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Chapter 121 Building a Perfect Life

The frozen air made Gan Lu, who was leaning against a tree to watch the play, a little embarrassed for a while.Seeing Bai Muya who left Zhong Wenxun's side, she considered whether to help Zhong Wenxun keep her.

"Mu Ya, don't lie to me, I can hear your heartbeat. Every time you lie, it's like this."

Bai Muya, who had just walked away from him a few steps, stopped in an instant, and big tears poured out of her eyes.

Bai Muya turned around and shouted at him almost hoarsely: "I just like you to me, so what, I don't want to like you from today on, is that okay? Can you control it?"

Zhong Wenxun looked at Bai Muya's red eyes from crying, wiped away her tears, and said, "No."

Zhong Wenxun's words of no good almost made Gan Lu beside him laugh out loud, and that gentle and domineering tone could make people pissed off.

But Bai Muya cried and threw herself into his arms, wiping all the snot and tears on his body.

"Mu Ya, maybe I haven't figured out my feelings for you yet, but I know that I don't want you to get hurt, don't want you to be unhappy, and don't want you to be too far away from me."

This naked love almost overflowed, but Zhong Wenxun didn't seem to understand his heart.Maybe he was a fan of the authorities, or he didn't understand what love is at all, or maybe in his cognition, love might not be like this.

Gan Lu stared dumbfounded at the scene in front of her, and shook her head helplessly.Seeing the two people walking away, she followed quickly, wanting to laugh.

She felt that this was the strangest relationship she had ever seen.It's like a monster that looks like a horse. It can't be called a horse, but it looks the same as a horse except for its name.If you call it, it won't answer, but when you talk about it, the horse will jump out.

Late at night, Roden City was still as bustling as it was during the day. In the water spray garden, three people were sitting side by side, eating ice cream with empty eyes.

Gan Lu stood up first, and said goodbye to the two of them briefly.According to Zhong Wenxun's agreement when he rescued her, Zhong Wenxun handed her a bag of silver coins.

Before she left, Zhong Wenxun hesitated for a moment, but stopped her.

"Xiao Lu, after leaving this city, I still hope that you can live a good life."

Hearing these words, Gan Lu paused as she was about to leave, and then turned back.

"Thanks."

"You don't need to thank me. I just want you to understand that there are many paths to take in life. If you don't like your current life, there are many options besides giving up your life."

Gan Lu smiled at him, pondered for a moment, and then said, "You used to ask me why you committed suicide. Before saying goodbye today, I would like to tell you."

Zhong Wenxun nodded, put the last piece of ice cream into his mouth, and heard Gan Lu slowly talk about her past.

Gan Lu was born in an ordinary family, just like most people in the world, the ordinary cannot be more ordinary.

Such an ordinary family naturally has the most ordinary life.An ordinary but happy life is often the envy of everyone.

But Gan Lu didn't like it.She seemed to be born with thorns all over her body, rebellious and rebellious.

Maybe not everyone's nature can be accepted by the world.It's like people always give up their unique self in order to pursue the best thing.

In the hearts of children, the affirmation of parents is always so important.In order to please her parents, she had to hide the thorns all over her body and become the most well-behaved child in the eyes of others.

"Xiao Lu, play more with other people's children."

"Xiaolu, call me uncle and aunt."

"Xiaolu, as long as you choose this job, your life will be stable in the future, and your parents will be very happy."

"Xiaolu, marry him. The child is in good condition in all aspects. You will have a good life in the future."

Gan Lu listened to these annoying words, but could do nothing.She was originally a withdrawn child, but she was forced to be the most tactful among the children.

Finally, when she restrained her soul as a good child 8 times, she broke down.

It was also on that day that she suddenly discovered that she didn't seem to love her family that much anymore.

The jobs she doesn't like, the life she doesn't like, and even the people she doesn't like are all in her life.

Everything is just for the affirmative eyes of parents and those who care about.

Everything is just for the peaceful but ordinary life.

When she wore the exaggerated clothes she liked, quit that annoying job, and even yelled goodbye to that annoying relationship, no one was willing to accept the real her, the disappointed, monster-like eyes, make her despair.

It seems that from the very beginning, these people only loved the perfect her in disguise.

The well-behaved and tactful she, the one who is willing to be mediocre, the one who pretends to be cheerful and humorous, the one who makes herself sick.

That was the day that made her despair, and it was also the day that made her reborn.

Standing on the rooftop, she looked at the big city and the birds above her head, and suddenly felt like jumping off.

This big city can't accommodate a little girl.This life that suffocates her is actually tailor-made for her by the person who loves her.

No one really loved her, no one really cared about her feelings, no one even really understood her thoughts and respected her choice.

She's nothing more than a fake perfect walking dead that's been created.

When the wind picked up, the cherry blossoms in Rawden City flew over. Gan Lu looked at the diary in her hand and tore it into pieces.

The fluttering pieces of paper were like butterflies, flying to unknown corners of the city along with the cherry blossom petals. Gan Lu turned and went home, leaving the cold house without a word.

If you could define death, how would you define it?
Some people say that some people may have died in their teens, but they were buried in their decades.

Gan Lu was carrying the suitcase, but she didn't know where she should go.

The wind by the river was so strong that it pulled up her hair.

Spring has come, as if everything is a new starting point.Except her.

In this spring of revival of all things, she is walking towards death step by step.

The river was below her ankles, and she laughed almost crazily.

The bell of the clock tower in the distance rang, twelve o'clock at midnight.She closed her eyes tightly and fell towards the water.

The cold river water wrapped her body, but she was smiling.It seemed that this annoying life was finally coming to an end.It seemed that the exhausted she could finally bid farewell to the life she didn't like.

This annoying world is finally quiet.

After an unknown amount of time, she slowly opened her eyes. In the dim light, a man's back was facing her.

"woke up?"

Gan Lu didn't answer him, sat up, looked around, it was still the annoying Rawden City, but it seemed that everything was not the same anymore.

"Hey, I want to ask you a question. Why do you want to see someone so much, but you still can't bear to see them? You are a girl, so you should know."

(End of this chapter)