[Pokemon] Begins with an encounter

Where did the deviation occur?Or is it because I was thinking in the wrong direction at the beginning?

have no idea.I don't understand at all, or since I met that person... everything has changed.

"Don't worry," his voice was as calm as ever, even when this happened, with the power to reassure me. "It's going to be okay..." He seemed to want to say something but didn't say it, he just hugged me with one hand and put his hand on the ground.

I looked up at him, feeling like I was expecting something.

what is it then?When will someone come to help, or... am I looking forward to the words he didn't say?Ah, it’s always like this. It seems that since the first time I met him, I was able to detect what he was going to say at the first time and judge the meaning he wanted to express.

"Mr. N...you know it." I tried my best to calm down my voice, but even if I calmed down my voice, I couldn't stop the trembling of my body.

"...The root cause of everything that happened, what is the reason for these things to happen, do you know?!"

I looked up at him, but he lowered his head but pursed his lips tightly.

"Tell me," I looked at him, and I could even see me in his eyes. "I want to know the answer." I want to know why those things are aimed at me one by one, and why he pulls me away from those dangers again and again.

No, the reason why he did this... I think I know.

From the first time I saw him in the depths of the forest near Tangcao Town, I was vaguely aware of him, and the more we get along these days, the stronger this awareness will be, so that now, I can't even go to escape.

——This person, likes...

"Tell me, please... If you know the reason, maybe you can find a solution. And, and..." I reached out and grabbed his shirt, looking up at him. "The strength of two people is always stronger than one person, right? Even if I am a guy who is not good at mathematics, has super bad field skills, and sometimes likes to play tricks, I will definitely be able to help!"

He looked at me, his light blue pupils filled with gentle tones.That was the feeling that I had turned a blind eye to before, and it was also the heart that I had been avoiding.

I have met this person before. Even though I don’t remember anything now, I still recall his voice in my dreams. Even if I forget his existence, I still subconsciously guess what this person is thinking.

What will he say next, what is the meaning of what he said, what is the emotion in his eyes expressing, and what kind of emotion should be in the words that he didn't say before he swallowed those words in his stomach, word by word Don't mention it?

The desire to understand him seemed to have existed a long time ago, but at the same time, the desire to escape coexisted with it.

But... such conflicted feelings are only for this person.The feeling of wanting to understand, but being afraid after understanding, and being unable to help getting closer after choosing to escape... from the beginning to the end, it was only for this person.

"N...I..."

He shook his head, squinted and smiled. "It's okay," he looks very pretty when he smiles like this, everything is plain and simple, but the smile that can be engraved on his heart is very pretty. "No matter what happens, I will protect Touzi." He said to me softly, the tone of which was like a lullaby, which made people intoxicated.

"It's okay, right now...these things won't happen right away." He stroked my hair with his hands, and even picked up a bunch with his hands when he was talking, rubbing his face against the hair. "That 'he' won't let Touzi get into trouble, and dreams happen to be the field that 'he' is best at. So,"

His voice is suddenly stuck here, like a lyrical piano piece staying in the most moving place and making people miss it endlessly.

"So...?" I turned my head shyly because of his actions, but now I turn my head and look up at him curiously because of his words.

But what I saw was that he seemed about to fall to the ground with a dazed expression.

I quickly hugged him with both hands and let him lean on my shoulder. "What, what's wrong?!" I stood up to support him, and patted his back with both hands. "Could it be..." I suddenly thought of a possibility, and quickly touched the back of his head carefully with my fingers.

When I was at the entrance of the hospital, he knocked the back of my head trying to catch me when I fell, and when the earthquake happened in the house, he seemed to be protecting me when I bent down and lowered my head. Something like that hit that place again.Even if the wall itself doesn't have much power to cause him to be injured again, the earthquake probably caused more than that... It probably hurt him somewhere I didn't notice, but he didn't let me know.

"Mr. N," I called out his name, and he seemed to know that I was calling him. He turned his head to look at me, moved his lips, and even smiled when he was lying on my shoulder weakly.

He's saying: No problem, I'm here.

I had no choice but to smile back at him. "I know, N's words... must be fine. But, I don't want N to get hurt because of me again. So please tell me the answer, no matter what, I want to know the answer."

His eyes suddenly became sharper, but it was only for a moment, and then he closed his eyes like an over-tired traveler. "If you get the answer... the disaster may be even more..."

"At least those are coming for me!" I shouted at him angrily, but he laughed instead.

"...so no. Even if saying the answer will stop this, that's not okay. Because if you say the answer... Touzi will definitely get hurt." He said to me like that in the small apartment in Raven City, I didn't understand those geometric formulas, but he showed great interest in it and generally ignored the emotions shown on my face.

I didn't know what to say, and I couldn't even say what I wanted to refute him.

What is the reason for this person to fall in love with himself who seems worthless to me?When did you fall in love with me?

do not know.

Maybe this guy liked me back when the world wasn't what it is now.Even in this world without elves, he still likes me.

...Elves...?

I seem to grasp something, see something, but can't see clearly.It was a bit blurry in front of my eyes, except for the person next to me, the surroundings were like a colorful paste where all the colors were mixed together and not yet blended.

"My words..." Although it was just a flash, but the feeling of sharing will not disappear with it. "It doesn't matter if I get hurt, I want the hurt to stop, I... don't want N to get hurt for me anymore."

He seemed to have heard something unbelievable, and he propped himself up and faced me with all his strength.Those eyes that had never caused huge fluctuations even though they were filled with strong emotions, now showed obvious surprise and joy mixed in them.

However, this only lasted less than five seconds, and everything returned to calm.It was replaced by a deeper and more depressing pain.

I don't understand why he has such a look until he tells the truth.

He said, "In the beginning, the reason for all this to happen is..." He looked at me, resting his forehead between my eyebrows with great attachment, and he seemed to turn a blind eye to the dangers around him. "...Touzi, you...you wanted to kill me that day, right?"

What sounded at the same time as this sentence was the shaking of the house caused by another earthquake.

... Can anyone tell me who actually did these impotent things?

Except for him, probably no one knows the answer.

"What should I do?" I looked at him.But he just smiled at me indifferently, just like the smile when we first met.

"In order to keep itself running,...the world will use all its strength to expel you, and I...just like what I said at that time, I will protect you, and I will."

If I am the suspect who killed the world, then... you are probably an accomplice.

Looking at his peaceful face, I somehow wanted to laugh, but unfortunately, the current situation and his current situation made it impossible for me to make such an expression.

... I worry about him.

I finally have to admit this feeling that has been in my heart for a long time but is often ignored by me.

The author has something to say: _(:з」∠)_If I say it’s almost over, would you believe me?—[Self-respect