Late ripening

Lu Qian was pushed back by Jing Yan.A child doesn't know how to kiss, the movie only teaches him how to bite himself, but his body is stiff and forceful.Before all thoughts flashed across Lu Qian, he was still thinking, did Jing Yan cry?

He was indeed crying, and Lu Qian saw the tears after pushing him heavily on the chair.

He felt that today could be described as absurd.First it was the girl whose name he couldn't remember but she just didn't like it, and then Jing Yan——Lu Qian controlled himself not to wipe his tears, and looked down at the limp person on the chair.

"Lin Jingyan, what nonsense are you talking about!" Jing Yan didn't speak, and his expression didn't change.As if she couldn't listen to what he said, she looked at him with the obsessive look he saw as soon as he opened the study door.

Lu Qian took a breath, and only then did he realize that his breathing was messed up.His whole body was hot, as if something jumped into his body from his throat, making him feel hot and uncomfortable.

He tried his best to regain his sanity, and he didn't care about the question he wanted to ask at first, why did you start smoking secretly.Lu Qian grabbed the armrest of the chair to keep a safe distance between himself and Jing Yan. "What's the matter with you? Is it because of too much academic pressure recently? I can pretend that I didn't hear what I just said, you..."

Before he could calm you down for a while, Jing Yan interrupted him, "I like you, didn't you hear?" He looked at him with confused eyes, "I can say it again, I like you."

Lu Qian closed his eyes, Jing Yan seemed to be in a slightly crazy state and couldn't get out.But he can't, he can't lose his composure like a child.When he opened his eyes again, he had regained his clarity and stood a little further away from the table.

He pushed open the window to let the smell of smoke clear. "Do you like me? What do you like about me? Or do you really know what liking and love are?" He didn't look at Jing Yan, he didn't know whether he dared to look at it or couldn't.

"Don't take your dependence on me as liking. This kind of thinking is wrong. It is a matter of course for me to take care of you. You will be too clingy to me, and I have not grasped the proper measure." He also wanted to talk about losing his father in psychology. Substitution or something, but he refrained, it seemed a little ridiculous to say it now.

He didn't hear any reaction from the people behind him, so he took a deep breath and said every word with difficulty, "I'm sorry Jing Yan, I didn't tell you these things earlier. I always thought you would slowly figure out these words. Don't talk about it any more."

Jing Yan slowly sat up straight from the chair, did the little uncle refuse to accept his love?But he didn't get a clear answer, and he didn't give up.Why didn't Lu Qian make it clear to him as straightforwardly as before?

He walked up behind Lu Qian barefoot, wrapped his arms around his waist, and gently pressed his face against his body.He felt as if he had been told by a doctor that patients with advanced symptoms should no longer care about shame and fear, and just wanted to move forward regardless.

"I don't like you or anything, I like everything about you. It's not that you have no sense of proportion, it's that I don't, it's that I have been pestering you all the time. It's not that I don't understand anything, I know that I like you."

It's because I don't know how to measure, it's because I want to keep understanding, getting involved, and occupying your breath.

These words appeared one after another as if they had self-awareness, and Jing Yan didn't say them after careful consideration.He leaned against Lu Qian's back, closed his eyes and recalled the evening self-study in high school, and he really wanted to share this happiness with friends.

It turns out that you know when love appears, even if no one can understand and see it, but you really know it, it is there.

Lu Qian listened to the people behind him keep saying these unbelievable words that he didn't seem to be able to say, and those words rushed to his back along with Jing Yan's heat.Lu Qian felt as if he had been burned, and it seemed that these words were too heavy for him to bear.He leaned on the window sill, his body trembling slightly uncontrollably.

He really wanted to turn his head to look at Jing Yan, Jing Yan might not know it, but he could feel the tears in his eyes wet his back just a little bit.Lu Qian wanted to hold him in his arms as before to wipe away his sadness.

But everything couldn't be the same as before, no matter how Lu Qian tried to stop him, he still insisted on saying those words.He felt a wave of weakness and a headache, Jing Yan may have been ignorant, he only slowly learned to stretch out his tentacles to feel it when other young people had already known and tried this kind of emotion.

But Lu Qian thinks that he can't bear the first love in his life, and he can't let Jing Yan just give this sentence to himself so casually.He forcibly turned around, pulled Jing Yan away from his body, and pushed him further away.

"Lin Jingyan, don't you understand what I said? I take care of you and take you in for the sake of the teacher. I have always treated you as my family and have no other feelings for you. If you insist on thinking wildly, I can't help it, nor can I. Possibly. Think it over for yourself."

Lu Qian's heart trembled when he said the word "take in". He knew that he had long since abandoned Jing Yan as the responsibility left by his teacher, but he had to harden his heart and say these words that he himself could not understand what he really thought.

He didn't look at Jing Yan, and walked out of him expressionlessly.Standing where he was, Jing Yan felt the temperature drop in the room. He sent his love to Lu Qian, but he forgot that his little uncle was a piece of ice.Those hot thoughts cooled down, leaving only cold loneliness and despair.

"Mr. Lu..." the secretary knocked on the door and came in, "Then Xiaowen and I will go first." Lu Qian nodded without taking his eyes off the computer screen.

He was staying in the hotel next to the company for the past few days, and he didn't want to work overtime in the office when he returned so early, so as to keep himself as busy as possible and not think about anything else.The private phone vibrated a few times, it was an unknown number, he picked it up, "Hello, is this Lu Qian?" A strange female voice spoke.

"Excuse me, who are you?" Lu Qian closed the computer, and few people knew his phone number. "I'm Deng Tingwei... Do you have time recently? You left before I finished speaking at the school gate last time. Give me another chance to let me..."

"How do you know my phone number?" Lu Qian interrupted her. "Uh... I asked Lin Jingyan for it..." Lu Qian was not in the mood to deal with it, "I made it very clear last time, I don't know you, and I don't like you, so don't look for me again. "

He held back his anger and hung up the phone. He was rarely so rude to people.Rather than being harassed, Lu Qian wanted to ask Jing Yan why he gave his phone number to others.Didn't you say you like me?Then give the contact information to someone else?

But he told Mrs. Yu that he was on a business trip, and he left that little man at home alone.

Lu Qian felt a strong powerlessness, which he hadn't felt for many years.The direction of the matter is out of his control, although he has never defined his relationship with Jing Yan, it is definitely not the way it is now.

He buried his face in his palms for a moment, as he often did when he was young and tired.Later, he felt that this was a sign of incompetence and cowardice, so he let himself handle everything well.

But he can't use "handling" to describe Jing Yan, that's the only way to deal with business affairs and cases with no feelings at all.The one in the family whom he single-handedly brought up from weak and helpless was his own trouble.

Jing Yan fell in love with him, and he couldn't let himself ignore the fact that no matter how many times he covered it up, it would eventually be exposed to the sun.Regardless of the reason why this liking sprouted, it may be too late to pursue the reason now.

Jing Yan can't be allowed to continue, this kind of feeling is difficult to be accepted by the morals and ethics of society, children don't know what they will face.Lu Qian deeply felt that he had neglected his duty as a guardian. He could not let Jing Yan go, nor himself.

He thought of those inexplicable palpitations in the past, the ridiculous "puppy love" in high school, and the thought that he had buried deeply and was ready to move after knowing Jing Yan's intentions.Lu Qian didn't dare to think about it anymore, he told himself that as long as he buried it deep enough, there would be no day when the ground would be broken.

Let him live on campus, Lu Qian sighed, picked up his mobile phone and called home. "Mr. Lu is back? It just so happens that Jing Yan dropped a pair of shoes and you can send them to him later." Lu Qian was stunned for a moment, "Is he not at home?" "Yes, didn't he go to live at school?"

Yao Yihang jumped down from the upper bunk, "Here, I fixed it for you." Jing Yan thanked him shyly while holding the bag. "This is just me and a senior brother. He doesn't go back to the dormitory often, so you can live in peace." He washed his hands and said, "But will Uncle Lu be on a business trip for a long time? Why do you want to live on campus?"

Jing Yan turned his back to tidy up his backpack, which was full of random things he grabbed in a hurry, "I don't know, it might take a long time this time." He tried hard to adjust his emotions, "Maybe I will live in school forever. "Yao Yihang turned to look at him, feeling a little strange.

Before he had time to think about it, he looked at his phone, "I'm going to be late! Jing Yan, I'm going to class first, I'll come back to meet you for dinner tonight." After speaking, he picked up two books and ran past him like a gust of wind.Jing Yan stood up slowly and closed the dormitory door.

He dropped his half-packed things—there was nothing to pack, he didn't know what he had taken.Jing Yan climbed onto the bed and pulled up the quilt to wrap himself up.He felt extremely tired, and the little uncle seemed to have taken all the energy from his body after he left the room.He didn't dare to recall what he said, and couldn't recall it.

It may have taken him ten years of courage to say those words, and he never had much courage.He accumulated these inconspicuous emotions together, not as a long stream, but gushing out like a fountain bursting.The switch was with Lu Qian, but he locked it.

He lay at home with his eyes open all night, and felt the pain caused by his little uncle's breath for the first time.But everything in the house carried traces of him, Jing Yan found a place without him as if fleeing for his life, no longer thinking about the past and the future, wrapped in a quilt and fell asleep exhausted.

Jing Yan felt that Yao Yihang woke him up not long after he touched the pillow, and he opened his eyes to startle him. "Why are your eyes all red and bloodshot? Did you not sleep well? How about I bring you food." Jing Yan shook his head and climbed off the bed, his voice still hoarse, "It's okay, let's go eat I have to do my homework when I come back early."

Jing Yan picked up the green peppers he didn't like to eat bit by bit, while Yao Yihang gulped down the rice, and asked him as if thinking of something after swallowing, "Oh, by the way, what did Deng Tingwei tell you that day?" Jing Yan picked The chopsticks of the dish paused and did not speak.

"Did she confess to you?" Yao Yihang joked vaguely with soup in his mouth.Jing Yan threw away his chopsticks as if his hair was blown all over, "Can you stop talking nonsense?" It was the first time he spoke to his friend angrily, Yao Yihang saw that Jing Yan was really angry, and quickly apologized to him in a low voice.

Jing Yan felt that he didn't even have the strength to eat with chopsticks, so he subconsciously looked around for fear that others would hear him.He froze when he turned his head slightly, Tang Hao's eyes collided with his, and he didn't know how long he stared at them.Jing Yan lowered his head and took a sip of the soup, pretending not to see him.

After dinner, Yao Yihang went to Shangsixiu, and Jing Yan went back to the dormitory alone.He walked in a daze, completely oblivious to the fact that he was going the wrong way.By the time he found out, he had turned to the South District Gymnasium, which was still under construction.He only knew the way back to the dormitory from the teaching building, and it was the first time he had come here.

He looked around, but there were no signs and no one passing by.Jing Yan hesitated whether he should go back to the dormitory from the artificial lake behind him, but it was already dark, and he couldn't see the road clearly without his glasses.

Someone tugged him, Jing Yan shook his head in shock, Tang Hao leaned against the tree and looked at him.Jing Yan was a little nervous, but fortunately he couldn't see the other person's expression clearly, so he asked him with unfocused eyes, "Are you okay?"

Tang Hao sneered twice, as if mocking his forced calm. "Lin Jingyan, I found out that it makes sense for me to be upset when I saw you in high school. A cheap person is a cheap person no matter where he goes." Jing Yan's expression suddenly calmed down, "Be more polite when you speak to me."

"You are polite? That uncle of yours is very polite to me." Tang Hao took two steps closer, "Do you know how many times I was talked to by the dean in the second and third grades of high school? How many times did my parents come to school again? I think you are pretending Don’t you know? Do I have to thank your uncle for not letting me drop out of school?”

Jing Yan was distracted when he heard this, he really didn't know these things, but he couldn't allow him to think too much, Tang Hao took another two steps towards him.Jing Yan backed away calmly, "So you came to settle accounts with me today?"

The other party whistled, "I have to figure something else out. Let me ask you, did Deng Tingwei really confess to you?" Jing Yan didn't react, "What does it have to do with her?" Tang Hao thought he was acquiescing, and his face turned pale The son became fierce, "Even wanting to rob me of the person I like, Lin Jingyan, what do you mean you are not a bitch?"

Before Jing Yan could speak, Tang Hao had already gone beyond the safe range he could accept. "I go to the movies every week, and after watching the movie, I pester her to talk, and I insist on walking with her along the way." Tang Hao squinted at him, "I found that you are really good at hooking up senior sisters."

Jing Yan clenched his fists and frowned, holding back his temper, "What nonsense are you talking about, I didn't..." He stopped before he finished speaking, and two people who usually played with Tang Hao came out from behind the woods The boy looked at him with the same malicious eyes.

He knew what they meant.You just want to trouble someone your senior likes, right?He looked at the other party and said something in his heart.

Jing Yan let go of his hand and put on a nonchalant gesture. "Yes, she likes me, what do you want?"

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