Don't think I'm just a sheep

"Yu Sheng? I... Am I dreaming?" Zhuo Yijing rubbed her eyes, trying to wake herself up.

"Is it a dream, I am willing to help you verify it."

Liang Yusheng put on a sly smile as he spoke, and with a hook of his hand, he pushed the man who had just sat up back on the bed. His lips touched, and he seemed to feel each other's eagerness and enthusiasm. They were like two drowning people , frantically plundering the air in each other's mouths.

The slightly ambiguous sound produced by the intersecting lips and tongues was infinitely amplified in this quiet atmosphere, and even a few strands of lustful silver were brought out when they parted.

"I specially asked someone to buy fireworks. Originally... I planned to set them off on New Year's Eve with you."

"……kindness"

"I also prepared a few dishes. I originally thought that if I didn't catch up with the New Year's Eve dinner, it would at least make up for your sumptuous supper."

"kindness"

"But right now, I don't want to do anything."

Liang Yusheng propped his hands on both sides of Zhuo Yijing's head, licking his round earlobes, "Because... there is a more important thing that needs to be done first."

Zhuo Yijing hugged the man's waist back, their eyes met in the air, after a while, he smiled, "I don't want to set off fireworks, and I don't want to have New Year's Eve dinner, what a coincidence, I... just want you now."

"That's as you wish."

After Liang Yusheng finished speaking, he leaned over and kissed those seductive red lips again. The new year is coming soon...

# # #

Afterwards, Zhuo Yijing held on to his consciousness until Liang Yusheng carried him out of the bathroom. When he touched the bed, he could no longer support his heavy eyelids and fell asleep again.

Liang Yusheng hugged him and lay down under the quilt, but he didn't turn off the light immediately, but watched him quietly under the dim light at the head of the bed. After a long time, he got out of bed, put on his pajamas, went to the balcony to light a cigarette, and faced the night Spit out white smoke.

In fact, this time, he came back from abroad with many doubts.

I did not stay with my family for the New Year. On the one hand, it was really because I felt sorry for Zhuo Yijing spending the New Year alone. I missed him and wanted to come back to be with him as soon as possible. But there was another small part of the reason, which was because he was in deep communication with my uncle. Afterwards, I desperately wanted to clarify some things.

Before He Yanqing said that Zhuo Yijing had a lost lover in his heart, Liang Yusheng didn't believe it and didn't take it seriously, because he used to confidently think that He Yanqing couldn't understand Zhuo Yijing better than him.

He was too confident, so confident that he ignored many details.

But when he heard Zhuo Yijing's debut song "Lost" hundreds of times like He Yanqing did, saw all the photos he took for the magazine at that time, and combined with He Yanqing's description of Zhuo Yijing's state at the shooting scene, He wavered.

Can such strong and heavy emotions really be achieved only by imagination?

Liang Yusheng wanted to ask Zhuo Yijing if there was really a lover who was deeply in love but couldn't stay together. He wanted to ask, those songs that he used to be self-righteous, thinking that he wrote because of his unrequited crush on him, Whether the injuries he has suffered actually have another owner that he has never known or heard of.

He wanted to ask too many questions, but the moment he saw Zhuo Yijing, he found that he couldn't ask anything.

The love in Zhuo Yijing's eyes was too clear, so clear that he felt that even a little doubt was an insult to the other party.

It doesn't matter if there was a former lover, as long as Ah Jing is in love with him now, it is enough.

Just like he once had a crush on Liu Xiyue, of course Zhuo Yijing may also have a past, if that person has passed away, it will no longer be an obstacle between the two of them.

Liang Yusheng tried his best to convince himself that he understood the truth, but...

He stretched out his hand to hold his chest that was throbbing with pain, regretting it, regretting not discovering how good his Ah Jing was earlier, regretting that he hadn't been able to accompany her earlier.

If he could get to know Ah Jing earlier and fall in love with Ah Jing earlier, would it not be possible for another person to break his heart.

Farewell to life and death, no one knows better than him that Ah Jing is a person with multiple emotions, he can't imagine how painful Ah Jing was back then...

The cigarette on his fingertips burned to the root, and the hot touch brought him back to his senses. Liang Yusheng extinguished the cigarette butt, turned and entered the room.

Lying back on the bed again, the sleeping Zhuo Yijing instinctively approached him in his arms, perhaps feeling the chill from the wind all over his body, and asked with deep sleepiness: "Why is it so cold?"

"I went to the balcony to smoke a cigarette, sorry."

Liang Yusheng gently pushed the person in his arms, wanting to hug him after he warmed up, but Zhuo Yijing didn't want to, instead he stuck to him, "Well, go to sleep."

"Okay." Liang Yusheng kissed his forehead, "Good night baby."

# # #

Zhuo Yijing woke up when the first ray of sunlight shone through the window in the morning, he turned his head and looked at the empty place beside him, he couldn't tell whether those beautiful pictures last night were real or caused by too much longing hallucinations.

There was a slight sound in the corridor, he jumped out of bed, and ran outside with bare feet. The man stood by the stairs, looking up at him who suddenly appeared in surprise.

"Why did you come out without slippers?" Liang Yusheng frowned slightly, picked up the stunned man, and walked towards the room.

Zhuo Yijing didn't answer his question, but instead showed a silly smile, "You're really back!"

"Otherwise? Think I'm dreaming?" Liang Yusheng leaned over and said with a smirk, "Have you ever dreamed of me before... Chunmeng?"

...

"That's it."

Zhuo Yijing blushed and ignored him, Liang Yusheng carried him back to the bed, squatted down to put cotton slippers on him, and pinched him lightly on the waist.

"Go wash up, and go downstairs for breakfast after washing."

"Good~"

Zhuo Yijing replied, the ending sound rose uncontrollably, confirming his good mood at the moment.

When he finished washing and went downstairs, the table was already full of dishes.

"How do you do so much?"

Speaking of this, Liang Yusheng felt a little helpless, "I didn't have time to make the New Year's Eve dinner that was originally prepared for you, didn't you have time to cook it last night? You have another day of work today, so I can only cook it for you for breakfast."

"Can I take it away if I can't finish it?"

"I've already packed it for you. I hope my boyfriend doesn't dislike it." Liang Yusheng pointed to the lunch box on the kitchen counter and said with a smile.

"I didn't expect Director Liang to be so virtuous." Zhuo Yijing rolled his eyes and sat on the chair that Liang Yusheng had opened for him. "Why are you back? Auntie...does it matter if we don't celebrate the New Year together?"

"It doesn't matter, my parents and uncle urged me to come back. I thought I could give you a surprise so I didn't tell you. Fortunately, I remembered to call Xiaojiang, otherwise I would really miss it."

Liang Yusheng got off the plane at [-] o'clock yesterday, and arranged for someone to deliver food and fireworks to the villa, and it was already past ten o'clock when he returned to the villa.

He had been watching the live broadcast of the Spring Festival Gala all the way, knowing that Zhuo Yijing had finished singing, and after calculating the time, he called Jiang Lizhi. He wanted to ask about when Zhuo Yijing would arrive home, but it happened just in time for Jiang Lizhi to send someone off. In the hotel, he had no choice but to ask the other party to find an excuse to send Zhuo Yijing back.

"Ah... You, you, you, you told Auntie?" Zhuo Yijing was so frightened that she even dropped the food she just picked up back on the plate, "Then Auntie...how did she react?"

"When my mother found out about your situation, she thought I was a scumbag. She even left you alone in China for the Chinese New Year, so I was driven back."

It has been more than ten years since Liang Yusheng came out of the closet. Although Liang's mother didn't say anything, she was secretly worried. She was worried that he would be promiscuous like many gays reported on the Internet, and also worried that he would meet a jerk who was greedy for his wealth and status. .

After worrying for so many years, she finally hoped that her son would personally tell her that she had a lover who was good enough in all aspects, so naturally she would not make things difficult again.

"Really?"

Zhuo Yijing didn't believe it, Liang Yusheng picked up the food he had just dropped back and fed it into his mouth, got up and left, and returned to the table with a small box after a while.

"Hey, my mother gave you a New Year's gift. She said that she hoped you would like it. Also, you are welcome to go home with me for the New Year next year. My mother, she said that she can't wait to see her other son."

Zhuo Yijing was a little nervous, and couldn't stand the slight tremor when he stretched out his hand. Seeing this, Liang Yusheng fortunately put it back, opened it himself and put the watch inside on for him.

"She specifically asked her friends in China. I heard that according to the rules of our hometown, when children have a marriage partner, the mother-in-law usually buys a watch for her son-in-law, and the mother-in-law buys a bag for her daughter-in-law. My mother thinks you are a man, so you should buy a watch. More appropriate."

"Like it?"

"Hi..." Zhuo Yijing opened his mouth only to realize that his voice was choked with sobs, his vision gradually blurred, he tried to sniff his nose, lowered his head to hold back his tears, and didn't want to be seen such a weak side again.

But the man seemed to be able to read his mind, hugged him and coaxed: "It's okay, cry if you want to cry, you don't need to hold back in front of me."

Zhuo Yijing finally couldn't hold back, and threw herself into Liang Yusheng's arms and wept silently.

After a long time, he asked with a thick nasal voice: "Yusheng, if I... can be with you all the time, will I have a mother?"

The word mother is so unfamiliar to him, he has never even had the chance to shout these two words.

When Zhuo Lin in that life met him, his parents had already passed away, and he had no chance to feel such affection.

He thought that in this life, he would never have the chance to feel the so-called maternal love, but he realized it in the few words that Liang Yusheng just relayed.

Although this kind of love stems from Liang's mother's love and consideration for Liang Yusheng, it is enough for him.

Liang Yusheng hugged the person in his arms in distress, and patted his trembling back, "Yes, Ah Jing, you have a mother, and my mother will also be your mother in the future, and he will love you as much as he loves me."