The Love Equation

Zhou Xiao received an email from Zhao Fanzhou on the third day after he left. She clicked the mail into the recycle bin. After hesitating for a long time, she still didn't make up her mind to empty the recycle bin, so she returned.

She hasn't turned on the phone these days, and her phone in the dormitory always answered no, but Xie Yixing, Zhao Fanzhou's roommate, found her in the teaching building. He said that Zhao Fanzhou was very anxious to find her, and hoped that she would give him another chance. He finally told her a special literary sentence: "Ask your heart, there is no need to embarrass yourself because you are not reconciled." This man really regarded himself as Socrates. So Zhou Xiao told him: "You go back and tell Zhao Fanzhou, I can't calm down and think about the matter between us now, let him give me time to settle down, when I have determined the direction of my heart, I will He contacted, do n’t bother me for a while. ”This sentence is translated into modern text:“ You go back and tell him that the old lady is so annoyed that when she hears his name, she is crazy, and hopes to kill him with a knife Let him roll far and far, don't provoke me, or see God killing God, see Buddha killing Buddha. "But looking at him like Socrates, she had to pretend to be Aristotle anyway.

After Zhou Xiao went back, he pondered for a long time and didn't think about it, what exactly did Xie Yixing mean? Do not embarrass yourself to give him a chance, or don't embarrass yourself not to give him a chance? Is this person from the philosophy department?

Of course, the class still needs to be done, the homework still needs to be done, the meal still has to be eaten, and the sleep is still needed. The world will not stop turning because she is sad. It's just that I didn't know the day after he left. On a sunny morning, the birds chirped outside the window, and the wind twitched the branches to scrape the window glass and made a creaking sound. Zhou Xiao waked up and decided that she was going to face all this, so she turned on her cell phone and transferred the mail from the recycle bin. She felt that she had to at least give herself an explanation. If she wanted to break up, she also scored clearly.

The following is the content of the letter, and Zhou Xiao's OS or response is in parentheses.

From: Zhao Fanzhou

Recipient: Zhou Xiao

Subject: sorry

Sorry. (I'm sorry, it's useful to ask the police. Why didn't this man see the Meteor Garden when he was a kid?)

I really don't know where to start. (Then do n’t say it, what do you know most is not to say anything?) Let ’s just say that I have been hiding something because I do n’t know how to talk to you. (So ​​you choose to go?)

Let me tell you a story. (So, if you love storytelling, you will not submit to "Story"?)

There is a girl whose mother passed away in order to give birth to her. Her father loved her very much, so she never married again. The family is rich, so there are a lot of servants, but the father seldom ignored her because of the pain of losing his wife. Later, she fell in love with a poor boy because of her chance. She loved and loved him very much, because he was very good to her, and because he had a very good mother. Every time he went to his house, his mother would give her Eat dumplings. Later, she took him home. Her father didn't say anything. She actually knew that her father didn't care about her. The father passed away and they were married. She took him and his mother to live together. She felt the warmth of the family that they had never felt before. But the warmth lasted only five years. Her husband started to travel a lot, and it took him days or even weeks. She had actually guessed it for a long time, but for the complete family in her mind, she chose to keep one eye closed. But his mother, her mother-in-law, was reluctant to say that she would rather not have a son or a daughter-in-law. So there was a lot of trouble at home, and then her mother-in-law led her to the woman and his home. The original murderous scene calmed down by a little boy and discussed another solution. I'm here, you should guess who the character of the story is. (What if I guess? Most of the stories have already been told.)

With such a foreshadowing, you should be able to understand my aunt's psychology more, she used her husband, her marriage, her love for a son and a mother. She thought that she would be satisfied, but she still couldn't be happy, her emotions slowly accumulated, her mental problems occurred, and sometimes she was agitated suddenly. She has been seeing doctors to take medicine all the time, and her condition is basically stable despite repeated occurrences. This time my grandmother's death caused her to collapse completely, so my dad and I decided to send her abroad for treatment, but she said that she would not stay with me at home, and asked me to accompany her to go abroad for treatment, and to study abroad by the way. She traded everything in order to qualify as my mother, and all I could do was do my duty as a son.

These are the reasons why I have to go abroad.

Then the following is the reason why I didn't tell you in advance.

I do n’t want you to know that the person who raised me was a mentally problematic person, although I do n’t want to say that to her. I dare not guess what reaction you will give me.

I ’m afraid you ’ll stay me, I ’m afraid you ’re leaving me, I ’m reluctant to leave, I ’m afraid you ’re leaving me, I still have to go; I ’m afraid you ’re not leaving me, then I ’ll think about more things, I ’ll think you do n’t Love me, I will feel that you do not want to join my family, sometimes my uneasiness is like a poisonous vine, and I'm breathless. (Seeing this, Zhou Xiao's eyes were red. She didn't know whether she was distressed or angry and he didn't trust her.)

After I returned from Yunnan, I knew that I had to go to the United States, so I was so angry at that time. You did n’t hurry to stay with me. Later, when I took you to my house when I was a child, I was going to tell you, but I said After half of it, I ca n’t talk about it anymore. We do n’t have much time to stay together. I want to see every minute and every second of you being happy and laughing, I do n’t want to let our sorrows fill us The last time you get along, you should n’t know how much I love to watch your naughty light flash in your eyes when you pull me nonsense.

In fact, I want to tell you to go to your house, but your family is so happy, I am not willing to let such happiness deteriorate because of me.

I know my attitude was bad when I was at the airport, but I was afraid that my aunt would come out and see you, and I was afraid she would make you uncomfortable. Later I discovered that the person who really made you feel bad was me. (So ​​you still know? You are a jerk!)

I know it's too much to make such a request after I have done so much to you, but, I really need you, can you, let me do it again? Forgive me, will you wait for me to come back? (Forgive you? How to forgive? Wait for you? How long to wait? How to wait? How to wait? Wait to get it?)

Zhou Xiao sat in front of the computer, moving the mouse with two eyes indifferent.

"Zhou Xiao, Zhou Xiao! Are you okay? Class is going, are you going?" The head of the room asked Zhou Xiao while wearing a coat.

"Oh." She turned around a little slowly and responded. Then turned off the computer, casually put on a piece of clothing, picked up the book and walked out. All the actions were completed within two minutes, and the head of the room was stunned.

"Hey, you wait for me!" The head of the jacket who was still wearing a coat pulled his coat and called behind, "And, you just held the wrong book, we are going to" Modern Chinese ", you hold" Ancient Literature " Why? Where did you go? "

The author has something to say: Happy Chinese New Year ~~~ I went to watch the Spring Festival Gala yesterday (no one is watching the Spring Festival Gala all day long .... Yes, it is an excuse.), I forgot to update, hehe

In other words, Zhao Fanzhou was rejected by everyone

I still want to give up on him, what should I do? I am a child

It ’s okay, I ’m very impulsive in the lines of the Spring Festival Evening, and I wo n’t let him go when I ’m a ghost.