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. "He took off my shoes and pressed my feet hard, but I didn't dare to cry out the pain. Luhan skillfully took out safflower oil and cotton swabs from the medicine box, and gently rubbed them on my ankles. Move. It was the Luhan I had never seen before. He had a stern face and didn’t say a word. I suddenly felt a little scared. He probably didn’t want me to know what happened between him and Zhixia. I really didn’t guess Wrong, Lu Han is a person with a story.

Like, that acoustic guitar in the corner.

◇【05-05】

【05】

[Maybe this is love, first blushed, then red eyes]

Winter in Beijing is coming, accompanied by the numerous snowflakes.Beijing in [-] was bitterly cold, but no matter how cold the weather was, it couldn't hide people's enthusiasm for the festival.A Christmas tree has already been placed in front of the shops on both sides of the street, and all kinds of gifts are hung on the small tree carrying wishes.

In fact, many people know in their hearts that Luhan and I are simply impossible.But this time, I was so eager for the rumor to be true.Because within a few months after that rumor, Luhan staged a confession scene again.

On the evening of Christmas Eve, many people gathered at the school gate of No. [-] Middle School, including me.There was playfulness in everyone's eyes, and everyone was watching the confession like it was a big joke, except me, of course.I believe that among the hundreds of onlookers, I am the only one who truly feels sorry for him.I hope that Lu Han can succeed this time, but my heart is constantly beating, I seem to be able to hear it shouting loudly: Lu Han and Zhi Xia can never be together!

Secret love is also a kind of selfishness in the final analysis.

To everyone's surprise, the end result was the second.Under the street lamp, Zhi Xia threw the bouquet of roses she had received from Lu Han on the ground, and stepped on her shiny red high-heeled shoes relentlessly, the bright rose petals fell off from the flowers, revealing little by little reddish brown.

"Luhan, how the hell did I beg you back then, and how did you treat me? Now, I know that I have redeemed it, and I know that I cherish it? Let me tell you, when you told me to get out, we were already broken. !" Zhi Xia pointed at Lu Han's nose and roared loudly, as if to vent the resentment that had been pent up in his heart for so many years.Later, she stepped on her high heels about ten centimeters into a man's car, and there were still unextinguished cigarette butts on the ground.

At the end of the play, everyone left one after another, leaving me standing alone, my footsteps were as heavy as lead, and I couldn't move. At this moment, I didn't have the courage to walk towards him.

White snowflakes floated in the sky again, and fell on Lu Han's body profusely. Standing under the street lamp, he looked so lonely and desolate.I knew he must have seen me, but no one took that step closer.He took out a cigarette from his pocket, lit it, and breathed out the smoke ring lightly. I seemed to see tears in his eyes that hid stars.

Why is love like this?

God please tell me.

Luhan left, and all he left me was a lonely back, just like that, he disappeared into the vast crowd.

Luhan, if you want, please turn back.

In fact, I have been behind you.

How long has it been?It seems that no one has had a heavy rain in my heart for a long time, and it seems that I have not had such an urge to cry for a long time.I lowered my head and walked involuntarily to the canteen not far from home.A bad thought suddenly flashed in my mind, but I still walked towards it holding the only 20 yuan note.

I walked into the store and pointed to the display case, "Boss, a box of Marlboros."

The boss is an older uncle. He stood up from the reclining chair, pushed the pair of glasses on the bridge of his nose, looked at me carefully and said seriously: "Little girl, we don't sell to minors here." cigarette."

"I bought it for my father." I lowered my head and dared not look at him, for fear of being exposed by him.And the 20 yuan card of Grandpa Mao has already been soaked in the sticky sweat of my palm.The boss suspiciously took out the box of Marlboro from the counter, and then took the money in my hand.

I put the pack of cigarettes on the bottom of my schoolbag, put a pile of books on it, and rushed home at the speed of Liu Xiang running the 100-meter hurdles.I locked myself in the room, took out the lighter I stole from my father, took a cigarette from it and lit it, and took a deep puff like Zhixia smoked.The strong taste of nicotine spread in my mouth and down my throat, I had to swallow them, and because of this I choked several times.My eyes gradually turned red somehow, and tears came out. I kept beating my chest and coughing hard.

It turns out that smoking is so difficult.

It turned out that becoming a bad girl was not as simple as I imagined.

The phone vibrated restlessly in his pocket, and the name on the caller ID was Luhan.

"Hello." As soon as I answered, there was loud music over there.

"Come out and drink with me, I'm in Moonlight." A slightly drunken voice came through the receiver.Before I could ask a question, there was a beeping sound of hanging up.

I looked at the Marlboro I was holding tightly in my hand.

If, I mean if.

I also turned into Zhixia's bad girl appearance, Luhan, will you also like me like you like her?

◆【06-06】

【06】

I like Beijing at night, because it is very mysterious, more attractive than the rose that is about to bloom.But what the most inconspicuous corner of the city brings us is a world of luxury and luxury, where desires, interests, greed, and lust can be seen by raising one's hand, and there are feasting and feasting everywhere, and non-stop singing and dancing every night.

It was seven o'clock in the evening when I arrived at Moonlight.There were a lot of people gathered in the bar, and the air was filled with the mixed smell of nicotine and alcohol. The overly loud music made my eardrums hurt, and I couldn't help plugging them with my fingers.Sure enough, in the most remote corner of the whole bar, I found Lu Han who was drinking alone. He didn't say much when he saw me, and put another goblet on me as if he had prepared it in advance. In front of him, he poured wine into it.

"Luhan..." I wanted to stop his behavior and tell him that I don't know how to drink, but he gave the order, and I was so scared that I didn't dare to say a word.

"Drink." He pushed the glass to my face.

I poured the wine into my mouth hesitantly. I didn't know what kind of wine it was, so I just poured it into my mouth for no apparent reason. I just felt that the taste was not particularly good.After a while, the tip of my tongue became hot, causing me to choke several times in a hurry.Sure enough, neither the wine nor the smoke tasted very pleasing to me.Seeing my flurry of actions, Lu Han probably came to his senses, and immediately took the wine glass from my hand: "I forgot, you don't know how to drink."

"It's okay." I shook my head.

"You should have seen everything today, I... am I useless?" He raised the goblet, swirled the liquid in it, and laughed at himself.

I don't speak.

"I also think I'm pretty useless. At the beginning, if it wasn't because I was too arrogant, I wouldn't have lost her. As she said, I only know how to redeem her now, and it's too late..."

That night Luhan was very drunk, and when he finally put down his glass and went home, the clock on the wall had already pointed to ten o'clock impartially.I supported him, and the two wobbled along the street like tumblers.It was Christmas Eve that day, and it was winter, so there were already no passers-by on the street. Looking around, there was no one on the whole street, which seemed a bit scary.

I also don't know why I was so talkative at that time, I said: "Luhan, why don't you go after Zhi Xia."

His body shook violently, and he turned his face away to look at me: "Why?"

"For her, look what you've made yourself into? Is it worth it?"

"Yu Shen, it seems that it's not your turn to take care of my affairs."

"I'm doing this for your own good!"

"I don't need it, you think I'm rare."

Lu Han shook off my hand very hard, and staggered towards home alone.I was worried about him, and followed his steps closely to the door of his house.When he entered, he tripped over a stone, and I reached out to help him, but was ruthlessly thrown away.

It turns out that in his heart, I am not as good as Zhi Xia.

"Leave me alone." He walked straight forward.

On Christmas Eve, there was no moon in Beijing.I raised my head, the sky was a black hole, and the heavy snow swept over again in an overwhelming manner.I seem to see that God is looking up, grinning 45 degrees and mocking ruthlessly, as if saying: "Yu Shen, Yu Shen, what a silly girl without a brain."

I curled up and hid under the eaves of the common people's house, watching the lights in Lu Han's room turn on, turn off, turn on again, and turn off again.The cold December wind, bitingly cold, got into my collar abruptly, and it felt like someone had cut my neck severely.It turns out that the winter in Beijing is so cold.

I forget how long I sat there, and then I fell into a deep sleep between my knees.

God, God, I hope this time it will give me a good dream.

About him, it is enough.

◇【07-07】

【07】

The pace of the New Year is gradually approaching quietly, and every house is decorated with lanterns and festoons, and the whole Beijing is shrouded in this prosperous joy.Mother gathered a large