Stunned for You

The sky was as dark as the ink splashed, as if no more light could penetrate, the torrential rain "cracked" on the balcony with the wind, splashing dense water.

The classmates on the aisle after school were all hiding in a panic. Shi Yi was holding her mobile phone and was almost stepped on by the backers. Fu Si quickly hugged her waist and took her a small step aside and avoided. The steps ahead.

Only then did Shi Yi come back to his senses. He raised his eyes and looked at the pouring rain under the sky. He couldn't hear the emotion and said in a low voice, "It's suddenly so big."

Fu Sitian continued: "Yeah, I thought it wouldn't be anymore. I don't know if it will be smaller after a while."

Shi Yi said absently.

Fu Sitian observed her drooping eyebrows and her thin lips, and asked carefully: "What's wrong? Auntie... did you say anything?"

Shi Yiqiang suppressed his anxiety, calmed his mind, and turned his head to look at Fu Sitian: "She asked me to go there at night, as if there is something important..."

"But the rain is so heavy..." Fu Sitian worried.

"It's okay, it may stop in a while." Shi Yi said as usual, "In a while, let's eat directly at the noodle restaurant in front of the community. I'll go there early and come back early."

Fu Sitian certainly has no objections. She actually had some drumming in her heart. This is not Friday, and tomorrow is not a holiday. How could Fang Ruohua suddenly want the time to pass. But just after a false alarm from the counselor, she would rather convince herself that she was a frightened bird, thinking too much.

She didn't know, riding an electric car back on the road, Shi Yi put her arms around her waist and pressed her cheeks against her back. When she could not see, her eyes sank and sank into the bottom of the sea.

On the phone, Fang Ruohua didn't actually say anything, but Shi Yi had a tacit understanding with her mother and daughter for 20 years.

"Shi Yi, do you have classes in the evening? If you don't have classes, come over and let's talk." She called her full name.

Fang Ruohua hasn't called her full name for a long time. When she was a child, when Fang Ruohua wanted to educate her when she did something wrong, she always said: "Shi Yi, after dinner, let's talk."

The tone she said each time was not harsh, but these words still became Shi Yi's childhood curse. She knew from a very young age that the relationship between her parents was not good, and the family was shaky and maintained, and it was not easy. So after sensible, she has been trying to restrain herself to be a worry-free and trouble-free child, wanting to contribute to the maintenance of this family, and want to give Fang Ruohua more comfort and comfort. Fang Ruohua's tiredness and disappointment occasionally revealed when she said these words always made her feel uneasy and sad.

It was almost a conditioned reflex, and for a moment, Shi Yi had the illusion that he had done something wrong again.

What is it? Zhanglu Road? Did the school call to move the parents again? Or is she finally going to talk to her about the matter between her and Si Tian?

Shi Yi's intuition is the latter.

Discerning right from wrong was taught to her by Fang Ruohua since she was a child. Even if she wanted her to protect herself, Fang Ruohua couldn't think that it was a wrong thing to help Zhang Lulu, and criticized her for this.

Shi Yi prepared for the worst.

She also really thought that she was ready, after all, Fang Ruohua had tested her more than once, and there was almost only a layer of window paper between them that hadn't been pierced. But when the car really drove into the Xiangjia villa, she just stepped out of the car and stepped on the ground, and she was really about to face it, she suddenly found out that if she could, she wanted to just sit here and sit down. The land is gone.

It turned out that she was not as brave as she thought.

She didn't know why, she obviously felt that she had done nothing wrong, but for no reason, she was guilty, scared, and ashamed.

The phone screen turned on, and the message notification pop-up window displayed. It was Fu Sitian who asked her: "Are you here?" A smiling face followed.

Shi Yi stared, tightening his eyelashes and sighed lightly, his black eyes gradually became clear, revealing firmness. She picked up the phone and replied with the words "here." Then she didn't give herself time to hesitate, opened the door and got out of the car.

It has been raining for a long time, and the midsummer night has a chilling chill. Shi Yi touched his arm, straightened his back, walked around the garage, walked across the lawn, and walked into the brightly lit villa.

In the lobby of the villa, when my sister Jiajia saw her, she staggered towards her. Not long after she was learning to walk, Shi Yi was afraid that she would fall, so he quickly walked two steps and squatted down | his body caught her.

The little man ran into her arms, giggled happily, called "Sister" vaguely, and refused to get up in her body.

Shi Yishun picked her up, looked at Xiangye who was looking at them not far away, and greeted him: "Uncle."

Xiang Ye smiled and said, "This ghost, deceived to hug her again. Have you eaten yet?"

"I've eaten." Shi Yi walked in holding Jiajia, his eyes fell on the stairs, and asked: "My mother is upstairs?"

Xiang Ye's gaze followed her upwards, "Well, she is waiting for you in the study." After a pause, his gaze fell, and he lowered his voice and asked Shi Yi: "What's wrong with you? I think she hasn't been in a good mood lately. "

Shi Yi's brows sank, and he shook his head without answering. He only handed Jiajia to him and said, "Then I will go up and have a look."

She stretched out her hand to press on her chest, where there was a necklace that Fu Sitian gave her on their first anniversary, and stepped up until the door of the study. She was silent at the door for two seconds, raised her hand and knocked on the door: "Mom, it's me."

Fang Ruohua's slow response came out: "Come in."

Shi Yi pushed the door in, and saw Fang Ruohua wearing a long skirt sitting on the sofa next to the desk, closing the booklet on his knees, putting it on the coffee table, and raising his head to look at her.

Shi Yi noticed that what she was just looking at was an album containing her photos from childhood to adulthood. She compelledly walked to the single sofa beside Fang Ruohua and sat down, responding to Fang Ruohua's gaze without dodge or hide.

Fang Ruohua's face was faint, and the look in her eyes was complicated and deep, as if to re-recognize the child raised by her.

Shi Yi stiffened his back and his throat became stubborn. He tried to move his lips, and then fell silent again, letting her look down.

After several seconds, Fang Ruohua asked, "Have you eaten yet?"

Shi Yi nodded: "I have eaten."

"Your counselor called me and told me about your actions on the Internet. Let me persuade you." Fang Ruohua poured a small cup of tea and pushed it to Shi Yi.

Shi Yi looked at her, put his fingers on the teacup, didn't want to drink at all, and waited for her next words with a strained mind.

Fang Ruohua poured himself a glass, and said, "I have heard about that incident in the past two days, but I didn’t expect you to participate. There is nothing wrong with helping the classmates. It’s okay to take a good measure and protect yourself. I don’t Interfere with you."

Shi Yi didn't feel any relaxation, and said dryly, "Thank you mom."

Fang Ruohua rubbed the cup with her hand, didn't drink tea, and didn't want her. The air quieted inexplicably, and Shi Yi felt that their breathing became clear and audible.

It seemed as if they were all emotionally affected, and it was so deep.

Finally, Fang Ruohua said in a deep voice: "But, he told me another thing. I think it is necessary to talk to you."

She raised her eyes, looked straight into Shi Yi's eyes, and asked, "He asked me to notice that you had a close relationship with a girl in school, and the classmates said that you...are gay." The more she spoke, the softer her voice became. , Seemed unbelievable, but also like an implicit expectation, hoping that Shi Yi could give her a negative answer, "Is it true?"

Shi Yi finally lost the courage to stare at her, and drew away his eyes hastily, unable to answer a "yes", let alone a "no".

Suddenly he was strangling his throat, even the trachea became difficult to breathe, and the eyes became sore.

She would rather Fang Ruohua scold her and accuse her with a tougher attitude than she would face her with such an expectation that she would not believe and deceive herself.

"I'm sorry." She opened her lips hard.

Fang Ruohua looked at her for an instant, touching the tea cup's fingertips so hard that she turned white, the light in her eyes dimmed completely.

"Is it Fu Sitian?" she asked.

Shi Yi admitted: "Yes."

Fang Ruohua's five-finger bag held the tea cup, the rim of the cup followed the skin and entered her palms deeply, the tea snaked across her wrists along her palms, wet, like blood dripping from her heart .

Since the first time she found Fu Sitian's photo on the bedside of Shiyi's bedroom in the summer vacation, she had done a long time psychological construction for herself, but until this moment, she found that she was still too sad, too sad. She knows that parents should understand that children are independent individuals from birth, and parents should not place too much hope and demand on them. However, she has been thinking about Shi Yi and for Shi Yi for half of her life. Until this moment, she was still thinking about her. Shi Yi knew what kind of suffering she suffered and what kind of hope she came over, so she made this choice. , Accepting this kind of love, have you ever considered her feelings a little bit?

"You disappointed me too much." There was an uncontrollable choke in her voice.

For an instant, the tears that Shi Yi had endured from the beginning fell, and his heart was cut. This "disappointment" was too heavy. In the whole world, she is obviously the one who hopes to make Fang Ruohua happy. She obviously worked hard for so long. But she still disappointed her.

She gritted her teeth, muttered, and apologized again: "I'm sorry... I'm sorry Mom, I'm sorry..."

Fang Ruohua turned around and didn't want to look at her, tears were falling steadily, and she raised her hand and wiped it quickly.

Shi Yi looked at her, bit her lip, and followed her tears silently.

After a few seconds, Fang Ruohua inhaled deeply, as if he had eased some emotions, and then turned back and ordered her: "Break up with her."

Shi Yi's back stretched straighter in an instant, his eyes were red, and his misty eyes were full of guilt, but he still shook his head firmly: "Sorry, mom, I can't do it."

"I'm sorry, I can't do it." This is another sentence. Shi Yuanmian also said this to her. While saying this to her, he hurt her and disgusted her, leaving her half-lived. Can't wake up in the nightmare.

Fang Ruohua's temples jumped suddenly, and the five fingers holding the tea cup became harder and harder, and her chest was so tight that she was so painful that she was able to restrain her urge to get angry. It shouldn't, no, no anger, no selfishness.

"Shi Yi, I didn't know that you were such a disproportionate child. Do you really know what you are doing now and what will you face in the future?"

Shi Yi sniffed and tried to calm herself down, trying to convince Fang Ruohua with a more mature attitude: "Mom, I know. I tried to refuse, but I couldn't. I really...really like it. Her. I was not with her on the spur of the moment. I thought about it and wanted to be with her for the rest of my life."

"You are only a few years old now. Do you know how long a person's life is, how many people you will meet in your life, and how many possibilities? You are not indispensable, so why not give yourself one more opportunity to choose."

"Then why can't you give her the same opportunity. It's hard to meet someone you like? Isn't it? Rather than hoping for the possibility of real existence, it is better to cherish the present, isn't it? Mom, you teach If you pass me, people must know how to get enough."

Fang Ruohua said in a solemn voice: "I also taught you to know how to return when you get lost, and you can stop when you get lost. Shi Yi, don't use what I said to refute me."

Shi Yi squeezed his throat and said in a low voice, "I'm sorry."

"Shi Yi, life is stage by stage. In this world, there are no hurdles or people who can't live without. Choosing a suitable partner can make your future life a lot easier and happy. I don't want you to waste it. Time is on the wrong person. It’s still too late to get out."

"She is not the wrong person. I chose her and I am very happy now."

“That’s because you haven’t graduated yet and you haven’t really come into contact with society. Don’t say how many rumors and rumors you two girls have to face together, just say whether two people can live together, whether they can be happy, it’s more than just two people. Two families are involved behind the decision. How much do you know about her? Do you know that she is the real one?"

Shi Yi opened his lips to refute, and suddenly reacted, and said in surprise: "What do you mean?"

Fang Ruohua frowned and said, "You know that her current parents are not her biological parents, but her uncle and aunt. Is her biological father a murderer?"

"Have you investigated her?" Shi Yi's expression sank for a moment.

Fang Ruohua did not deny it.

Shi Yi felt a pain in his heart, both for the present Fu Sitian and for the past Fu Sitian. She was so beautiful and hard working, but why didn't she let her go in the past. When will these past affect her? "Mom, you are too much, you are an invasion of privacy." Her rare counterpart Ruohua said loudly.

Fang Ruohua's eyes also turned cold, chilling at her attitude.

"If I can, I hope I don't have to do such a thing."

Shi Yi sensed that he had a bad attitude, and tried to suppress it again. He calmed down and said, "Mom, I know all of this. I chose her when I knew it."

Fang Ruohua was stunned, and then sighed even more tiredly: "Shi Yi, do you think you can be the savior?"

Shi Yi said, "I am not, and she doesn't need it either..."

"It's not up to you to decide whether she needs or not. Shi Yi, you are too naive. Did I protect you so well that I raised you so unsophisticated as you are now."

"It's not a bad thing to have an innocent heart."

"So you have to go your own way, right?"

Shi Yi was silent, but still said: "I'm sorry..."

Fang Ruohua put down the cup in her hand, her palm numb with heartache. She raised her hand to help her forehead, and quickly put it down again, with her nails pierced with a sad gap, she stabilized her voice and said: "Shi Yi, you are old and have your own ideas. I can't convince you. "

"But, I'm your mother, and I can't do nothing, just watching you walk in the dark."

"Since none of us can convince anyone, you can go."

Shi Yi looked at Fang Ruohua in disbelief, his breath disappeared, and he moved his lips, but made no sound.

Mom, do you want her?

Fang Ruohua's eyes fell on the album and stopped looking at her: "For three years, I will give you three years, and you will also give me three years. For these three years, we will stop contacting her."

"In three years, if you are still together, you bring her back, I wish you all."