as pure as a radish

"Is your place alright?" I asked Yu Ting quietly during the class break a few days later when there was no one around.

She ignored me, lowered her head, her hair covered her whole head, and I could only see a mass of blackness.

"Aren't you alright?" I became more and more frightened, and I was so frightened that I couldn't explain why. I immediately grabbed her arm, but when I remembered being pushed to the ground by her, I only shook her once or twice before I dared not Shaking, I begged, "You haven't talked to me for several days, don't scare me, just talk to me."

"I think we should go to Teacher Yang." Teacher Yang is our homeroom teacher. At that time, I always thought that we should go to the teacher or parents for help when encountering problems. "Did you tell your parents? Did they take you to the doctor? What did the doctor say?"

Yu Ting raised her head slowly, but she didn't raise her head completely, but raised it to about forty degrees, and cast a look at me from the gap in her hair.The gaze was so cold that I became even more frightened immediately. My feet kept stepping on the ground in turn, and I couldn't keep still at all.

"You..." Yu Ting finally spoke, her voice was as cold as her gaze, "You are so stupid and happy."

At that time, I didn't understand what this sentence meant at all. I felt like she was scolding me, but she didn't seem to. "You're not playing with me?" It was the worst thing I could think of at the time.

"Can you go away?" Yu Ting said to me.

"You really don't play with me anymore." I couldn't accept it at all, and I was about to cry, because when I thought of being alone in school, I felt very scared and resisted.

Since I couldn’t face it, I could only negotiate terms with the other party, so I held back my tears and said, “I’ll buy you a tape. I haven’t used my pocket money this week, so I can buy it today. And that doll you like… ..."

"Shut up!" Yu Ting yelled at me.This is the first time I heard such a serious vocabulary, I felt my throat was blocked by something, and I couldn't make a single sound.

I did a lot of mental preparation before school that day, because I was going to try to make new friends, so I had to take the initiative to talk to them after school.When the bell rang for the end of get out of class, I watched in a daze that my target playmates packed their schoolbags and left one by one, but I couldn't stand up to find them.

In the end, only Yu Ting and I were left in the classroom.

After a long silence, I took the initiative to ask her, "Do you still want to go home together? You can go home together if you don't play together..." In fact, my home is not far away, and I have no problem walking back alone, but I am used to being with people Let's go, I feel extremely uneasy when there is no one next to me.

There was another silence, for a long time, Yu Ting lowered her head and said, "I'm not going home."

"How can it be??" I stood up suddenly and knocked the desk away.

"That's right!!" Yu Ting said bitterly. I couldn't see her eyes, but I could feel her eyes must be red and bloodshot through her tone.

After finishing speaking, she ignored me and lay down on the desk and buried her head in her arms.

I wanted to leave but felt something was wrong with being alone, so I sat back in my seat and waited.I think I always have to go home, and it is impossible not to go back. When she is willing to go back, I will go with her again.And I have already figured out how to explain to my parents that I went back late today, so I said that I stayed in school and did my homework with my classmates, so that they should not blame me.

After a long time, I was raised my head by several knocks on the door. A girl who was taller than us was knocking on the door of our class. Looking at the grade uniform she was wearing, she should be a senior in the third year of junior high school.

"Why don't you two leave? The school is going to close." The senior sister said.At that time, there were six total daily students in the school every day. They were responsible for checking the discipline of the entire school, hygiene and other matters. Closing the school gate on time and emptying all students before there should be one of them.So this senior should be one of the total daily students today.

"Let's go now." I felt like I was caught by mistake, so I stood up in a panic and went to pull Yu Ting.

But Yu Ting is like a lump of iron that weighs a thousand catties, and she can't pull it up no matter what.

"What's the matter with you?" Senior sister came over.

"Let's go now." I explained quickly.

"Wait." The senior sister pulled me away. She stepped forward and looked at Yu Ting. After observing for a while, she asked Yu Ting, "Student, you don't look well. Are you sick? The infirmary is closed. No, but I can take you to a nearby hospital."

"I'm not going to the hospital!!!" Yu Ting yelled suddenly, as if she was going crazy.

"Don't do this." I advised Yu Ting while trembling, but I couldn't say anything else, I just told her not to yell.

The senior was not frightened by such a scene, of course, I can only say that she was not completely frightened, because I still saw the panic flashing quickly in her eyes.

"Student, have you encountered anything?" The senior sister asked Yu Ting patiently, "You can tell me first if you encounter any problems, and we will find a solution together. Don't be afraid, and don't worry."

Yu Ting's hysteria gradually decreased during her constant panting, but in the end, she still said that sentence, "I don't want to go home."

"Then can you go to my house?" I happen to be the only one at home tonight, and my parents are away on business.My mother will come back tomorrow morning, and my father will not come back until tomorrow night.

I didn't expect my sister to say that, I thought she was going to persuade Yu Ting to go home.

"Are you going too?" Senior sister asked me.

"I..." I thought I should accompany Yu Ting, but I was afraid of being scolded by my parents, because it was too serious to sleep over at someone else's house.

"Then go home early, where is your home? Is it far away?" The senior sister seemed to understand that I couldn't go.

"Not far, more than ten minutes' walk." I replied.

"Well, that's good, pay attention to safety." The senior sister helped Yu Ting up, and they walked out of the classroom together.

Seeing that they were about to disappear from my sight, I felt more and more that I had done something wrong, and finally I rushed up, "I'll go too."

Senior sister: "The family over there..."

"Do you have a phone at home?" I asked, "I'll call my parents."

Senior sister: "Of course. Then let's go."

Senior sister’s house is in a very ordinary residential building like mine, but it is bigger than mine, with newer furniture and decoration.

For dinner, the senior sister put on her apron and went into the kitchen to work.I really admire her omnipotence, she can cook even before she grows up, but I can't do anything.After a simple dinner, I scrambled to wash the dishes.Actually, I don't know how to wash dishes, so I was in front of the sink trying to remember how my mother did it, but in the end it was all done by bumps.

When it was time to go to bed, the senior sister asked us if we wanted to take a bath.I didn't want to take a shower at someone else's house, but I got really dirty doing the dishes in the kitchen, so I thought about it and said wash.The senior sister then boiled hot water and told me how to use her shower equipment.

I tried my best to remember everything, for fear that I would make a joke.But before washing, I was still a little flustered, so I pulled Yu Ting into the bathroom, and wanted her to help me see how those things were used.

"Which one should I turn on first?" I looked at the metal parts in a daze, "Which side is the hot water? This side? Or that side?"

After waiting for a while without hearing Yu Ting's response, I turned around, only to find Yu Ting crouching in the corner hugging myself.

"What's wrong with you?" I hurried over.

"Don't ask anymore...don't ask again...you don't ask anymore!" Yu Ting covered her ears, closed her eyes and shook her head desperately.

"What are you doing!" I panicked and grabbed Yu Ting to stop her.

"You don't understand at all!" Yu Ting was pulled down by me, but her tone was still hysterical.

"You say I'm stupid, you say I don't understand, so what can I understand if you don't say anything?" I know I'm not smart, but I still want to defend myself after being said too much.

Yu Ting: "Do you know what is..."

I didn't understand the specific meaning of the two-character vocabulary Yu Ting used at the time. I only knew that it was a rather negative word, which was much more serious than not going home or staying overnight at someone's house. The closest known word for its severity is "death."

I later learned the legal definition of that word in my college law class, and it is an act of forcing a victim to perform a sexual act against the victim's will, using means such as violence, threats, or harm.