I was on top of your heart

"Five years ago, I couldn't compare to her, and five years later, I still can't compare to her."

She thought she was the most affectionate one.

But it turns out that people who are truly affectionate never hang their love on the surface.

Yu Wan didn't say anything, but did everything about loving Huo Yan.

On the surface, she said that she was willing to pay for Huo Yan.

But in fact, she still thought in her heart that this would pay off.

Compared with Yu Wan, she is simply a hypocritical admirer.

Lu Yaoyao has always wanted to prove that she loves Huo Yan more than Yu Wan, but she lost so thoroughly.

Even, feel ashamed.

Tears kept pouring out uncontrollably, Lu Yaoyao wiped them away, and then continued,

"sorry."

"My liking has troubled you, and even caused Yu Wan to misunderstand you."

She apologized solemnly and remorsefully,

"I'm really, really sorry."

She had no intention of meddling in their relationship.

But in the end, she became the most despised 'third party' in her life.

How ridiculous.

That Lu Yaoyao who behaved extremely shamelessly towards the mistress turned out to be a third party who ruined other people's feelings.

At this moment, Lu Yaoyao actually disliked herself a little.

She has always felt that it is great to give for love.

Standing on the moral high ground, she despises Yu Wan's indifference to Huo Yan back then.

But in the end, she was the third party that caused Huo Yan and Yu Wan's relationship to break up.

How ironic.

Huo Yan didn't know what to say.

Say no complaints, it's a lie.

He repulsed her approach so much back then, but she persisted in sticking to him, unable to shake him off.

But it was also true to thank her for her company and dedication later.

Without her company and dedication over the years, his life might not be bright at all.

But at this moment, he really didn't know how to face her.

Because of her unintentional penetration.

Yu Wan misunderstood him.

Let their relationship, which was already in jeopardy, directly enter a deadlock.

If that day, Yu Wan did not misunderstand.

Wouldn't he and her have been separated for so many years...

He will not be forced to choose between her and Lu Yaoyao.

He hated Yu Wan for abandoning him, and felt that he could not let Lu Yaoyao down.

So at that time, he could only choose to abandon Yu Wan, who was just a 'scumbag' who abandoned him to him.

But it turns out.

The one he abandoned was the one he shouldn't let down the most.

Things have come to this point, no matter what you say, there is nothing you can do.

He has already failed one, so why bother to resent the other.

Besides, what did she do wrong?

Seeing Huo Yan's silence, Lu Yaoyao thought that he hated her so much that she didn't want to talk to her.

She was sad, but she didn't want to stay to make him unhappy.

Anyway, she came here today just to say goodbye.

Now that the words have been brought, why should she continue to trouble him here.

Lu Yaoyao stood up,

"I'm leaving, you take care of yourself."

After all, she turned around and was about to leave.

At this time, Huo Yan's slightly hoarse voice suddenly sounded behind him,

"Thank you. And..."

After a pause, he said again, "I'm sorry."

Lu Yaoyao paused a little.

Then she turned her head and shook her head at Huo Yan,

"Thank you for accepting it, but this time I'm sorry, I won't accept it."

"I'm willing to do all of this, so you don't have to feel sorry for me."

What did he have to be sorry for her?

It's not that he forced her to pay.

Lu Yaoyao pursed her lips, her heart felt extremely astringent.

There was silence again in the ward.

Huo Yan was speechless.

Lu Yaoyao was heartbroken.

When did she and Huo Yan have nothing to say?

Lu Yaoyao let out a long breath towards the door of the ward, and then said,

"Take good care of your health, I should catch a plane."

"Bye-Bye."

She waved her hand, and without waiting for his reply, she turned and walked out.

When she reached the door, she suddenly stopped again.

After hesitating for a while, she turned her back to Huo Yan and asked,

"Ayan, would you like me without Yu Wan?"

Huo Yan looked at her back, thought for a while, then nodded and said,

"……meeting."

She is really a very good girl.

Without Yu Wan, he would have fallen in love with her.

Unfortunately, there is no such thing.

Yu Wan was like a vine, clinging firmly to his heart.

No matter how he pulls, she just hovers above it, never leaving an inch.

He tried to pull it out, but obviously, it failed.

Hear his answer.

Lu Yaoyao smiled brightly, but there were tears in her eyes.

"okay, I get it."

She waved again, then turned to leave.

This time, she didn't pause again.

Go without hesitation.

It was just the moment when the vision disappeared in front of Huo Yan.

She still couldn't hold back the tears.

He said that without Yu Wan, he would like her.

So it's not that she's not good enough.

It was too late for her to take the initiative.

If she had had the courage of Yu Wan from the beginning, would she also be the No.1 in his heart?

Unfortunately, no if.

If you take a step too late, you will lose your life after all.

Huo Yan.

After all, it was the star in the sky that she wanted to hug but couldn't.

He was destined not to belong to her.

Lu Yaoyao wiped away her tears with her hand, and walked out of the hospital quickly.

After Lu Yaoyao got into the car, Lu Yang, who had been sitting there waiting for her for a long time, asked her,

"Thought it over, do you really want to go?"

"Ah."

Lu Yaoyao nodded.

Lu Yang rubbed the top of Lu Yaoyao's hair distressedly,

"I told you a long time ago that one-sided efforts will not be rewarded."

It is not a good thing for a lover to love too much.

That will make you look too cheap, and it will not be easy to be cherished.

Lu Yaoyao shook her head, "It's okay if you don't get anything in return."

"There are some things that I regret if I don't do them all the time.

Now that I have done it and paid for it, I will not feel regretful. "

Lu Yaoyao thinks that compared to those crushes who have had a hard time crushing on each other, in the end, that person doesn't even know what he wants.

She's like this, already very good.

At least, she once loved Huo Yan openly and aboveboard, and also received some tenderness and pity from him.

She has worked hard and paid.

Even if you still can't be with him.

But at least, there are still good memories between them that can be recalled.

That's enough.

Lu Yang sighed, "You are just too stupid. You gave up your bright future and worked so hard to take care of his paralyzed mother for five years, but you got nothing in the end."

"Brother really feels worthless for you."

Although it is my sister who is willing to pay for it.

But as a brother, who would like to let down his sister's deep affection.

People are partial to their own family, and Lu Yang is like this.

No matter how good Yu Wan is.

In his eyes, his younger sister is better.

"Everything is paid by me voluntarily, what is not worth it."

Lu Yaoyao didn't feel that her efforts were not worth it.

Instead, she felt it was worth it.

She possessed Huo Yan briefly.

I have also enjoyed the feeling of being pityed and cared for by him.

These are the results of her hard work over the years.

She thinks it's worth it.

After a while, as if thinking of something, Lu Yaoyao couldn't help but annoyed Lu Yang,

"Brother, don't always talk about these things. You are not allowed to say this to others in the future.

It's not that A Yan took a knife and forced me to pay all this for him. "

She looked at the hospital building with lonely eyes,

"I have kidnapped him once with so-called payment. I don't want to make myself worse."

She lightly brushed the ends of her hair by her ears, her eyes full of bitterness,

"I quit at the right time now, and when he remembers me in the future, I won't look so unbearable."

Lu Yang sighed softly.

"In the future, you will meet someone better than him."

He raised his hand and stroked the top of Lu Yaoyao's head to comfort her.

Lu Yaoyao pulled her lips without a smile, but didn't reply.

Will she meet a better boy than Huo Yan in the future?

Maybe will.

But she felt that there was no other man who could make her so fascinated and infatuated with him like Huo Yan.

12 years.

She loved Huo Yan for 12 years.

How could any one person be able to take his place.

she felt.

It is unlikely that she will fall in love with someone else in the future.

-

As soon as Lu Yaoyao left, Huo's mother arrived in a wheelchair in a hurry.

As soon as she entered the door, she asked Huo Yan, who was staring at the window in a daze on the hospital bed, asked,

"Yaoyao called me and said she was going abroad, so let me take care of myself."

She anxiously asked her son, "Ayan, what is going on?

Did you quarrel with Yaoyao? "

Huo Yan turned his head to look at his mother, and explained in a calm voice,

"I didn't argue with her."

Huo Mu's face was sullen,

"Then she's pretty good, why did she go abroad?"

As if thinking of something, Mother Huo suddenly said, "Is it because of Yu Wan?"

Before Huo Yan could reply, Huo's mother hated iron for being weak and said,

"She treated you like that back then, why do you still miss her!"

"Can you really not see how Yaoyao has paid for all these years?"

Obviously Huo's mother thought what happened to Huo Yan and Yu Wan,

That's why Lu Yaoyao chose to go abroad in frustration.

She was extremely angry, and also hated Huo Yan for not living up to expectations.

Until now, I still miss Yu Wan.

Looking at the undisguised dissatisfaction and disgust on the mother's face.

It was only then that Huo Yan knew how much grievance Yu Wan had endured in secret.

They used to be the ones who loved and loved her the most.

But after she came back this time, they all spoke ill of her.

At that time, she must have been very sad.

The frequent suffocation in his chest made him very painful.

Huo Yan closed his eyes in pain, his voice was weak,

"Mom, we all misunderstood her."