My heart beats for you under the moonlight

She wanted to run over and question Zuo Yueyao: Is this what you call a good way to deal with it? !

But she didn't have the courage. She couldn't accurately judge whether Zuo Yueyao's actions were right or wrong, nor could she accuse him of being so ruthless, because the matter was indeed resolved quickly, and her and Zuo Yueyao's reputations It was also repaired quickly, but these were all based on the responsibility of Yao Jing alone.

Su Xian can no longer distinguish between right and wrong. She occasionally thinks of Yao Jing who has left long ago, and worries about whether this girl will have a good life in another strange place. She may even feel uneasy and guilty about such a result.

Zuo Yueyao has said more than once that she is an extremely soft-hearted person, and such soft-heartedness can easily backfire on her. Yao Jing's case is probably a good proof.

Because of this incident, Su Xian began to avoid Zuo Yueyao intentionally or unintentionally. He would reply to her text messages and answer his phone calls, but he avoided seeing her.

She disappeared, and Zuo Yueyao didn't force her. He stayed in this state until the arrival of another person.

Su Xian never thought that Zuo Yueyao's mother would come to see her in person, and Zuo Yueyao didn't know about this.

Su Xian probably had the musical score in her mind, and guessed that the music played by the musical score must be sad music. Of course, she had beautiful fantasies, hoping that it was just random thoughts caused by her emotional problems in the past few days.

Time has never failed to defeat a person with temperament, like Zhou Ling, who seems to have been influenced by a scholarly family. I haven't seen him for so many years. Although there are some wrinkles on his face, his temperament is still as elegant and calm as before. And noble.

Zuo Yueyao's nobility should be inherited from this.

Su Xian softly called "Aunt Zhou."

Zhou Ling smiled at her, still as loving as before, but he didn't touch her head anymore, and he no longer had that sense of familiarity.

The atmosphere of the tea room is very good, quiet and elegant. The sound of gurgling water and soft music from the small furnishings can easily soothe the inner irritability.

Su Xian didn't know how to drink tea, and only regarded it as something to quench her thirst. But watching Zhou Ling twist the teapot gracefully and slowly pour tea into her empty cup, she could only take it carefully and sip it meaningfully. He took a sip, not daring to make any big moves.

This is really not like her.

But this was Zuo Yueyao's mother. If she hadn't had this relationship with Zuo Yueyao, maybe she wouldn't have had to be so restrained when facing Zhou Ling.

"I remember that when we were in Heyunling, you were still such a tall little girl." Zhou Ling gestured to her height: "I haven't seen you in so many years. You have grown a lot taller and your skin has turned a lot whiter."

Su Xian could afford any praise, but he was afraid of the unforeseen consequences that would follow this complimentary opening statement.

Zhou Ling didn't seem to be in a hurry, and she chatted with Su Xian: "Is Village Chief Zhao still in good health now? I remember that he was running around with me at that time, and he was so healthy that he didn't even breathe. I have to accept it.”

"Well, he's pretty good." Like a sensible little girl, she sat respectfully in front of Zhou Ling and answered the other person's questions in a polite manner.

"Your dad, are you okay?"

"He's...nice too."

"Well, that's good." Zhou Ling always maintained an approachable smile: "Is there a road to Murakami now?"

"Okay, OK."

"Later, I visited your village again. It has indeed improved a lot, but it is still a little different from what I expected. It's just my lack of ability."

Such a self-effacing manner left Su Xian at a loss: "No, it's not."

If Zuo Yueyao knew that she stuttered when speaking, would he laugh out loud?

"I heard that your academic performance is very good, and you have received scholarships every year." Zhou Ling poured out her cold tea and gave her a refill: "Auntie was right, she knew the person back then. You must be a promising child. When Village Chief Zhao talks to me, he will praise you in front of me. It can be seen that he really loves you. But having said that, who is such a sensible and motivated child like you? No love, I have been very busy with work these years, but I will still call the village chief to ask about your situation."

Su Xian listened silently, feeling that Zhou Ling's visit to see her was not just about reminiscing about old times.

"When we came back from Heyunling, Yueyao tried his best to apply to me and asked me to support your studies and life. I even laughed at him, wondering if it was because he never had a sister, so he took extra care of you."

Su Xian raised his head suddenly and was stunned.

"I really liked you as a child, so of course I couldn't bear to refuse. He also said that if he offered you money, you would definitely not want it, so he sent all your tuition fees and living expenses to Village Chief Zhao. And in the name of the village committee’s support of college students, your study and life every year are guaranteed.”

Su Xian put down the hand holding the cup, because if she didn't put it down, the water in the cup would spill out, and her hand began to tremble slightly.

She thought of the dilapidated tables in the village committee, of the broken glass windows taped together, of the office of the village committee that had not been renovated for a long time, of the tuition and living expenses that she had not had to worry about over the years, of how Zuo Yueyao only had Sora wanted to eat with her, and then swiped his meal card to help her get food together.

Su Xian thought a lot, and only then did he realize that all the food and clothing he needed to have money came from donations from others.

She is so stupid, really stupid, so stupid that she doesn't notice it until now.

The self-esteem and self-reliance slogan that she was proud of all day long were just self-entertainment.

She bit her lip and tried not to look so embarrassed: "I will pay back the money..."

"Silly girl." Zhou Ling scolded: "I have always regarded you as half a daughter. It is only natural for a mother to take care of her daughter. When I found out that you got here, I was happy for you for several days. I thought Yueyao is also here, and as his elder brother, he can take good care of you. Although I didn't get along with you for too long that year, it was fate after all."

elder brother......

Su Xian probably understood Zhou Ling's purpose here.

"I just didn't expect..." Zhou Ling said slowly: "He told me that he liked someone, but I didn't expect that person to be you."

"I don't object to him falling in love. I hope he can find someone who matches him, who can make progress together, and who can be consistent with him in terms of knowledge and outlook on life in the future. This is the most perfect marriage. Looks like that, are you right?"

"Yeah." Su Xian's answer was as much as it was against his will.

"I've also heard about what happened recently. This is the first time I've heard negative things about Yueyao. Even if these things are not true, I hope they won't happen. He still has a long road to medicine. There is still a lot of unfinished studies, and he has spent much more energy on academics than we imagined, so I hope that anything bad will not interfere with him or affect his studies or mood."

"Girl, the same goes for you. I hope you can find your own path and find the person who is truly suitable for you."

There was not a single word of blame, and they all sounded like well-intentioned words, but they were like a sharp knife, gouging out Su Xian's heart. Every time, there was pain that penetrated into the bone marrow.

The other hand under the table pinched his thigh hard, telling himself over and over again: Don't cry.

Zhou Ling is not a stepmother, she is not vicious, she is the common one among all mothers, a normal mother who cares about the future of her son.

But the gentler she is, the stronger the knife will be.

Su Xian heard his trembling breathing, submerged in the sound of gurgling water, turning into deep sadness.

Zhou Ling didn't mind having another goddaughter, but he did mind that Zuo Yueyao's girlfriend was her.

Su Xian wanted to smile, but the muscles on her face were so tight that she couldn't force a smile. After a long while, she still said the same thing: "Auntie, I will pay back the money."

She will really pay back the money!

Zhou Ling seemed to be afraid that she didn't understand the meaning, so he emphasized: "Silly girl, you don't have to pay back this money. If you want, you can call me godmother. If you have any difficulties in the future, just call me godmother." Godmother said, you can also tell Yueyao."

Her self-esteem did not allow her to pursue Zhou Ling anymore, and then told her: I don’t want to be your goddaughter, I want to be your daughter-in-law!

"Can you promise me one thing?"

Su Xian nodded slowly: "Auntie, please tell me."

"Yueyao doesn't know that I came to see you today. I hope this is a secret between the two of us, okay?"

Can she say bad?

"it is good."

This is what she owes others! I owe so much that I can't even say "no".

Zhou Ling seemed to be very satisfied with her performance. Before leaving, he touched her head and said, "You are very spiritual and sensible. I feel reassured."

Don't worry about what?

Don't worry she will keep today's secret obediently? Or should I rest assured that she will say goodbye to Zuo Yueyao when she returns?

"Aunt Zhou." The feeling towards Zhou Ling gradually became unfamiliar, but it could not change the fact that she had helped her: "My dad...I apologize to you on his behalf."

Facing the dazzling sunshine, Su Xian felt dizzy. Zhou Ling had been gone for a long time. Looking at the people coming and going on the street, there were many pairs. There was probably no pair who was more miserable than her.

These years of smooth sailing, I originally thought were the result of her own efforts, the result of God taking special care of her after seeing her efforts, but in the end, it turned out to be the dream web carefully woven by others, allowing her to lie comfortably. Spent every day on it.

Uncle Zhao lied to her, Zuo Yueyao lied to her, these two people who existed like sunshine in her life, both lied to her at the same time.

Su Xian is not a person who doesn't distinguish between right and wrong. She knows that these lies are in good faith and are to maintain her poor self-esteem, so she can't blame anyone, let alone find anyone to vent to.

She clearly remembered the numbers in her bank card, plus the ones in the piggy's belly. It was only a drop in the bucket to repay the debt she had owed over the years.

If she said she would pay it back, she must pay it back.

Su Xian called Chen Biyu and asked her to meet at the fountain in the park. Before Chen Biyu arrived, she borrowed a pen and paper and wrote something.

As soon as Chen Biyu arrived, Su Xian gave her the piece of paper she had written on.

"Lend me this money. This is an IOU. I will also give you a copy of my ID card. After I graduate from college, I will pay you in installments, but I will pay it back as soon as possible."

She thought Chen Biyu would use her inquisitive skills.

After she took the IOU, she read it again and again. After confirming that it was not a joke, she slapped Su Xian on the shoulder: "Stop making trouble, your family is much richer than mine. If you are short of money, ask him Just take it, he’s your boyfriend, why can’t he give it to you?”

"Can you lend it to me?"

Su Xian had never been so humble before. Chen Biyu was stunned after all: "Did something happen to you?"

Su Xian pursed her lips and didn't respond. Seeing this, Chen Biyu said carelessly: "Hey, what a big deal, wait, I'll tell my family and let them pay the money over, but I have agreed in advance that this money You don’t have to be in a hurry to pay it back, don’t make yourself miserable just to pay it back, I can’t stand it!”

This is probably the fate between people. Chen Biyu gave her the impression that except for her mouth, she was never an upright person, but at the critical moment, she did things so beautifully.