The Coercion of Scum

"Anyway, let's just do it. We don't pretend to be familiar in the class anymore. It's best not to communicate anymore."

"why!"

This time I asked her with a rather loud roar, which was so loud that I was shocked.

And Sunflower tells me with chilling, understatement that seems to drill from the depths of the earth:

"Because I stay next to Jasmine, it's hard to be happy anymore."

"..."

I gasped.

Sure enough, is it my fault?

I blamed me for not being able to make Sunflower happy. I blamed me for just satisfying my intimate needs for her and pestering her to be happy.

Tears flowed uncontrollably from the sockets.

"sunflower……"

My voice is getting hoarse.

"Enough Jasmine, so be it."

She hung up the phone.

boom.

Then, I heard the sound of heavy rain outside on the ground.

Nearly a month after that typhoon day, I encountered such an unpleasant rainy day.

No, no!

I gritted my teeth and put on a coat directly to Sunflower House.

Along the way, I was full of only one thought.

Never let Sunflower leave me like this, I can't accept all reasons for breaking up with Sunflower!

Run, I run in the rain.

It took some distance from the taxi drop-off point to the gate of Sunflower's community, so I ran desperately like this.

How long has it been running? How much rain did I get?

I can't tell the difference.

The cold rain hit my face, and my vision was completely wet from the rain while crying.

Finally, I ran downstairs to Sunflower's house.

"sunflower!"

I yelled at her in a crying voice.

But the window did not open.

"sunflower!"

I was unwilling to continue shouting back.

Are you kidding me? Must be kidding? Obviously on Friday, we will still be fine. At that time, we could still hold hands with each other.

I just stood in the rain, staring blankly at the door of Sunflower's house, because Sunflower, who has always been gentle, has never shown such a resistance to me, and I don't know what to do anymore.

Now my face must be ugly, because I kept yelling while sobbing, even if I might go around to the neighbor next to me, I just want Sunflower to see me, I want her to smile with me What I said on the phone before was just a joke.

The door opened.

Under the rain curtain, Sunflower came out with an umbrella.

Her face was pale, but she still had a vague and thrilling beauty.

Seeing her appearance, I seemed to have caught the straw, staggeringly trying to run over to her.

"sunflower--"

"Jasmine, stop."

Her cold voice made me froze in place.

what is that?

I looked at her incredulously.

There was no smile on the face of Sunflower's baby that always had a smile on it.

She looked at me like a stranger, her lips lightly opened:

"Jasmine, I made it very clear on the phone. I don't plan to be friends with you anymore, so please go back. If you continue to stay outside, you will get wet and catch a cold."

"I do not……"

I shook my head stubbornly, and my hair was completely stuck in a pinch from the rain. Don't look at how funny it was when I shook it.

Sunflower continued to look at me with sad eyes.

"Jasmine, stay there if you like it, I won't care about you anymore."

"sunflower……"

I took a step forward, but she had already gone back first.

The door was closed mercilessly.

why?

My face was ashen ashes, and I fell to the ground with a thud...

Patter.

The world becomes gray.

Who am I now?

Walking in the rain with difficulty, my eyes trembled, I walked like a walking corpse.