Late ripening

After the holiday, Jing Yan bought a plane ticket to go back with Mrs. Yu, and Lu Qian came to pick them up at the airport.I haven't seen him for more than three months, Lu Qian looked very calm on his face, but whenever he saw him, he held his hand tightly.

On the way back, Jing Yan lowered his head to send a message to his classmates, not knowing who to talk to in the car, "Where are we going now?"

Mrs. Yu in the back seat didn't say a word, Lu Qian returned to him after a while, "Where do you want to go?" Jing Yan didn't seem to hear.Lu Qian turned at an intersection, "Then go home."

He sent Mrs. Yu back first, and then drove back to his residence.

When he went upstairs with his luggage, he insisted on Jing Yan walking in front, as if he was afraid that he would run away, he followed closely behind.

Pushing open the door, Jing Yan let out a slightly exaggerated admiration. "The cleaning is so clean, did you hire a part-time worker?" Lu Qian stood still at the door, he didn't know if Jing Yan did it on purpose.

I deliberately asked him which pair of shoes to change, deliberately walked around the room and sat on the edge of the sofa, deliberately behaved like a guest.

He put his luggage away, went to sit next to Jing Yan, changed the slippers on his feet that obviously didn't belong to him, and put on the plush slippers that he used to wear and brought back from the small villa.

Jing Yan couldn't see him lowering his head, but he felt Lu Qian wrapping around his ankle, and his voice was clear, "Take out the dirty clothes and I'll wash them for you, and take any fruit you want to eat to the refrigerator. This is our home ,you are very welcome."

Jing Yan scratched his toes in the plush slippers, and said softly and unsurely, "Then I'm going to wash the strawberries."

He ran to the kitchen and opened the refrigerator door, which was stuffed full of all kinds of fresh vegetables, meat and fruits.Jing Yan took a box of strawberries and soaked them in the sink, and was taken aback when he threw the package into the trash can.

There was an empty instant noodle box in the trash can, maybe Lu Qian had it for lunch.Jing Yan opened the locker above his head, and there were several bags of opened instant noodles in groups.

Lu Qian walked over from behind and gently closed the cabinet door, "I'll cook what you want to eat tonight." Jing Yan was distracted by this sentence, "You know how to cook now?"

"En." Lu Qian was picking and choosing the ingredients in the refrigerator, thinking about how to match them at night. "I signed up for a culinary training class last two months, and also learned some nutrition."

He didn't tell Jing Yan, but Jing Yan could guess the scene.In a group of people who were probably housewives, Lu Qian was wearing an apron, chopping vegetables and oiling them carefully, and then carefully studied how to make carrots delicious.He couldn't help laughing out loud.

"What are you laughing at? It's not something to be ashamed of." Lu Qian glanced at him, "Go out and play games, I'll bring out the strawberries later."

At night, Jing Yan was lying on the bed reading a novel and was fascinated by it. Lu Qian came out of the bathroom and covered him with his whole body.

The light in front of him was blocked, Jing Yan closed the book and turned over, Lu Qian looked at him with his arms propped up.

"Don't you miss me?"

Jing Yan realized that he was surrounded on both sides and couldn't get out, so he could only poke his chest. "think..."

As soon as he said a word, Lu Qian leaned over and gagged his mouth, kissed him completely, and reached out to turn off the light next to him while kissing.

As soon as it got dark in the room, the atmosphere became more charming.Lu Qian didn't plan to do anything at first, but the person in his arms was obedient and soft. He thought about it for too long, and couldn't help it, so he gained a little more strength in his hands.

He kissed passionately, and his lips lingered on Jing Yan's collarbone, "You smell so good..." Jing Yan had the same shower gel smell as him.He reached into his pajama pants and carefully touched the bones of Jing Yan's protruding crotch, and he still didn't forget to ask the other party's permission, "Is it okay?"

Jing Yan's whole body froze for a few seconds, but Lu Qian hugged him too tightly, and the heat from his body was sent to him one after another.After clenching his fingers, he tried his best to relax his body and try his best to accept the love from the other party as softly as possible.

But the memory of the body is far longer than the mind.No matter how hard he tried to immerse himself in this love, his limbs still continuously produced cold icicles, piercing straight from every cell to the heart.

The heating and air conditioning was turned on in the room, but he felt that it was too cold and wanted to shiver, even his teeth chattered.Lu Qian kissed his neck, Jing Yan turned his head to stretch his body for him as much as possible, while suppressing the painful moan in his throat.

Why is it so cold today?Was it that cold night of rejection nearly a year ago?His mind was confused, and he just hoped that this affair would be over soon.

Lu Qian didn't hear Jing Yan's agreement, but he didn't struggle to resist either.He was so fascinated by his body that he didn't notice the reaction of the people beneath him.

It wasn't until he touched Jing Yan's part that there was no green and straightforward response before, and he held Jing Yan's hand again, only to find that his palm was cold and his fist was covered with cold sweat.

He got up and turned on the small desk lamp, "What's the matter? What's wrong?" Jing Yan opened his eyes in confusion, as if his language system had failed, he couldn't speak.

It was only then that Lu Qian realized that something was wrong. Jing Yan had marks on his body, red and ambiguous, but his face lost all color and his forehead was still sweating.

"What's wrong with you, did I hurt you..." He looked into Jing Yan's eyes and suddenly thought of something, his face instantly became paler than him.

"Because of that time...are you feeling bad? Is it because you've been feeling bad since I met you?" Lu Qian knelt beside Jing Yan, his lips trembling, he wanted to touch him but didn't dare Start again, don't know what to do.

Jing Yan opened his mouth, wanted to say something but couldn't.

You can't admit that what he said is right, you can't tell him that from the very beginning, being touched by him has become a stinging thing that needs to be endured.The mind needs it, but the body keeps rejecting this contact.

He watched Lu Qian's face fade inch by inch, and saw him leaning against the head of the bed, covering his head with his arms, trying to suppress something.He wanted to touch him, but quickly withdrew his hand.

This embarrassing and painful emotion quickly spread between the two people like a virus.

The bedside lamp shone on Jing Yan's face, and he suddenly felt that his eyes were about to be unable to bear the direct light. He put the back of his hand on his forehead, and spoke in a hoarse voice with a hint of despair.

"Why don't we separate." He felt Lu Qian tremble greatly beside him.

"I feel like I... may never be able to forget the past, and I'm afraid to go through it again... You will suffer too, and I don't want to make you feel bad."

Jing Yan said these words with tears, he didn't know whether these tears were shed for himself or because Lu Qian was treated so unfairly by him.

If Lu Qian can just let go, Jing Yan will also remember that there was once a person who was wronged because of his own grievances, what a memorable and sad thing.

Lu Qian got off the bed and walked to the side where Jing Yan was lying on his side.He didn't make a sound all the time, but it wasn't until he knelt on one knee beside the bed that Jing Yan realized that he was crying too.

No one has ever seen him cry as an adult, and even Lu Qian himself forgot when was the last time he cried.

But now his eyes are red, he doesn't know how to put his hands beside Jing Yan, and only the emotions and words that are about to come out are left in his mind.

"I can't let you go. Don't think that if I try my best, I will have no regrets. The relationship between us has never been good if we try our best."

He stared straight at Jing Yan, and Jing Yan wondered if he knew that the tears constantly pouring out of his eyes blocked his vision.

"I'm sorry... as long as you can forgive me, I can do whatever you want." Lu Qian felt that he could no longer look at Jing Yan, as long as he saw him, he would think of what he had done before.But if he didn't look at him, he was afraid that he would never see him again in the next second.

"You can't go." This was the only sentence left in his mind, and he said it with his head lowered and his voice trembling.

In the next second, he was hugged by Jing Yan, and the tears that he hadn't had time to take back dripped down his neck.

Jing Yan warmed him with his thin body, and wanted to say "yes" for a moment, but the words that came out of his mouth were inexplicable "I...I'm thirsty and want to drink water."

But as long as he made a sound, Lu Qian seemed to be redeemed, regaining his normal breathing and thoughts.

He stood up, went outside and poured a glass of cold water for himself to drink, mixed a glass for Jing Yan and put it on the bedside, then turned off the light, and the room fell into darkness again.

"Can I sit here with you. If you don't feel well, I can go to the small room." He stood at the end of the bed, Jing Yan couldn't see his face clearly, feeling helpless and confused.

In an instant, the two of them seemed to have changed positions, and the person holding the string became himself.

"Come back to sleep, the bed is very cold..." Jing Yan stumbled, but fortunately Lu Qian couldn't see him blushing.

Lu Qian returned to the quilt, Jing Yan moved closer to him, and was carefully hugged by him through his clothes.