Xun smiled: "Really? It seems that I was superfluous. After I learned from Fei Dong that you broke up, I was a little worried because I—"

"That's right," Chang Jiayu raised his head suddenly, met Guan Xun's gaze, and said word by word, "Brother Guan, I think you may have misunderstood, he... probably just because he is with me, he has to take on the burden of responsibility." He rejected you because of his responsibility. But he didn’t deny it later, he was so kind to me only because I look like you. In short, from the beginning to the end, he only likes you.”

He quickly slashed and exposed his wounds, his throat was slightly choked, and he stopped immediately.

It has been more than a year since the breakup, but some things still haven't disappeared, and you can see the soft meat inside when you tear the opening again.

Guan Xun didn't expect him to say such a thing. After being slightly dazed, he shook his head gently.

"I know him well, and I can see clearly. When he talked to me, the emotions in his eyes were not complicated. He didn't talk about emotional matters, and he wasn't very curious about my experiences over the years. He really let go. Maybe I recovered my memory earlier, maybe without you, we may not be able to be together again. He only misses me, some things have changed with the passage of time, and it is impossible to return to the original point. He will not People who force themselves to hide their emotions, if they still have a heart for me, they will speak up."

"...Would you blame him?" Chang Jiayu asked in a low voice.

Guan Xun said no: "On the other hand, it is impossible for me to feel that he betrayed our love just because he was with someone else after many years. Speaking of it, I was unintentionally sorry for him. I was arranged by my parents to fake my death. Staying abroad. No memory, no burden, and tried to be with other people, had a few different emotional experiences, but before meeting you, Jia Yu, Fei Dong said he was always trapped in the past, I put He stays alone in the sad past, but does not allow him to reap new love, then who am I?"

He let out a long sigh, leaned back on the chair, rubbed his forehead with his hands, closed his eyes and smiled lightly: "It can only be said that good luck tricks people, and the fate is not deep enough. I really feel very sorry, but I won't force it." .I still want to be with him, but it’s not an obsession. But now I think, everything is the best arrangement.”

Chang Jiayu didn't know what to say, so he sat with Guan Xun for a while, and finally the two of them paid the money and left together.

When we parted, Guan Xun took out a paper bag and handed it to Chang Jiayu: "Some photos I took are here for you."

Chang Jiayu was dumbfounded, and said with shame: "I didn't prepare a gift."

Guan Xun smiled nonchalantly: "No, I was the one who came to look for you. There is my contact information in it. If there is a chance, I will definitely see you again."

"Will do."

The two hugged, Guan Xun said close to Chang Jiayu's ear before parting: "I have missed a lot, and I know that things are impermanent, so I should try my best to cherish everything around me. You are sincere, just don’t doubt it.”

On the way back, Chang Jiayu still couldn't believe what Guan Xun said.

How could it be possible? Yan Jun could admit at the beginning that he relied on his face to remember the old man's original intention. He had guarded the lost love for many years. How could he possibly step into his heart? The more Chang Jiayu thought about it, the more funny he felt. ability.If more than a year ago, he might have believed it, but now he dare not.

But Guan Xun's words undoubtedly shook his heart a little. Maybe there is such a small probability that Yan Jun is really as he said, so what should he do?

The answer couldn't be figured out in a day or two. In order not to let himself think repeatedly and get upset, he went around a block for the next week and returned to the apartment from the other side, without meeting that person again.

Not feeling sleepy at night, he bowed his waist and sat up from the bed, vaguely smelling a few wisps of silky and dreamy fragrance of flowers.The last bunch of tulips had been in the bottle for a week, but the fragrance seemed to still be there, lingering in the space of the room.He already knew who gave the flower, but he didn't throw it away directly, but put it in a vase. Chang Jiayu didn't think much about his actions, and he didn't dare to think too much.

Unable to fall asleep from left to right, he took the keys, wrapped himself in a coat, and went out the door.

The school is in the suburbs. After walking through the empty streets at night, and then walking north for a while, it stood on the open and spacious road. It was straight for a while, and the rest of the winding road was buried in the deep and thick night. It's like a road that never ends.

Chang Jiayu stood on the side of the road and looked back, thinking that he would come here without sleep in the middle of the night, making him laugh.

Spring has come, but the cold night is as cold as winter. If the light is not too dark, he can see the red from the frozen fingers, but the red nose tip cannot be seen.

He was walking and stopping boredly, his chin suddenly felt cold, and then he felt the cold water drops continuously falling down.

Chang Jiayu raised his head and closed his eyes, feeling the drops of raindrops spreading between the heavens and the earth, gradually covering the surface of the road with dampness.Dust and cold air are mixed together, turbulent between breaths, continuous rainwater seeps into the coat and soaks inside, or slides from the chin to the neck, and is hidden in the cotton collar.

Suddenly, the feeling of being drenched in the rain disappeared.

Chang Jiayu slowly opened his eyes and turned his head away.

An umbrella was propped above his head, covering the pouring rainwater, forcing the water drops to drip from the sharp corners of the umbrella edge, and they jumped and rolled on the umbrella surface, winding and flowing, like It was the rapid drumbeat, and the collision made a dull sound.

The person under the umbrella stood silently, with some light in his deep eyes, he didn't speak, just held the umbrella and looked at him.

Chang Jiayu's mouth was dry, and he asked in a low voice, "What are you doing here again?"

Yan Jun looked at him and said, "I'm afraid you'll catch a cold."

After he finished speaking, Chang Jiayu turned around and looked straight at the man's handsome face.

Ten seconds later, he leaned over abruptly, hooked his arms around his tough neck, and directly pressed his lips against it.

The person who was kissed was stunned for a moment, and immediately wrapped his arms around Chang Jiayu's waist without raising an umbrella, and responded to his kiss with ecstasy.

The breath is the unique smell of Yan Jun's body. Chang Jiayu clings to his neck and back, he kisses so fiercely that he breaks Yan Jun's lips, and tastes the fresh smell of blood in his mouth, but refused to stop.

In the second half of the journey, he felt that the umbrella was too obstructive, so he waved it down, Yan Jun let go, supported his hips with both hands, hugged him on his body, and kissed him harder.

The rain poured down unobstructed, pouring on Chang Jiayu's head and face.The hair was completely soaked, and the locks hung down the side of the face, and the water kept rolling down from the tip of the hair.

In such hearty rain, he caressed each other's bodies with the person who was holding him without any scruples, exchanging breaths in his mouth, as if he wanted to take out his own heart, and as if he wanted to pull the other person's heart back, firmly firmly in the palm of your hand.

At the end of the kiss, Chang Jiayu was drenched all over, leaning on Yan Jun's body, touching the corner of the other's mouth with his slightly swollen lips, Yan Jun responded to him wholeheartedly, holding him firmly in his arms.

Chang Jiayu held his extremely handsome face, and gently scratched Yan Jun's chin with his fingers.His eye sockets were reddish, and his pupils were full of water, which could not be seen in the night.

The fingers slid down, and the five fingers slowly pressed the man's neck, separated by tens of centimeters, and the strong vibration of the heart could still be felt there.

He raised his eyes and looked at each other.

"I still like you."

Yan Jun trembled all over, and hugged him even tighter. Before he could say anything, Chang Jiayu leaned over again, pecked the corner of his mouth, and leaned against his cheek like that, with a hand that couldn't have been lighter. Voice statement: "I'm also scared because I still like you, and you, your heart is beating so hard, are you scared too?"