The Woman Found the Will I Wrote

79 – Seeds of Doubt

“I don’t know what the hell you’re talking about earlier. “If you’re going to say something that doesn’t even sound like a word, just make a noise.”

A forceful yet down-to-earth answer.

In response to such an answer, Rumi seemed to be not sure what kind of expression to make, and she seemed embarrassed.

That’s why she hesitated, unable to say anything, so Dern spoke to her with her sunken face.

“So stop talking and go home.”

She was able to realize how Dern felt when he told her to go back.

She shook her head because she couldn’t put it off any longer.

“… Sis, I don’t like it.”

In her heart, she wanted to rush in and show her affection like usual, but she pretended not to know anything and smiled brightly. She wanted to face Dern.

Just by being confident, she could see the precious people of Dern being destroyed one by one, so she couldn’t bear it.

‘Even if Espin senior says so… ‘Seeing her suffer even Delia.’

Next is Shien, whom Dern likes so much that he gives her strong skinship, or Dern’s older sister… She further thought that she could cause harm to Lercier as a whole.

Let that thought pass by.

When she was young, a small dog she encountered on her street begged her to follow him.

She couldn’t help but tremble as she remembered how the Celestial Church members had captured her puppy and its mother and dissected them right before her eyes.

‘If it stays like this, really… ‘I don’t know what will happen to Dern or the people around Dern.’

She decided, even for his sake, that she would no longer be by his side.

That’s why I decided to stop relying on Dern’s kindness.

She continued speaking while looking at the faint red blood on Dern’s footprints.

“So… Treating people like puppies and trying to control them however you want… “I really hate it.”

I bit my lip and began to ‘invent’ reasons why I should dislike him, saying words that I didn’t even have in my mind and words that were completely opposite to my true intentions.

“I don’t like being coercive… I don’t like it when people don’t even pay attention… “I really don’t like Yeo Yeo-ju even though she has a fiancé.”

Every time I speak, tears come out for no reason and my voice gradually becomes muffled.

Even in this situation, he was unable to speak properly, so he continued to speak, feeling embarrassed and ashamed of himself, thinking that he was hating himself even more.

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“I usually don’t even pay attention… I don’t even want to pretend to care now. “I really don’t like trying to tie it up like this.”

“…… “

I want to draw a line and tell you why I really dislike him.

No matter how hard I try to squeeze out the memories, nothing else comes to mind.

As such reality becomes clearer, sadness rises along with the thought that he must leave for his sake.

“So please stop now. Please… “

I couldn’t even tell what was being said because tears covered my face.

I couldn’t help but cry harder because Dern’s expression, seen through blurred vision, was telling me that everything was really over.

Dern looked at himself in silence for a while.

Then he waved his hand as if hesitating for a moment and then slowly opened his mouth.

“Let’s do it.”

Unlike usual, it feels like the composure I felt in my voice has disappeared.

The fact that Dern was also agitated made his chest feel even more stabbed, so he kept his mouth shut and simply rubbed his eyes with the back of his hand.

“Well, then, I really appreciate it. Money… “I will send it to you as soon as possible.”

“… Not required. “It was given to me in good faith in the first place.”

That moment when I gathered myself together and tried to leave.

Dern grabbed her wrist and spoke in a subdued voice.

“But give me time to sort things out.”

“… Clean up?”

“I also need time to organize my mind.”

I couldn’t believe that Dern told me to wait because he had to sort out his mind.

I had no choice but to nod my head because I felt like his hand was still tightly holding me and would not let me go.

‘Then in a few days.’

I decided to leave and not cause any more trouble to Dern.

* * * * *

I sighed inwardly as I looked at Rumi crying.

I couldn’t tell if Rumi truly thought that way.

Everything Rumi said was enough reason to hate me.

‘… ‘Do you really hate me?’

When I think about it, it didn’t make sense for him to like me in the first place.

To fall in love with a man who not only forcibly kidnapped me, but even tried to rape him…

In my opinion, it would have been more normal to think that he was suffering from something like Stockholm Syndrome, where he felt in love with his kidnapper, rather than saying that he really liked me.

‘Then, as time passed, I may have regained my senses.’

It would be realistically correct to say that the moment you faced reality, you realized that the emotions you felt were lies.

When those thoughts crossed my mind, it became difficult for me to approach Rumi.

‘If you really hate me. No, if you are free from Stockholm Syndrome.’

Even my approach like this could be seen as a burden to Rumi.

So, rather than doing something right away, I left some room and at the same time put off the breakup for a while.

‘It might be a good idea to think about what to do for a while.’

Or, at the very least, deal with all the Celestial Churches nearby.

Deciding to increase Rumi’s safety just a little, she bit her lip.

*

For now, let’s go back to the lab to sort out our complicated thoughts.

Luna, who was hiding in her arms, pushes her body towards me as if she doesn’t understand and talks to me.

[Humans are too complicated. If you like it, just mate, and if you don’t like it, just break up!]

I lightly fed Luna’s head with honey chestnuts to tell her to be quiet.

Luna meows and cries and curls her body into a ball.

I thought it was good to be quiet, and as she sighed, Luna seemed to have remembered something, and she pushed her face in again and spoke.

[Now that I think about it, what is the glass bottle inside?]

The word glass bottle reminded me of the piece of priest’s meat I had brought in earlier.

After hearing those words, I took out a glass bottle and spoke to Luna.

“Can we get information out of this guy by keeping him alive?”

At those words, Luna nods her head as if it were natural and speaks to me.

[Then pour what’s inside down below! If you’re stuck in there, you might not be able to hear the answer!]

I thought that it was no longer relevant when the vocal organs collapsed.

For now, I decided to follow Luna’s words and poured it out on the floor nearby.

[Then let’s begin!]

I nodded to Luna’s words and crossed my arms.

After waiting for a while, Luna lifted her feet and shouted in a loud voice.

[Wake up!]

This sight reminds me of a picture of a cat that used magic that I saw a long time ago.

As I close my eyes, I think that a little bit of the Earth’s memories are blooming as I look at such things.

A voice came from ahead.

[What?]

A somewhat bizarre voice.

Because the shape is a shape, the sound seems to be transmitted strangely.

After hearing those words, I corrected this with mana and slowly asked a question.

“Explain everything about the Heavenly God Church.”

He nodded at those words and started listing all the things he knew.

*

‘Most of the information was known, so most of it was not very useful.’

Still, I was able to get one piece of useful information out of them.

This was the identity of the person who commanded this incident.

‘Bishop Florence.’

As it is a Celestial Order that even laymen do not normally reveal their true identity.

If the person was a bishop, all information was kept secret.

So, no matter how hard I tried to squeeze the person in front of me, I couldn’t get any special information, so I felt somewhat annoyed.

‘I’m already feeling emotionally shaken because of Rumi.’

I can’t help but feel stressed because the only thing I got was a name…

I sighed and looked at the ceiling.

‘Then what should I do?’

Nothing else comes to mind.

If you were Dern, what would you have done in this situation?

While I was thinking about what to do.

When I realized that this concern itself was fundamentally wrong, I shook my head to get rid of it.

If I think about it calmly, I wonder if there was any need to imitate Dern’s actions.

‘I did it to avoid suspicion in the first place.’

Now, even if I receive that suspicion from others, there is no need to do so since I now have the ability to overcome it on my own.

So, I opened my eyes and decided to solve it my way, not Dern’s way.

As I was lightly slapping both cheeks with that thought in mind, Luna suddenly spoke to me.

[Master! I brought you!]

Who brought you here?

Hearing those words, I looked down at Luna with a puzzled expression.

Luna shouted to me, pointing to her lab door with a triumphant look on her face.

[It’s the boss cat!]

Captain cat… ?

In those words, I am the original author of ‘Mating will solve everything’ that Luna once said.

No, I did not write a book, but I spoke, so would it be correct to say that I was the first speaker?

Anyway, it’s just embarrassing to hear that a cat came to say something that made no sense.

‘Still, I’m curious, so I’ll open it.’

Anyway, there is nothing else that comes to mind.

I decided to listen to the story and opened the door.

I see a black cat with a long scar in one eye entering solemnly.

The cat calmly climbed onto my sofa and looked at me and talked.

“Meow.”

I looked at Luna, not knowing what she was saying.

Luna smiled brightly and translated this.

[He tells me how to eat everything!]

I couldn’t hide my sigh at that one embarrassing word.