12. Physiological reluctance

What is a public lecture for a college student?

A dream-like existence that can be called the 3rd and 4th weekends.

Many university students in Korea work hard to secure public lectures.

There are not that many people who actually secure it.

There must be several reasons.

You have failed to register for the class you want.

Or going to a school where the timetable itself is made entirely against one’s will.

But fortunately, Hanseol University, where I am enrolled, actively guarantees the freedom of its students.

Thanks to that, I was able to get a pretty decent result of taking classes on Wednesdays.

It’s a pity that it’s not Friday or Monday.

It’s much better than shedding tears because you can’t make a public lecture.

“So. You need to be grateful for the little things.”

“Why are you in my room in the morning?”

“Because I, like you, have a class on Wednesday.”

FYI, Seoah Han also had free classes on Wednesdays, just like me.

As far as I remember, he seems to have been able to take other classes differently from me.

What did Han Seo-ah say then? She

Didn’t she say that if you’re going to take the same day off anyway, she’d better take the same day off.

Well, anyway.

That’s not what’s important right now.

“No, what does it have to do with being in a public lecture and being in my room?”

The fact that Seo-ah Han was in my room right away was important.

Seoah Han spoke confidently as if it were natural.

“Why doesn’t that matter. I’m here because I don’t go to school.”

“Your house is next door. Why are you doing this in my room?”

“So you don’t like it? Shouldn’t you say thank you when a beauty like me stays in the same room from morning?”

“······ Wow.”

Admiration flowed through her mouth.

How great is your self-esteem?

It’s not enough to think of words like that to be able to spit them out of her mouth.

Although I thought she was great originally, she was always a Han Seo-ah who succeeded in breaking the limits of my imagination.

“······Cancel what you just said.”

Only then did Hanseo realize what she was talking about, and her face blushed.

But it’s already too late.

I already heard it with my own two ears.

“What a cancellation. I heard it right.”

“Let’s pretend I didn’t hear it. I must have been crazy for a second.”

“Please find someone else to cancel, sir.”

“Oh, really!”

Seo Ah Han screamed at her as if she was very annoyed.

I’ve lived listening to that weird sound for over 10 years, and it didn’t work at all.

I leisurely laughed at Han Seo-ah.

“If that’s the case, she should have been careful in the first place. Stupid.”

“····.”

“She has to tell her mother too. Hanseo, she said today she declared herself that she is a beauty.”

“······Really annoying, you.”

“Yeah, what can you do?”

“······Cee.”

What can you do?

I don’t know who made it, but it was a well-made word.

The world feels bad when you get beaten up, but it’s so much fun doing it yourself.

As she was giggling while thinking about that, she heard the voice of Seo Ah Han, who had been giggling for a while.

“So. What do you think?”

“Huh? What do you think?”

“I am… A beauty. What do you think?”

“······Suddenly?”

Is there any other question out of the world more than this?

At this timing, suddenly ‘Do I look pretty to you?’ It’s a question.

Hanseo didn’t care even after seeing my bewildered reaction, and continued her words.

“You can judge. Whether I am a beauty or not.”

“That’s right. This is a bit too sudden…”

“Don’t use unnecessary words. Answer me quickly, because I’m curious.”

[Actually, Siwoo can answer slowly.]

[Because I’m just curious. I wonder if I look pretty in Siwoo’s eyes.]

My throat choked with embarrassment, making it difficult to breathe.

Is this a bit like that?

My girlfriend asked my boyfriend, ‘How am I today?’ Saying this

Of course, it doesn’t mean that Seoah Han and I are dating.

Wouldn’t it be roughly the same feeling?

“····.”

Seoah Han was still staring at me.

She seemed willing to listen to her answer somehow. She

She looked like she was going to stare at me as she kept doing that until she heard an answer.

Seriously, it couldn’t have been more burdensome.

“It’s burdensome, so why don’t you look at me like that?”

“I’m just looking at you for being burdensome.”

“······What do you gain by behaving like this?”

“Don’t you know that? It goes without saying that your pain is my happiness.”

[Benefit to get? Of course, that’s Siwoo’s sincerity. I really want to hear Siwoo’s sincerity.]

Um.

I didn’t need anything else, only my sincerity.

Getting out using her head seemed next to impossible.

As I said the other day, once she starts obsessing over her, she won’t give up until she hears the answer, because it’s a person named Seo Ah Han.

Anyway, I think it’s best to tell Han Seo-ah my honest thoughts.

“······· Haa.”

She only sighed.

Honestly, I didn’t even have to think deeply.

It was as if the answer was already out there.

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‘It’s a beauty.’

Han Seo Ah, she was a beauty.

It is true that even if you count the confession Han Seo-ah received when she was a high school student, she easily skips over two digits.

To that extent, Han Seo-ah was an attractive enough person, and I, who had been a childhood friend, knew that fact the best.

‘······But how do you say this?’

It’s just that it wasn’t easy to tell Han Seo-ah these thoughts directly.

Simplely, it felt like this.

Although she knows that her older sister, or her younger sister, is pretty.

It feels impossible to say that directly to the other person.

I had a physiological problem regardless of whether I was offended or not.

I felt like I wouldn’t be able to say that I was pretty even if I died.

Her brother and sister are right.

This isn’t set by law, but it feels like it’s set by law.

Seoah Han had a similar feeling.

Although they are not her biological siblings, it is true that their relationship so far is like that of siblings.

How can she say that she is beautiful?

As I said before, this was a physiological repulsion from the word brother and sister.

Han Seo-ah, completely unaware of my dizzy mind, began urging me to feel comfortable in the world.

“Quickly, I’m in a hurry.”

“If nothing is urgent, what is urgent…”

“Don’t you remember? We were supposed to go out together today.”

“······· Huh?”

What is this again?

I made such an appointment without my knowledge?

As if blaming her for forgetting, Seoah Han frowned at her and said.

“You said you had nothing to wear. So we decided to go shopping together.”

“No, it’s true that I don’t have anything to wear… I told you to go shopping for clothes with me?”

“······Of course! You said you didn’t have any fashion sense, so I asked for your help.”

[Actually, Siwoo never said anything like that.]

[But what should I do? I really want to go on a shopping date with Siu.]

“····.”

Seoah Han’s attitude is so confident that she has nothing to say.

I wonder if that’s at a level that can be passed on to just being cute?

But that doesn’t mean I can’t reveal that I know everything about you.

“······Yes, well. Let’s say it was.”

“Let’s say he did it. He really did it.”

“Yes, yes.”

I decided to skip it at least once.

It was absolutely not because of that cute inner heart that he passed over.

She looked at me again after tidying up her expression.

“Anyway, don’t even think about going overboard like this. Talk quickly.”

“······Really?”

“Yes, of course. I’m waiting like this to hear that right now.”

“······· Haa.”

Why are my eyes wandering only in places like this?

In the 20 years I have lived, I have seen Seo Ah Han the most, except for her family.

“······Yes, you’re pretty enough.”

“Huh? Really?”

“When you asked, what was the unexpected response?”

“No, I thought you were ugly.”

That’s a cow.

Then why did you ask this in the first place?

I bet you didn’t start to be called ugly.

As she was staring at me with a puzzled expression, she began to make excuses as if there was a corner in which Hanseo was stabbed.

“No, think about it. How you usually talk to me.”

“They say I did something…”

“They always say that I’m a fool and an idiot when they see me. But how can I expect you to call me a beauty here?”

“······No matter how hard it is, it’s only for that reason.”

“Oh, I don’t know! Get ready to leave!”

Han Seo-ah gets up in a hurry from the bed with a temper that doesn’t even get eaten for no reason.

Come to think of it, that was lying on my bed.

Anyway, it’s a 20-year-old guy’s room, but aren’t you aware?

“Are you going right away?”

“Uh. Let’s eat lunch nearby after shopping.”

“······OK.”

Suddenly, I had a question, but I didn’t bother to pull out my heart with a related question.

I was a bit scared at first.

For no reason, like the last time, I might come out with something I can’t bear to say.

[Siwoo told me I was beautiful.]

[What should I do? My heart is beating so fast Can we have a good date today?]

And, because Han Seo-ah’s inner thoughts, which had a futile temper, inflicted more fatal damage on me than I could have imagined.

Although it’s an unconscious thought.

I thought it was a good idea to tell her that she was beautiful despite her physiological rejection.

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