Classmate Li Zhuangsheng doesn’t want to be reborn

Li Zhuangsheng was very angry inside. The anger did not come from others, but from himself. Someone has said that people's pain is usually due to their anger at their own incompetence.

What an extreme virginity complex, compared to the physical body, what Li Zhuangsheng really cares about at this moment is the psychological virginity.

He knew that this idea was a diaosi's sexual anxiety, but it was useless to know because he was a diaosi. And she is becoming more and more a real diaosi.

Generally speaking, poor people like to pretend to be rich, while diaosi will talk about "man's responsibility and morality". However, in recent years, poor people have become more outspoken, and diaosi have also begun to reflect on "why".

Before Li Zhuangsheng got married, he thought he could care less, but the video in the KTV gave him a blow, tearing away the cover of self-deception. It turned out that he had always cared in his heart and was extremely anxious.

No matter how much I paid, she still didn't love me. She only married me because I was the recipient of the Holy Body. Has she ever smiled at me like that? Did she say that she wanted to be with me forever?

Do you want to act like a man and pretend not to notice, and treat her with respect as usual? Why? Why?

It turns out that this is not the case when you are with others!

So Li Zhuangsheng chose to divorce.

He comforted himself by saying that the divorce rate is almost 50% now, so don't pay too much attention. But when the day came, the education he had received in the past made him feel uneasy and guilty. After drinking several bottles of beer, he spoke out through drunkenness.

It seemed that God was merciful and he was reborn.

If he originally felt guilty for letting Hu Mengdie get married for the second time, after his rebirth, this psychological burden was much lessened.

Just end it like this...oh no, don't start it.

But he originally wanted to keep Hu Mengdie at arm's length, but unexpectedly the other party became more proactive, showing a charm that he had never shown in front of him before. This made him dazed for a while, and he even gradually forgot the original reason for divorce... until he faced Qi Haoyu again, he suddenly woke up.

He doesn't care about Qi Haoyu, he just cares about Hu Mengdie's high school boyfriend. He remembered the two holding hands on the playground, her smile as bright as a flower.

The feelings at that time were really pure and beautiful...perhaps not as beautiful as Li Zhuangsheng imagined, but who made him a loser? With sexual anxiety, he suddenly remembered a question that he had thought about countless times:

Was her love for Qi Haoyu pure, or was her love for me pure? Does she really have love for me? Does she have such pure joy as when she looks at Qi Haoyu?

No.

Just like what Liu Guo said, if you want to buy sweet-scented osmanthus and drink it together, it turns out that you are a young man traveling.

Even if the same person comes, time has changed and it can only be cosplay. Li Zhuangsheng never watches cosplay stage performances. He is a person who is extremely prone to drama and can easily embarrass others.

He knew why Hu Mengdie pursued him and what kind of results the other party wanted to get. He just wanted to return to the original harmony of Qin, Se and Ming.

But now, how can we go back? His acting skills are not good and he can't act well.

Li Zhuangsheng was typing on the keyboard aimlessly. At this time, he had no idea what he was writing. It seems like I'm just writing blindly.

He hurt Hu Mengdie with harsh words, but he was still painful and angry in his heart.

I'm sorry, I'm sorry... thinking this, a self-inflicted joy suddenly rose in my heart.

He has been an obedient student since he was a child. The teacher said that there are differences between men and women, so he kept a distance from girls and did not dare to get close to them. His parents say that early love is not good, so he feels that his affection for girls is a kind of "evil". When I grow up, I respect every woman and don’t dare to harass or strike up conversations... So why does it become like this?

He suddenly thought of his college roommate again.

I really envy him. Maybe, instead of falling out with him, I should have a good relationship with him, and then ask him for advice on how to play with girls... No, no, why am I doing such boring things again!

Li Zhuangsheng was suddenly startled. He looked at the unstructured words on the computer screen and pressed the back button tightly.

It would have been nice if he hadn't attended the class reunion. He didn't want to go in the first place... It's all Zhang Qixiang's fault for insisting on dragging him along.

If that hadn't happened, I would have been able to live in a muddle. If Hu Mengdie and Qi Haoyu only flashed by in the video, maybe they wouldn't be so entangled.

Then in five, ten, twenty years... time will completely bury this hole, and even if I see that video again, it will no longer be as uncomfortable as it is now.

What's the use of thinking about this now? Li Zhuangsheng patted his face. The afternoon bell had already rang, the sun was setting westward, and the classroom was dark.

Hu Mengdie was motionless. It seemed that she fell asleep after being tired from crying.

The cold wind blew into the classroom through the window. Li Zhuangsheng felt a little chilly, so he stood up and closed the window, then took off his coat and gently put it on Hu Mengdie's body.

"You have been reborn, so don't tie yourself to me anymore... There will be many people who will cherish you. Don't be afraid to look for them after you failed only once. Not everyone will let you down like Qi Haoyu. "

Li Zhuangsheng laughed at himself softly, turned around and continued typing.

There were no sports for Li Zhuangsheng in the afternoon. He wrote in the classroom until nearly four o'clock, and Hu Mengdie also slept all afternoon.

After stretching, Li Zhuangsheng turned off the computer, then gently took back the clothes on Hu Mengdie, put them on again, and then patted Hu Mengdie on the shoulder.

Hu Mengdie opened her eyes quietly.

"It's four o'clock, let's go." Li Zhuangsheng said with a cold face.

"Ah."

Perhaps she just woke up, Hu Mengdie's eyes were bloodshot.

Li Zhuangsheng put away his computer, threw it into the podium, climbed out of the window, and signaled to Hu Mengdie who was still inside: "Aren't you leaving?"

"I'll sit down for a while." Hu Mengdie said with her head lowered.

"...As soon as possible, it will be dark soon."

Li Zhuangsheng hesitated for a moment, then turned and left.

Hu Mengdie silently stood up and sat down in Li Zhuangsheng's seat, lying on the table and folding her arms.

She squinted her eyes, as if the other person's coat was still on her body, her expression filled with morbid hatred and haze:

"Li Zhuangsheng... I will definitely make you regret it a hundred times."

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Li Zhuangsheng walked downstairs slowly, and almost reached the first floor before hearing footsteps on the fifth floor. He felt relieved and left quickly.

Walking towards the playground, Li Zhuangsheng looked at the golden sunset, remembering the first time he looked up at the sunset when he entered school. At that time, he didn't know his future. However, I somehow feel that my future has unlimited possibilities.

Suddenly, Li Zhuangsheng thought of Niu Chunhui and others today again... Although he blocked them this time, there is no guarantee that there won't be another time, or there will be someone else.

After thinking for a while, Li Zhuangsheng turned and walked towards the grade director's office.

To a certain extent, Hu Mengdie saved Niu Chunhui and the others... If she hadn't come up and slapped each other, Li Zhuangsheng would have been lying on the ground, saying that he was dizzy and nauseous, asking to be hospitalized for various examinations, and waiting for his parents to press him They came to apologize.