Overwhelmed by food after rebirth

Shi Wei was just imagining, and felt a little uncomfortable, so how did Lu Yuanzhi get through it?

"Don't show such an expression." Lu Yuanzhi's calloused and somewhat rough hands pressed against Shi Wei's face, his eyes were so gentle that Shi Wei even felt a sense of guilt.

Obviously it was him who was in pain, and he was the one who experienced the darkness, but at this moment, he was also pitying an irrelevant person who was sad because of his experience.

"Actually, it's good to think about it from another angle. My mother and grandpa have always wanted me to lose weight on my body, but they have never been successful. After I didn't want to eat, I lost weight instead. It can be regarded as...completed one of my mother's plans." Last wish."

"Then, how did you get this disease? Have you ever seen a doctor?" Shi Wei asked nervously.He had thought about whether Lu Yuanzhi was anorexic, but Lu Yuanzhi was not serious except picky eaters, so he overturned this possibility first. No matter why he doesn't cooperate, he should be dragged to see the doctor first.

"I forgot how I got it. Suddenly one day, I didn't want to eat. Grandma made me a lot of food, and the table was full, but I just didn't want to eat."

"Yuanzhi." Shi Wei hugged Lu Yuanzhi, his teeth chattering a little, "Stop talking, don't say anything uncomfortable, I won't ask, I'm not curious anymore."

"But this is what I want to say." Lu Yuanzhi patted Shi Wei's back lightly, "You said a lot about you, and I seem to understand you better. So, I also want to tell you more A lot of things related to me. Aren't we lovers? Although we may not be able to be [-]% unreserved about each other, I don't want you to know nothing about my past. "

"In the past, I didn't want to talk about going to the past because I was too scared. But slowly, I realized that you will be with me. After realizing this, I was suddenly not afraid. Those who don't want to think about it In the past, I was able to calmly and calmly accept the things I was afraid of, fearful of, and escaping from.”

"...This sentence should be what I said to you." Shi Wei kissed Lu Yuanzhi's lips, and the two squeezed each other's air bit by bit in the small and dark space, so eagerly, It seems that if you don't do this, you will suffocate in the next second.

Recently, Shi Wei recalled less and less of his previous life. Those repressed and deep memories lost their sense of existence and were replaced by forbidden areas that he dared not touch in his childhood.

On the day when Shi’s father’s heart rate disappeared, Shi Wei stood in his empty hospital bed for a long, long time. The memories that once belonged to their family, at that time, became something like nuclear waste and were forever hidden in his memory. deepest.

I dare not touch it, and I don't want to touch it again.Fear, fear, and despair can only be avoided deliberately.

But there are always inevitable times.

Every time he woke up from the dream, his body would tremble uncontrollably.Dreaming of their deaths, he would be angry, desperate, sad, and afraid... Dreaming of those happy times, and waking up to find that he was alone, besides the pain, he would also feel disappointed and unstoppable disappointment, and then fell into Deeper quagmire.

Those were not just the nightmares of his previous life. Even though nothing had happened in this life, fear and despair were unavoidable. No matter where he hid, those negative emotions could target him again and again and kill him.

Fear, eagerness, struggle... He seemed to be going round and round in such a strange circle.

but……

"Far away, I found it, I found the way out." Shi Wei said, "Maybe this is the so-called fate..."

"Huh?" Lu Yuanzhi was a little puzzled.

Shi Wei smiled, without further explanation, he just said to Lu Yuanzhi with firm eyes: "I will always be with you."

Being someone else's crutch, I slowly, and I am not afraid of falling down.

Lu Yuanzhi didn't know why he got anorexia.Before grandma and grandpa died, someone sent Lu Yuanzhi to Lu's house. When Mr. Lu received his grandson, he had a bad feeling in his heart. He hurried to Yu's house to have a look, and sure enough, things had reached an irreversible point.There was a group of people around the gate of Lu's house, but they were eerily quiet.The faces of Mr. Yu and Mrs. Yu were serene and calm, but they remained silent forever.

Mr. Yu exchanged the lives of himself and his lover for the short-lived peace of the Yu family, but such peace could not last for a few days.The affairs of the Yu family were deliberately plotted behind the scenes, and the death of an old man with two and a half legs into the coffin obviously couldn't satisfy the people behind him.

Before the first seven days of Mrs. Yu and Mrs. Lu had passed, and the first hundred days of the boss of the Yu family hadn't passed yet, the daughter-in-law of the boss of the Yu family ran away with her son. All the pressure and investigations were directed at Yu Fenpei.

Before the investigation results came out, Yu Fenpei was taken away to parade in the street.The black hands behind it probably wanted to use this to torture Yu Fenpei more, but something went wrong during the implementation process. On the third day of the parade, Yu Fenpei was still fine when he came back, but within two hours, his internal organs Bleeding into the hospital, before the person reached the operating room, he had lost too much blood and was declared dead.

Because of Lu Yuanzhi's young age, and the fact that Mr. Lu and Mrs. Lu were protecting him desperately, nothing happened.

What happened to the boss of the Yu family and the accident to the second elder of the Yu family were all slapped down by Mr. Lu and Mrs. Lu, and no one was allowed to tell Lu Yuanzhi.But Yu Fenpei had an accident, but he couldn't hide it, after all Yu Fenpei fell in front of Lu Yuanzhi.

Children probably have heard what death is from adults, but they don't understand the concept of death.He just kept wanting his mother and his grandparents.

Mom didn't go home, and grandparents didn't come to see him anymore. Lu Yuanzhi was very scared.There are fewer familiar people in the family, and there are two more strangers. Lu Yuanzhi is not afraid, but just misses his mother, grandparents, and grandparents.

The Yu family is broken up, and the Lu family is not much better. When in a person's life, when no one offends anyone, no one is hated. The Yu family is hated, so the Yu family is almost dead.The Lu family was hated by others, and there was almost an accident. It's just that Mr. Lu's military members are big or small leaders, and their backgrounds are good. Eighteen generations of poor peasants have no background in studying abroad, no corruption, and no direction of thinking. It was a big problem, so I insisted on carrying it.

When the Lu family stabilized a little bit, when Mrs. Lu came to see Lu Yuanzhi, she found that he had lost weight, and the little chubby cat became a stray cat, ready to bite anyone she saw.

It was only then that the old lady Lu discovered that Bai Yifang and Xiao Yezhong had appeared in the home that originally belonged to Yu Fenpei, Lu Yuanzhi and Lu Zhenning.

So it was another war, which was so violent that it almost saw blood.In the end, Lu Yuanzhi was taken away by the old man and the old lady.

Mrs. Lu gave birth to two sons in her lifetime. The eldest son died two years ago, and the youngest son is Lu Zhenning.But Mr. Lu is not as good as Lu Zhenyuan and Lu Zhenning's two sons.

Except for Lu Zhenning and Yu Fenpei who live in the house shared by the work unit, there are nine lively people living in the Lu family, plus Lu Yuanzhi, there are exactly ten people.Eat with a large table with a diameter of 1.5 meters.Because Mr. Lu wanted to be lively, the affairs of the Yu family made him feel close, and as he got older, he felt more and more lonely.

Mr. Lu loved him, and Mrs. Lu loved him too, but the Lu family only loved Lu Yuanzhi with these two.During the few days when the old couple took him back, Lu Yuanzhi didn't even say a word, and naturally he didn't eat any food. Only when he was so hungry that he had no strength, could he drink a few mouthfuls of sugar water.The old lady was so anxious that she took Lu Yuanzhi to the hospital for a few days, drenched in salt water and forced to drink sugar water to survive.But the old couple didn't think deeply about it. At this time, domestic research on psychology hadn't even started, let alone this concept.

It's just that Lu Yuanzhi couldn't bear the successive deaths of his mother, grandparents, and uncle, and he couldn't bear the blow.It's just that adding another Bai Yifang is not a good thing, deliberately treating Lu Yuanzhi harshly, thinking that it will be fine slowly.

Lu Yuanzhi began to hate eating.

After Bai Yifang moved into his house, Bai Yifang, the child brought by Bai Yifang, and Lu Zhenning, their family was very harmonious. Bai Yifang would always be busy preparing a lot of dishes in the kitchen, and the child would be in the kitchen. When Bai Yifang was cooking, he ran into the kitchen to steal food, and Bai Yifang never scolded him, just pretending that he didn't notice, so the child would show a smug smile, his eyes sparkling like the happiest person in the world.

After Lu Zhenning got off work, the three of them would sit down to eat, talking about interesting things while intimately expressing their expectations for each other, which was warm and beautiful.

Bai Yifang didn't treat Lu Yuanzhi harshly, she just ignored him.When Lu Yuanzhi looked at her, let him watch; when Lu Yuanzhi squatted in the corner, let him squat; when Lu Yuanzhi cried and missed his mother and grandma, she made him cry; To eat, she let him find and let him eat; Lu Zhenning embraced Lu Yuanzhi's relatives, Lu Yuanzhi, and never stopped him; sentence.

She just never set her eyes on Lu Yuanzhi, never talked to him.

Lu Yuanzhi doesn't care, let alone care.He just stubbornly wanted his mother, stubbornly wanted to go to his grandparents' house, and stubbornly watched their family of three eat.

After arriving at Lu's house, the situation improved a lot. As long as the old couple were at home, they would let Lu Yuanzhi follow them, but apart from the two of them, no one talked to him anymore.

No, he didn't go to the dining table either. When it was meal time, he would find a place to squat down and watch the nine of them eat.

Mrs. Lu's expression was always indifferent and bored, and she looked more and more impatiently at Mrs. Lu, but occasionally there would be helplessness and calm passing by.But Mr. Lu is always happy. After going through so many ups and downs in his life, he can sit and eat with his juniors, and the whole family is happy and happy. It is always the best.

Slowly, Lu Yuanzhi couldn't eat anything.Obviously very hungry, he will be very happy when he sees food, but as long as he thinks about eating it, he will feel sick.

feeling bad……

"...I don't know if it's really because of this, I just... suddenly don't want to eat anymore." Lu Yuanzhi's voice became smaller and smaller, and he fell asleep while talking.

That night, the two of them hid in the small bed and talked a lot, and it was not known how late it was, but even after staying up all night, they felt comfortable and peaceful, as if everything was no longer afraid and let go. It's on my mind.