as pure as a radish

My chest suddenly contracted violently. I have nothing to do with whoever is sad, even I can ignore my own sadness, but I never want people who have never been my enemy and have infinite patience with me to be sad because of my mistakes.

Saying I'm sorry is useless, and I've always understood that.The damage has already been done, I'm sorry, even if I say it a hundred thousand times, it's impossible to turn back time and go back to a time when nothing happened.What's more despicable is that being sorry is a kind of moral kidnapping for soft-hearted people.It seems that as long as the wrongdoer is willing to apologize and the victim does not forgive or accept the apology, everything will be the victim's fault instead.

I let go of Liu Ziyun, who has lost a lot of weight. What I'm looking for should be in the drawer in the kitchen.So I went straight to the kitchen and opened the first drawer.After getting the things, I walked up to Liu Ziyun and handed them over with both hands.

"What are you doing with the knife?" Liu Ziyun hadn't recovered yet, her voice was still obviously weak and powerless.

I looked up to meet her gaze, "You kill me."

Liu Ziyun was silent for a moment.

Maybe she was frightened, but it wasn't a scary thing, it was a soothing thing.I took her right hand, put the knife in her palm, and closed her fingers.

I patted her hand, "Watch me die." After I finished speaking, I focused on the knife.Many people are used to facing death with their eyes closed, but since I asked for it, I want to witness my own death with my own eyes.

I waited for a long time, but Liu Ziyun never took any action.

I suddenly realized that there was a big loophole in this plan, so I hurried to the lit lamp beside the sofa, got a pen and paper and started writing the suicide note.

"With this, the case will definitely be closed as a suicide, and I won't trouble you." I said while writing, "Let them dispose of the body as they please. There is no need to erect a tombstone, and no one needs to come to see me. Give me less It’s a good thing for me to waste some resources in this world..."

Footsteps sounded suddenly, and when I looked up, I saw Liu Ziyun walking towards the kitchen with a knife.I grabbed the suicide note and followed her, and stopped her at the kitchen door, "Just now, there is nothing to delay. The suicide note has been written, and I have clearly written the motive and method of suicide, and no one can find it out." any problem."

Liu Ziyun asked for the suicide note and read it line by line.

"Is there anything missing?" I want to hear Liu Ziyun's opinion.

Liu Ziyun smiled wryly, folded the letter in half and held it in his hand, "I will treat it as your last love letter to me."

"Ah?" I'm not sure what Liu Ziyun meant.

Liu Ziyun: "Although writing love letters is not popular anymore, in fact, I have wanted to write you a love letter several times or secretly imagined that I would receive a love letter from you."

"Secretly fantasize..." I never expected to hear such childish words from Liu Ziyun's mouth.

"It's a good thing someone loves you for me." Liu Ziyun shrugged and lowered his head.

"I..." Liu Ziyun fell into a sad mood again. In this atmosphere, I was so confused that I didn't know what to say.

"You don't want to spend the night with me, do you?" Liu Ziyun raised his head.

I saw something transparent in her eyes light up, and she was crying, and the back of my head went numb.Why am I so bad?No, I'm really bad, I've been a bad human since I was a kid.But why am I still so mean to someone who loves me? !

"Then I'll take you back." Liu Ziyun turned around and put the knife and the letter paper folded in half on the bar not far away, then took the car keys and returned to me.

I didn't reply quickly because I was thinking of a way of redemption.

"If... it's inconvenient... forget it, be careful, the road will be slippery if there is water, drive slowly." Probably because I didn't respond immediately, Liu Ziyun thought that I didn't want to spend time with her car.

Of course I didn't mean that, but that's fine too.

Leaving Liu Ziyun's house, just got in the car, the chairman came over with a phone call.I didn't have time to carefully chew everything just now, so I hurried to the restaurant that I had booked for the chairman.My current task is to drive the chairman. Hearing his uncharacteristically excited voice on the phone, he must be unable to drive by himself because of drinking.

They hadn't come out when I got to the door of the restaurant.After waiting for nearly two hours, I finally saw the chairman come out with a flushed face. Next to him was a bald man with a big belly and his age. Behind them were two tall, thin young girls.

They stopped at the entrance of the restaurant and had a chat with smiles on their faces. Afterwards, the bald man seemed to want to leave, and deliberately grabbed the hand of one of the girls and handed it to the chairman.The chairman waved his hands with a smile and pushed both girls to the bald man.The bald man immediately grinned to the base of his ears and waved his hands pretendingly, but his throat was already rolling uncontrollably.

After the bald man took the two girls into a limousine, I silently walked behind the chairman and waited for my task.

In the car, the chairman happily hummed a certain song that was popular all over the country decades ago.Even though he was seriously out of tune, he still hummed extremely loudly, as if this car was his private bathroom, and he hummed while taking a bath, as if no one was there.

Humming until he was out of breath, the chairman coughed twice and asked casually, "Are you friends with Ruru?"

I nodded, humming almost inaudibly.

"Do it well." The chairman slid the phone, as if talking to the phone.

"Okay!" I replied, as if the other person was talking to me seriously and seriously.

That's all for the conversation.

For the rest of the time, the chairman was talking to different people.He first explained to a certain subordinate that he must ask the other party for a discount when paying for an overnight stay tonight. He has patronized many times, and if he does not give a discount, he will not give face.Afterwards, he told another subordinate that he must follow up with today's customer, and that he had to spend a lot of money to accompany him to eat, drink and send women. This order must be fulfilled.When talking to the next person, he changed his voice and coaxed the other person dotingly that he had already asked someone to buy the bag that the other person wanted.In the end, the chairman frowned and made a phone call, briefly said "I'll be back later" in an extremely disgusted voice, and immediately hung up the phone after speaking, as if listening to the call for a second would burn my ears off.

After sending the chairman to the destination, the chairman patted his beer belly and got out of the car.Before I left, he asked, "Are you married?"

I shook my head.

He then asked, "Do you have a boyfriend?"

Of course I knew the purpose of inquiring about these things, so I said bluntly, "Chairman, I have few personal affairs and can adapt to flexible working hours."