Transformation or Death

18 – people eaten in the past

It was a weak suspicion.

It’s just that the monster’s disguise and Han Jaejoong’s clothes he saw at the hospital are the same.

That the silhouette is very similar to the physique of Han Jaejoong I saw today.

It was weak to be sure, but enough evidence to doubt.

Combined with the words in the hospital, it makes quite a bit of sense.

memory loss.

When I saw Pink Deneb, I was embarrassed by saying the name of a magical girl.

As if you were meeting someone for the first time, as if you were someone you should never meet.

When I saw Blue Sirius, I called out his name first, but soon he stopped pretending and replied that he didn’t know me.

It sounded like a blatant lie, but if this were really the truth.

We can come to the conclusion that Jaejoong Han has become a monster.

The appearance that changed like that is the monster of the Big Dipper.

“Eh, ah, no way… There’s no such thing as a damn thing…”

Deneb murmured. It can’t be. A person who should live happily. You shouldn’t be a monster now.

It’s a terrible imagination, and it’s a paranoia.

It is an exaggerated suspicion that I thought of him because he was so shabby that I saw him today.

but….

“Damn it.”

“Sister…? Sister, where are you going?”

Deneb got up and headed outside.

He trembled the floor with quite nervous steps and grabbed the mascot with his hand. It was a cotton ball resembling a parrot.

[Wait bitch… kek… kek… talk and catch…!]

“It won’t be…”

[You bitch! Please wake up!]

slap!

The mascot slipped out of her grasp and slapped her on the cheek. It didn’t hurt. I just felt bad.

“…Fuck.”

[Don’t just swear, fuck!]

“You do too.”

[Keuk, kuhm. set that aside for now. Guardian, calm down. You have to stay calm at times like this. No matter how much Han Jaejoong is the older brother you trusted and followed and even if he was your first love…]

“Everyone, shut up! It wasn’t like that, you bastard?!”

it’s bad

Pink Deneb strongly dismissed it as not true. I definitely like it, but I was able to assert that it was not rational.

“Anyway… yes. Stay calm.”

[Are you going to transform right now?]

Originally I thought so.

I jumped out of my seat with the intention of going to the monster and interrogating him right now.

Regardless of the front and back, I tried to get away from this unpleasant delusion.

However, as the mascot said, it was necessary to calm down a little now.

A state in which thinking is not working properly, and you can easily make a conclusive thought with only small clues.

Even the alcohol was back and my head was dizzy.

When in doubt, be cool. It’s not another matter, it’s related to the monster.

In other words, the moment he became a monster, it was no different than a legal death sentence. In order to turn such suspicion into certainty, it is not enough to be deluded.

We need proof that everyone can understand.

In other words, unless there is evidence to that extent, Han Jaejoong is not a monster.

I took a few deep breaths to calm my rapidly beating heart, and returned oxygen to my head to cool it down.

“Not now. I’ll have to look at the seniors first.”

I decided to go from where I originally wanted to go.

Maybe I should meet someone who is similar to or more disturbed than I am right now, and organize my mind.

**

“Wow, smells like alcohol!”

Pink Deneb also drank beer earlier. But it’s nothing compared to this strong alcohol scent. The entire room was filled with a strong smell of alcohol. Deneb frowned at the dizzying sensation of getting drunk with just his sense of smell.

“Uh…? Are you here…?”

“Did you drink whiskey out of a bottle again?”

“hehehehe… it’s delicious…”

“Oh, my tongue is loose and I’m very upset.”

Blue Sirius was sitting on the floor, half leaning on the bed, with a whiskey bottle rolling next to his hand. I heard that it was quite expensive, but unfortunately it was being used for disinfecting the floor.

Deneb was accustomed to going to the refrigerator and taking out cold water.

“Cold water… I can make it even colder hehehe…”

“Senior, please shut up and drink some water.”

“In the past, after Jaejoong worked out, I used magic to cool him down and give him water…”

It’s a story I’ve heard often in the past when we were dating. I felt sorry for her still thinking about these days, and it was also boring to hear her reminisce about these days for several years.

Especially since I became an adult who was allowed to drink, this tendency became even worse.

“Stop fucking and drink some water.”

“Yes….”

Paradoxically, while healing the wounds with alcohol, they are floating them with alcohol. It was a treadmill of sorts, where the alcohol disinfected, the bitterness rose again, and alcohol disinfected it again.

In her early twenties, Deneb was worried that Sirius might develop alcoholism. Of course, that worry was just groundless. The magical girl’s mental strength was not normal, so she strictly abstained from drinking on days when she had work to do.

Magical girls work every day, so it was as if they had stopped drinking almost every day.

“Fuha… Ah Yuna. Why did Jaejoong act like he didn’t know us…”

But sometimes days like this. When it becomes too difficult for her to survive without drinking, she is forced to drink too. I don’t want to be seen by others, so stay quiet at home.

Desperately, with the hope that the toxin of alcohol will erase his memory.

“Did I hate myself so much…? Was I really someone Jaejoong shouldn’t be with…? Did he really forget everything? But what should I do… I… I… still can’t forget him… “I feel like I’m going to die from this hardship…”

Pink Deneb lifted Blue Sirius’s arm and put it on his shoulder. Despite the height difference, Deneb skillfully managed to support her.

“Ah Yuna… I’m so scared… What if Jaejoong really forgot about me? It would be fortunate if he forgot everything related to me… The scars I left behind and the aftereffects are the same, but if only I forgot… If I forget even the object of my resentment… If I don’t know anything and only a ruined life remains… What should I do because I’m pitiful… What should I do if my Jaejoong is so pitiful…”

Deneb gritted his teeth and then laughed without showing it.

“There’s no way that could be. It was an obvious lie. You know Jaejoong oppa. He’s also very good at telling lies like that.”

“Is that so…? So… did Jaejoong lie because he didn’t want to get involved with me…? He doesn’t like that too… No, it’s obvious… but he doesn’t like it…”

Silver hair with a slight bluish tint fell over Deneb like a curtain. She sat Blue Sirius on the bed. I couldn’t sit properly and almost fell over. He grabbed her by the shoulder and fixed it.

“It’s okay, senior. Jaejoong oppa wouldn’t have been sincere either.”

“Is that so…?”

“Sweet, I’m usually calm, but only when it’s like this. It’s okay. Everyone was so embarrassed that they said nonsense.”

“Then I’m glad…”

Seeing Blue Sirius, I know for sure. This suspicion must be dealt with by Pink Deneb alone. Even if the terrible truth awaits at the end of this doubt, you must keep the secret.

“That’s right… Ah Yoon-ah, did you say that we all watch the footage of the monster on CCTV… what happened to that…?”

“Oh that…”

Deneb grinned.

“Nothing special. Everything is the same. It ended with only realizing the difference between us and those bastards. Ha… No answer. How do you beat those guys?”

“…Still, we have to win.”

Blue Sirius gritted his teeth.

“Don’t let them attack anywhere again. We have to kill them all.”

Hearing that declaration, Pink Deneb made up his mind.

I would never reveal that screen or this suspicion to her.

**

[Defeat the monster.]

“Whoa…”

Leaving behind the explosion, I relaxed my tired body.

I was definitely tired.

At this rate, I might run emergency run again like before.

Fighting is what you continue to do after you leave the hospital, even a gangster wouldn’t be like this.

“Did you all fight? Why are you killing monsters?”

“Don’t be shy. Are you imitating a cat?”

“Meow Miya Ong Bog.”

Turn your head towards the place where you heard the voice. Pink Deneb was there, lightly sitting on a lamppost. Beautiful pink crows croaked around her.

Looking directly overhead, crows were flying in circles.

You used Hongik-Oh to track it down. It wasn’t that difficult to come to that conclusion.

However, I couldn’t reach that motive. He must have been quite tired from fighting the A-rank monster today. Not only this, but I am the opponent who gave her defeat the day before. It will usually be when you get a countermeasure to find it again.

“What’s the matter? As I said before, if you don’t quarrel, you won’t attack.”

“Whoever hears will think I’m on the bad side?”

“If you look at his posture and way of speaking, he’s probably like that.”

“but.”

Pink Deneb smiled and came down this way, crouching down like a bully in the back alley.

“Hey.”

Her gestures were extraordinarily graceful compared to her strong-looking makeup and tone of voice. The cloth like a winged robe wrapped around the body was lightly transmitted through the light of the street lamp and shimmered. The light pink eyes hidden by the small body and long eyelashes were mysterious. On the inner side of the short hair that came down to his neck, the starlight glowed even more, perhaps because of the effect of the two-tone dyeing in reality.

“Let me ask you something.”

The expression of Pink Deneb approaching like that was not very good. I met a person who I thought was a monster. It could be natural. The sadness was strangely strong to be called hostility.

“If I’m good at speaking, I’ll suck your soul right here, but I don’t have that kind of skill. I’m asking straight forward.”

Her starlight swayed precariously as if it had met a great wind.

“Your human name, is that Han Jaejoong?”

Some of the shards of the scattered starlight reached me.

Remember what comes to mind.

Memories closer to blood than pink.

When Pink Deneb was still very young. The memory of her crying and me comforting her. My hands were very chapped, and Deneb’s face was also bruised. Two wounded.

Was Han Jaejoong related to her as well as Blue Sirius? No, I had a relationship with her? Even though I was one step closer to the hypothesis that I was Han Jaejoong, I still couldn’t feel it, so my stomach was pounding.

‘I’m going to get sick…’

I frowned at the sense of nostalgia that was too long to be a peek at someone’s memory. My head hurt. How many times do you suffer from this past just today? Is this my memory correct? I’m too used to saying otherwise. Unable to hold back the headache, he raised his hand to his forehead and let out a sigh.

“Whoa…”

“…! What, what is it. Tell me quickly.”

If she ran away wearing Alkaid, her suspicions would only be amplified here. However, I also don’t have any other narration. It is clear that no matter what I tell those who are already suspicious, it will not work.

Know. Pink Deneb is a good person.

Even in the original work… No, even in the unknown webtoon, she is one of those who kept loyalty and justice to the end.

Of course, most magical girls were like that.

However, she did not give up that attitude even after losing her strength.

He is a great man and a hero.

That’s why it can’t be revealed.

It is courtesy between people.

It is a great disrespect to make her suffer by involving her in something that even I am not sure about.

It is Han Jaejoong who feels affection for her, not me.

Still a stranger and a lost child, it is not my duty as a human being to make her sad by relying on misdirected recognition.

It is the body of Han Jaejoong, but the right spirit of Han Jaejoong is not dwelling in it. How many people will this discrepancy grieve. Will she be able to handle her past relationship, which seemingly turned into a monster?

If I reveal my face here, she will think that I am Han Jaejoong who turned me into a monster.

No matter what excuses I give, she will definitely settle for that.

Are you a magical girl dealing with monsters, or a human being swayed by a love from the past? Two crossroads will be created for her, and she will go through an agony she has never experienced in her life.

“On what basis do you say that?”

“Aren’t you asking what the name Han Jaejoong is? You bastard…”

“It’s a name I know, but I don’t know if it’s necessary. Why, did I have to ask?”

“No. You don’t have to.”

Deneb put his hand on his waist and asked again with a confident attitude.

“So, is that right?”

The stocky Kira was quite cute. The hand on her waist was trembling, pretending not to be like that. He replied with a smile at the cowardice.

“You won’t believe me no matter what I say… but just know this.”

I can’t reveal it now.

The loss is far greater than the gain gained by revealing it. I’m not even sure if she can be an ally.

Rather, as much as he sympathizes with him, as much as he has accumulated affection, he might try to kill me alone because he wants to handle it alone.

One day, when I get all my memories, that’s what I’ll have to look at as a person and as a person.

The relationship between a magical girl and a monster is more ideal now.

Dreaming of a different dream by relying on trivial hope is only hard work for each other.

She will suffer because she is swallowed up in the past, and Nana will suffer because she cannot find her past and live up to her expectations.

It was the same in that they would suffer as if they were going to die for each other.

Doubts that have already arisen cannot be removed. After that, she will doubt me for the rest of her life.

I can’t completely deny that suspicion either.

However, you can maintain a moderate level of tension so that the suspicion does not become certain.

That’s enough.

“Han Jaejoong is not here right now.”

Not yet.

I grabbed her by the neck and raised her up to the sky.

[SET. partiality.]

“Uh, uh uh? This, fuck! Hey you bastard!”

“And don’t chase me. I’m in the way.”

It’s annoying to keep chasing like this. laid her down

Quaang!

[Succeeded in reversal. 30% reproducibility.]

The attack, which deliberately lowered the recall rate, was really suitable for just stunning and leaving.

**

By the time the intensity of the stars that had brightly lit the night had also declined, and the faint purple clouds of dawn peeked out.

“What are you doing here…”

Pink Deneb saw Han Jaejoong lying on the side of the road and trying to sleep. What does the person who wished for happiness look like? My heart felt like it would break.

After waking up from fainting, I immediately sent Hong Ik-oh to find the monster again. I couldn’t take the word not to pursue as advice in the slightest.

“Where are you going to leave your house and sleep here… Did oppa drink like you too? It doesn’t smell like alcohol… You really don’t have a house? Don’t do that… If you know that, you’ll really die…”

However, the monster of the Big Dipper could not even see the nose, and only one homeless person could be found here. A homeless man dressed in the same outfit as the monstrous transformation. A young looking man sleeping on a newspaper.

“A while ago, monsters seem to be pretty good at lying… So, isn’t that your brother? I’m not sure. I don’t even know if that’s a lie.”

Deneb covered him with a blanket, careful not to wake him.

“Just one thing… I know that oppa avoids me. Is what he said at the hospital true? Did you really forget me? Senior?”

Characteristics of the monster’s loss of memory.

However, the attitude of seeing Blue Sirius at the hospital, there was obviously longing in his eyes. There was a hint of forced ignorance. It was too humane to dismiss it as a monster and reluctant attitude.

Same with what the monster said earlier. There are only a couple of things I don’t know.

But one thing is certain.

It is clear that some kind of relationship has been formed between the Big Dipper’s monster and Han Jae-joong.

“So I’m leaving only kindness that doesn’t seem like kindness here. Don’t thank me. If you thank me, I’ll feel sorry.”

In the first place, a monster would never be able to take on a human body this perfectly.

But if you’re a monster with that ability…

“If my real brother is a monster… Can I kill my ex?”

Maybe the monster won’t kill himself. No matter how many times we had chances so far, it’s clear when we look at the fact that we ended up suppressing them.

“…I don’t know. Anyway, I’m leaving for today. And I’ll see you next time… for sure.”

After saying that, Pink Deneb disappeared in front of him.