[No.8 Pawn Shop] On the Raidability of Gao Leng

Lin Yuyin's name in TV dramas or novels is Lu Yunyin.

She met Yanshen, or Han Nuo, through the introduction of her family.In England, Han Nuo took the initiative to pursue Lu Yunyin. After a short period of time, Han Nuo moved her and married her smoothly.The life of the two is very happy, and Han Nuo is also eaten to death by Lu Yunyin. She does whatever she says, a complete "three obediences and four virtues".

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Since then, she and Han Nuo have a smart and lovely son named Han Lei.

Han Nuo only had his son in the family in the TV series, so the absence of Yan Hao was fabricated by the author.Like another side story in the novel.Soi Ying approached Han Nuo because of his dark attribute soul, and made him the owner of No. [-] pawn shop.

And Lu Yunyin didn't know it at all, she only knew that her husband disappeared without saying a word, which was an irresponsible behavior.And the people next to her were also saying that he ran away with other women, what's more, that he had already left.

But she doesn't believe it!

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Sometimes, belief is just belief, it cannot change our life, nor can it free us from all the shackles in this world.However, it has a reassuring power.And she waited silently under this kind of peace of mind.

Time passed quickly, but also very slowly. She was a good mother conscientiously and carefully nurtured Han Lei until he grew up.During the period, she also had many suitors, everyone was so outstanding, and they all had a common characteristic, they loved her very much, and they were willing to accompany her to take care of Han Lei, but she refused them all.

Wait for the streamer to smear a few cold ashes, blowing the tails of your eyelashes and brows white, moths rush to the fire and burn until they wither, this time the blaze never fades.Some misses stop at the lips and teeth, and are hidden in the years.

A woman's years are always easy to pass away, time slips through the fingers, and another year old is dry.In her whole life, she was only accompanied by a necklace that Han Nuo gave her. When she was bored, she stopped thinking about him every moment, and followed the sunrise to dusk.

I will never miss you in my life,

lovesickness,

It hurts lovesickness.

body like a cloud,

heart like flying catkins,

Breathing like a gossamer,

A wisp of lingering fragrance is here,

Hope for a thousand gold wanderers.

When the certificate comes,

exactly when?

When the lights are half dim,

When the moon is half bright.

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She was already old, and even when she was dying, the word "Han Nuo" was always in her thoughts and words.She waited for Han Nuo all her life. This is something few people can do, or almost none. What kind of perseverance is this? !And she lived her whole life alone.

What keeps her going until now?

There is still a peaceful smile on her face, because I know he loves me more than the whole world can compare.

And she didn't feel pain.

Sometimes, she also thought angrily that if he didn't come back, then she wouldn't miss him either.But later, she regretted it again.Because: the days when I no longer miss him are so empty and lonely, without him in my life, it seems that the value and direction are gone.So, I finally understood that waiting is also a kind of happiness and a kind of satisfaction.

When you know that there is someone waiting for you at the end of the road, then no matter how far and difficult the journey is, you will no longer feel depressed. One day, Han Nuo and I will meet again at the other end of the road.

This is her belief, the belief she has always insisted on, because she believes that Han Nuo also loves her, even this long wait is a sweet burden.

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Although he is not by her side, she still feels that he is still there, and she touches her chest: he lives in my heart.

So, every day, she has him completely.

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Today will be a brand new beginning, and the days will be spent in waiting and anticipation, even if there is no result every day.But being greedy for him for a while and being infatuated with him for a lifetime is her happiness.

Every year, every month, every year, this yearning does not increase or decrease.

The edge of the necklace I stroked, the finely carved fine lines were also blurred, and the water jade inlaid inside seemed to be covered with dust, giving it a sense of vicissitudes.She is old, and so is Yu, but the attachment in her heart remains unchanged.

dying.

She wanted to be quiet, so she asked her son, Han Lei, who had entered middle age, to leave with his two children. In the last few minutes, she still had a comfortable smile on her face. "In the last few minutes of my life, please allow me to miss it alone."

She knew they were leaving when she heard the doorknob twist.She took out the necklace in her bosom, and her thin hands were only covered by a layer of skin. She is 73 years old this year, and she was seriously ill again. Today, she is very old.

She closed her eyes, in the closed eyes, not only the stars and the moon, but also Han Nuo's always handsome and reliable face.In that nostalgia, there are the years he gave her, and the years she gave him, his tenderness, his thoughtfulness, his kindness... everything between them, no matter how many times they chew, they will never get bored... …

... Nuo, wait for me.

And when she opened her eyes, she was full of tears, the strength in her raised hand was suddenly taken away, and the necklace fell on the quilt.

The other hand suddenly caught her hand that was about to fall, and in her eyes, she also saw the husband she had been waiting for all her life, Han Nuo.

"No..." She could only whisper in a weak voice.

In front of the big window, Han Nuo stood by her bed against the light, holding her thin hand with both hands.Lu Yunyin's hands couldn't stop shaking, and her tears couldn't help but flow faster, really, really unbelievable.

Tears flowed down the corners of her eyes, she didn't expect, she finally waited.

"...you are back." Her eyes were full of nostalgia, her voice was choked with sobs, after saying that, she took a deep breath, seeing his handsome and young face again, it made her think that all her youth had come back in an instant , even she is just the wife of that young Han Nuo.

Han Nuo replied at this time. "I never left you."

Yunyin was a little half-understandable, but she still replied. "I know...I know..." Then looking at his face, I couldn't help sinking into the memories, "You are still the same...handsome, gentle, and graceful...and I..."

Han Nuo's eyes softened, and he couldn't help saying: "I exchanged my leaving for your life's happiness, but why do you reject those who want to give you happiness again and again?"

This is what he doesn't understand. Han Nuo, who has lost his love, just thinks that this is a woman's irrational behavior.

After listening, Yunyin looked at him and said, "Happiness...what is...?"

Han Nuo smiled lightly, "That is, I can have someone who will cherish you, love you, and accompany you for the rest of my life, so that you will have no worries about food, clothing, and life. Every day in your life, you can spend it laughing and happy... This is the only way to be happy." It's happiness!"

There was a smile on Yunyin's face: "...then... I already have happiness. Knowing you...is happiness, marrying you...is happiness, raising children for you...is happiness, and waiting for you to come back is also happiness .”

There was tenderness in her eyes, "Nuo, it is my happiness to miss you all my life."

Han Nuo didn't understand, and frowned slightly. "Your happiness is lonely, silent, lengthy, and sad." The frown deepened, "How can this be happiness?"

"...Lonely, silent, long waiting...is also a kind of happiness....A kind of happiness that belongs to me. No one can share it, and no one can take it away. This is a kind of eternal happiness."

"You...is the happiness I want."

Then, he saw that she closed her eyes gently, and a hazy and magical smile appeared on her wrinkled lips. That smile was so beautiful that even the soul could not be taken away.

She left, Han Nuo looked at this smile, he couldn't understand 1 things.Why?How could her love for him be so abundant?

To be rich, to resist the arrangement of fate, to be so rich, to keep one's heart unmoved throughout one's life.It was a kind of strength that no one could break. Her love for him was astonishingly strong.

Today, he has no desire for love, and he no longer understands love.He frowned, let go of her hand, and kept her last smile with his eyes.

Then, he saw his son barge in, crying bitterly on his wife's hospital bed with his only remaining relatives.

Han Lei saw the necklace on the hospital bed, picked it up with trembling hands, and spoke with a choked voice. "...She hasn't let go yet."

He knelt down feebly and shouted heart-piercingly.

"Dad! Why don't you come back?! Mom said she would be buried with you! Where should I find you? Dad!"

Shouting this sentence, no one does not feel sad, and the whole room is filled with suffocating bitterness.

Although Han Nuo has no love, he still has family affection.Seeing his son in pain, he couldn't help being a little moved.He quickly left the oppressive room.

Lu Yunyin left, and she walked to a corner that he could never follow.

After that, he didn't care about the passage of time, and time flowed slowly. It has been 50 years, and Lu Yunyin has been dead for 50 years. And the shadow of strong love.He had never appreciated a stronger love than this.

After all, is love the greatest meaning in life?

Of course, he pawned his love, not only in exchange for Lu Yunyin's happiness, but also so that he would not have to miss someone forever in the years of immortality.He thought that if he let go of love, his life would be less painful. However, until today, he realized that eternity without love is so empty.

Back then, if he hadn't sent away his love, even if Lu Yunyin and him were far apart, he could still use his thoughts to connect thousands of lives, miss her all the time, keep her in his heart, just like she silently missed him all his life.Now, without the pain of longing, at the same time lose the real sense of existence.

The happiness she got, he couldn't get.

It turns out that everything is illusory, except that it is filled with love.

After 50 years like this, Han Nuo occasionally recalled Lu Yunyin's smile when he was dying, and he couldn't help thinking about love again and again. For 50 years, he was secretly amazed at the power of love. (The last few paragraphs are excerpts from the original novel of No. [-] Pawnshop, here is a combination of TV drama and novel)