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When Youdu heard Qi An's words, the hand holding the vegetables stopped.

Youdu didn't speak, and after a long time, Youdu put the chopsticks beside the rice bowl, and said to Qi'an, "I know, your father passed away."

Hearing Youdu's words, Qi An raised his head suddenly with his eyes wide open. Qi An looked into Youdu's eyes and asked, "How do you know..."

Youdu frowned, and replied: "Anyway, I know."

"Oh." Qi An pursed his lips, then nodded in bewilderment, and then lowered his head again.

Seeing Qi An like this, You Du didn't know what to say to comfort him, so he just picked up the chopsticks to put food in Qi An's bowl again.

Qi An didn't speak any more, just lowered his head and picked the rice in the bowl.

Youdu thought there was nothing wrong, but it took a long time before he realized that there was something wrong with Qi An sitting opposite him.

Qi An ate his meal mouthful, tears quietly dripped down his face, and dripped into the bowl in front of him.

He cried, Youdu frowned, and then said: "Cry if you want to cry, don't hold back, just cry out."

As the words fell from Dudu, Qi An's tears fell even faster, big drops came out of his eyes.

Probably because he was embarrassed to cry in front of Youdu, Qi An turned his head and covered his face with his hands, Qi An cried very quietly, basically there was no sound.

Seeing Qi An like this, Youdu couldn't help feeling annoyed in his heart, why did he mention this frankly, otherwise he wouldn't cry.

Qi An cried so much that Youdu was at a loss, and Youdu sat on the seat like a fool, and didn't know how to comfort Qi An.

After a while, Youdu recovered his movements, took out a few tissues and handed them to Qi An, saying, "Wipe it."

Qi An didn't refuse either, and took the tissue handed over by You Du and wiped his face.

After wiping his face, Qi An stopped crying and sat up straight.

You Du looked at Qi An in front of him, although he lowered his head, he could see his face and his bright red eyes.

Youdu pursed his lips, then recalled the previous conversation, fearing that Qi An might misunderstand, he quickly explained: "I didn't treat you well because of your father, but, how should I put it, anyway, I am If you want to treat you well, let's do it!" Youdu stuttered as he explained, he clearly had a good thought in his heart but couldn't express it clearly.

Qi An understood what Youdu meant, and Youdu was still that sunny boy, so kind and gentle.

Seeing that Qi An still kept his head down and didn't speak for a long time, he thought that Qi An was still sad, so he said aloud: "Well, why don't we go out to relax, watch a movie or something, there is a new movie released recently I heard it’s quite beautiful, how about we…”

Before Youdu finished speaking, he was interrupted by Qi An: "In the afternoon, can you accompany me to the cemetery?"

Hearing Qi An's words, Youdu stopped his chattering, looked at Qi An's furry head, and replied: "Yes."

"Thank you." Qi An raised his head, his eyes glistening because he had just cried.

Youdu turned his head uncomfortably, then stood up to clean up the dishes, and said, "I'm going to wash the dishes."

While Youdu was washing the dishes, Qi An was still sitting at the dining table in a daze.

After youdu washed the dishes, he came out of the kitchen. Qi An didn't mention it, and youdu didn't know how to say that he was going to the cemetery. He stayed there for a long time in embarrassment before he sat on the sofa and picked up the remote control The device turned on the TV.

Youdu also asked: "Do you want to come and watch TV together?"

Qi An heard the sound of the TV, there was movement, then stood up, walked to the sofa next to Youdu and sat down.

You Du saw that Qi An was coming, and asked again: "What do you want to see?"

Qi An pursed his lips, and then said, "Aren't we going to the cemetery?"

"Go, why don't you go." Youdu's voice suddenly became louder, and he even stood up from the sofa.

Qi An was taken aback by Youdu's raised voice, Qi An raised his head and looked at Youdu who suddenly stood up in surprise.

Youdu rubbed his fingers under his nose in embarrassment, and then said, "Go now, let's go."

Qi An nodded, then also stood up and followed Youdu.

After Youdu and Qi An got into the car, Qi An said to Youdu: "Taoyuan Cemetery, do you know?"

Youdu nodded and replied, "I know."

"That's right there." Qi An said.

"Yeah." Youdu nodded.

Before going to the cemetery, Youdu drove the car to a flower shop. Youdu wanted to get out of the car to buy flowers. Before getting off the car, he asked Qi An who was beside him: "Do you want any flowers?"

Qi An nodded and replied, "Then you can bring me a bouquet of carnations."

"Okay." Youdu agreed.

Then Youdu got out of the car to buy flowers, and Liu Qi'an sat in the car alone.

Qi An looked out the window, the weather was fine and the sun was shining brightly, Qi An was a little scared, and he didn't want to go to the cemetery to see his father, and Qi An couldn't explain his own psychology.

After a while, Yudu came back with two bouquets of flowers, a bouquet of carnations and a bouquet of lilies.

After getting in the car, Youdu wanted to put the flowers in the back seat, but Qi An said, "Hold it to me." Then Youdu handed the flowers to Qi An.

Qi An took the flower, and the fragrance of the flower came to his nostrils, which eased Qi An's feeling of being overwhelmed.

Along the way, Youdu didn't talk to Qi An again, he could understand Qi An's current mood, Qi An needed to calm down.

After more than an hour, we arrived at Taoyuan Cemetery.

Youdu parked the car, and the two got out of the car. Qi An took the initiative to hand the bouquet of lilies to Youdu, and Youdu reached out to take it.

Then Qi An carried the bouquet of carnations and walked into the cemetery, and You Du followed behind Qi An.

After walking for more than ten minutes, Qi An stopped in front of a tombstone, then bent down and put the carnation in front of the tombstone, and said, "Dad, I'm here to see you."

Youdu also looked at the tombstone in front of him. The photo on the tombstone showed a middle-aged man with a serious expression and an ordinary appearance.

Youdu also put the lily in his hand in front of the tombstone, then lowered his head.

Qi An stood in front of the tombstone, didn't speak any more, just stared at the photo on the tombstone.

Seeing this, Youdu didn't say a word, but stood quietly beside Qi An and accompanied him.

Although Qi An didn't speak, he thought a lot in his heart.

Dad, look, the person standing next to me is the person I have always liked. Is he very good? Although we are not together, I want to show him to you.

Dad, I am doing well, and I miss you very much, I hope you can also have a good time there.

No matter how long Qi An stood, You Du stood beside him for as long.

In the end, Qi An still couldn't hold back his tears, but tears fell drop by drop, and when one fell on his face, Qi An immediately raised his hand to wipe away the tears. After a minute or two, Qi An's Another tear fell from his eyes, and Qi An raised his hand to wipe away the tears again.

Looking at Qi An's profile, Youdu bit his lips tightly, trying to hold back his tears so that they would not fall down, his stubbornness made people feel distressed.

Youdu stretched out his hand to hold Qi'an's hand, and said, "It's okay, I'm here."

As soon as the words fell, Qi An couldn't control his tears to fall down, Qi An cried while saying: "I don't want to do this either, I don't want to cry in front of my dad, but these tears themselves It fell." Qi An said while wiping the tears on his face with his hands.

Seeing this, Youdu frowned, and held Qi'an's hand even tighter. Youdu stretched out the other hand to help Qi'an wipe away tears: "It's okay, just cry."

"I really don't want my dad to leave me. I have been my dad since I was born. I have no mother or grandparents. I don't have those three aunts and six aunts. I only have my dad, but I don't think there is anything. Every New Year My dad would always give me a red envelope, which was a thick stack, although only one was usable money, the rest was money made by my dad himself, and what was written on it was his promise to me. "

"I feel like I've been in a trance. I feel like my dad is still there. I haven't visited him except on the day of the funeral, and when he was hospitalized, I didn't have time to accompany him, and I rarely visited him in the hospital. , Do you think my dad blames me in his heart, he must blame me, right?" Qi An cried so hard that tears dripped down on Youdu's hands.

You Du stretched out his arms to hug Qi An, touched the back of Qi An's head with his palm, and said, "No, your father won't blame you."

"Woooooo..." Qi An cried out, maybe because he was too sad, so he didn't push Youdu away, but grabbed Youdu's clothes tightly and wouldn't let go.

Then Qi An babbled on a lot about his father, crying while talking, and finally stopped crying when he was tired, but he kept talking about his father.

It was the first time Youdu heard Qi An say so many things, and it was also the first time he knew so many things about Qi An.

For example, Qi An has no mother but father, and was raised by his father since he was a child.

For example, some interesting things about Qi An when he was young.

For another example, Qi An saved a lot of money to buy a house for his father, and also wanted to take his father on a trip.

After crying enough, Qi An began to feel embarrassed, because he had been grabbing Youdu's clothes, and the hem of the clothes was pulled so badly by him.

Qi An let go of Youdu's clothes, then stood there with his head down.

In fact, Youdu didn't care that much. Seeing that Qi An's emotions were under control, Youdu stopped crying and asked, "Okay?"

"Yeah." Qi An nodded.

"Do you want to stay a little longer?" Youdu asked again.

Qi An looked up at the sky, it was already getting dark, and there was a sign that it was going to rain.

Qi An shook his head, then said: "No, let's go back."

"Okay, I will come back with you in the future." Youdu said, then took Qi'an's hand and prepared to leave.

Only then did Qi An realize that Yudu was holding his hand.

Qi An's hand pulled back, and it was out of Youdu's palm. Youdu glanced at his empty palm, didn't speak, and just continued to walk forward.

After getting in the car, You Du drove the car, and Qi An sat in the co-pilot, with his head resting on the seat cushion.

Not long after driving, Youdu looked at Qi An next to him, his eyes were closed, he was asleep, and his eyelids were still red.

Youdu sighed, then lowered the seat cushion to make Qi An sleep more comfortably.