The Woman Found the Will I Wrote

89 – Rumi’s identity

[If you want to go out again after hearing this, don’t just go out the door, jump out the window, and just commit suicide. Because that would be more helpful to Dern.]

Rumi was buried in her corner, thinking over what she had heard from Delia earlier.

I don’t know if it was because her resentment, anger, and sadness were mixed together, or because Delia’s words pierced her heart.

One thing that was certain was that her mind had become so complicated that it was difficult to organize and she just wanted to be buried in her corner.

‘I really don’t know… ‘I don’t know anything.’

After being adopted by her adoptive parents, until now.

She was powerless and the only way to protect those she loved was to ‘pretend not to know or leave’.

Even if we were told that we could rely on it now, it was difficult to follow it right away.

A sense of defeat and despair that she has learned since childhood.

When those things were surrounding my whole mind and collapsing.

The doll that Dern gave me as a gift in the past catches my eye.

“…… “

If you think about Dern, who usually appears cold, arrogant, and heartless.

It was a puppy doll that looked so cute and fluffy that it was hard to believe that she gave me such a doll as a gift.

It was a gift that did not fit her image at all, so even in the midst of her sadness, the corners of her mouth strangely turned up and while she was thinking that she was being foolish, a thought suddenly crossed her mind.

‘Dern… ‘Have you tried as hard as you can to keep me from leaving?’

A short but powerful question.

The moment I thought about those questions, I began to understand one by one the actions that Dern had shown me.

It started with her insisting on letting me into her house.

He protected us from the Heavenly God Church, even though we knew it would not bring any benefit.

And this is how he gave me a doll as a gift or held me several times…

I had been ignoring it until now.

Every time I thought of each one, I was able to realize that these were all ‘things I did to hold on to myself.’

“…… “

As those thoughts pass by, my mind becomes more and more complicated.

If it’s ‘what I feel and have done’ so far, it’s right to leave.

This is because both Delia and Dern were ‘directly telling herself not to leave’.

‘What should I do…? ? How should… Will it work?’

The more I think about it, the more I feel like I’m falling into a deep swamp.

If I made the wrong choice and only harmed myself, I would have made the choice without much hesitation.

I feel like my worries are growing as I hear that damage is being done to Dern as well.

So, she was thinking about it for a while.

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The ‘letter’ she received from the black cat earlier catches her eye.

A letter containing the message that everything will be resolved if you return to the Celestial Order.

The moment I see that letter, the thoughts I had before begin to come to mind more clearly.

‘If I go to the Heavenly God Church, will the Heavenly God Church really let Dern go?’

I could only blink at such a question.

If you think about it, the Celestial God Church has never once truly abandoned something she was interested in.

‘… But now you’re letting me go?’

Something I hadn’t really thought about until now because I was so focused on it is now clearly coming into my mind.

I was able to realize that what the Heavenly God Church proposed was ‘all lies.’

The moment I realize that fact, I burst into laughter and tears pour down.

This is because, as Delia said, she realized that she was truly an asshole.

‘… Fool. Idiot.’

If I had gone to the Celestial Church without listening to Dern and Delia, everything would probably have fallen into the abyss itself.

The fact that he tried to repeat the same thing again after what had happened to him felt incredibly foolish. For no reason, he hit his head hard and curled up.

‘… It hurts.’

It feels like there is a slight lump on his head, perhaps because he squeezed it too hard.

I held his head, which felt a little bulging, with my palm, took a deep breath, and thought.

‘Never again… ‘I won’t make foolish choices.’

She stood up from her seat and looked into the mirror, vowing not to make any more choices that would harm Dern.

After living with Dern, his appearance has become much neater.

She rubbed her tear-filled eyes as she looked at herself, who had become ordinary enough to be thought of as taking care of her, although she was not as luxurious as the student council president of Shien.

She then bit her lip, looked at her puffy face, and made a decision.

She should no longer try to run away, but she will continue to remain by Dern’s side.

‘And I can’t help but cause trouble to Dern.’

She strengthened her resolve to repay Dern by using other methods.

The problem is that there is no specific way to repay it…

In his opinion, Dern was so perfect that there was nothing he could do about it.

‘What can I do for you…’ ?’

At the moment I was wondering if there was something good.

Suddenly a good idea crossed my mind.

“… Cleaning?”

If you think about it carefully, even if the room was okay, the lab was very dirty.

There was a lot of valuable research material inside, and it occurred to me that they had left it there because it was difficult to entrust it to employees to clean it.

She had a clear idea of what she had to do.

‘Okay… ! ‘I just need you to clean it.’

It’s like failure every time.

I took first place in the academy entrance exam and achieved the highest grades every time.

He had some level of magical knowledge, so he would be able to clean a laboratory full of magical research without damaging it.

When that thought crosses my mind, I feel a surge of will for the first time in a long time.

I’m thinking that maybe now I can really be of help to Dern, when Dern is there tomorrow.

I nodded, deciding to get official permission and start cleaning.

* * * * *

I forcibly expanded the opponent with magic expansion, then chopped the monster’s body into small pieces with magic cancellation and space compression.

Using Luna, he placed a ‘curse’ on the broken body.

After gathering them all in one place using space compression magic.

‘Inside the mace with the expansion spell.’

After inserting the monster, the sealing magic was used to seal it.

After completing this work, I am smiling with satisfaction as I see the mace shining brighter than usual.

Luna talks to me as she stretches.

[Master, but shouldn’t you get information from that bishop? But why did you keep everything sealed?]

To that question, I gave a short answer by tickling Luna’s chin.

“I left one fragment behind, so you can use it to ask.”

[Papaeoun?]

I pressed Luna’s yawning head and placed it back in her arms, then looked away and looked at the fragments of the bishop.

Black debris that looks sticky like sewage.

I decided to pick up those fragments and extract the ‘information’ that the Bishop had.

‘He is a bishop-level person, so he must have information of a different quality from that of some idiot.’

I was excited to see how good the information would be.

I activated the magic and began to extract information from it.

The bishop’s image is drawn vaguely and appears as a soul.

I wasn’t actually dead, but I couldn’t hide my laughter at the sight of him looking like he was dead.

I looked at him like that and spoke briefly.

“Why is the Heavenly God Church targeting Rumi so much?”

It was an old question that I felt while reading the novel and even after being possessed here.

I wondered why they had tormented the helpless Rumi for so long.

When I asked this question with that question in mind, the ‘Bishop’s figure’ gave me a rather shocking answer.

[…] Rumi… This is because he is the only warrior who can defeat the Demon God.]

“What?”

[So the Demon King… For the eternal resurrection of the Demon God… An attempt is made to resurrect the Demon God in the body of a hero who is the Demon God’s counterpart… ]

While continuing the conversation.

The fragments of the bishop explode violently and disappear nowhere.

It looks like he said something that shouldn’t be said and was blown up by something set up by the Heavenly God Church.

I looked at the place where the fragments remained and slowly closed my eyes, lost in thought.

‘Rumi is a hero… ‘

Perhaps it was a natural story.

Novels do not feature ordinary people as protagonists, but rather those who play the most central role in the story.

‘So I thought it would have some role.’

I never imagined that I would be playing the role of a warrior, which is such a standard role.

‘Well, who would consider a guy who wasn’t just getting beaten up all over the place, but was also raised and brainwashed by the Heavenly God Church as a hero?’

I laughed out loud, thinking that it was dark under the lamp, and then slowly opened my eyes.

‘Well, it seems that the Heavenly God Church had already realized that Rumi was a warrior and tried to take advantage of this.’

If Rumi’s body is used to resurrect and descend the Demon God, there will be no one to kill her Demon God.

It appears that they were taking advantage of this to make Rumi into a body suitable for the ‘resurrection and descent of the Demon God.’

‘Is that why you bothered Rumi so much?’

I sighed, thinking that I could roughly understand their behavior.

‘You seem like an asshole.’

At least we should have protected the hero to some extent so that he could grow to some extent.

I laughed out loud, thinking that it was a stupid thing that happened because the god who chose the hero literally neglected him.

‘Well, the important thing is that Rumi is a hero.’

Realizing that fact, I thought as I lifted Luna from her arms.

‘So Rumi was so wary when she met Luna before?’

Luna is the seed of negativity… So, it is an element for making the demon god descend.

Rumi, the hero, nodded, thinking that she now understood the reason why she had been very restrained, which was uncharacteristic of her.