Stunned for You

"Trust me." Shi Yi cupped her face and wiped her tears.

Her eyes were darker than the dark clouds in the sky, but there was a firm and moving light in her eyes. Fu Sitian's lower lip was shaking, and he couldn't say the phrase "Shi Yi, let's break up."

She was the one who brought her here and into the storm. How could she be willing to hurt her and throw her here alone. She was so firm, believed in her that way, and believed in the future they had agreed upon. How would she tell her that she didn't want to hurt her anymore, and they won't have a future.

She couldn't say it.

She put her fingertips on the ground, raised her head and inhaled deeply, tears flowing down her neck into her heart. She said in a vibrato: "I believe you."

Lowering her head and looking into Shi Yi's eyes, she worked hard to squeeze out a smile, and repeated: "Shi Yi, I believe in you."

"I'm sorry." She still choked.

Shi Yi's thumb gently stroked her cheek, her eyes were deep, and her brows slowly stretched out: "Fool." She murmured, and her hand followed her cheek to the back of her ear and rubbed it lightly. Rubbing the back of her head, suddenly he put her arms in front of her chest again.

Fu Sitian could feel the violent ups and downs of her chest, and could feel how much she needed her.

Shi Yi let go of her throat choking again. Her face was always calm and gentle again, and she dropped her hand on her shoulder and asked her: "Can you stand up?"

Fu Sitian also nodded restrainedly, and got up with Shi Yi's strength to help her.

Only then did Zhang Lulu find a place to insert, and quickly collapsed down the steps to the other side to help Fu Sitian, caring about her: "Is it all right?"

Fu Sitian's nose was still red, very embarrassed, and replied with a nasal voice: "It's okay."

Shi Yi checked Fu Sitian's hands and feet. His wrists and elbows were scratched. Fortunately, both of his knees were bruised.

She took off Fu Sitian’s backpack, hung one shoulder on her shoulder, and then wrapped her around Fu Sitian’s shoulder, supported her, and said to Zhang Lulu: “The school may have school considerations. I accept this result. It’s okay, you too. do not take it personally."

She looked very calm, as if she really didn't care at all.

Zhang Lulu twisted her eyebrows and wanted to say something in disapproval. Shi Yi frowned slightly and shook her head imperceptibly, motioning her to stop.

Zhang Lulu realized something instantly. Her open mouth was closed again, her heart frustrated.

Shi Yi gave her a step: "It's going to rain heavily outside. Go back soon."

Zhang Lulu looked at them, clenched his fists, and the mist blurred his vision uncontrollably. She took a deep breath, stepped back a few steps, stood in front of them, bowed heartily towards them, and said, "I'm sorry." Then, lowered his head, fled to the underground floor, ran down the stairs, and ran out of the sight of Shi Yi and Fu Sitian.

Fu Sitian looked sideways in the direction of her disappearance, startled.

Shi Yi reminded her: "Let's go, let's go in."

Fu Sitian turned around to look at Shi Yi. Shi Yi's hands around her shoulders made a slight force, motioned her to go up, and asked quietly: Are there alcohol and cotton swabs in the medicine cabinet? "

Like a okay person.

Sorrow and grief almost exploded Fu Sitian's chest. The more restrained she was, the more distressed and guilty Fu Sitian was. She knew how much Shi Yi had worked hard and looked forward to. That was the way she had decided to go since her freshman year, the qualification she had worked hard for three years, and the reward she should have clearly belonged to her.

But Shiyi didn't cry, and she shouldn't cry, nor was she qualified to cry.

She suppressed all the choking, and pretended to be okay, returning Shiyi: "Yes."

Shi Yi felt relieved and told her, "Be careful next time."

Fu Sitian responded softly: "Yeah."

Entering the room, Shi Yi took alcohol and cotton swabs and began to disinfect her. The two people once again talked about the topic of Baoyan.

The list came out an hour ago. 20 places were waived, and Shi Yi was stuck in the twenty-first. For the 50% of the results reviewed by the materials, Shi Yi ranked second in terms of grade points, plus each additional item, Shi Yi ranked fifth overall. But for the 50% of the interviews, she actually got the third-to-last result.

The college's making things difficult is plain and clear.

"The last time the counselor came to you, he was actually talking about Zhang Lulu, right?" Fu Sitian asked in a dumb voice.

Shi Yi lowered his head and wiped the wound on Fu Sitian's elbow with a cotton swab. After a few seconds of silence, he gave a low "um".

Fu Sitian's nose sank again.

Shi Yi looked up at her.

Fu Sitian's eyelashes quivered quickly and worked hard to squeeze the tears back. She pulled down Shi Yi's hand and clasped her ten fingers together, Shi Yi left her with a gentle and pitiful look.

Fu Sitian knew, Shi Yi knew all. Some words, some apologetic, she knew Shi Yi's answer, let alone, but to make herself listen a little better, but it only increased Shi Yi's troubles.

She sniffed, skipped the topic, and asked Shiyi: "Can we appeal?"

Shi Yi rubbed the back of her hand and was silent for two seconds before saying:"

Yes, but forget it. "

"Since the academy dared to do this, it means that they have come prepared and are ready to deal with us."

Each college has its own discretion in the matter of undergraduate research, and the school will not intervene unless you have conclusive evidence.

But there is no standard for the interview, which is controlled by the school. Where can the evidence come from? Only for the reputation of the school, if there is evidence, the school will also make it without evidence.

Besides, Shi Yi paused and said, "The twentieth place is... Yilin."

Fu Sitian's heart was shocked.

She watched Shi Yi always make people misunderstand that she was cold and unfeeling, her nose was completely blocked and she couldn't breathe.

She encircled Shi Yi Shiyi's waist, buried her face in Shi Yi's hair, and muttered: "Shi Yi, you are a fool, a big fool." At the end of the speech, she was so hoarse that there was almost nothing left of breath.

Shi Yi rubbed her cheek lightly. "It's okay, Si Tian, ​​it's okay." She seemed to tell Fu Sitian, but also to herself.

"Just to let you work hard with me for a while."

Fu Sitian endured distress, and said word by word, softly but firmly: "It's not hard. Let's work hard together."

"Shi Yi, it's yours, it will definitely be yours, we must take it back upright and throw it on their faces."

Shi Yi suddenly laughed lowly in her ear.

"It seems to be the first time I have heard you speak harshly." Her tone seemed to contain a bit of innocence, with a rare softness.

Fu Sitian listened softly. She wanted to laugh a little, but in the blink of an eye, her eyelashes were wet again.

Now is the time to laugh, is it time to make her laugh? Big fool, big idiot.

But this fool loves her so much, and she loves her so much. Fu Sitian wanted to rub her into his body.

"How's grandma?" Shi Yi asked, leaning on her shoulder.

"I have had a stroke, and I may not be able to stand up in the future. I have a tumor and have to wait for an exact examination afterwards." She only said about her grandma's illness, but did not say about her complicated family relationships; she did not say that she was likely to have He was burdened with a large amount of treatment fees and babysitting fees; it did not say that her father would be released from prison a year later.

She couldn't be honest, which made them worse.

Let them work hard again, let her struggle again and be selfish again. She prayed in her heart. She is not reconciled. Why are there so many people in this world who love each other, they can't be the happy pair; why, she can't love the person who wants to love, and why she can't give Shi Yi happiness.

Why?

Obviously she is not worse than others, not stupid, or lazy than others; obviously, she has tried so hard to do her best.

She tightly encircled Shi Yi's waist, raised her head to prevent tears from falling, and the inner wall of her lower lip was full of stains.

At least, let her accompany Shi Yi through this difficult road. At least, let her take Shiyi back to the bright intersection.

Like a tacit understanding, after the next day, they stopped mentioning the failure of the postgraduate entrance examination. As if they were just starting to prepare for the postgraduate entrance examination later, Shi Yi checked the textbooks for the postgraduate entrance examination, purchased them one by one, and transferred them. Into the postgraduate review.

Time is tight, everything is difficult at the beginning, and the judicial examination is close at hand. Shi Yi can't wait to break it into 48 hours a day. She never shouted bitterness or tiredness, and even when Fu Sitian asked her to quit the new media release from the senior sister's side, she still wanted to persevere.

But Fu Sitian knew that Shi Yi was actually under a lot of pressure. She just wasn’t used to crying out pain—her period was always accurate, but this time, it’s been more than half a month until Si Kao ended smoothly. The menstrual period has not come.

Fu Sitian was uneasy, and asked Shi Yi to go to the hospital for an examination several times. Shi Yi said it was okay. Wait, he might be here in two days. Besides, it is normal to be inaccurate once or twice occasionally.

Fu Sitian couldn't help her, and he was worried that she would be annoyed by saying more, so he could only secretly worry in his heart.

In Ningcheng, the elderly’s surgical indicators were not satisfactory. The doctor did not recommend the operation. Fu Jiantao gave up. He could only hide the elderly’s true condition and hired a nanny to take care of her and let her spend the last part of her life as happily as possible. time. When the old man realized that he really couldn't get up, he collapsed. He was crying and making trouble. After a long time toss, he accepted the reality, and his temper became more and more weird. Occasionally, she would call and cry and scold Fu Sitian to go back to see her. If Fu Sitian didn't go back, she called Fu Jiantao and went to Fu Jiantao to make trouble.

Fu Sitian couldn't help but tried to persuade herself that her son wanted to support her and didn't want to wait for a kiss, so she should be cherished and spare as much time as possible to go back to visit her.

However, frequent return brings her not only financial pressure, but also psychological pressure. Every time I went back, the old man always said the same things as a car wheel. One time he suddenly wanted to ask the neighbor to bring a man to her to see her, scaring her and leaving on the spot.

She started to have insomnia again, started to have nightmares frequently, and couldn't sleep well.

She always dreamed of her mother, the tube building back then, and the last night her mother hugged her depressed cry, dreamed that her mother asked her coldly: "Come on, how are you doing?", and then , Woke up in a cold sweat.

Occasionally, I would dream of the look in the eyes of others scolding her when I was a child, and that grandma blamed her for not being born. If she didn’t say anything, her father did not marry her mother, and would end up like that in the end. Then the scene changed, grandma The terrible face became Fang Ruohua's hateful face, and Fang Ruohua cursed her: "It's all to blame, it's you, it's you who killed Shi Yi, it's you!"

The scene turned around again, Shi Yi's eyes were dull, dressed in a prison uniform and handcuffed, and was taken away, while she cried and shouted that she wanted to pull Shi Yi back, only to find that she was **** with a red cloth belt all over her body by her grandma. , Bolted to the pillar...

She woke up more than once and found that Shi Yi was holding her with sleepy eyes, but coaxing her tirelessly: "It's all right, it's all dreams, and it's all right when you wake up."

The psychological pressure is even greater.

She was stunned when she quarreled. Shi Yi was so tired that she couldn't even let her sleep well.

She dared not sleep at ease. She quietly opened the app for recording sleep again, keeping a string tight at all times, trying not to enter deep sleep, trying to make herself awake when dreaming, and wake up immediately after dreaming.

Shi Yi is aware of it, but can't do anything about it. She thought that Fu Sitian's pressure stems from their current situation, but the current situation is precisely what she is unable to solve now.

She didn't even have money, so Fu Sitian went to see a psychological consultation. Apart from studying harder and working hard to pass the postgraduate exam, she seemed to be unable to do anything.

As a result, she can only study harder and tighter.

I have never felt that learning is such a serious and hard work.

Both physically and mentally exhausted-I don't know when they started to notice this feeling. However, no one ever mentioned it.