Classmate Li Zhuangsheng doesn’t want to be reborn

"Past? Future?" Li Zhuangsheng glanced at her, reached out and touched her head gently, "The past is past, your future dreams will definitely come true."

"You seem to know what I'm thinking?"

"I... don't know." Li Zhuangsheng smiled, grinning softly, "How do I know this?"

The two of them lay on the table and stared at the playground in a daze. The world seemed not so noisy anymore.

At noon, the two went to the cafeteria to eat. Li Zhuangsheng bought a bottle of activation and two chicken drumsticks. He tore open the flour wrapper and put them in plastic bags.

When he returned to the classroom, Zhu Zhixue was not there. He asked her friend and learned that the other party was still in the infirmary.

"How's it going? Do you want to go home and rest?"

Li Zhuangsheng walked into the infusion room. Zhu Zhixue finished injecting water and lay on the bed watching TV with squinted eyes.

"Much better." Zhu Zhixue stood up quickly when she saw Li Zhuangsheng.

"Lie down, lie down!" Li Zhuangsheng quickly stepped forward and held him down, "Where's Zeng Chen, he should be with you, right?"

The corners of Zhu Zhixue's mouth turned white and she smiled weakly: "I'm fine. I asked her to eat."

Li Zhuangsheng touched her forehead and the fever subsided.

"You haven't eaten yet?" Li Zhuangsheng asked.

"I'm not hungry...I don't want to eat..."

"Well, I know you have a fever and have no appetite, so I bought you some functional drinks." Li Zhuangsheng smiled and unscrewed the activated bottle cap, took out two peeled chicken legs, opened the plastic bag, "There are also chicken legs , I'll tear off the flour coating for you, eat some."

"How much is it, and how much water does it cost..."

"Why are you being polite to me? I have royalties, so I'm not short of money!"

Zhu Zhixue stared at Li Zhuangsheng silently, her eyes red, her shoulders hunched slightly, and she choked with sobs: "Why do you want to be so nice to me..."

Li Zhuangsheng smiled and handed the chicken drumstick to Zhu Zhixue's mouth: "We are friends, this is not normal. If I fall ill in bed in the future, please take care of me."

Zhu Zhixue ate the chicken legs in small bites. She originally felt empty because of her illness, but now that Li Zhuangsheng was by her side so tenderly, she seemed to be wrapped in layers, giving her an indescribable sense of security.

Perhaps because of exhaustion, or perhaps because she felt that she could do whatever she wanted when she was sick, Zhu Zhixue let Li Zhuangsheng hold the chicken legs, and she was only responsible for chewing them with her mouth.

"This morning, two people had three kicks... points were deducted, right?" Zhu Zhixue said.

"No, Lin Yuehua ran away from me. Let's participate again next year."

The chicken drumstick in my mouth suddenly lost its flavor. Zhu Zhixue looked away and stopped eating angrily.

"I'm full, take it away, I'm going to bed."

Anyway, I am the kind of person who can be replaced at any time...Anyway, everything I do is wrong...Anyway, I can't do anything.

Zhu Zhixue buried her head in the quilt and shed tears silently. After looking forward to it for so long and practicing one lesson, I knew that God would never let my dreams come true, and would always make my eyes darken when I saw the light.

……

After Zeng Chen came back, Li Zhuangsheng came out of the infirmary and went to the fifth floor to write a novel. Hu Mengdie arrived first, took out his computer and keyboard in advance, turned it on and waited for him to arrive.

Li Zhuangsheng didn't say anything, just sat down, opened the document and started writing a novel.

"I'm starving to death. All my money has been given to Zhang Qixiang... I don't have anything to eat at noon!" Hu Mengdie glanced at him and lay down holding her stomach.

Li Zhuangsheng turned a deaf ear and tapped his fingers quickly on the keyboard.

"I only know how to write novels. Your wife has nothing to eat!" Hu Mengdie emphasized again.

"I know you have a meal card." Li Zhuangsheng didn't even look up.

"What are you angry about again!" Hu Mengdie said "Ouch" with a sad face.

"I'm not angry, and I'm not angry with you if I am. Just be quiet and don't disturb me while I'm writing my novel."

"Why are you so cold all of a sudden? You were so arrogant before. I applied for ten minutes today and let's start chatting now!"

Li Zhuangsheng sighed softly, put down the keyboard impatiently, and said with an expressionless face: "Tell me what you want to talk about today."

"What did I do today that makes you dissatisfied? Tell me and I will change it!"

"There is no satisfaction. But it's not your problem, don't worry about it."

"It's the wife's problem if her husband is dissatisfied! Tell me, why are you dissatisfied? I want to have a frank communication with you... First of all, I don't have any good impressions of Qi Haoyu now. I only have you in my heart. If I lie to you , the sky was struck by thunder!”

"Because I'm stingy, when I see you, brother Qi, I remember how happy you were in the video, and how you held hands on campus. I know the passing of people is like this, and what happened can never be changed. The person you were dating at that time was not me. It's the same even if I do it again. You want me to let go, but I really can't let go... I'm sorry, I'm such an inexplicable psychotic guy. Also, you said you wanted to walk from school uniform to wedding dress with me this time. But I just feel embarrassed, as if I'm imitating others' cosplay. If we really get married, would you be embarrassed to say in front of others that we started falling in love in high school? I can't say it in public. I feel as guilty as lying. If you ask me to say that I love you forever, I will feel that I am lying. I can't promise it. Let alone say it for a lifetime, I don't even dare to say what love is. I don’t understand. You said you love me for a lifetime, but you didn’t say this to me alone. I admit that you meant it when you said it, just like when you said it to Qi Haoyu, but a lifetime of love will last for two people. Personally? Sorry, I actually have an extreme virginity complex, especially a psychological one.”

Li Zhuangsheng took a deep breath slowly and clenched his fists unconsciously.

After saying it, he felt incredible. It was so embarrassing and such an unspeakable thing to say. He completely looked directly at the dark side and unbearable and absurd thoughts that he had not dared to look at, and even said them in front of others.

With his reserved character, he would never have said that. He might wrap it up a bit, or he might not say it at all.

But this seems to be the broken window effect, or it may be that he feels that he should no longer go around in circles with Hu Mengdie, causing him to say anything unscrupulously in front of Hu Mengdie at this moment.

After hearing what was in Li Zhuangsheng's heart as he wished, Hu Mengdie lowered her head and was speechless for a long time. The original intention of communicating with Li Zhuangsheng suddenly became cold and at a loss.

"...You write a novel."

After Hu Mengdie finished speaking softly, she lay down on the table and buried her head in her arms. Her shoulders shrugged slightly, as if she was crying, but she made no sound.

Li Zhuangsheng instinctively wanted to comfort her, but his reason made him do nothing. Just quietly typing away at the keyboard.