Looking for a woman named Xiaoyao

5. Hypnotherapy for the first time

The first time I saw Xiang Wan was in my counseling room.The April wind blows away the magnolia flowers on the roadside, and this city in the south of the Yangtze River has just woken up from a winter snow.

Before Xiang Wan came in, I received a mentally disturbed aunt.The aunt has obvious auditory and visual hallucinations, delusions of persecution and other symptoms, so she should be admitted to a mental hospital for treatment.But no matter how much I tried to persuade, my aunt was still babbling at me, saying that her wife had an affair and wanted to harm her all the time, which made her afraid to eat at home, fearing that his wife would poison the food, and made herself panic all day long.

After going back and forth, and finally persuading my aunt to leave, I sat on the sofa, took a sip of coffee, and was about to take a break when Xiang Wan walked in.

I'm curious because all the visitors have made an appointment in advance.I don't know how Xiang Wan found out about my consultation room, but I generally don't accept visitors without an appointment.However, the first time I saw Xiang Wan, I overturned my rules.

Unlike other visitors, Xiang Wan looked like a character who had stepped out of a fairy tale, exuding a fairy air all over her body, with straight black long hair reaching her waist, and a peaceful expression on her face.

During the first consultation, Xiang Wan didn't tell me her problem. She just told me that she had insomnia recently and wanted to see if my hypnosis was effective.I let her lie on the music relaxation chair, her body is a little petite.Under my introduction, the little demon closed her eyes, her complexion looked a little pale due to insomnia, I sat beside her, and I seemed to be able to hear her slight breathing.

The music relaxation therapy really worked. Xiang Wan gradually entered a real sleep state from a shallow sleep. The warm spring sun shone through the pale pink curtains and fell on Xiang Wan's clean skin. baby.

It's been a long time since I had such a comfortable sleep like today, Xiang Wan smiled and said, "Thank you, Ruoru." The way Xiang Wan smiled was like the pot of jasmine in full bloom at the corner of the table, clean and clean.Xiang Wan was very satisfied with this hypnosis.And make an appointment with me for the next consultation time.

Xiang Wan is really a mysterious woman. After several consultations, Xiang Wan didn't talk about the problem she wanted to consult. She built a thick wall for herself, and she needed enough trust to open her heart. Now , all she wanted was the relaxing effect of hypnosis.

Listen to the flowers bloom and count the fallen leaves.Regarding Xiang Wan's silence, I am not in a hurry, nor do I want to test it, all I want is to wait, to wait for the day when the little demon can trust me enough to confide her thoughts, just like waiting for a grand flower event in late spring .

Magnolia on the street thanked me for a long time, and Xiang Wan, whom I was looking forward to, hadn't been here since the last hypnosis.I guessed that Xiang Wan, like a woman with a fairy spirit, must have been caught in the vortex of love.

As a novice who has just learned photography, in my spare time, I often go to photography and painting exhibitions in some cities, and also take some photography courses.

This photography exhibition is a solo exhibition of a well-known local photographer. The exhibition area is in an old factory. The black and white portrait images and the old red brick wall of the factory complement each other and complement each other. There is a very nostalgic era. feel.

I asked Caiwei to go there together. The tourists who visited were in twos and threes. The master’s portrait works are very rich in materials, from old women who have experienced vicissitudes of life to hungry refugees under war. feel.

When I was immersed in the taste of portrait works, I inadvertently saw a familiar face from the corner of my eye. Who could it be if it wasn't Xiang Wan?

As a volunteer for this photography exhibition, I caught a trace of embarrassment and embarrassment in Xiang Wan's eyes, but I quickly adjusted it.As a professional consultant, keeping confidentiality for clients is the most important thing.I quietly passed Xiang Wan, treating her like air.

Some visitors attach great importance to their privacy. I thought Xiang Wan would never come again. When Xiang Wan came in that day, she was drenched in rain, and the rain slid down her forehead and down her cheeks. It looked a little embarrassed.I handed her a towel, but Xiang Wan didn't reach out to take my towel.She hugged me all at once, like grabbing a life-saving straw, and burst into tears.I was startled by her behavior.I hugged Xiang Wan, her thin body was very soft in my arms.I don't have any words of comfort, I know how weak the comfort is at this moment.All she wanted was the embrace of a stranger to release her pain.I hugged her and said nothing, that was enough.

Xiang Wan's emotions gradually calmed down, perhaps because the hug just now gave her strength, Xiang Wan was finally able to open her heart and tell me her story.

Our consultation officially moved from hypnosis to the first step, and it took a whole month during this period.

The les novel "Looking for a Woman Named Xiaoyao" was actually created based on the story of me and Xiaoyao.When the novel was about to end with melancholy, Xiao Yao appeared again. Her initiative and enthusiasm rekindled a glimmer of hope in my shattered fantasy. Her indifferent attitude made it difficult for me to guess her mind.

In the air-conditioned coffee shop, I asked Caiwei, what does Xiao Yao's indifferent behavior really want to express?

Caiwei said to me with her mournful and indisputable expression: "Ruoru, I have really convinced you. Is it interesting to tangle and tangle? Can't you ask directly? Like you are now If you worry about gains and losses, I worry that you will be depressed one day."

It's not that I don't want to ask what happened, I just don't want to face the result, I just give myself a possible hope, a hopeless life is suffocating.

Then, escaping is not the way after all.After Caiwei said these words to me countless times, I finally mustered up all the courage to tell Xiaoyao my hidden feelings on a certain day just before early summer.

The little demon didn't answer yes or no.She told me in a very roundabout way: She said Ruoru, my future is too uncertain, there are too many factors between you and me that are not human, and I am unable to control some things that are beyond the scope of my ability.But I still hope that one day, I will have the opportunity to go to Finland to see the aurora with you.

This is Xiao Yao's usual way of expression, she always leaves room for others when she speaks, I basically think that the fact is that she is rejecting me in a tactful way.