Cultivate a black technology god

Chapter 209 Ariel's past (12)

"Ariel," said the doctor softly,

"There's nothing to be afraid of, there's an avatar who calls herself Peggy Lou.

She always made her own way and insisted on going her own way.There's Peggy Ann, also a fighter, but smoother than Peggy Lou.

There is another one, which calls itself Wikipedia.She is confident, comfortable, conscientious and a total delight. "

Ariel stood up to go.

"There's nothing to fear," the doctor reiterated.

However, Ariel is pleading:

"Let me go, please let me go."

It can be seen that she was greatly shaken, and the doctor thought it best not to let her leave alone, so he walked out with her.

"You still have patients," Ariel insisted:
"I'll be fine." Just an hour ago, the radiant Viki walked through the door, and now, Ariel, whose face was as white as paper, walked out of the door.

In the fading silence of the consulting room, Dr. Wilbur pondered the case of Dorset.

In the second half of the conversation just now, Ariel was always answering, and now she knew the other incarnations.

Thus began the first psychoanalysis of multiple personalities in the history of medicine.

Books on multiple personalities are jumbled on the desk.

She flipped through it again.She also pulled works by Freud and Charcot from the shelves, looking for familiar material on hysteria.

Although multiple personality is a strange anomaly, Dr. Wilbur still believes that it is not a psychosis, but a hysteria.

She had never treated multiple personalities, but she had treated many cases of hysteria with success.

Therefore, she was confident that she had the ability to handle this case. In fact, she had started treating hysteria very early and had accumulated rich experience, so Hall, a physician in Omaha, chose her first and transferred Ariel directly to her for treatment. .

Dr. Wilbur has already made it clear that multiple personalities belong to psychoneurosis, and there is a kind of psychoneurosis called hysteria, which is exactly what Ariel suffers from.

Not only are there multiple personalities, but there are mind-body related diseases and disorders of the five senses.Not only is it rare, but it is quite serious.

Dr. Wilbur had seen people with schizophrenia (i.e. psychosis), not as bad as Ariel.

Psychopaths can have a fever, with a body temperature as high as 99 degrees Fahrenheit, and Ariel's psychoneurotic body temperature once reached 105 degrees.

There was no reason to be discouraged, Dr. Wilbur encouraged himself.

Maybe she was a little too impatient to think that Ariel could be cured.

But this is an extremely complex case, and it cannot be followed through without this thought.

The phone rang.

It was past ten o'clock in the evening.Perhaps a critically ill patient seeks medical attention.

But don't be a suicidal one.After a busy day, she needs to take a break to clear out all the mental illness and psychosis in her mind.

You must stop thinking what other people think.

She also needs more time to spend with her husband, attend business meetings, visit relatives and friends, read books and newspapers, think about problems, have her hair permed and shop.

Due to the needs of acute patients, these ordinary things in life are often encroached upon or even squeezed out.

She picked up the receiver, it was Teddy Reeves calling,
"Dr. Wilbur," Teddy reported, "Ariel Dorset is down. She's really mad. I don't know what to do with her."

"I'll be right there," Dr. Wilbur volunteered.

As she put the receiver back on the cradle, she wondered what Teddy really meant by "she's really mad" because Peggy Lou had stepped in instead.

Doctors, therefore, were not terribly surprised.

Ariel finally admits to the doctor that she's lost time.

However, before this, she had never lost the concept of time.Although she had often moved from the present to some other time over the years, she always roundly called it blank time.

But when the doctor told her that "when you lose consciousness, another person takes over," her trembling was not out of fear.

The doctor's words explained many problems: whether it was a good thing or a bad thing, although she didn't do it, others said she did it;
Some people she didn't know at all, but they said they knew each other.

What made her embarrassed was that the doctor would investigate all the horrible things, and that there were some crimes that the doctor might have known but didn't say. As a result, she ran away from the clinic full of self-blame.

Whittier dorms were comforting at first.

But when she met a pair of twin sisters, Judy and Marin, whom she tutored in the elevator of the dormitory, Ariel felt uncomfortable again.

The two of them are together for life, inseparable, like a whole.

And Ariel hasn't been with her all her life yet!

She fumbled for the key, but her trembling fingers couldn't get it into the lock.

She knocked feebly on Teddy Reeves' door.

Teddy took Ariel to bed and stood aside, watching Ariel go to bed and get out of bed with a mixture of fear and pity, moody and moody.

For a while, she was like an impassioned child, walking around on the furniture and leaving fingerprints on the ceiling.

A moment later, she was a calm and worldly woman again, speaking her name in the third person, and saying:

"I'm glad Ariel knows the truth. Really, it's better for us all."

Then Ariel was the trembling man who had knocked on Teddy's door.

When the doctor arrived, Ariel was lying lifelessly on the bed.

Dr. Wilbur could see that Ariel was in pain.

She explained to Ariel again: There is nothing terrible about having other incarnations, because it is just a kind of "acting" as the psychiatrists call it.

Many people take a "doing it" approach to adversity.

These words do not work.

"I'm going to give you a Cotton," the doctor said to Ariel.

"You'll be fine tomorrow morning." Doctors had discovered that barbiturate sleeping pills relieved Ariel's anxiety for 48 hours.

By the next morning.Ariel woke up with no anxiety symptoms.

Multiple avatars, which seemed like a nightmare, are now a thing of the past.

It was past midnight when the doctor left the Whittier dormitory.

Although unfounded, the doctor assumed that the waking Ariel represented "consciousness" and her avatar represented "unconsciousness."

Doctors borrow an image from anatomy and physiology: lacunas—tiny cavities in bone filled with bone cells.

She sees those avatars as dimples in Ariel's "unconscious."These dimples are sometimes static, but they appear and become active under appropriate stimulation.

They act both inside and outside of Ariel, dealing with specific issues.

Defenses in the "unconscious," the doctor thought, paying the taxi driver.

What I have to do now is to get acquainted with each incarnation, and to understand the inner conflicts associated with each incarnation, however many there may be.This would take me to the root of the traumas that made the split personality inevitable.In this way, I can learn the truth, the very truth that makes those avatars fight so hard.

The doctor knew that the psychoanalysis she was going to have had to include the incarnations, and to treat each incarnation as an autonomous person, and at the same time to treat each incarnation as a part of Arielle Dorset.

The most important thing right now is to get close to the awake Ariel.

This is the only way to relieve Ariel's anxiety and defenses.

And it is because of anxiety and defense that these avatars exist.

But how to get close to the distant and timid Arielle Dorsett?
One morning in April, Ariel came to the consulting room with a few watercolors she had drawn.

"Ariel," Dr. Wilbur asked:

"Would you like to ride with me down to Connecticut some Sunday when the dogwoods are in bloom? The country is lovely then. The big trees and shrubs are in full bloom. You can paint them."

Ariel said timidly, "Oh, you have more important things to do, why spend a Sunday with me!"

Damn it, thought the doctor, I must make her understand:
I regard her as a woman of extraordinary talent, and I enjoy being around her, even if she is not a patient of mine.Is there no way to make her understand:

Even though she was in very bad health, I didn't think about her less?
Could she never understand that, although she despised herself, I did not despise her?
After much debate, Dr. Wilbur finally persuaded Ariel to travel.

This trip can thaw out Ariel's feelings and restore her self-confidence.

Dr. Wilbur was sure of this.

One Sunday morning in early May, at seven o'clock in fine weather, Dr. Wilbur drove to Whittier House.

She saw Ariel waiting with Teddy Reeves, who had always been kind to Ariel.After Ariel confessed her multiple personality problems to her, Teddy became even more attached to Ariel.

Unbeknownst to Teddy when she called Dr. Wilbur that night in March, she had not only met Vicky and Peggy Lou, but had formed a friendship with them.

Teddy accompanied Ariel standing in front of the dormitory door, and found that the doctor's car was open, so he made a big fuss and asked Ariel to get a scarf to block the wind.

Ariel said she was already wearing the scarf.

Teddy still said it was too cold for the convertible.

Even though Ariel and the doctor said it was all right, she wasn't relieved.

But Teddy is most worried about whether Peggy Lou can keep silent during the trip, and how long Ariel's identity can be kept during the trip.

Ariel, on the other hand, was still calm when she waved goodbye to Teddy and stepped into the doctor's convertible car.

She was quite attractive in her red hat and navy dress, and was much more at ease than the Doctor was used to seeing.

Ariel hides her yearning and joy for traveling in front of Teddy, and once she leaves Teddy, she no longer hides it, all of which cannot escape the eyes of the doctor.

The doctor thinks this is because Ariel is sensitive and considerate, and doesn't want to arouse Teddy's jealousy.

Dr. Wilbur, wishing to make the excursion appear purely social, tried to confine his conversation to the here and now, the towns and houses passed, the geography and history of the fields, and the scenery.

They bypassed the small coastal cities, turned the corner at Southport, and drove straight to Sound.

"I've always wanted to draw a boat," Ariel said when she caught sight of Sander's boat.

"But I always feel that I can't draw in shape."

"Try it."

The doctor said and stopped the car. Ariel sat in the car seat and drew several pictures of sailboats anchored in the dock.

"I like these sketches," said the doctor.

Ariel seemed delighted.

Dr. Wilbur drove slowly away from Sander, up and down old country roads with few roads or traffic.

She pointed out to Arielle, who had never been here before, a few pre-Revolutionary houses, and a few funky houses with pre-Revolutionary windows.

Ariel said:
"My dad was a building contractor. He was crazy about architecture and he developed my interest."

The father was rarely mentioned by her in psychoanalysis, and Dr. Wilbur was delighted to hear it.

The conversation turned to the beautifully planted dogwoods, lilacs, and blooming sour apple trees.

Ariel asked to stop so she could pencil in a sketch of a hill studded with dogwoods and sour apple trees.

Ariel had long insisted on getting lunch ready.

The meal was at a small campground near Kent, Connecticut.

Dr. Wilbur had thought at the time that Ariel was hoping to take the lunch as a token of gratitude for the outing, but she later realized that the picnic was to avoid going to restaurants.

In fact, Ariel is terribly afraid of restaurants. If she goes to a restaurant, she will inevitably cause "time loss."

Another thing, which the doctor did not understand until later, was that when Ariel promised to go on a trip, she insisted on returning to New York at three o'clock in the afternoon, and no later than four o'clock at the latest.

"I still have work to do," Ariel explained.

But the doctor later found out that the real reason was that Ariel was afraid of emotional disturbance, fatigue and fear after three or four o'clock in the field.

These conditions often appear towards the end of the day.

She fears she will have a split personality, and she doesn't want to risk the doctor seeing her avatar outside the clinic.

So, at three o'clock in the afternoon, Dr. Wilbur's convertible appeared again in front of Whittier's dormitory.

Neither Dr. Wilbur nor Ariel knew they were not alone on the trip to Connecticut, and Peggy Lou, who took part in the tour, was delighted that Ariel finally took her on the trip.

Vicky is another unseen passenger in the doctor's car.

She would be eager to tell Marianne Ludlow about the old antebellum house.

There were also several passengers in the car that neither the doctor nor Ariel had ever seen.

Marcia Lynn Dorset, overconfident and sprightly, with her shield-shaped face, gray eyes and brown hair, keeps an eye on the whole tour.

The car turned around in front of the dormitory.

Dr. Wilbur says goodbye to Ariel.

At this time, Marcia Lynn turned to her close friend Vanessa Gale and said in a British accent:

"She cares about us."

Vanessa was a tall, slender girl with dark chestnut hair, hazel eyes, and an expressive oval face.

She relayed the simple words to Mary:
"She cares about us." Mary was a motherly little old woman, short, fat, and brooding.

She repeated it with a smile, making the sentence seem like a question:
"She cares about us?"

In this way, Marcia Lynn, Vanessa Gale, and Mary sent a message that grew louder and clearer in the process:
"This Dr. Wilbur cares about us." After this, Marcia Lynn, Vanessa Gale, Mary, and the other avatars held a secret meeting and made the following decisions:
"We're going to see her."

(End of this chapter)