I·N·S·I·D·E

Hairy.

Anyway, when I walked out of there, I had the check in my hand and I said to myself, whether the check is real or not, I will never fucking step in here again...

But then...

It's just that, you know, human badness.

I cashed the check, got the money, filled my financial hole, and then I found out that money is a wonderful thing, so when those people called me, I still said yes to the hell "follow up ".

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Of course I'm telling the truth.

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Well, oh my gosh...how did you tell?

I thought my words were flawless.

After all, I have repeated it so many times before, and sometimes I almost believe it myself.

Didn't something happen back then... Someone always asks.

Who are those people?It's nothing more than some people in the university, classmates and teachers, and then a psychologist.You should know that the people who participated in that experiment were a little bit abnormal in the mid-term, and I was certainly no exception, although my symptoms were a little different from others...

Hey, don't change the subject.

God, I almost let you get away with it - where did you see the flaw?I thought there was nothing wrong with what I said before.

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Pfft... I'm not that kind of person?

Please, what kind of person can I be...but...

call……

You guessed it right, I didn't agree to go to the White Tower because of the money.In fact, I think I might have been... how shall I say... summoned.

Is that the word?call.

Of course, this is just my guess.Those people from the beginning should all be dead by now, so guessing is just guessing.

I actually haven't told anyone inside the White Tower about this, except you.

why?

Well, it's different now, and you come across as something special.

Yes, it's kind of weird that I want to tell you something, I'm not really the type to blah blah blah blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.

But today I'm like an 80-year-old man talking about the old shit.If other people kept whispering to me like this, I'm afraid I'd be so tired that my brain would explode.

Well, what the hell, you don't seem to mind too much, do you?Ha ha.

You really don't want some wine?

Alas, your willpower is really strong.

Back to topic.

Yes, back to business.

call……

I think that when I first came into contact with Him, I might have provoked Him.After returning to my home from the institute, I found myself a little restless.I felt flustered, my chest felt tight, my heart beat fast, and I was covered in cold sweat.

And there are always some messy colors and sounds flashing in my head.

It felt really bad and chaotic, but I couldn't help it.

I thought I was sick, I remember I should have taken my temperature or something.But the thermometer says I'm fine.

And from that day on, I basically didn't think about human girls anymore...

From the time I got home dizzy to the time I fell asleep in a panic, my mind was completely occupied by those messy bright colors and buzzing.

Also, they have a very special... I don't know what to say...

In short, you will hope that your brain will be empty, but you will gradually be pulled into that kind of muddled state.

Then I had a dream.

What did you dream about?What else could it be? I dreamed that I went to participate in the experiment during the day.Every detail, every syllable, every movement.

Everything I did in that damned building was carefully replayed in my dream.

And when I woke up, I found that I was eager to go back to that experiment-I obviously just said "Hello" to the corner like an idiot, but just thinking about that scene made me feel satisfied.

This state is obviously wrong.

But I didn't even notice it at the time.

So when Chris called, I said yes right away.

I met with those people, signed a fat book, and got a nice check.

Then he was pulled into the car by the group of people like a prisoner, and transported to the White Tower.

And until this time, the weird expectation and longing in my mind slowly disappeared-God, why not keep it!

You have no idea the desperation I felt when I sat in the car and realized bit by bit what the hell I had done.

But at this time, everything is irreparable.

The wagon that took me to the White Tower was, I bet, stronger than the prison wagon.

Wait, looking back on it like this, I wonder if Chris, who deserves to go to hell, might actually know something—that half-smile look on his face when he saw me in the White Tower was disgusting.

And then some "I knew I'd see you again" nonsense.

I just wanted to punch him in the nose.

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No, of course I didn't.

God, you really can't ask questions.

If I were your date, I should have deducted you as a negative score from the bottom of my heart at this time.

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One reason is of course that he is much stronger than me, and the second reason is...

Not long after arriving at the White Tower, the experiment began.

You know, the second contact with "Him."

Yes, this time is completely different from the last time.

Well……

He seems to have become a little clearer.

Chapter 4

"clear".

Ah, forgive me for repeating the word...clear.

I also know that it is a bit strange to use this word to describe him, but at that time, but in fact until now, I haven't found a better adjective.

Have you ever seen a ghost?Hahaha, the kind of ghosts you see in movies and TV, translucent, pearly white, hazy?

He looks a bit like that.

The only difference is that he is not as good-looking as the ghost in the movie.If I had to describe it, I would say it looks like a transparent plastic bag soaked in sea water.

If you don't pay attention, you will feel that the place is empty, but at some angles, you will see His outline.

Actually before I saw that thing, I realized that he was there all along, yeah, it's kind of funny, but I just knew it.

But it wasn't until that time, when I was pushed into that damn laboratory by those damn researchers, that He finally showed his appearance.

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You want to ask me how I felt at the time?

I can't remember.

Haha, really, that sounds like an excuse, but I just can't remember it.

You see, this is the difference between researchers like you and unlucky ones like me.

I just think I've seen something weird, and for you, it's an unprecedented discovery.

Even that Chris guy looks like he's going crazy, I swear that's the most human I've ever seen him in my life...

They say he's never been observed by humans before, because he's been in... somewhere...

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Oh yes, I remembered as soon as you said, "the other side".

He has always been on the "other side", hahaha although until now I don't quite understand what the "other side" is.

Someone tried to explain it before, but, you know, I wasn't in the mood for physics and religion at the time.Ghosn, that neurotic guy I told you about, kept whispering in my ears that that thing was an evil god from the deepest part of the universe, but at that time I had already begun to feel his There is a problem with sanity, so...

call……

Give me some tissues, please, it's in the box with you.

Sorry, can't help but feel sad to bring up my former best friend, Ghosn always seems to be wrong, but he actually said everything right.

He's a seer, you know?If human civilization is still there, he can be a prophet or something in some new Bible.

Every time I think of him, I can't help but feel guilty, very guilty.

You see, he reminded me of many things, really, he reminded me of many things.

I still remember him grabbing my hand and saying to me, hey man, you need to stay away from that thing or you'll be completely eaten by it.

"The world is going to hell! Those guys don't know what they've brought on!"—he kept yelling at me.

He was so desperate and terrified, but I... God, I feel like an asshole just thinking about my reaction.

I took everything he said to be the gibberish of a madman.

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I think I'll have to get some more tissues, and some wine.

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Huh... yes, you are right, maybe I should stop talking about Ghosn, after all, my emotions are always prone to fluctuations recently.

I just said that...

Oh, yes, talking about His appearing before me, right?

I remember Chris was so happy, he was crazy happy, it was kind of weird...wait did I say that?

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Sorry, I've been a little topsy-turvy these days.

And I have to say, I was so impressed by Chris's frenetic attitude that I can't help but think of him every time I mention him.

In a sense, I resented him quite a bit in the beginning.The researchers who monitored me at the time said that of all the people, only