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Chapter 354 I Don't Want To Die
I never thought that I would fall into this situation.

When watching some medical documentaries before, I used to put myself into the role of the patient like many boring viewers, and then I easily came to a conclusion-if I really had some incurable disease , that is not as good as self-sufficiency.In this way, I can suffer less physically, and perhaps less mentally.Watching oneself slide to the brink of death little by little, that is simply the most terrifying thing that human beings can experience.The desire to survive will continue to torture one's heart, and the individual's powerlessness for life and death will eventually become a sharp weapon to torture oneself.

So, I hope that if one day I can't decide whether I can continue to live, then at least let me master my own death.

This is a stupid and extremely superficial idea of ​​mine.

Lying on the ground, I could feel the twisting of my body. If there is no accident, I probably... broke a leg?Otherwise, what happened to the leg touching my chest?Judging from the feeling, this should be my left leg, right?
pain.

It hurts.

I tried to relieve the pain by gasping or whatever, but to my horror, there was nothing I could do.Not to mention screaming or moving my hands, I couldn't even move my head.There are still clear sensations coming from all parts of the body, but the body cannot move.

I'm starting to get scared.

There was a strange blur in front of my eyes, and large patches of gray and white came into my eyes. I didn't feel any pain in my head, but the cold feeling made me feel very uncomfortable.

By the way, I seem to be... hit by a car.

The pain in my legs and the fear of not being able to control my body flooded my heart like a tide. I began to feel my chest tightening, and there was a sound like a drum beating in my ears.Helplessness and panic instantly overwhelmed my 25-year-old self-proclaimed straight man.This feeling of pain and helplessness was so strange and intense that I even wanted to cry, but I blinked a few times, but I couldn't shed a single tear.

My eyelids seem to be able to move.

This kind of thing that is not a discovery at all even makes me feel a little excited. Does this mean that other parts of my body can also move?
Just as I was desperately trying to get myself to move, a sharp siren sounded from my ears.The ambulance is here.

Great, I thought from the bottom of my heart, the ambulance came, at least I was saved.

I want to live.

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I was rudely thrown onto a hard stretcher bed by two doctors. The sides of the bed were really hard and narrow. In addition, the ambulance was driving so fast that I even suspected that my backs on both sides would be injured. The bruises came out directly.Although it was very painful and uncomfortable, I could barely bear it. After all, it was a fair trade to exchange short-term discomfort for quick treatment.

The atmosphere in the vehicle was very tense. I don't know whether it was because they usually work in such a high-intensity environment, or because my injury was particularly serious.After getting in the car, I relaxed a lot, and I could even start to think wildly in my mind.

"Craniocerebral trauma, unconsciousness, open fracture of left leg, they will definitely not accept it if sent to the Second Hospital, report directly to the Fourth Hospital!" I could barely see a man in dark blue shouting into the cab , "Go directly to the fourth courtyard!"

Wait, no consciousness?I was startled suddenly, no, I'm still awake!
I tried to shout from my unresponsive throat, but of course I couldn't make any sound.

"There is no response to shoulder pats and verbal calls, and there is no response to pain!" The man in dark blue patted my shoulder first, and after shouting a few words, he used a pen that seemed to be a metal casing to touch my shoulder. Two hard presses on my fingernails.It hurts, but not as much as the pain coming from my leg.To be honest, I don’t care much about the pain in my legs anymore. Compared with the feeling in my legs, what I’m more afraid of is that the unreliable-looking emergency doctor in front of me thinks I’m dead and turns around to take me away. Throw it directly into some morgue, leave it overnight and then burn it directly... By the way, I can't be dead, right?
"Heart rate is 131, blood pressure is 95/60, he has lost too much blood, he should be in shock." The doctor in dark blue clothes quickly relieved my concerns, at least he will not treat me as a dead person, "Brother Wang, drive faster point!"

"I've stepped on the fucking gas pedal into the gas tank!" A roar came from the cab, "Why is the traffic in Ningyuan in the morning even more fucking congested than the capital?!"

The car body shook violently twice, and then there was a more violent bump. I even thought that the ambulance I was in had encountered some serious traffic accident and was about to overturn.Seriously, if this is the case, I should probably die today—within ten minutes, two serious traffic accidents, I don’t know what immoral things I have done, God really can’t stand it.

Fortunately, the car did not overturn.After a few more bumps, the car slammed on the brakes and stopped.I heard the "click" of the tailgate of the car at my feet being opened from the outside, and then the sound of people pouring into the car suddenly. "You fucking don't want your life? You ran over directly from the green belt? Is it the shedding hemorrhagic shock that was predicted just now?"

"That's right! Push in quickly!" The doctor in dark blue seemed to be used to the abnormal behavior of the driver, Brother Wang.He and a few others pushed me out of the car, and I saw a blue sky, a green translucent plastic canopy, an exceptionally high hall, and a gray-white ceiling.After passing through a silver stainless steel door, I was wheeled next to a bed.

"Come on, three, two, one!" The sheets under me were lifted up amid the chants of a group of people, and then I was put on a slightly softer bed.

"Establish an intravenous line, get a needle to remove the nails, give 7 units of dextran a quick infusion of [-] ml, check the blood type, and stop the bleeding immediately!" A man's voice sounded from the direction of my left foot, "Open femur fracture in left leg , with degloving injury, go to monitoring! Please consult the orthopedics department and the doctor."

This person's voice sounds confident, at least he should be a middle-level manager, right?

"The means to stop the bleeding is not strong enough, put on two more tourniquets..." His voice suddenly stopped, and another voice lowered his voice and asked, "Could you be a big brother again?"

"Don't talk about boring things at this time." The middle management said angrily, "Contact the imaging department and ask them to prepare a CT..." He paused and asked, "Has the blood type come out?"

"Type A, RH positive." At my right foot, a female voice reported, "800CC have been taken from the blood bank, but they are all frozen, and they are in the warmer..."

The middle management said angrily, "The systolic blood pressure has dropped to 70, so why wait for the warmer? Artificial warming, and then pressurized infusion!"

What is Artificial Warming?I'm actually quite curious.But...not to mention I can't move my head, I can't even turn my eyeballs left and right.

"The coma score is 3 points, deep coma. The pupils on both sides are different in size, [-] millimeters on the left and [-] millimeters on the right. They respond to light." Another young doctor waved a penlight in front of my eyes, In the direction of my left foot, a bunch of words that I didn't quite understand were reported.

"Deep coma, there may be brain herniation." The middle management said a few words, "Where are the family members?"

By the way, I... my parents, my wife, they, are they here?

"The police have already contacted, but they haven't found it yet." Another male voice replied, "I'm authorized by the hospital office to run."

"There is a craniocerebral injury, Dr. Xu, your team will take care of this case." The middle management suddenly said at my feet, "Sun Lien is still in the consulting room?"

"I'll call him over." The female voice said before, "Send him to the CT room first, and I'll go there as soon as I call Sun Lien."

I lay on the bed, a little puzzled.Are all the people in this hospital so reckless?Call the leader to see a doctor, and don't bring a respectful title?

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As it turned out, I probably couldn't be saved.The person this group of doctors specially invited to treat me was a young doctor who looked very unreliable.

Are you planning to blame this poor young man for my death and then take the opportunity to ruin his career? !
I seem to have begun to accept that I must die.He could even calmly take this opportunity to make a joke.It's a pity that these doctors didn't have the chance to be shocked or even applaud my open-mindedness and cheerfulness.

Even if I want to die, at least I have to wait until my children and grandchildren are full, and I will lie on the bed in my seventies and eighties, basking in the sun and slowly closing my eyes, right?A broken leg, bleeding from the head, unable to speak to die is simply too cruel.

I don't want to die.

The young doctor who was called stood beside me, next to the CT machine next to me.I could just see his face out of the corner of my eye.

I guess the inspection is over.

This young doctor is staring at my... head?Or maybe a few centimeters of air above my head?Anyway, he didn't look like he was looking at me.The poor guy had a confused expression on his face. To be honest, if I were called by other colleagues to take this blame, my expression might be worse than his.

"Lien, what do you think?" The voice of the middle management rang throughout the examination room, and he seemed to be talking into the room through the microphone.

I saw a miraculous scene. The confusion and puzzlement on the young doctor's face suddenly disappeared, replaced by a calm face, "The problem with the leg is not the most important thing. First, we should clarify the extent and scope of the brain injury. The leg The hemostasis was done enough, and the scope of the degloving injury was relatively small—compared with the obvious trauma, I was more concerned about why he passed out."

I almost yelled, Dr. Xiao Sun, can you be a little more honest?You were in a daze with a serious and confused face just now!
"The situation of this patient is somewhat similar to that of Lin Lan before." The middle management said in a deep voice, "You have handled Lin Lan's situation fairly well, so this patient will be handed over to your treatment team to take over."

"No problem." Doctor Xiao Sun slapped his swollen face to pretend to be fat, and caught the pot thrown at him.I couldn't help but lament in my heart, the old doctors are too bad, and the young ones are too bad.If you don't have the skills, don't force it. Is it difficult for you to invite an expert to see what's going on with me?
I begged and roared in my heart, trying to express my dissatisfaction and fear to these doctors.But I found that I couldn't even roll my eyes.

(End of this chapter)