Stunned for You

On the first Saturday in early November, Shi Yi, Jian Lu, and a long-awaited anime movie came on, and the two spent one night together to watch a movie in a movie theater near Shenda University.

At the end of the movie, Jian Lu's friendship is still in the air, sharing his thoughts with Shi Yi all the way. Shi Yi listened, even if there was no resonance, she would respond to her with a word or two.

On the escalator, Jian Luhe asked: "What do you think the fox demon said at the end? Did it imply that the big boss was not completely dead? Did you say that this is before the next one? See the director before. The interview seems to be trying to create a series of worlds."

Yi ignored her when she waited for several seconds. Jian Luhe turned his head to the side, and found that Shi Yi turned halfway, his eyes clearly falling to the back of the downstairs.

"What are you looking at?" Jian Luhe was strange.

Shi Yi recovered, frowned unconsciously, "Nothing."

She seemed to see Fu Sitian and Chen Xizhu. Did they come shopping together? Or come part-time? Chen Xizhu bought two cones in front of the dessert station, and she gave one to Fu Sitian. Fu Sitian took it with a smile. She could feel the intimate atmosphere of two people at such a distance.

The rare brisk mood disappeared without a trace.

Shi Yi knew that he had become more and more unreasonable. She never felt that there was something wrong with the relationship between girls, but since... Ever since she discovered that Fu Sitian can like girls, she felt that it was not right to see who Fu Sitian was close to.

However, what does it actually have to do with her?

Jian Luhe dragged her into the video game city on the third floor to play the dance machine. Shi Yi chose a fast-paced song, forced herself to concentrate on keeping up with the node, and tried to use high-intensity limb swing to empty her brain.

They are beautiful and dance well, especially Shi Yi, with a dignified and cold face, but their dancing movements are unexpectedly open. They are stiff, gentle, feminine and handsome. They are particularly eye-catching. People slowly circled around.

The cheers and admiration sounded from time to time, and every time Yi turned a deaf ear. She kept moving, and gradually only the arrows on the screen and the rhythm in her ears remained in her brain. When her eyes met, she naturally smiled at Jian Luhe, feeling that she had found herself back.

After the two songs, Jian Luhe said: "I'm tired, let's do a lighter one at the end, let's play something else."

Shi Yi nodded.

Jian Luhe clicked on the screen and said, "Well, Rabbit Dance."

Shi Yi was slightly stunned, his smile faded a lot. The moment the familiar music sounded, she suddenly lost her interest, her legs and feet were as heavy as lead.

She thought of Fu Sitian again.

At the dance party that day, when collectively dancing the rabbit dance, she stood behind Fu Sitian and finished the song with her shoulders. Fu Sitian looked back at her from time to time, his shy and happy smiling face seemed to be still in front of him.

A feeling of despair filled Shi Yi's heart. For the first time in her life, she felt so powerless and unable to control herself. How can Fu Sitian be completely erased from his mind?

Why is her shadow everywhere? Why has the dumped world been straightened out, yet she is still losing control on the deviated track.

She was less and less dared to think, and more and more afraid of facing the true answer from the bottom of her heart.

On Monday afternoon two days later, after Fang Ruohua and Shi Yi greeted her, they brought big bags and small bags to her solitary suite to inspect her life and improve her food. She always feels that she has lost a lot of weight recently.

When Shi Yi went back from get out of class, Fang Ruohua had been here for a long time, personally helping her clean up the house, and cooking the table full of her favorite dishes.

In fact, Shi Yi hasn't tasted anything recently, but she didn't want to discourage Fang Ruohua's happiness, so she reluctantly ate a small bowl of rice, pretending to be happy.

After the meal, Shiyi had elective courses to take. I thought Fang Ruohua would go back there, but I didn't expect Fang Ruohua to wait for her to come back and stay here at night.

Shi Yi was a little surprised, and instinctively Fang Ruohua might have something to say to her.

After finishing the elective course in the evening, Fang Ruohua was watching a movie in the audio-visual room with the lights off. She sits gracefully on the sofa, the carpet on which her feet are stepped, which is where Fu Sitian sat cross-legged when she was watching a movie with Fu Sitian.

Shi Yi hasn't watched a movie here for a long time. She sticks at the door, with mixed feelings in her heart.

"I'm back?" Fang Ruohua beckoned to her lovingly, "Are there any arrangements? If not, come and sit together for a while?"

Shi Yi pursed his lips, lowered his long eyelashes, and stepped in casually.

"It's been a long time since we watched a movie like this." Fang Ruohua sighed. The two picked a recent word-of-mouth masterpiece and looked at it leisurely.

On the projection screen, there was a flickering light, and frame after frame flashed past Shi Yi's eyes. Shi Yi seemed to be watching seriously, but it seemed that he didn't see anything. Restless.

"Yi Yi." Fang Ruohua leaned on the back of the sofa and suddenly said, "I have cleaned up your bedroom this afternoon."

Shi Yi looked at her sideways, his jet-black eyes were as deep as an ancient pond, and he couldn't understand his emotions.

Fang Ruohua sometimes regrets whether she has raised Shi Yi too independent and restrained. Is it easier to live happily with a lively and outgoing personality?

"I saw the medicine bottle in your trash can." She thought about it, "have you...have you not been able to sleep well recently?"

After the college entrance examination last year, when Shi Yi just discovered the truth about Shi Yuanmian and her marriage, Shi Yi couldn't sleep for a long time and refused to see a psychologist. Fang Ruohua had to ask the doctor to prescribe some sleep aids for her. But after school started, Shi Yi didn't pass her medicine anymore. Shi Yi also said that he was all right, and he didn't need it anymore. Why does it start again now?

Shi Yi stayed silent for two seconds and lied to her: "Occasionally, I don't sleep well. Not very often. I took the medicine last year, and I just finished the last one yesterday."

Fang Ruohua was suspicious: "Is that so? Then...why did you not fall asleep yesterday? Are you in a bad mood?"

Shi Yi shook his head, "No. Sometimes insomnia happens accidentally, it's okay."

Fang Ruohua didn't believe it when she saw that her face had lost a lot of weight.

She moved her body, got closer to Shi Yi, took her hand and put it in her palm, then slowed down her voice and asked, "Yiyi, is it really okay?"

Shi Yi nodded calmly.

Fang Ruohua can only guess based on his own feelings: "Is... he came to you again?"

It's self-evident who "he" is.

Shi Yi trembled inexplicably, denying: "No."

"Then...Is it broken in love?"

Shi Yi's breathing was stagnant for a moment, but soon he pretended to deny it naturally: "No, don't guess. I'm really fine."

Fang Ruohua had nothing to do, so she sighed, raised her hand and touched her forehead and warned: "Try not to rely on drugs. If you are upset, you must say it. Tell me what you feel awkward and tell your friend , Anyone you think you trust is fine. There are many things, and you will feel a lot more comfortable when you say it."

Fang Ruohua is not that kind of gentle character, but as her mother, Shi Yi knows that she treats herself with the utmost gentleness.

Her throat choked and her heart felt uncomfortable. She was already very sorry for her, and she was afraid that one day she would be even more sorry for her.

Fang Ruohua was instigated: "Do you really have nothing to tell me?"

Shi Yi's eyes were hot, and his psychological defense almost collapsed.

She lowered her head and refused to look at Fang Ruohua, and Fang Ruohua did not force her, just holding her hand and staying silent with her.

After a long time, Shi Yi suddenly asked her softly: "

Mom, if one day I do something that disappoints you, will you forgive me? "

Fang Ruohua was stunned, and subconsciously replied: "I believe you are a measured child..."

The tears hanging in Shi Yi's eyes suddenly welled out of her eyes and dripped down her chin on her chest. What if she is not?

Fang Ruohua was frightened and wanted to wipe her tears in a panic.

Shi Yi turned her head and said, "I'm fine." She stood up and wanted to escape from such an embarrassing moment, but Fang Ruohua held her hand tightly, leaned in and hugged her shoulder, softly coaxing her: " Shi Yi, I'm your mother, what are you worrying about in front of me?"

Shi Yi was held in her arms, biting her lip without speaking, only tears falling steadily. After she became sensible, she only cried once in front of others, the first time in front of Shi Yuanmian. This is the second time.

She doesn't want to cry. But the tears are no longer as obedient as before. Everything was out of control, and she became less and less like herself.

"Shi Yi, with mom, you will always be just a child. You don't have to pretend, you don't have to be aggressive. It doesn't matter if you are a little bit more willful and make more mistakes. I am your mother. I will be disappointed in you. It’s never really possible to be really angry with you when

Shi Yi's tears were getting worse and worse.

She didn't know what kind of answer she wanted from Fang Ruohua. She didn't know whether she was wronged, afraid, guilty, or desperate.

She hugged Fang Ruohua, crying and trembling silently, crying so helplessly and fragilely in front of Fang Ruohua for the first time. Fang Ruohua's heart was broken when she cried.

On Wednesday night, the Shenda Sign Language Exercise Competition was held in the Sinan Hall. The participating students from 22 colleges gathered together for a fierce competition. The School of Astronomy stood out and won the crown with the song "The Brightest Heart in the Night Sky". The business administration that Fu Sitian was responsible for also gained a lot. The song "The Sonny Rose", which is soft and strong, stirred people's hearts, and the school of architecture and education The college also won the second prize.

After the game was over, everyone was almost scattered and took a photo in front of the stage of the Sinan Hall with the trophy. Chen Xizhu said that she was waiting for her on the opposite side of the flower bed. After Fu Sitian disbanded, he went down the hall steps and looked for Chen Xizhu. He was caught off guard by Shi Yi who was standing opposite.

Shi Yi looked at her without turning his eyes.

Fu Sitian felt like he was hit by something, and he almost forgot to move. Chen Xizhu summoned her from the side: "Tian Tian, ​​here."

Fu Sitian put his nails into the palm of his hand, forcing himself to turn his body sideways as if he hadn't seen Shi Yi, and walked towards Chen Xizhu mechanically.

Chen Xizhu ran to her, took her hand and walked on the common road for the two of them back to the dormitory. She watched the game with excitement, "I thought that sign language aerobics should be gestures and hand movements, but I didn't expect to be able to arrange so many situations. It's so beautiful. The idea of ​​the School of Astronomy is simply..."

She sighed with emotion all the way, Fu Sitian absent-minded. Her time still stayed at the moment when she met Shi Yi just now.

It's been a long time since I saw Shi Yi's face clearly. It's not an illusion of being back, she has really reduced a lot. The eyebrows are still inaccessible and cold, but apart from that, there seems to be something more.

Are you unhappy? She doesn't bother her, why is she still so unhappy? Did Xia Ke treat her badly and make her unhappy?

Fu Sitian felt a familiar sorrow in her heart, but she had gradually learned to breathe normally in such pain.

It didn't suffer too much, but I couldn't be happy anymore.

Chen Xizhu talked about other topics from the sign language exercise, Fu Sitian tried hard to withdraw his mind and keep up with the rhythm of the chat. Such excessive attention and speculation is actually an offense to Shi Yi.

"I suddenly remembered, what happened to the classmate you mentioned before?" Chen Xizhu was concerned.

Two weeks ago, Fu Sitian told her an annoying thing. There is a girl in her class, Yang Yue, who is not familiar with her, and she will start to talk to her every other day. This is nothing. Even if he is not a class psychologist, Fu Sitian doesn't mind helping a classmate who needs enlightenment. But the problem is that Yang Yue’s psychological problems seem to be a bit serious, which is beyond the scope of ordinary bad mood. In the process of communicating with Fu Sitian, she often reveals a kind of "living is boring" and "will you be happier when you die?" Fu Sitian's thoughts made Fu Sitian frightened.

One time, Fu Sitian specially invited her to eat and chat, and accidentally discovered that there were shallow scratches on her wrist under her wristband. Like a new mark made by a blade.

Fu Sitian made a great alarm bell in his heart. As a psychological committee member, she has the responsibility and obligation to truthfully report the mental health of the classmates on the monthly mental health report of the class. But at the bottom of her heart, she was unwilling to do this. She didn't know if she was doing it as a small report, betraying Yang Yue's trust in her.

But Yang Yue's situation is really dangerous. If she doesn't give feedback, she will regret forever what happens in the end.

She persuaded Yang Yue to talk to her psychology teacher, but Yang Yue was very resistant. She also tried to contact Yang Yue's parents, but one of the contact numbers was empty and the other was from Yang Yue school, so she hung up.

Fu Sitian had nowhere to go and did not know what to do, so he had to ask Chen Xizhu for advice.

Chen Xizhu told her very seriously: must report.

She said that two years before they enrolled in the law school, a bad thing happened in the law school. In order to reduce the impact, the school suppressed the news and hid it strictly. Since that year, the colleges have not only strengthened the training of psychological committees, but also set up the post of psychological weatherman in each dormitory, in order to intensify the investigation and prevent the tragedy from repeating again.

Fu Sitian hesitated again and again, and finally decided to write Yang Yue's situation in the report and handed it in.

"I've reported it." Fu Si said sullenly.

Chen Xizhu put his heart at ease: "Just hand it in. The rest is the school's affairs. We have also forgotten one thing, so don't worry about it."

Fu Sitian said insincerely: "Yes."

In fact, after handing it in, she didn't really feel at ease for a day. The uncomfortable level is even worse than before. She was afraid that Yang Yue would find out about this matter and ask her to question, and she was even more afraid of the unknown result that this matter would bring. She didn't know if her friendship would affect a person's life.

This is a weight she cannot afford.

"Is it right for me to do this?" After walking a long way, she couldn't help but want to get another affirmation from Chen Xizhu.

Chen Xizhu told her for the nth time: "Yes! Anyone will do this. Other than that, there is no better way. You are responsible to her and yourself."

Fu Sitian once again got false peace of mind from Chen Xizhu's affirmation.

But this false peace of mind only lasted until the Western Classics class on the third morning, when Yang Yue rushed into the classroom, completely shattered by a hysterical slap.